Bright Days and Stormy Nights

Chapter Ten

Robin's POV

I looked out the window as Scott played his guitar, the younger laughing when he let Snake try. "No, no, no, you put your finger here," he moved Snake's finger to the correct position, "to make the C note." I turned and looked over at them, Snake giving up and shoving the guitar back into Scott's lap at the foot of the hospital bed.
"Snake, I have a question." His smile faded as he looked over at me, Scott silencing his laughing. "Why did you hurt yourself last night? Like, why did you go so deep?" Snake bit his lip as he looked over at Scott, he seemed worried.
"I... it's stupid." I went to argue but saw the look Scott sent me.
The shorter brunet slowly slid over so he was beside Snake, gently leaning against him. "Hey, it's okay, neither of us will judge you." He looked over at Scott before letting out a sigh. Why was this such a big deal? Was it my fault?
"I, uh, I went to see you at work yesterday, Robin, and I was going to ask you out for lunch. But I saw you kissing your, uh, your boyfriend." He looked down at his lap, blushing furiously.
I blushed slightly before I got extremely confused. "Wait, what? I don't have a boyfriend." He looked up at me with slightly narrowed eyes.
"Yes you do, you were kissing him yesterday." It suddenly hit me as I began to laugh, I didn't mean to but it just came out.
"H-he isn't my boyfriend! He's been trying to go out on a date with me since I started working at the drug store!" Snake fell silent as he looked away, suddenly reaching his hands up and gripping his hair tightly.
"I'm so fucking stupid." He hissed quietly, Scott quickly wrapped Snake in a hug as he sent a small glare at me.
"No, Snake, you're not. You just came in at the wrong time." I tried to reassure, Scott letting out a small sigh as he looked back at Snake and stared to mumble things quietly to him. I awkwardly looked away, so all this mess was my fault. "I'm, uh, gonna go check out what there is to eat." I was ignored but almost thankful that it meant I could leave without another word.

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The next morning, they deemed Snake stable enough to leave, handing him a piece of paper with a prescription written on it. Scott silently lead us outside, the two males heading to Scott's car while I wandered over to Snake's car.
On the drive home, I tried to ignore the small thoughts at the back of my mind. I was so worried about Snake and what we'd do now that I almost ran several lights as well as almost missing my turn. I pulled Snake's car up beside Scott's, both men already out and sitting on the doorstep.
I silently made my way over, unlocking the door as they stood up. The tension in the air was killing me, I couldn't handle Scott being mad at me as well as Snake being purposely quiet.
Snake and Scott exchanged a look before the taller one headed off, I assumed he went to his room. I looked over at Scott and took a deep breath, it was now or never. "I think one of us should always be with him." I suggested, Scott scoffing as he turned to face me.
"No, we don't need to coddle him, Snake's a full grown man who can handle himself."
I narrowed my eyes as I crossed my arms. "You seemed to think otherwise back at the hospital." I snapped.
"That was different, Robin! He almost attempted suicide! He self harmed himself to the point I had to bring him to the hospital! I didn't know if he would live or die, but he knows it's selfish to kill himself, that he'd make it worse on the people who lov-care for him." I was confused why he changed 'love' to 'care' but I didn't push on it. "He knows he'll hurt people, that's why he's lasted this long. Getting him a babysitter will only make things worse, he can handle himself." Scott just shook his head as he turned away from me. "But you wouldn't understand, you haven't seen him when he was at his lowest. The point is, you can't coddle him, you can't treat him like a fragile flower." I raised an eyebrow as I crossed my arms.
"If you think you know what's best for him, why don't you date him?" I mocked, upset that Scott just wanted to leave Snake be. He sent a hard glare at me before heading to the door.
"Trust me, we tried, but he isn't gay like me." I blinked my eyes in surprise, I never would have thought- "Now go tell all your fucking friends about it, exclaiming you have a fucking gay friend. Or I guess acquaintance."
I felt tears form in the corner of my eyes as I reached out for him. "Scott..." He shook his head as he walked out, slamming the door behind himself. I silently stood there, trying to comprehend what happened. I hadn't meant what I said to offend him, just point out he thought he knew what was best. I shook my head, unsure of what to do. I lost a close friend because of Snake- I quickly shook my head, no, he'd never be the reason for anything bad to happen.
"Robin?" I spun around and saw Snake standing there, looking down at the ground as he held his hands behind his back. "I'm... I'm sorry about Jund, but he's right. When we were," he paused for a moment, "seeing each other, I could get into some bad fits but he never tried to soothe me, just let me ride them out.
"Afterwards he'd tell me not to ever hurt myself since it wasn't right, that I could hurt my friends and family more than I'd ever hurt. He was right, I lost a lot of friends the first time I went to hospital, they said they couldn't take having a 'suicidal bastard' as their friend." Snake fell silent and I saw him cringe, he probably had those memories locked away and here I was bringing them back to light.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled, not knowing what else to say.
He shook his head slightly. "Just, don't underestimate Jund, he knows what's happening with me better than anyone else ever could." I moved closer to Snake and looked up at him, our eyes meeting.
"Then make me understand." I mumbled before he slowly leaned down, gently pressing his lips to mine. I couldn't help but softly smiled as I kissed him back, I was ready to do anything for Snake as long as it would help him.