Warning:
Suicide, self-harm scenes which can be disturbing to some, ignore if you are sensitive to this topic.
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Main kabse kitna "tanha" Hoon tujhe pata bhi nahi
Tera to koi khuda bhi Hai, Mera to "khuda" bhi nahi
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Jealousy; the biggest enemy human being
In her jealousy Hayfa never noticed the blessings she had
The blessings of her parents love
The blessings of younger sister whom she looked at as cursed
The jealousy made her blind
And love didn't helped her much
Love; made her do the things which no girl will ever do
She accused the person whom she loved the most
It wasn't love, it was obsession and anger
Obsession for Fasih
Anger that Fasih loved Hanaya not her
But, what she have now
Nothing
Even after doing everything she is left with nothing
Fasih hates her
Her own parents didn't talked to her for months
And Hanaya
The girl whom she thought always snatched her happiness was the only one who supported her
Even when she wasn't talking to her Hanaya tried to talk to her
Even when Hayfa accused Hanaya for being threat to her marriage Hanaya still saved her marriage life
Even now when Hayfa is still ride to her Hanaya never stopped Hayfa to play with Alvira
Hayfa tried
She tried to become polite with Hanaya but everything that she did in past came in front of her eyes
She has done alot of things just to make Hanaya suffer
She can't forget that
Nor she could forgive herself
Fasih wants to give her a chance
But he don't know she can't live with Fasih like nothing happened
Everything has changed in just one year
Nothing is same like before
She can't live with everyone's disappointment in her
That's why she wanted to go away from here
To start everything all over again
Not to bother anyone here
In childhood she had a friend
Chavi
Chavi used to say there is always a second chance that God gives us
Human made many mistakes in their life, their friends, family gave them many chance
But God give only one
And that chance is enough to start everything all over again
That moment you could be the better version of yourself if you try.
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"It's okay,"
"I always knew you would never love me, and I have accepted you like that."
"You don't have to lie just for my sake." Giving him a small smile Hanaya got up from him
She was hurt on his words
He knew she loves him and just to make her happy he lied
She doesn't want any lie
She knows how much he has loved Hayfa, he has said he moved on from her but moving on doesn't mean the love died
Love never died, if it is there then it will be here for always
Even when you moved on with someone else but still the feeling you had for someone doesn't changes
He cares about her and wants to keep her happy, she knows it
But that doesn't mean to keep her happy he will lie that he loves her
"Hanaya," but he didn't loosen the grip on her wrist
Getting up he cupped her face and looked into her eyes
She didn't looked away, nor blinked her eyes
"I'm not lying."
Many questions were in his mind which got answered by his heart
And now he realized who his real love is
What real love is
"Lekin aap toh Hayfa se....."
(But you loved Hayfa....)
"Hanaya, main tumhe pehle bhi Bata chuka Hoon ki Hayfa ke liye mere Dil mein kuch nahi Hai."
(I have already told you, I feel nothing for Hayfa.)
"Tumhe aisa kyu lagta Hai ki main tumse mohabbat nahi Kar sakta?"
(What makes you think that I can't love you?)
"You are this bundle of joy who has coloured my life with geniun happiness, who have loved me without any selfishness, asking for nothing in return, you have give me such a precious gift why wouldn't I love you." Hanaya opened her mouth to say something but close it
Giving it away she doesn't believe him
"Kya karu ki yaqeen hojaye?"
(What should I do to make you believe in my love?)
"Kuch nahi, mujhe aap pe yaqeen hai." She shook her head negatively
(Nothing, I believe you.)
Benting down to her level he kissed her forehead
He knows she still doesn't believe in his words
But, soon he will make her
He will prove to her that he loves her
She thinks you can unlove someone if the feelings are true
But what she doesn't know you can still love another
The old love maybe there somewhere but the new love is always more powerful and true
The first love always happened to the wrong person and it's childish
But when you fall in love again, your heart doesn't make any other mistake
The heart knew what has happened before and now it's always careful to whom to let in
Falling for Hanaya is the best thing that happened to him
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She never understand the love of her family
Nor no one understands her
No one ever understand how weak and fragile she is
All she wanted was love, attention, comfort that she never got as a child
Her grandparents did loved her alot, but they couldn't replace the love of parents
All her life she yearned for love
Love from her parents but instead she had to share it with Hanaya
Love from Fasih but he loved Hanaya
Everything she ever did, she did for love
Wrong or right she never realized
Because no one taught her what's wrong or right
Closing her eyes, she tried to escape from reality
Raising her hand on which she was holding a sharp blade
She slit it on her wrist vein
The pain was unbearable but she wasn't feeling anything
Her conscious were long gone away from her
Blood floor from her veins, the blade fall from her hand on the floor of bathroom as she sink in the bathtub.
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Ambulance siren ringing as a ambulance made its way through busy roads to hospital
Compounders took unconscious Hayfa down from ambulance and put her on stretcher
They took her inside, behind them was Fasih who was walking just beside her, holding her blooded hand in his
They took her inside emergency ward in which Fasih was also about to entered when Zaim held his shoulder
He looked at Zaim then the close door, the red light turned on
He held his forehead
He can't believe Hayfa did this
How could she took her own life?
Didn't she for once thought about her parents, her friends, her family, her loved once, her life?
Or him?
His hair messy because of him continuously running his hand through them, his white shirt stained with her blood
Heart brutally beating inside of his chest as the scenario of Hayfa laying under the pool of her own blood in bathtub was still in front of his eyes
His body shocked from core
She said she wanted to leave him for the sake of both of them
But was this her plan of leaving?
