Save Me

Chapter Twenty

I wiped off my mouth after finishing depositing my stomachs contents into the toilet. I felt emptiness, not because there wasn't anything left in my stomach but because there was nothing left of me. My boyfriend had cheated on me, my worst nightmare was staying at my house and I hated the person I was becoming again. I felt empty, not sadness or anger, just empty.

I slid myself into the shower and quickly cleaned up. Images of Nathan kissing another girl and running his hands up and down her clouded my head and I soon found myself sitting on the floor of the shower with my head in hands, heaving with every sob I let out.

"Em, are you okay?" Scarlet's soft voice floated through the bathroom.

"Yea," I said wiping away my tears, "I'm good Scar. I'll be out in a second." I shut off the water and wrapped a towel around my chest. I looked in mirror and tried to compose myself, I didn't want to have to deal with questions from Scarlet, not right now. I took a deep breath, put a smile on my face and walked out of the bathroom.

"Are you okay Em, I heard you crying in there?" Scarlet stood up from her spot on the bed and came towards me, wrapping her arms around my body in a tight head.

"I'm good Scar, just thinking about Nathan. I should get changed then go." I lightly pushed Scarlet off of me, hating the fact she had her arms around me, feeling all of my fat.

"Okay, I'm going to shower. I guess I'll see you later?" Scarlet was obviously hurt by my rejection of a hug but I didn't care.

"Okay." I simply responded, turning away to get changed into my clothes from last night.

I was quickly changed and downstairs heading out her front door in a matter of minutes. I was part way home when my phone rang again, a call from Justin this time.

"Hello?" I answered timidly.

"Emma! Where the hell have you been? I've been worried sick about you, where are you I'm coming to get you." Justin's voice was strict but I could hear the relief in it, knowing that I was okay.

"I'm fine Justin, I'll be home in like ten minutes, okay?" I was tired of the fighting and I'm sure my voice had a certain, bitchy, tone to it.

"No, not fine! Where are you?" After not replying for a few seconds I could hear Justin sigh. "Look Em you aren't in trouble, I just want to know where you are so I know that you're safe, okay?"

"I'm walking home from Scarlet's, I'll be home soon. Bye." With that I hung up the phone and ended the conversation. I knew Justin would be jumping in his car, already on his way to come get me.

I went over in my head what I was going to say to Nathan when I saw him, I would have the upper hand. I would start the conversation say my piece, let him say his and then I would end the conversation. On the note that our relationship was done.

As I had predicted Justin pulled up in his car a few minutes later. "Emma get in the car, please" He yelled out of an open window. I sighed and reluctantly got into his car, knowing he wouldn't stop pestering me until I did.

"Hello.." I looked over at Justin and could see the heat radiating off of him.

"What the hell happened last night. You can't just storm out of the house and not bother calling all night." He paused for a second, "Have you been drinking? I can smell the booze from here. Jesus Emma what have you gotten yourself into?"

"I don't want to talk about it Justin, my head is pounding just please stop talking and take me home."

"That's called a hangover and it's what you get for going out and getting hammered under age." Justin said with his smug ass attitude.