3rd Person POV
Nash smiled at himself as Cameron left the room. He couldn't help but feel happy. No, more than happy. It was a feeling he couldn't even describe.
He had felt so empty for the past six months and having Cameron there was like an instant cure.
He couldn't believe that Cameron had asked him to move in with him. Of course he said yes. He thought that this was finally the time and opportunity to do things right with Cameron. Have a proper relationship. Maybe it can help his condition, his addiction. But he didn't crave for any more of that stuff... He just wanted Cameron. And as long as he had Cameron, he didn't care about anything else.
He felt so stupid for what he had done in the past. He had the opportunity to prevent all this shit from happening but instead he just went with his own initiative... bad idea. All the shit he had put Cameron through made him cringe. How could he ever in his right mind lay a hand on Cameron? On his perfect face, on his perfect body.
"Nash?" A voice said that pulled Nash out of his thoughts. Nash looked up to see Hayes standing at the door with a sympathetic smile on his face.
"Hey." Nash said softy.
"How'd it go?" Hayes asked while cautiously walking in the room and sitting beside Nash.
"How'd what go?" Nash asked, half his mind was still fixated on Cameron.
Hayes saw something in Nash's eyes. A gleam, a spark. Hayes couldn't really pinpoint exactly what it was, but he knew that it wasn't there before.
"Cameron. Your talk with Cameron. How'd it go?" Hayes asked softly. Hayes was still very cautious in using Cameron's name. In the past it would always upset Nash.
"We didn't really do that much talking." Nash said with a smirk.
Hayes got up immediately and tried to get rid of that metal picture.
"Gross Nash, you seem to forget, I am a child!" Hayes protested.
"Oh please, you're 16 years old Hayes!" Nash said as he rolled his eyes.
"And you're 18. So you're technically an adult and I am a child!" Hayes stated.
Nash chuckled slightly. "I'm going to miss you little brother."
Hayes' eyes widened. "What do you mean, you're going to miss me?" he asked. Hayes' mind wondered off to places it shouldn't. He wondered what Nash meant by that. Was he going to hurt himself? Hayes couldn't bare the thought.
"Cameron asked me to move in with him." Nash stated. His face filled with pure bliss.
Hayes sighed. Of course Cameron asked Nash to move in with him, of course. Not that Hayes really minded and even if he did he wasn't willing to get on Cameron's bad side again. The only thing was their parents. Hayes wondered if his dad would ever give the okay for Nash to move halfway around the world. Granted yes, Nash was eighteen. But due to Nash's recent habits, Hayes highly doubted they would be okay with it.
"Did you even hear me?" Nash asked while staring intently at Hayes.
Hayes solemnly nodded his head.
"Good luck with getting the okay from mom and dad." Hayes stated.
"They'll be okay with me going as long as you didn't tell them that I was using again." Nash stated.
Hayes shrugged. "It shouldn't matter if I did or if I didn't. It's their choice. And quite frankly I think it's a bad idea. "Hayes stated.
Nash stood up. "For the past six months I have been miserable without him. All I wanted, the reason I started doing that, was because I wanted to forget about him. No matter what I did, how much I used, I realized that it was impossible for me to forget about Cameron. He's the one I'm supposed to be with. It's me and him in the end Hayes!" Nash shouted. "And I don't care what anyone thinks. Cameron is mine! And right now I am going to go and talk to dad and I hope and pray that he'll agree for me to go because I can't live without Cameron." Nash said as he pushed past Hayes.
"You know, out of all the people that supposedly wanted me happy, I can't believe that you'd be against this. Would you rather have me rot away on the streets constantly injecting myself!? Is that what you want Hayes?"
Hayes took a deep breath. He didn't want to trigger anything in Nash.
"Go. Go talk to dad okay." Hayes said softly.
Nash raised an eyebrow, as if trying to figure out what caused the change of heart. Nash was so sick and tired of everybody being cautious around him. As if he were some fragile child that would break at any second.
Nash shook it off and nodded at Hayes.
Nash slowly walked through his house, anxiously approaching his father's study.
Nash took a deep breath as he knocked on the door. Nash was worried. If his father said no, then he didn't know what he would do. He could run away with Cameron, but that seemed to only work in the movies. And he knew his life wasn't a movie.
"Come in." The stern voice said.
