My Brother, My Lover

Chapter FiftyOne

~~ Ch.51

"No!" I scream

I stretch my hands pero hindi ko sya maabot, his image is becoming blur hanggang sa tuluyan na syang mawala sa paningin ko.

The sunset and the beach and him are gone. Napalitan na lang bigla ng puting mga dingding, kisame at kurtina. My eyes are wet with tears, iniwan na ba talaga nya ako? Sumuko na ba sya? No, it's impossible.

"It's just a dream." I tell myself.

Nun ko lang naramdaman na may nakahawak sa kamay ko. It's Aliza, nakatungo sya so I suppose she's asleep. Iginala ko ang mata ko, that's when I realize I was in a hospital. But why am I in a hospital? Nagkasakit ba ako? Oh no, baka naman nasa mental ako? Nah, nakakapagisip pa ako ng matino.

"Oh my God, you're awake. You're alive. Oh Sis." Niyakap nya ako ng mahigpit. "Akala namin iiwan mo na kami."

"Gising ka pala... Huh, I'm alive? Of course I am. Wait, ano bang nangyari? What am I doing here?"

"Nagoverdose ka, remember. Sobrang nag-alala kami sayo. Don't ever do that again or else I'll kill you."

I can't help but laugh. "No, I didn't. Why would I kill myself? Marami pa akong gustong gawin. Gusto ko pang maikasal at magkababy noh."

"I thought..."

"Hindi lang ako makatulog kahit anong gawin ko kaya uminom ako para kahit papano kumalma yung utak ko."

"Oh crap."

"Nasaan sila?"

"Home. Kumukuha lang ng ilang gamit mo." She paused. "Sis..."

"What is it?"

I sense some problem, pag ganito ang tono nya alam ko na.

"Inaayos na nina Mom and Dad yung papers natin papuntang US. There's nothing I can do about it. Desidido na sila. I'm sorry Sis."

Iniwan muna ako ni Aliza para magCR at para tawagan na rin si Gab. They supposed to have a date now pero hindi matutuloy dahil sakin.