How could she thought about doing this?
Does she thinks her leaving like this make everything better?
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"Hanaya, bachhe, rote nahi. Dua Karo sab theek ho jayega." Nimra tried to console a crying Hanaya
(Child, don't cry, pray for her health.)
But her tears didn't stopped
Nimra herself was trying to be strong but seeing Hanaya in this vulnerable condition was making her emotions weak too
"Here, have some water." She picked a glass of water from side table and passed it to Hanaya
"Hay..... Hayfa ne aisa.... Kyu kiya?...." Crying Hanaya asked
(Why did Hayfa committed suicide?)
Cowardice; she couldn't live up with the things she has done
She couldn't live with everyone's disappointment in her
That's why she took this step,
But suicide isn't the solution
Ending her life only reflect her lack of bravery
That she couldn't face real world
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Fasih aimlessly roamed around the hallway of hospital
Every there trying to peek from the small glass frame of emergency door
But couldn't see anything
"Fasih, here, have some water." Zaim gave him a plastic cup of water
Which he took from Zaim and chugged it down
His throat was dry, as if he could cugged down a whole bucket of water
"Everything will be okay." Zaim put his hand on Fasih's shoulder
Fasih who needed comfort hugged him
"I wanted to give her a chance and..... and she said she can't live with me after everything because the past will haunt our future, she wants to leave.... Leave for our sake... But... But... I....I never thought she meant this by leaving." Fasih didn't grow up much
He was still a kid from heart
Innocent by mind
Complained about everything to Zaim
Thinking Zaim can mend everything in his life
Like in childhood Zaim used to mend his broken toys
Now, it's his life which is falling apart
Zaim rubbed his back, telling him to be strong, not to lose hope, everything will be okay
Whatever happens ALLAH has planned it way before our birth
He knows what's going on in our life
He will never leave us unguided and lost
The light of emergency ward turned off and doctor came out
They both pulled apart as Fasih wiped his tears off
"She is fine but has lost lot of blood and is very weak, you need to take care of her alot."
"Zaim, can I have few words with you in alone?" Doctor informed them then asked Zaim
"Can I meet her?" Fasih asked
"She is unconscious but you can if you want." Doctor said
Zaim left with doctor in his cabin
Where doctor informed him it is a police case
He did her treatment because he knew Zaim but now they had to call the police
Zain tried to talk to him, because the situation are really weak if police came it will make it worse
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"You wanted to leave for the sake of us, Like this?"
"I want to find my myself," he repeated Hayfa's words
"You wanted to find yourself like this?"
"By killing your own self?"
"Did you ever thought how much impact it will leave on us if anything happened to you?"
"Will I able to live with the guilt?" Arms hugging her knees as her chin was placed on it, she wasn't looking at him because guilt was in her eyes also
"Bohot apni marzi Karli Hai tumne, Hayfa. jab Dil chaha kisiki Zindagi barbad kardi phir apni hi Zindagi khatam karne chali thi. ab tum wahi karogi Jo main kahunga." Fasih sat on her bed and sternly told her
(You always did whatever you want, ruining someone's life, taking your own life. But, now it's enough. You'll do as I'll say.)
"Fasih, I...." She raised her head to see him, he was scolding her but anger was no where in his eyes
Only concern was there
"I don't want to hear a word from you."
"I'm sorry," crying she said, Fasih took his arms out and embrace her
"Ending your life isn't the solution, Hayfa. I told you I want to give our relationship a chance, I wanted us to be better but still.,....."
"I didn't wanted to live with the guilt. I have ruined many lives."
"You have ruined no one's life, everyone is happy."
"And you? You love Hanaya and because of me...."
"I have already told you I'm happy that Hanaya and I didn't get married because she loves Bhai and I would have never keep her happy."
"Your own family wasn't talking to you after what I did...."
"The truth is out. Now they have apologised to me."
"But, it has ruined our friendship."
"Every broken things can be mend, so will our friendship. But, first you need to forget about the past."
"I have forget it, now you have to too." Breaking the hug, he put his hand on her left cheek
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"She is fine," softly brushing Hanaya's hair with his hand Zaim murmured
"Why she did this?" Her eyes and voice clearly saying how much she has cried
"She never realized that whatever she is doing is wrong. And when she did, she didn't wanted live with the guilt."
"Will she do that again?" Zaim's words made her more worried, taking her head up from his chest she looked at him
"Fasih is there with her." He assured her
Doctor discharge Hayfa in the morning after instructing that she should completely rest and don't take any tension
After taking a steps forward then backward Hanaya finally took a step in Hayfa's room
Hayfa was resting but hearing someone's footsteps made her eyes open
"Juice," Hanaya showed her the glass which she was holding
Hayfa sat up properly and took the glass from her
"I'll.... I'll leave now, you need rest." After sometime when Hayfa didn't said anything, Hanaya slowly said and was about to leave
"And if you need anything just call me." Hanaya add and turned to leave
"Hanaya," but on Hayfa's voice her moving steps stopped, she expectedly turned to Hayfa
"Um... Woh... Alvira kaha Hai?" Fidgeting with her ownself Hayfa asked
(Where is Alvira?)
"She is sleeping," when Hanaya left Hayfa took a sigh
Fasih said every broken things can be fix even their friendship
But how can she fix something which was never there
She never had any relationship with Hanaya,
And it is better be like that
Hanaya is happy in her life without Hayfa
So can Hayfa be happy in her life without Hanaya
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-Ufaq