Nash didn't quite understand why he was so worried. Over the past six months his dad really had changed. He was more tolerant of Nash and his sexuality. In fact he approved of Cameron, strangely enough. Nash knew that this had something to do with Will.
Nash tried not to think about Will too much. It made him sad and Nash had enough sadness in his life, he didn't want more.
"Yes son. How can I help you?" His father said while looking up from his computer.
Nash took a deep breath and sat in the chair opposite his father.
"How have you been son? Did rehab help?" he asked.
Nash knew that this could either be a test, or Hayes had not told him that he started using again. Not that mattered if he did. Nash knew that he would never touch that stuff again now. He had Cameron now.
"It helped. It really did. I don't even crave it anymore." Nash lied, hoping his father wouldn't see right through it.
Nash's father nodded his head. He then smiled. "That's good son. I am glad. So, is there any reason in particular why you are here? Not that I'm complaining. You just haven't been very sociable ever since we sent you to rehab. And I understand why you would be mad."
Nash took a deep breath. He had to get on his father's good side.
"No, I am here to apologize for that. I was stupid. I didn't think I needed help. I did need help. And I'm glad I got it because..."
"Because?" His father interjected.
"Cameron came by today. He's here for Taylor and Shawn's wedding."
"So that's what all the screaming downstairs was. I kind of figured." He said with a chuckle.
"Yeah and we spoke and stuff." Nash said softly.
"See kiddo. Everything works out well in the end." His father said with a smile.
"It's just..." Nash trailed off.
"It's just?"
"He asked me to move in with him. And I said yes because technically I am eighteen and I can move out if I wanted too. Plus I am better so I don't see why I should be able to." Nash rambled on.
"Nash." His father stated.
Nash let out a shaky sigh and looked up.
"Is this what you want?" he asked, all knowingly.
"More than anything dad. I think that I have a chance to start over here. I have a chance to make things right, not only in my life, but in Cameron's too."
Nash's father was silent for a few seconds.
"Just make sure you visit for the holidays okay. Sky would be crushed if her big brother wasn't here for the holidays." He said with a smile.
Nash's heartbeat increased. "Is that a yes?" he asked, rather loudly.
Nash's dad smiled. "Yes Nash, it's a yes. You have my blessing."
Nash was so overwhelmed with happiness that he rushed over to his father and engulfed him in a large hug. "Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!" he exclaimed over and over again.
"Okay okay but one thing. When will you be leaving." He asked.
Nash thought about it. "Well, the weddings tomorrow, and Cam is due to leave three days after, so in four days I guess." Nash stated.
"Well then kiddo. You best get to packing. We'll even ship all your stuff to you." He said.
Nash was beyond ecstatic.
"Thank you so much!" Nash said as he ran out of the office and straight to his room, only to be met with Hayes who sported a very concerned look on his face.
"So, I guess he said yes?" Hayes asked.
Nash smiled and nodded his head up and down.
"Well, I'm happy for you. But you better get rid of that before he finds out and changes his mind." Hayes said while holding the small bin where he had thrown all of Nash's supplies.
Nash widened his eyes and snatched the bin. "I'll get rid of it immediately. I promise."
Hayes smiled. "Good. I've got to go okay. I'll see you at the wedding."
"You're not coming home tonight?" Nash asked worriedly.
"No, I'm going over to Aaron. He's in town so I thought why not?"
Nash had a smirk on his face. "Ohhh Little Hayes has a boyfriend." he teased.
"Nash, I don't have a boyfriend. I thought we made this clear. I don't swing that way." Hayes confirmed.
"Yeah but we all know Aaron does. Be careful young Hayes, you might catch the gay." Nash said while laughing.
"Ha ha very funny." Hayes said sarcastically. "Now get rid of that so that I have peace of mind when I'm at Aarons."
"Yeah that's understandable I mean you don't want to be thinking of me while you're being fuc-"
"Nash!" Hayes exclaimed.
Nash erupted into laughter. "Alright, come then. Let's get rid of this." Nash said
//
Cameron sighed to himself as he waited outside the mall for Shawn and Taylor to pick him up.
He looked down to the small bag that he held in his hand. He hoped that this would work. It had to. Everything was counting on this.
He felt his phone vibrate. His heart started to leap as he saw the name that appeared on the screen.
'Nash'
Cameron smiled once more and answered the phone.
"Hey." He said softly.
"Hi." Nash said. Cameron felt his stomach churn as he heard Nash's voice.
God, it did things to him.
