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"I love you Brooke, you can tell me anything"
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*6 months later*
I sat in the office of Dr Parker, he sat at his desk clicking his pen and not saying anything. I sat opposite him, watching as his finger pressed and pressed that button, the clocking repetitive until it got too much and I couldn't take it any longer
"What did you want to see me for?"
It seemed like I had just snapped him out a daydream, he shook his head and blinked at me a few times before opening his mouth to speak "I needed to talk to you"
I stared at him, waiting to see where this was going. He just swallowed hard "Brooke, this is your last day in here...You're mother is coming to pick you up tomorrow"
"What?!" I stood now "But it hasn't been a year yet, I can't go, you can;t let me. You're my doctor say I'm sick, say I can't go yet!"
He put his pen down and sighed deep "I wish I could Brooke, I really do, but your mother wants you out so I can only go with what she wants"
I felt angry tears spring to my eyes now "Please, Please I'm asking you, no! I'm begging you to say I need to stay!"
He stood now and looked at me "Why? When you first came in here you were so desperate to leave, so desperate to get out of here"
I rubbed my face with my hands "I have to be here, I can't leave"
"Is this becuase of Nathan?" He asked abruptly
i looked up from my hand and stared at him, he was watching me with no emotion on his face and his pen twirling in his fingers. I sighed and nodded slowly "Yes, I can't leave him..I-I love him and I can't imagine leaving him, I want to stay with him, and if that means being in here for the rest of my life then I would do it, becuase for him I would do anything"
He gave a soft chuckle "He's getting better, he's coming to his sessions and I'm getting words out of him, infect I'm getting so much more out of him than I ever did before"
"I know" I nodded "He's doing it for me...He told me it's for me, he wants to get out of here, he wants a life with me outside of these walls. If I have to go back and tell him I'm out of here tomorrow it'll break him and he;ll just revert back to the old Nathan"
'Thomas' sighed and nodded "I've noticed"
"So you understand why I can't go, please Tom, you have to tell my mum I'm still sick" I begged him, hoping he would just do this one thing
He shook his head "I'm sorry Brooke"
Angry tears filled my eyes now, I threw his paper work off his desk for no particular reason but I the fact that I could. I shook my head at him and left the room, I was about to strom down the hallway when I heard an all too familiar voice call my name,
I turned and saw Ayehsa walking towards me, heavily pregnant and due in two months. I looked at her and ran at her, hugging her tight and not letting go until the feeling of wanting to break down passed. I looked at her and she wopre a confused expression.
I sniffed and she took my by the top of my arms "What's wrong? is it Nathan?"
I shook my head and wiped a stray tear that was making it's way down my cheek. She looked at me and tilted her head slightly "What is it?"
I took a deep breath and sniffed once more "I get out of here tomorrow"
"Tomorrow!" she nearly choked on her spit
I nodded and looked back to the office Dr Parker was in and sighed "Yeah, mum is coming to pick me up"
I saw her swallow hard and then force a smalie on her face "Well that's great isn't it, I mean you hate it in here...Remember your first week?"
I chuckled softly and then sighed "I remember, but it's not too bad now, these past few months"
"That's becuase of Nathan isn't it?" She crossed her arms
I looked at her and sighed "Well yeah, You don't get it...I love him, I'm in love with him."
She smiled softly at me and ran her hand down my arm "I get it, I do...Try being in love with someone who's love for you has to be shared"
I looked down at the now obvious bump and nodded, I felt a wave of emotion flood me and threw my arms round her neck "But I'll miss you the most"
She hugged me back "It's fine, you can come and visit"
I looked up at her and nodded "I will, I promise"
She smiled and we pulled away from eachother, she looked at me and gave a long sigh "When are you going to tell him?"
I closed my eyes "I have to tell him tonight, I don't have a choice"
"Go now, it'll only make it worse if you leave it"
I took a deep breath and nodded slowly "Okay, you're right...I'll see you later"
She waved goodbye as i began the walk up the stairs, I could feel my heart racing as I got closer, due to both the effort of the stairs and what I knew I had to tell Nathan. I didn't know how to say it or when to say it, I didn't want to leave him. I reached the top of the stairs and looked down the long corridoor filled with doors, remembering the first time I walked down here...The first time I met Nathan, how I had no idea that we would be where we are now. How the feeling of hate twoards him as dramatically turned into the feeling of love and adoration.
I began to twalk down his side of the corridor with legs of lead and a heart of black with the news I had to tell him.I reached the door and found my hand shaking, the memories of the last time I was in here suddenly flood my mind. I found myself crumble away from the door and my back hit the wall, my hands flew to my head and I slid down the wall, my knees against my chest and my eyes closed as my hands gripped at my hair and my eyes remained tightly closed, trying sedperatly to rid the images from my mind.
"Brooke?" I heard Nathan's voice call me, but I couldn't open my eyes to look at him.
He kept calling me, his voice soft and gentle, slowly drawing me out of the sudden lock up I had gone into, I felt a soft touch on my hand, a gentle touch and warmth before my whole body had been encased in warmth.
I opened my eyes and slowly wrapped my arms around him, hearing his hearbeat and feeling him. Knowing now my time with him was so very limited and soon coming to a stop. I pulled away and looked at him, my hand resting on his cheek and my thumb rubbing his skin, cathing on the light stubble he had let grow.
"Hello" He whispered to me with a smile on his face
I smiled back "Hello"
He pulled me and and pressed his lips to mine, I kissed him back and pulled away he smiled and cupped my face "I love you"
I kissed him quick "I love you too"
"What's wrong?" He could see right through me
I looked down and bit my lip "I-I er- I-"
"Brooke!" I heard someone shout my name down the hallway
I looked and saw Dr parker running down to me, his face red and panicked "Brooke, It's Ayesha....She's gone into labour"...
"What?!" I practically screamed she still had a month left to go
"She's having the baby, right now!" He shouted
i went to run off after Dr parker but Nathan grabbed me "Brooke? What did you wan't to say?"
"Nathan I'm sorry...I really have to go, I love you"
I ran off leaving Nathan stood in the hallway confued, I wished i could go back but my best friend needed me...I'd just go back to see him once I knew Ayesha had the baby and was okay...I would tell him then...
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I SURVIVE!!!! I'M SO SORRY, I'VE HAD LITERLLY NO TIME TO WRITE BUT I'M ON MY CRIMBO BREAK NOW FOR 2 WEEKS SO I HAVE A LOT MORE TIME TO WRUTE YASSSSSSSSS
SO YEAH, BOOK IS ENDING IN A FEW CHAPTERS "CRY CRY"