Trapped

33

Jiyong

"Then I'll have a kilo of it please."

I watched on as Dara and Kiwoong purchased everything that we needed. I would've been no help even if I wanted to during situations like these.

Everyone knows I'm a shy person.

"She's melting." I turn to look at Junsuke beside me. He was snacking on some skewers we bought in one of the stalls.

How did he even manage to eat that? His hands were filled with bags full of grocery.

"And you mean what exactly?"

"Oh dude, don't act all celebrity with me." He finished his skewer, threw the stick in a nearby trashbin and stared at me in the eye. "Ever since the moment we stepped out of the car, you've been staring at poor old Dara from behind. Is it that hard to approach her?"

I sighed.

It is, actually.

Approaching Dara was by far the hardest thing for me to do.

I had no problems meeting with my past flings and past relationships but I'm not sure if it's because we're labelmates who see each other quite often now due to the show and due to the fact that we're not as busy as of yet because our comebacks and tours are on hold or because she's her.

She's Dara.

But I couldn't tell Junsuke that.

He'll just spill the tea to everyone and it'll be more awkward once Dara hears of it.

Everyone knows she and I are in the same squad with CL. If it gets spilled there, there's no knowing when and how it transports it's way to Dara.

As of now, I don't want to tell her I still have feelings for her. If I do that, there's no knowing what she'll do. Worst case scenario, she runs and hides from me.

"You're not talking to me now?" He raised a brow at me and gave me a taunting smirk. "Hey Dee!"

Shit.

"Junsuke. One word and I swear, you'll be sorry."

"Oh~ The dragon finally speaks!"

"Yeah?" She turned her head to look at Junsuke and I with a piece of lettuce in hand. She and Kiwoong were purchasing lettuce for the samgyupsal, it was the only thing left on the list.

"Nah, it's nothing." Junsuke grinned and Dara chuckled while shaking her head, as if saying we were as childish as ever then she went back to talking to the Ahjumma with Kiwoong.

Without me knowing, I was already staring at her again.

It sad to think that all I am able to do around Dara is stare at her. I thank the heavens she's usually inattentive to her surroundings, if she were otherwise, I would've been labelled a 'creep'.

"Dude, I'm telling you, if you keep on staring at her like that, you'll bore a hole right through her head and she won't even notice."

~

"A change of scenery is great." Se7en Hyung said as he placed the empty tray down. "It was a great idea to join them."

"Yeah. I didn't dream of helping out in charity work now, with the whole show and everything." Kiwoong stopped decorating the cupcake in front of him to look at us and grin.

A couple who came to the inn were on a trip to the area for charity work. They say they've been doing it for more than 3 years now but it was their first time staying in a place like their inn in the area. It goes to show that the area was really great for tourists but because of the fact that there are no standard hostels and inns, people tend to not visit it.

The couple were both artists and they made it their goal to visit the area once every year to teach children art.

When they asked us if we would like to take part, we couldn't say no. Especially as an art lover myself, I couldn't refuse their invitation.

"Noona! Slow down!" I turn to the side and see Chanyeol chasing after Dara. They both had kids tailing them and it looked like she was the only person yet to be tagged.

"No way!" She laughed and ran as fast as she could while Chanyeol and the kids ran after her with determined eyes.

"Cute ain't she?"

"She always had been cute." I answer automatically.

Realizing what I've done, I quickly turn my head to look at the person talking to me.

As soon as I saw him, it was as if a thorn had been removed from my heart.

It was just Junsuke.

"Yep, no doubt about it. I just don't know why a certain someone chose to let go of something that cute. If it were me, I would have already hidden her in a place only I would know of." He said without looking at me. His eyes were glued to the laughing girl dodging the childrens' attempts of catching her.

"Junsuke." I really don't want to talk about that while on the show.

"Don't Junsuke me." He then turned to look at me with cold eyes. Sometimes I think it's unfair. Junsuke and the otehrs were my friends first but after meeting Dara, they tend to side with her all the time. Well, I am a douche and she is an angel, so, nevermind. "I just don't get you Ji. You were the one to let go, it was your fault but now you look at her as if you long for her. As if you need her. I really don't understand.

"When you were together, I saw a different side of the G-Dragon I knew. I saw Kwon Jiyong. The dorky, stupid, whipped and petty Kwon Jiyong. I thought you really liked being with Dara, but guess I was wrong." He looked at me once more with eyes holding a mixture of sadness, fear and pity before leaving me be.

No you're not.

I wanted to tell him he was right. I wanted to tell him I did like being with Dara, in fact, I loved being with her. I wanted to tell him Dara was the only light I had in the dark Entertainment industry.

But how? How could I tell him that, if I was the reason why I lost her. I made a mistake but she was willing to oversee it. I made the same mistake but she chose to turn a blind eye. I made the same mistake for a over 5 times but she did nothing to reprimand me.

I was the one to let go.

I looked at the running angel a few meters away from me. The gap between her, Chanyeol and the children had grown but she was still running in glee.

How a devil like myself manage to let go of an angel like Dara, I have no idea.

She was laughing and looking back at Chanyeol and the children so she didn't see the hole ahead of her. It was big enough for her feet to get caught in and in a matter of seconds, Dara plopped to the ground.

"Dara!" I hear myself cry as I rush towards her.

The cameras were still filming but so what? Let the whole world know how I value and care for the woman I was rushing towards to.