"I have good news." Nash said softly.
"You do? I didn't think this day could get any better." Cameron said softly.
"I spoke to my dad." Nash said.
Cameron's heart started to beat at a rapid pace.
"And?"
"And, he said yes! Cameron, I can come with you!" Nash exclaimed.
Cameron didn't feel anything but happiness at that remark. Nash would be coming with him. Nash would be with him. All the time. There would be no drama, no nothing. It would just be him and Nash.
"That's the best thing I've heard all day." Cameron stated.
"I know. Look, I have to go pack; I'll call you later okay?" Nash said. Cameron could tell by the way he said it that Nash had a smile on his face.
"I love you babe." Cameron said. He couldn't help but feel all mushy when he said that.
"I love you too." Nash said. He then hung up.
Cameron had a smile plastered all over his face.
Suddenly a car pulled up in front him.
"Get in loser." Taylor stated as his window slid down.
Cameron chuckled as he got in the car.
He could sense some tension in the car.
"Hey guys. Are you okay?" Cameron asked.
Taylor and Shawn exchanged looks.
"You know how you said you have to break up with your boyfriend?" Taylor asked wearily.
"Yeah"
"Well, when you were planning on doing that?" Shawn asked.
Cameron shrugged.
"I don't know when I got back to London I guess."
"Yeah well change of plans. You're going to have to do it a little sooner than you planned." Taylor said quickly.
Cameron didn't understand. "What do you mean?" he asked.
"Your boy toy Clayton showed up at our house after we dropped you off. Said he got leave off work and came to surprise you."
Cameron's heart almost stopped.
"No no no no no. Please tell me you're joking Taylor. Please!" Cameron begged.
"Why the hell would I joke about something like that Cameron?" Taylor stated.
"You need to fix this mess Cameron. Before Nash finds out and shit goes down okay." Shawn added.
"I'm pretty sure shit will go down." Cameron stated as he tried to calm himself down.
"God Tay what do I say to him. He's always been so good to me. I feel like a horrible person." Cameron said.
"Who do you love more. Him or Nash?" Shawn asked.
"That's easy, Nash."
"Then there's your answer. Just do it nicely. He seems like a nice guy." Taylor stated.
"That's the thing! He is!" Cameron exclaimed.
"What made you chose Nash over him. Other than the history between you and Nash?" Shawn asked.
"Well. Nash told me that he sent me messages and stuff. I don't ever remember getting them." Cameron said softly.
"Well, who could've deleted them?" Shawn asked.
"The only other person who ever had my phone was Clayton." Cameron stated.
"Well then there's your excuse. Just bring that up. Just confront him about it. See if he was the one who deleted him. Then you have a good excuse to break up with him." Shawn said.
"Don't help him be a horrible person Shawn!" Taylor exclaimed.
Cameron chuckled. "No Shawn's right. I need to figure out who deleted them anyway. It's something I can bring up."
"Well you better think quick as here we are!" Taylor said they pulled up into their driveway.
"Do it quick. Like ripping of a band aid." Shawn said.
Cameron sighed and got out the car.
"Hey, you'll be okay." Taylor said while patting his shoulder.
"Hold on a second okay." Cameron said as he pulled out his phone to text Nash.
To: Nashy
Babe please screen shot all the messages you sent to me that I didn't get.
After a few minutes of Cameron anxiously standing outside the house, he felt his phone vibrate.
From: Nashy
Sure bae
-9 New attachments
Cameron saved them all to his camera roll and closed his phone.
"Okay, I'm ready now." Cameron said as he put his phone in his pocket.
Taylor unlocked the front door and went in.
Cameron took a deep breath and entered the house.
"Where is he?" Cameron asked Taylor.
"Up in the guest room, where you're staying."
Cameron nodded and walked up the long spiral staircase. He couldn't help but admire their house. It was beautiful.
Cameron approached the door and slowly but steadily opened it.
There lay Clayton on the bed, fast asleep. Cameron couldn't help but feel guilty. Clayton was in a suit. And Clayton hated suits. But Cameron loved Clayton in a suit.
Cameron took a deep breath and lightly shook Clayton awake.
"Babe." Clayton said as he woke up.
"What are you doing here?" Cameron asked.
"I felt bad for the way I treated you when I dropped you off. I wanted to make it up to you. So I spoke to the boss and she gave me leave." Clayton said as he sat up.
