I hate when my ship isn't doing well... I really get so sad.
Okay I'll warn you of smut but I won't tell you who cause it'll ruin the suspense
It had been two days since that awkward encounter in the airport and I have hated every second of it. I have cried to myself numerous times, attended press interviews where we were coached to lie to reporters and I was forced to give a public apology debunking my comments on Niall's apparent girlfriend.
I felt like a complete liar. I'm the brutally honest, talented and blunt guitarist Niall hired and I can't believe that I let a stupid industry trick me into believing I was happy and oblivious.
I didn't even want to finish the tour. I was miserable.
"Seventy-six bottles of milk on the wall! Seventy-six bottles of milk! Take one down pass it around, seventy-six bottles of milk on the wall." Louis sings out as we sit in the van being transported from the hotel to the stadium.
"Sing it with me!" Louis yells out and that's when Zayn and Liam groan out the next set of lyrics as I watch the whole ordeal.
I decided to take a short nap before I got a phone call. Due to the spacious band and Louis loud singing I moved two rows to the back and then answering the blocked number wanting some other entertainment.
"Hello, this is Harry." I groan into the phone when the feminine voice rang out.
"Hello haz." I hear Gemma speak into the phone. I refused to over react because this isn't even the worst thing to happen this week.
"God do you have anything better to do with your life besides try to kill me?" I ask rolling my eyes.
"Kill you? God no! I'm not gonna kill you Harry." She laughs into the phone before I look at the phone confused.
"I want you to live in my basement and never leave. And maybe then kill you." She says and I almost laugh due to it being my sister and not being used to her deranged speaking.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I ask genuinely wanting to know.
"Don't worry about that. Let's talk about why I really called you." She begins before I actually sit back to listen to whatever Mumbai jumbo none sense she wanted to say.
"I know that picture of mine was destructive to Niall and his image. But what you don't know is I have another picture in the same hallway where you guys are walking towards my camera showing your complete face." She says I felt my heart drop before I look up and lock eyes with Louis who sported a confused look on his face.
I try not to look worried but it was obvious.
"You have exactly two hours to surrender yourself to me before I leak this picture to the press and ruin Niall completely." She says and laughs obnoxiously before she finished off with this.
"I know you love him." She says and I quickly bring my phone down and hang up quickly before my phone ring again with a notification from Gemma.
I clicked on it and there it was. The picture of me and Niall holding hands about to turn and enter the room.
There on the picture was the beginning of everything worse.
Louis travels to the back on the van seeing the horrified expression on my face to my phone before he sat next to me taking it right out my hand.
"Holy fuck." He whispers under his breath before he looks up to me.
I didn't know whether I was crying because my job was at stake or because this picture would ruin Niall.
Then my phone dinged again when I seen a picture pop up again that made Louis literally drop my phone. I picked it up quickly to see another picture of me and Niall but this time it was worse.
Back in New Orleans it was a picture from outside the balcony looking in to me being bent over a desk with Niall over me.
"What the hell? What the fuck!" I start to panic when it alarmed Zayn and Liam. I started to hyperventilate due to the fact my naked arse could be out to the world in literally two hours.
"Step on it." Louis yells to the driver who picked up speed.
We reached the stadium as Zayn and Louis tried to calm me down before we had to go out in front of press and screaming girls. Liam say in the front trying desperately to get ahold of Niall to warn him that something was wrong.
I couldn't breathe it almost as if I was between two walls trying to squeeze me flat.
"Listen! Listen to me. Breathe." Zayn a soft voice says into my ear as Louis place my hand on his heart as I choked out a sob.
"Harry four counts in, six counts out. Cmon you got this." Louis says after him as they try to calm me down from my panic attack. I lay against Louis chest listening to his heartbeat breathing like he said as Zayn softly rubbed my arms whispering good thoughts into my ear.
"Yes Niall this is serious- what do you mea- Niall! I am looking at it right now! ...... Yes you fucking moron this shit is real." Liam curses over phone trying to stress to Niall about the situation using vulgar language he doesn't usually use.
The van came to a stop when you could see Niall in a van ahead of us as they both pulled into the back doors of the stadium and coming to a stop. Louis and Zayn stressed that guards heavily guard us due to our state.
We step out the car already have heard their screams as Zayn keeps his arms around me while guards shielding me. I felt so weak and light on my feet.
We made it inside the stadium and ignored various assistants or tech people til we got our joint dressing room where we seen Lou sitting and taking selfies.
She seen my dramatic state before she quickly acts on her feet.
"I'll go get him some tea. Just lay him down." She says pointing to the couch. I went and sat down on the couch still crying but a lot more calm.
I think everything that happened had really had a bad effect on me and came crashing down on me all at once. I haven't had this kind of panic attack since I lived with my dad. Or after my mom died.
Everything was falling apart.
I heard rough knocks on the door when Zayn, Louis and I look to Liam who stood by the door with our guard. The guard opens the door to see Niall on the other end.
He looked upset but as if he was hiding it and I stood up not knowing what else to do. Nialls face fell and contorted into a really sad, red and whiny face before we both resorted to tears. He walks over to me quickly before wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me to him before I wrap my arms around his neck.
