And your Lord says "call upon me, and I'll respond to you."
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We always tried to get ahead of time. We never get satisfied for what we have.
Hayfa has returned to home hours ago but has shut herself in her room. The event of the day was replaying in front of her
Everything that she did in past was playing in front of her lifeless eyes. She wasn't feeling any emotions in her body, or maybe doesn't know what to name her feelings
She has done so many mistakes
Ruining her life because of an unrequited love,
Ruining her life just because of a jealousy
When she was at her grandparents house, she wanted to go to her parents home. And when Latif Hussain took her with him, she wanted to stay with her grandparents
When she was engaged to Zaim, she wanted the kind of love Fasih have for Hanaya
She wanted Fasih
And when she got married to Fasih, suddenly Hanaya's life was much better than her
She wanted the kind marriage life Hanaya have
She was never satisfied with her life, thinking no one loves her
Allah has planned everything, and there must be a good reason why Allah keep us away from the very same thing which our heart desires
Her hearts desired Fasih, and only Fasih
But was it for her own goodness that Allah kept her away from him?
Was Zaim a perfect champion for her but she rushed up for Fasih's love and ruined everything?
That's why Allah is punishing her from keeping Fasih away from her?
Tears started coming in her eyes. She didn't wanted to cry but the tears were working on their own. No matter how much she tried to hold them but they were running from her eyes to her cheeks
Who is the one who loved us the most? He is our lord, the most gracious, he loves us more than a love of 70 mothers combined
Mother will never punish her kids at this extreme where Hayfa just wanted to end her life
Maybe Allah doesn't love her for the sin she did
Sometimes we think Allah doesn't love us that's why he is testing us from keeping us away from the things we prayed for, but in reality Allah has something better store for us. Things which will give us happiness and peace
Peace? Happiness? What are those?
She haven't felt a genuine happiness since forever
Peace was missing from her life
If you ever commit a mistake then you shouldn't take time asking for forgiveness from Al Ghafoor meaning the ever forgiving. Allah has said in Quran
Will Allah forgive her?
She was sitting on bed when thinking about all this made her breath break, Her hiccups didn't stopped as her breath got heavy crying has made it difficult for her to inhale air and her lungs started collapsing
She got up from bed and took few steps around her room to keep herself calm. But, the environment around the room was too thick to make her breath and the dim light was not helping much
Opening the balcony door she went on it
The call of prayer was coming- Azaan
Her knees felt weak as she sat on floor. Leaning her head on the railing, hugging her legs close to her chest she silently listened to it
The sound of Azaan fall in her ear five times a day. But, it was the first time she is listening to it
"Dado, aap kaa kar rahe ho?" A three years old Hayfa saw her grandmother praying Namaz which she never saw her mother doing and wonder what she is doing.
(What are you doing, Dado?)
Sehmat Hussain was done with her prayer, she sat on her prayer mat and called Hayfa to herself, making Hayfa sit on her lap, she blow on her face then replied to her question
"Beta, main Namaz padh rahi Hoon."
(I'm offering prayer.)
"Kyu?"
(Why?)
"Kyuki musalman hone ke Nate yeh humara farz Hai."
(Because as Muslims it's our duty.)
"Farz Kaa hota Hai?" She played with her grandmother's hands and asked
(What's duty?)
"Farz Allah ka hukm Hai, jissey agar hum nahi manege toh hum musalman nahi."
(Duty is something which Allah has told us to do.)
"Ussey Hume Kaa milta Hai?" Innocent mind always have questions after every answer they get
(And what we get in return?)
"Allah pak bohot khush hote Hain, aur phir woh Hume gifts dete Hain, Jo bhi hum Namaz ke baad Dua mein mangte Hain." Sehmat Hussain lovingly pinched Hayfa's cheeks then kissed it
(Allah gets really happy with us and he reward us with the things we asked in prayer.)
Sajde mein mangi hui Dua seedha arsh par jati hai
She has done everything in her power to hasil Fasih
But never once asked him from Allah
The almighty, who have all the powers of world.
Maybe her life wouldn't be like this if she had put her trust in Allah
Her tears has dried off now.
She didn't had any more tears to shed or energy to wiped them
Getting up from floor she felt soreness in her joints which and her hiss, ignoring the pain she went to washroom to do ablution
It's been years since she last prayed. The last time she prayed was when her grandmother passed away
She wasn't a practicing Muslimah
She has never offered any prayer except for the friday's prayer when she was at her grandparents house. But, even then she never understood the power of prayer
Opening her cupboard she took prayer mat put from it. The prayer mat and Quran she got in her nikkah was placed in cupboard as new as before, like no one touched them. No one really touched them
Spreading the mat on floor she started making prayer but nothing came out from her tongue
She wasn't able to recite any Ayat
Sehmat Khan taught her everything about praying. But as the time passed she forget that
Her heart was full of negativity, how can the words of Allah be there?
She once again broke down, falling on the floor she just cried and asked Allah for guidance
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When Fasih entered the room he found it dark, only one source of light was coming from moon, which the curtains were also trying to block. Switching on he light he found Hayfa on rocking chair
For one moment he got startled when Hayfa didn't made any move with sudden light and sound
"Hayfa!" Calling her, he went to her side. He quickly become normal and took a relief breath when he found her alright
"Hayfa!" But she still didn't reacted to his voice. She was looking at the balcony's door, without even blinking
Getting on his knees he touched her shoulder which made her jump.
