Fading Away ✅

Chapter Eleven

When we get back from the park, nobody is at home . Ellie fell asleep on our way home and the first thing I do is place her on bed,making sure she's comfortable before I start wandering around the house
I hadn't noticed but the kitchen has a back door that leads to a  pool. I sit on the edge of the pool enjoying the sun setting

The trees around and the wind whipping through my face tugs a smile on my lips.

Ten minutes later,  I decide to go back inside and check on Ellie
Ellie is fast asleep and there is still no presence of Seth, Addison, or Lucas

I switch on the television trying to occupy my mind.

I hear a pounding noise in the middle of the movie and become alert
My instincts drive me to dash up the stairs and to the direction the noise is coming from; Blaze's room

I gently turn the knob of his door and slowly slide inside

He punches the wall

"Ouch, that is going to leave a mark", my conscience says after he gives a punch to the wall

If he doesn't stop, his knuckles are going to split; if they have not already split by now

Blaze doesn't even realize I am here, I walk up to him and try pushing him away from the wall

He quickly turns towards me and I stagger back at the look in his eyes; his hair is disheveled and his beautiful green eyes hold sadness, tiredness and I almost give him a hug

"What the fuck are you doing here?", he yells

"Well, you were pounding the wall and the noise was irritating
What do you expect me to do; increase the volume of the television", I yell back

"Do not fucking lecture me, you just can't walk into my room like you know me and besides,what I do is none of your business so fuck off"

"Well, I do know you are going to hurt yourself and-"

"Get out", he says with an exasperated sigh
"I am in no proper state to argue with you. People who do not go through pain have no idea how it feels"

I am sick and tired of people, Blaze, in this case, telling me I don't know what pain feels like because I sure know that feeling and it hurts like hell

"You have no right to tell me about pain", I yell
"Do you think you're the only one who's lost someone close to them;losing my dad hurt–it fucking did and it still does but you don't see me going around punching walls
Everyone is going through something and  just because you don't know it doesn't give you the right to be rude or judge them"

"I'm sorry things are hard for you right now but you do not have to split your knuckles because of it. Your dad is here, Lucas is here and so is Addison"

He says nothing and I continue
"Where is the first aid kit?

He says nothing for a while and I'm beginning to feel I just made a fool out of myself.

But just as I consider leaving,Blaze walks into the adjoining room and comes back with a first aid kit.

I feel my nerves rise with every second that passes and the air in the room grows tense. I tell him I'll be right back and walk out of his room needing to calm my nerves

I get an ice pack  from the kitchen and give myself a pep talk before going back to his room

When I get to his room, Blaze is sitting on a swivel chair beside an office desk. There is a Mac Book laptop and I just notice the state of his room. His room is dark; courtesy of all the curtains draped around his window and his bed is unmade

Blaze is currently trying to bandage his knuckles and he is failing terribly. I sigh and move to him, taking his hand to see his knuckles. No matter the number of times I tell myself to push away,I still do things in the contrary and it pisses me off.

It isn't severe but a band-aid isn't going to do the job
His knuckles are swelling and I place the ice pack on it. He holds it with his left hand avoiding contact.

After ten uncomfortable minutes, yes I counted them. I tell him to lift off the ice pack so I can see if the swelling has reduced–it has. I apply disinfectant and carefully bandage his knuckles the way mum had taught me

I try to ignore the feeling of Blaze's palm on mine. I shake my head and focus on bandaging his hand ignoring the curious look I get from him

"Blaze, probably thinks you are insane with you shaking your head. Stop it" my conscience stated

What is up with my conscience always roasting me

I finally finish wrapping the bandage around Blaze's knuckles and stand up without a word.

Before I walk out of the room,I hear a thank you from Blaze

I send him a quick nod before finally rushing out 

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A/N: I just want to say a big thank you to everyone reading my book
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