We sat in each other's arms crying because everything had became too much for us to handle.
"You're not going to her. I won't let you." Niall says gripping me tighter and tighter as I feel his tears on my neck dampening the curls back there.
"I have to." I croak out wrapping my fingers between his blonde locs. He lets out a shaky sigh before pulling back to reveal his red, damn face before he laughs.
"No. You don't. I got this okay. You calm down okay?" He says before wiping his face or tears and taking in deep breaths. He then takes his hands to my face wiping my tears and then kissing under both eyes making us both laugh.
"Everything is gonna be fine." He whispers before he pulled away out of my hands as I sat there feeling empty without his touch. He looked over to the boys before he looked back to me nervously wiping his hands on his shorts.
"So what are you gonna do genius?" Louis pipes up and we all turn to Niall who hesitates to answer.
"You'll see."
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"Everyone had a good time tonight?" Niall asks everyone in the stadium as they scream different none sense at him like they did every night. I sat to the side leaning against Louis drum set watch Niall interact with his fans.
Niall and I were in a weird space right now that I couldn't even describe. Part of me hated him and the other part loved him although he didn't know that. I didn't show too much emotion this show due to me being worried about the picture that was supposed to hit in maybe fifteen minutes.
"As you all know I hired a new guitarist." He speaks up taking the entire bands attention as we turned to him wondering what the hell he was doing.
"He's really amazing guys if I do say so myself." He turns back to look at me fondly before he gestures for me to join him front and center. I wrap my fingers around my guitar neck to silence any notes being played as I walk towards him with this new found applause.
"This guy is brand new and I'm very grateful for him. He can play and sing like a god. I have great taste, don't ya think?" He smiles into the camera which was broadcasting on tv and monitors around the stadium. I awkwardly stood next to him taking in the praise.
"Maybe he'll sing for us." He says and the fans went crazy screaming loud as I look to Niall with a confused yet irritated expression.
What the hell? I didn't know what to sing? What are you doing?
But I acted natural in front of the camera as Niall backed away from the mic for me to replace him. I smile out to crowd before taking the mic in my hand and the crowd continuously screaming.
"Hi. I'm Harry."
Screams of joy ring out and god I could've felt a great deal of happiness.
"I think I'm gonna sing Nialls favorite song." I say turning to see him seated on the ground next to Louis who poked him with his drumstick as if he was an insect.
"Girl crush."
That's when I seen everyone behind me get ready to play and Niall sat on the ground staring at me like a little bean while he drank from a water bottle.
I let the music play as I strum my guitar feeling the music go through me as I started to sing.
"I've got a girl crush. I hate to admit it but... I got a heart rush, ain't slowing down." I sing out into the mic which was now sitting on the stand in front of me.
"I got it real bad, want everything she's had. That smile and the midnight laugh, she's giving you now." I continue looking into the camera as I thought of Niall. I could feel his gaze on me. Burning through the back of my head.
"I want to taste her lips, yeah, cause they taste like you." I start to tap my foot.
"I want to drown myself in a bottle of her perfume. I want her long blonde hair, I want her magic touch, yeah, cause maybe then you'd want me just as much." He says and I turn to the nearest girl wooing her heart.
"I've got a girl crush." She falls back dramatically and faints against her friend when I looked equally terrified and weirded out about it.
"I got a girl crush." I sing when I seen a different light break away from my spot light to see Niall has joined me at the front of the stage.
"I don't get no sleep, I don't get no peace. Thinking about her! Under your sheets." Niall joins in while the screams of fans increase of their idol joining my apparent solo making it into a duet.
Dude you had a whole concert? You couldn't give me two minutes?
"The way she's whispering, the way that she's pulling you in." Niall says stepping closer to me. I subtly step back not trying to seem close with Niall when he was directly looking into my eyes.
Okay you're weirding me out dude step back.
"Lords know I've tried, can't get her off my mind." He sings sweetly as I join him on the chorus again.
"I got a girl crush." I say ending when Niall signaled to me he'd finish off the song and I let him. He glad steps to me pushing a curl behind my ear and then caressing my cheek in front of millions as I struggle to stay calm.
Holy fuck Niall are you on drugs? We're onstage!
Wait a minute-
"I've got a boy crush.... I hate to admit it but I've got a heart rush and it ain't slowing down." He sings sweetly and I stop strumming my guitar to see Niall staring into my eyes showing obvious signs of love.
Before he smiles and mouthing to me
'I love you.'
And then he leaned in and placed his lips on mine as almost every last fan screamed to the top of their lungs at us filled with excitement filling me with joy as I wrapped my arm around Nialls neck pulling him deeper into the kiss. Behind us you could hear Louis yelling 'fuck yeah!' And the boys clapping.
He pulls away still staring at me when I looked at him still shocked at what he just did.
Niall just came out to the world and to his record label.
And told me he loved me.
And that's when I felt a sharp pain in my side after a long bang from the audience. I could see Niall looking terrified as I lost feeling in my body before I became dizzy to fall over into the crowd
And soon everything went black.
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"I got my ship back, I got my ship back." I say dancing in a corner only to leave my readers on the edge right after something good happens.
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Anyways Stan the boys love you;)