"Are you okay?" Her red swollen eyes and her dry lips made him worried as he touched her forehead and felt she was burning in fever
"I'm.... I'm...fine...."
"No, you aren't. You have fever.... Come on let's go to doctor...." Fasih got up from floor
"Fasih, I'm fine, really." Hayfa held his hand and said
"No, you are not fine... Get up, we are going to doctor...." Fasih seriously told her
"I don't want to go..." Hayfa made it cleared she doesn't really want to go
"Pardesi food point chale?" When they weren't returning from Doctor's clinic, Fasih asked
(Let's go to pardesi food point.)
Hayfa just glared at him while holding the bandage where doctor injected her
One of the reasons why she didn't wanted to go- injection
If the person is sick or not. But as if doctor just wait for someone to walk in their clinic so they can inject them.
Receiving Hayfa's glare made him shut. But, he still drove to the food point that they used to go in their college time
Pardesi food point is a handcart of veg rolls, Momo's, chowmein and bun kebab
Fasih loves the bun and kebab that they sell and he used to take Hayfa there, no matter how much she refused eating from handcart but Fasih still took her there every time he got. Like today
"Do bun kebab aur cold drink... Black ya...?" Fasih ordered from the window of his car, then turned to Hayfa asking if she wants Coke or Sprite, but found her looking at somewhere else. Actually
(Two bun and kebab and cold drink... Coke or....?)
She was only seems to appear looking at the roads, but her eyes were telling the truth that she is lost in her thoughts
"Black de dijiye..." He ordered then again turned to Hayfa
(Two come...)
"Hayfa!...... What happened?" When Hayfa turned to him, he asked. On which Hayfa shook her head negatively
Fasih didn't asked anything further, knowing she won't reply
No matter how much he is trying to make everything better between them. But still there was something missing
Maybe because the bond they used to share got broken to the extreme where both of them can't fix it
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Zaim woke up from his sleep when he heard Alvira's soft crying. Opening his eyes he saw Hanaya roaming around room, trying to calm Alvira
Groaning he sat up on bed, his daughter has bad habit of crying at night. She is always calm in daytime unless she doesn't get any attention. Maybe that's why she cries at night because she doesn't get any at night
Because of her this habit, Zaim couldn't get proper sleep.
Zaim looked at Hanaya, her face was also tired and dull.
Hanaya was never a person who really take care of themselves but after Alvira's birth she has gave all her time and love to Alvira. Doesn't even care if she has brushed her own hair today or not. Or that's she isn't wearing a matching dupatta with her dress.
He felt guilty. Alvira is his daughter also. She is his responsibility too
But Hanaya is the only one who take care of Alvira. Zaim only played with Alvira. That too only for sometimes in evening because when he leave for office in the morning she will be sleeping
Removing the comforter away from himself, he went to Hanaya
"Give her to me." He took his hand out to hold Alvira
"Aap? Nahi, theek Hai. I'll handle her."
(You? No, it's okay.)
"Hanaya! Give her to me, you look tired, go and sleep."
"Nahi, aap so jaiye. Apko subah office bhi jana Hai...."
(It's okay, you have to go to office in the morning, you sleep......)
"Hanaya! She is my responsibility too." Zaim took Alvira from Hanaya
Little Alvira after being in her father's arms stopped crying and seeing it Zaim said "I think Alvira also wants to spend sometime with Dadda." Softly smiling at his daughter Zaim said
"I'll put her to sleep." Not having any energy to argue with him, Hanaya nod her head and went to lay on bed
As soon her head hit the pillow, sleep consumed her
Zaim played with Alvira for half and hour when the little girl get tired and fall asleep in his arms
Zaim walked to her cot when Alvira moved which made him stopped. Thinking Alvira again woke up. But, her heavy breath told him she didn't
Kissing her small nose, Zaim carefully put her in her cot
When he went to his bed, he saw Hanaya has slept off without even comforter. Covering her in comforter, he pulled her close to him
His girl is sleeping in the cot beside his bed and his lady in his arms always gave him peace and satisfaction
He doesn't want anything else in life
Hanaya and Alvira are his life
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*In Dr. Mashoor Gulati's voice* short stories ke book mein 50 Chapters Kon update karta Hai Bhai?
Me: abhi aur Hai🙈
Okay, I know I'm being evil
I said I'll do long chapters but *sigh* ..I..I... I failed you 😭
This much drama is enough to get away from short chapter, right? 🙈
And, yaar! See I was clear about this story since beginning
I have already told you guys this story will be really long. And I also said one thing that at some point you'll want to give up on this story, but don't
At one point maybe you'll get tired of it. But you'll love the story, that's my promise
And if you wanna leave then leave.
Why are you sending me one page msgs saying "how much you love my stories, you really like dillagi because it was new but now it's becoming dull." 😑
(This one was the third msg that I received today)
There is a difference between criticism and hate that you forget
I don't mind criticism. But, I won't tolerate any hate also
Now thank you, because of you my mood was off whole day. I didn't wrote a single word whole day, until one hour ago
-Ufaq
Aur mujhe Thora famous hone do, tab hater aye toh samajh bhi ata. Abhi se hi chalu ho Gaye sab? 😐
P.S: sorry for the rant, but I needed to get it out from my mind. And the better way to get it out is writing it