"Look we need to talk." Cameron said softly.
Clayton could sense the seriousness in his voice.
"You saw him didn't you?" Clayton asked.
Cameron didn't say anything.
"See I knew this would happen. I knew it! God Cameron was what we had just some way to distract yourself? Did you just use me?" Clayton cried out.
"Don't act as if you're all innocent here!" Cameron shouted as he pulled out his phone.
"March 17th, 'I love you, I'm sorry for everything I did. Please talk to me.' March 25th, 'please talk to me Cam, I need you.' Match 30th, 'I thought about calling you but I thought that would be a stupid move, I miss you.' And there are so so so many more! Why would you do that Clayton? Why? I thought I trusted you!" Cameron shouted.
Clayton stood up, guilt all over his face.
"I did it for your own good. He isn't good for you Cam! He's caused you so much pain!" Clayton shouted out.
"I appreciate the concern, Clayton. But this is my life and I'll do with it what I want. You don't have a say in what I do!" Cameron shouted.
"Yes I do because I'm your boyfriend!" Clayton shouted.
Cameron shook his head as tears rolled down his face.
"No, no you're not."
Clayton looked at him with disbelief.
"So that's it. You're going back to him? The one who put you in hospital? Really Cam?" Clayton asked. Cameron could see he was on the verge of tears.
"Clayton look..."
"No Cam. I get it. It's fine. You'll always love him blah blah blah whatever." Clayton said while shaking his head.
"I should leave okay." He said while getting up. Cameron sighed.
"One more thing Cam-Cameron?" Clayton stuttered.
"Yeah?"
"If you ever want to talk, or need someone to be there for you, I'm here okay." Clayton said with a sympathetic smile.
"I just want you to be happy okay." He continued
Cameron burst into tears and engulfed Clayton in large hug.
"I love you okay. Don't forget that. You were always so good to me..." Cameron trailed off.
"I love you too Cameron. And I'll always be there for you. I still care about you, a lot. Never forget that." Clayton said.
Cameron nodded.
"One last kiss?" Clayton asked.
Cameron nodded his head.
Clayton smiled and wiped away Cameron's tears. He then pressed his lips firmly against Cameron's, savoring every moment. Clayton then pulled away.
"I'll call for a car to take me to the airport." He said as he pulled out his phone and dialed a number.
After a few minutes Clayton slipped the phone back in his pocket.
"They'll be here soon." he said.
"Let me help you with your stuff, we can wait outside okay." Cameron said while picking up Clayton's things.
Clayton nodded as they descended down the stairs.
Taylor and Shawn were lying on the couch. Shawn was lying on his back while Taylor was on top him and between his legs.
"Whoa guys!" Cameron exclaimed.
Taylor stopped kissing Shawn and looked up.
"It's our house." He stated.
Cameron shrugged.
"We're going to wait outside okay. Clayton called for a car to take him to the airport." Cameron said.
"It was nice meeting you!" Shawn exclaimed.
"Same. I wish you well on your engagement." Clayton said.
"Come one babe let's see him out okay." Shawn said to Taylor. Taylor nodded and got off Shawn.
The four of them walked outside to see Clayton off.
Eventually a black car parked on the opposite side of the road.
"I guess this is me. Bye guys." Clayton said while walking towards the car.
"Wait Clay!" Cameron said while running up to him.
"I love you okay." He said softly. Clayton nodded and gave him a sympathetic smile.
"Bye Cameron." Clayton said as he walked to the car. He didn't break eye contact with Cameron.
Cameron looked down.
Then, the unspeakable happened.
Shawn screamed and Cameron turned his head as a car hit Clayton while he was on his way to the black car and his body bounced underneath it.
//
QOTD: Do you think Nash is a homophobe?
- I know that he's said some pretty shit things in the past but he has apologized. I'm not saying that it makes it better; I'm just saying that I think he's learnt his lesson.
AQOTD: What was your opinion on Cameron not winning a Teen Choice Award and how he handled the situation?
-I honestly think Tyler deserved to win. Tyler had been on Youtube for much longer than Cameron. Cameron's videos are good, I'm not saying that they're not. I don't think Cameron handled the situation well. He did apologize though. Plus I think he deserved to win the choice viner anyway. Plus the whole voting this is obviously a scam anyway. We all knew this. It's like that with all award shows. I don't know why people were so surprised.
Anyway, these are my opinions so don't attack me for them.