This is for @loumwahhaz , I promised her a small fic on a oneshot I wrote, so here it is!! I hope you enjoy it. ~~~ Castiel is struggling to deal with his break up with Dean. Sadness is stuck in the cracks of his soul, and he takes it out on himself. As he spirals into depression, he gives an account of his life. Dean also struggles with their lost relationship. He doesn't know what went wrong, but he hopes Cas has moved on, in a way Dean can't.