Flashbacks of last night kept popping up in my head. The effect that Keenan's touch has on me was this type of feeling that felt so electric.
The way he pleasures me sent chills down my spine.
Last night after we wrapped things up, we stayed for like another two hours and partied for the rest of the night.
Tay'Vian ended up not coming which I'm happy about because she's not ready for these type of parties yet.
Travis dropped us off around 3am and I stayed up and told Skylar and Kendall what happened.
"Oh my god! I knew it was going to happen sooner or later!" Skylar squealed. "It took you guys long enough ! How was it?" Kendall asked.
"Honestly it was out of this world. The way he made me feel. The way he looked at me and caressed my body. It's almost like he was waiting for that moment and made sure he savored every single moment" the butterflies in my stomach started going crazy as I was describing the feeling to them.
"Well to me it sounds like you guys made love" Skylar was so excited , she was more hyper than me.
Probably because it hasn't hit me that me and Keenan really just had some mind blowing sex.
We all got in the shower ate some more and then headed to sleep.
I couldn't sleep though, Keenan was on my mind heavy .. and it's almost as if I spoke him into existence because not even five minutes later his name popped up on my phone.
Bestie : come outside
I didn't respond I just smiled and got out of my bed trying to make as little noise as possible. I grabbed my hoodie and uggs. I kept on my sleep shorts and T-shirt , while my hair was still wrapped up in my scarf and bonnet.
I grabbed my keys and opened the door slowly even though that didn't prevent the creaking noise the door makes every time you open it.
Keenan's black Toyota Camry was sitting outside of my house with the purple lights glowing inside of it.
I opened the car door and greeted him "hey" I smiled "hey" he smiled back. "Where we headed?" I asked while putting my seatbelt on.
"Our favorite spot to go to at 3:30 in the morning" once he said that I knew exactly what he was talking about.
It's called The Hill. It's a hill that overlooks the city of Detroit. During the summer time late at night Keenan and I would always come up here when we wanted to just get away. Whether that was alone or together.
"It's a little chilly out and I don't have any pants on" I told him. "I have sweats in my bag" he said "okay" I responded.
Keenan turned on Summer Walker and the car ride to The Hill was silent besides the music playing of course. It was a comfortable silence though not an awkward one. I guess both of us really realized what just happened.
I looked over at Keenan and he looked relaxed yet focused. I looked back out of the window and watched as the streets turned into plants and trees.
There was a lit up trail that lead you towards the top of the hill. People can come up here anytime so it's not like we're trespassing.
Keenan parked his car in his usual spot across the street. There were no cars coming so we walked across the street instantly our only light source being the street lights.
We got to the trail and started walking. Keenan grabbed my hand in his and he led the way.
I always pictured walking these trails with the love of my life and just taking in the sight of nature. It's pitch black dark out so I can't really take anything in but you get the point.
We got to the top of the hill in about 10 minutes and even though it was almost 4 am the city was still lit.
We sat down and just looked. "I love it and hate it here" Keenan finally spoke. "From up here everything looks so peaceful" he added.
"When in reality ..." I started "it's really not".
We both sighed "Ti.." he began "yeah?" I looked at him "I loved tonight. Even if the feeling isn't mutual and you think you made a mistake. I don't think we did. I loved it. I loved how it made me feel and I loved being able to be that close and intimate with you" he spoke.
I teared up. Finally. The tears I've been holding back. "Keenan .. that was the most intimate moment I've ever had in my life. That feeling was so foreign to me. I loved it myself. I didn't want to stop, I wanted to be that close with you all night" I told him.
"Why did it take you so long ? You never and I mean not once admitted to having feelings for me, you always acted so oblivious" he asked me.
"I didn't want it to be true. I just wanted to have my boy best friend. Keenan I've been in love with you since the first day we met in Chemistry or English freshmen year, there was an instant connection I felt, we bonded so well like we've known each other all our lives. But I didn't want it to be more than just friends. That boy friend girl friend title ruins everything in today's society and I couldn't imagine actually losing you. That's why when Alexis came back and you dead aśs pushed me away I was so hurt. I was so so hurt" I explained to him.
That's the first time I ever said that out loud. But it's the truth so I'm glad it's finally out.
"I know and that was so stupid of me to do. I tried my hardest to push you away and to make you just not wanna be around me all so I could try to get rid of my feelings for you .. it didn't work" he laughed.
"Yeahhh not so much" I laughed with him , but the laughter soon stopped.
"I miss her, even though she was a pain in my aśs sometimes. Overall she was a great girl. With so so much potential" I knew he was talking about Alexis.
"Yeah" I didn't know that side of Alexis that he knew so all I could say was "yeah".
"But I don't wanna get into that right now" he coughed. I just nodded my head.
"So what do you want to do?" He asked me "I don't know" I answered. "We go back tomorrow and I know things with you and Anthony will more than likely spark back up, so I will say this. I want to be with you. I'm making it as loud and as clear as possible. I want you Tiara. You're the only one I have my eyes on, and I don't want anyone to get in the way of that. But just know I'll support whatever decision you make. Regardless we're meant to be in each other's lives" he explained to me.
I was left speechless , I wasn't expecting those words to come out of his mouth.
"I'm not gonna say the thought doesn't interest me but this has nothing to do with Anthony, this whole Korey thing is still fresh. I love you Keenan , and I love what we just shared but jumping into something with you so soon after this. Yes it has almost been two months but how do I know you won't run off and do the same no matter how much you claim to love me" I was crying now.
I never truly healed from the news Korey dropped on me in front of my entire family. It's like one minute he was here and now he's gone starting a new life with someone who came out of the blue. That whole situation does not sit right with me.
"You know me .." he said "I knew him too. How do I know one day you won't wake up and decide to just up and leave me again?" I asked him "why're you comparing us so much?" He asked me.
"Korey and I are two completely different people, with different intentions obviously"
"Yeah but y'all are the only two boys I've ever fallen in love with.." I paused. "I can't help but to compare".
Keenan sighed. "I'm not gonna rush you into anything, I'll wait for you, I've been waiting for you since sophomore year, I can wait for you forever but let's not make me do that" he said.
I laughed at him and just stared into his eyes as he spoke.
"You're worth waiting for Ti, so as you get back to where you want to be mentally. I'll be by your side the entire time. Supporting you and being the best friend I can be".
I didn't have much to say so I just hugged him. I hugged on him tight and didn't let go, I could stay in Keenan's arms forever.
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This is probably the longest I've gone without updating , y'all I'm sorry :( I just got back to school and it's been all over the place, two almost three weeks in and I'm just finalizing my schedule. Then I've been catching up on sleep also it's just a lot but I will not leave y'all hanging and I will continue the book of course. The updates will probably just not be as consistent , I will try to update at least once a week until I have a set writing schedule because I also have school, school work , social time , & sleep time.
But I just wanna thank you guys soooo much for sticking with me even through the slow updates ! And thank you so so sooo much for the 7k reads ! I saw that this morning and was smiling cheek to cheek
Let me know what you guys think of this chapter and also what you think Tiara should do !?!