~5 Months Later~
I woke up early this morning to order me and jay some breakfast. We've been going pretty good since we got married. Im happy that its like that. We moved into our new house came back from our honeymoon four months ago it was great. I put on one of jay's t-shirts and threw my hair in a bun. I waited for our food to get here. I turned on the tv and gave me the worst shock of my life.
Tv Anchor: Allegedly Singer Keri Hilson was pregnant. She's had her baby girl Aleese Shantelle Hilson Last Monday. You wont believe who the father if this child is. Rumor has it its newly married Jayz. Talk about bad azz.
I turned the tv off and Looked over at Jay who had woken up staring at the tv with wide eyes. I was so hurt. Tears started to fill my eyes.
"jay is this true. Are you the father of that child?"
Jay: I could be
"What the fuck you mean you could be? So you tellin me that night at the club was something serious?"
Jay: no it wasn't even like that...
"Well please explain to me"
Jay: that night we had that argument about the miscarriage. I went to Keri's house. I was going there to cool off. She came on to me. And you see when i came i was calm but scared to tell you.
I Just looked him in the eyes and started to cry. I packed my things and decided to leave.
"I thought i could trust you but right now... I just can't. I cheated on you once but three times hurts jay. We just need distance right now. Oh and Don't show up at the Halloween party looking for me because I'm not talking to you."
Jay: Bey Im sorry hear me out
I got in my car and left. I didnt call anyone. I turned my phone off for the day. I went to my mom's house. There was no there so i took my things to my room at my mom's house and then i left and went to the studio. I went inside and cleaned my face up and recorded a song for my new album.
🎶Your everything i thought you never were
And nothing like i thought you coulda been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that
Your the only one i wish i could forget
The only one i love to not forgive
And though you break my heart,
You're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you,
It pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl🎶
When i got to the end of the song i broke down in tears. I walked out my car and sat there and cried. Why did this have to be me? Just why?
