I Don't Think I Regret it

Some Things Change, Even When You Don't See

"Ai-chan," he groaned. "Why are you-?" He trailed off when Ai put a finger to his lips.

"I'm gonna do things right this time." She said, in the reverence of a prayer. "I want you to be my boyfriend. I want to kiss you a lot. Also, I want to have sex with you." She looked at him gravely. "But mainly, I want you to have fun, and want you to feel good." She smiled and bit her lip in a way that really wasn't good for his health.

Kuroo pushed hair away from her cheek and rubbed a thumb over her cheekbone. It was a gentle gesture within the hectic chaos that was their relationship. "You're so beautiful, Ai-chan." While he spoke, she slid a hand under his shirt and nibbled on his ear, leaving kisses by it and tugging on his lobe lightly with her teeth. "It's okay for you to be impatient."

She rolled her hips on his, he was half-hard. "Kuroo-senpai." She cooed.

"I don't have a senpai kink, y'know."

"Well if I say it enough while I'm getting you off, you will."

He stopped her from kissing his neck and looked at her. "Are you pulling a fucking Pavlov on me?!" She smiled at him impishly. She kissed his mouth. He was equally impressed and terrified with the prospect that Ai was treating him like a dog in a science experiment.

"I liked the face you made when you came that morning." She whispered it and he could feel her breath on his lips. Craftily changing the subject.

"You absolute deviant." Kuroo said it like it was the highest praise.

"I fucking hate that you're so hot and such a dork." Ai slipped Kuroo's shirt up over his shoulders. "You have no right." She ran her hand through his stupid hair. "Like seriously, fuck you."

"That's the plan, isn't it?" She sucked in a breath and tried not to retort.

She looked at him with the most serious face, "Kuroo I want to try something."

"Hmm?" He looked concerned because of the way that she was saying things.

Ai licked her lips and swallowed thickly. "I want to suck your dick." She was looking mighty nervous for someone who had practically dragged him in there and chucked him on the bed.

"What?" Kuroo sputtered. His face reddened and heated up dramatically.

"It's only fair!" Ai explained. "I'm getting one of your firsts, so you're getting one of mine." She was serious, dead serious and one day this bluntness would probably give Kuroo a heart attack. "If you'll let me?"

"Jesus Christ, yes!" Kuroo responded, what guy in their right mind would turn down a blowjob? Ai crawled off his lap and stood at her feet.

She motioned for Kuroo to sit down on the bed. She kneeled nervously on the floor in front of him, licking her lips. She wordlessly reached for the button of his pants and unzipped them. The anticipation had made Kuroo stand to attention. She tugged his pants off his legs and tossed them onto the floor behind her. Kuroo's leg muscles were impressive. It made Ai's heart beat a little faster.

Ai ran her hand over the bulge in his boxers. She slipped a thumb under the waistband of his boxers, inching them down until she could pull them off his legs. She had felt it that morning, but somehow Kuroo's dick was more daunting when she could actually see it. One hand traced random shapes across his leg while the other found purchase on his knee. Ai kissed his inner thigh, spreading his legs open a bit wider. Each kiss she peppered was closer and closer. She nipped at his skin lightly, leaving plum-colored blossoms on his inner thighs. Kuroo found purchase in her hair.

She knew she should probably use a condom but Kuroo was a virgin so she assumed it would be okay. Plus, she thought it might scare him if she pulled a box of condoms out of her bedside table. It might come off as a bit intimidating. She licked her lips and looked up at Kuroo. She figured it would be fine, she could trust him.

She massaged his balls and ran a hand languidly over his shaft. Ai licked a stripe at the underside of his length and Kuroo knitted his fingers into Ai's hair. She still pumped him when she licked the precum out of his slit. Little by little, she took more of Kuroo in, one bob at a time. Kuroo knew it felt good for him, but he wondered if it felt any good for Ai. She abandoned his balls in favor to slide a hand down her own body and into her shorts while she sucked Kuroo off. The lewd sounds of heavy breathing and wet squelches filled the room. No other noises existed except the sound of Kuroo breathing and Ai choking when Kuroo's length hit her gag reflex. How sexy.

Ai opened her eyes and looked up at him. There were tears in the corner of her seaglass eyes. Kuroo could have cum right then and there as he saw her face with hollowed out cheeks and her pretty little lips wrapped around his cock. She was so turned on by giving him a blowjob that she couldn't help but touch herself. All of this was a major ego boost for Kuroo. He tightened his grip in the roots of her hair, causing her to groan. The vibration traveled up Kuroo's dick. With a new sense of vigor, Ai began bobbing her head deeper and faster than her previous gentle pace. She wasn't quite deepthroating him, she was afraid she would puke, but Ai was doing her best. She was afraid of her gag reflex, she had no idea how strong it was, but the last thing she wanted to do was puke all over her boyfriend's dick.

Ai kept eye contact with Kuroo the entire time. She was absolutely breathtaking looking like that. Even when Kuroo came and whitish liquid spilled out of the corner of her mouth, her eyes were on him, his face. The way Kuroo looked when he orgasmed sent shivers down her spine. She swallowed before taking a series of shallow breaths. Kuroo, was out of breath and dazed as well. She gasped, pulling her hand away from her shorts.

Kuroo lifted Ai from the floor, onto the bed and kissed her feverishly. He could taste himself in her lips and he honestly didn't mind. She tackled him and kissed him harder. He whispered little words in her ear and she left little bites and nipped at his clavicle.

"You've been really aggressive today."  Kuroo commented as he ran his fingers down Ai's soft jawline. She practically melted into his chest. She pulled the covers up over them.

"To be honest," Ai said, looking at him through her eyelashes, "I have been thinking about doing that for the past few weeks but something always came up, you're always so busy."

Ai felt safe in his arms. She loved how dorky he was, and she was enthralled with how smart he was at the same time. When she kissed him, all of the noise and color drained from the world and the only thing that existed was his lips on her own.

Kuroo was making the cutest face at Ai. She was the weirdest person he had ever met, and Kuroo knew a lot of weird people. However, Ai was weird in a different way. She was surprisingly more affectionate than she came across. When she was with Kuroo, she always wanted to be touching him in some way. Ai craved the physical contact and would get it in any way she could.

When Kuroo spoke to her in that marvelous, orotund voice, her heart did somersaults. She liked him more than she thought she would ever like a person. Kuroo grinned at her with that terrible grin that made her excited but also made her heart drop. "Hey," he said as he ran his fingers through her hair. "You come here often?"

She glared at him and flicked him in the forehead. "I fucking live here." She swatted at him with a pillow. He pulled her closer and she kissed him.

There was time enough in the future for them to do more. Ai was content, happy, fulfilled. They could talk for hours about anything and everything. No matter how silly or serious things got, they could talk openly and freely, without fear of judgement. Ai was thankful that she had found someone in her life that she could be completely and unapologetically herself. Though it was early in the evening, there was no other place they should have been other than that bed with their legs tangled together and their lips pressed against one another.