Tame The Bad Boy

Chapter 34: Luke

Gone Good

I snapped my eyes open and my pitch black room welcomed me. My eyes had difficulty adjusting on it so I half sit para buksan ang spare lampshade ko na nasa side table. Instantly, the room lightened up and on my side is Anna sleeping soundlessly.

Napakunot ang noo ko dahil hindi ko alam kung bakit siya nandito. Until the memories of me and mom having a heated conversation came back to me where I had a breakdown because of too much anxiety. Last time I thought I was going to die kung hindi ko lang naalala na normal nga pala na nangyayari sa'kin ang bagay na yun though somewhat the feeling became stranger dahil na rin siguro na nitong mga nakaraang buwan wala namang nagpapasama ng loob ko nor I am furious.

Naisip kong gisingin si Anna but I held myself. Instead, humiga na lang ako ulit facing her.

As I am looking at her right now, hindi ko masisisi ang kaibigan ko kung bakit may gusto rin sa kanya. She seems so angelic and fragile. She's gorgeous in an angelic way which I am wondering myself considering na hindi naman ang mga katulad niya ang type ko. I always settle with the naughty ones. Those type of girls that you can mess up with no strings attached at walang samaan ng loob pagtapos because I thought to myself that in that way, nobody will have the power to hurt me again.

But here I am. Back at one. Ilang beses ko ba sinabi noon na hinding hindi na ako magmamahal? I almost cursed all the girls who confessed their undying love for me. Itinaboy ko ang lahat nun. I was contented to have my friends around. Pero eto ako ngayon, I just give Anna the authority to destroy more my pieces nor fix me whole again.

Akala ko magigising siya because she suddenly moved. Pero hindi naman siya dumilat. Sa katunayan, she inched closer to me then hugged me. Gusto ko sana na alisin ang pagkakayakap niya dahil sigurado bukas mag iisip siya nang masama kapag nagising siya na ganito kami pero hindi ko magawa. Her hug feels so warm.

So slowly I made myself comfortable not looking away from her. Hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal ko siyang tinitignan but one thing for sure it feels different. I don't even want us to have sex or whatever dahil kontentona akong tinitignan siya ng ganito ngayon. I looked like a child who don't just left his new toy alone.

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Hindi ko alam kung anong oras ako nakatulog pero mas nauna pa akong nagising kay Anna. When I opened my eyes nakayakap pa rin siya sa'kin. Inabot ko yung cellphone ko to check the phone and it says na five thirty am na. I still have thirty minutes to spare pero tumayo na rin ako para ayusin yung mga gamit ko na naibato ko kahapon. When I am done, I toned down the aircon at lumabas na to get us breakfast.

Pagbaba ko as expected gising na si mommy at Lily. Though medyo nagulat ako nang makita ko si Kuya Clyde. Nagkatinginan kami for a moment then he resumed eating. Lily won't just meet my eyes so is my mom.

Hindi na lang din ako nagsalita. Pumunta ako sa kusina para kumuha ng wooden tray na lalagyan ko ng mga pagkain namin. Marami naman yung niluto ni mommy so I got us sausages, beans, mushrooms and some glazed sticks and almond milk. Wordlessly, pumanhik na ulit ako sa taas. I was midway when mom's voice stopped me.

"It has always been a family tradition na sabay sabay kakain ng breakfast, Luke" mom said tonelessly.

"I am not in the mood to share my breakfast with you today" I answered bago ko pa man mapigil ang sarili ko. I just resumed walking at nung makabalik na ako sa kwarto ko gising na si Anna. Nakaupo siya sa kama habang nagkakamot ng mga mata.

"Good morning" bati ko sa kanya "Gusto mo bang maligo na muna or kumain? Though I suggest we eat first"

He looked at me then sa dala kong tray. "Bakit mo pinanhik yan dito? Pwede naman tayong kumain sa baba" she said with a worried look na medyo tinawanan ko.