A/N:
Angst! Please don't read if you'll just blame me of being broken after. 😅
Lisa's POV
I'm currently on the bed with Niki, she's my best friend and I can also say the love of my life or that's what I've thought. We're hugging, her face buried in the crook of my neck.
I felt that she pull away and look up to me, I can now feel her breath on my lips. My eyes still closed but I know our faces or should I say lips are inch apart.
"Lis?" She called.
"Hmm?" I hummed and tighten my arms that wraps around her waist.
"I have a date with Jackson." She informed.
I stiffened and it made me opened my eyes.
"What?! I literally told you not to date a douche bag, Niki." I reminded her.
"I know Lis, but its been a while since Jackson started to court me, and during that span I never heard nor witness any thing bad. I mean he been nothing but nice to me. I'll give him a chance, I think I owe that to him." She explained and I gritted my teeth.
I hate the fact that I can't stop her. I have no right after all, I'm just a mere best friend.
I sighed.
"Just be careful. Tell me where you two will go, tell me everything okay?" I said protectively which made her giggled.
"You're cute, do you know that?" she said just to teased me.
I roll my eyes and pull her closer, so she'll return to her previous position. Her face buried my neck.
I heard that she sighed.
"Why don't you choose me instead? Why not me?" I asks.
"Lis, you know even if I want, we can't. You can't." She said sadly.
"I don't fvcking care." I pull away from our hug and seat down. I cover my face with my palms. I'm so frustrated because of our situation, of my situation. "Just say the word Niki and I leave her. I leave her for you, for us. Please, just tell me." I added pleading. I'm on the verge of crying.
"I can't Lisa, she's also our best friend. And she needs you more that anything. I, I can't take you away from her. I don't want to be selfish." She answered already crying. I know Niki loves me too but she's sacrificing as well because of our situation, because of our other best friend, because of my current girlfriend...JENNIE KIM.
It pained me more seeing her holding back, seeing her diverting her attention to other person just to get rid of her current feeling, just to get rid of the pain.
Well, my heart can't also hurt Jennie, I love her so much but just as a friend. I'll do everything for her even just to pretend that I love her, the way she loves me.
She's sick, Jennie Kim is sick. Her doctor gave her just a year or two to live. Well, if you're curious why I became her girlfriend? Her parents. They begged. They discovered how much Jennie loves me, loves me more than a friend so they asked a favor of courting their daughter and treat her as the best girl ever. I can say that its easy, I love Jennie and I care so much for her. My care and love can't be fake because all the things I do is because I love her, though just a friend. Niki and I are about to confess to Jennie about our feelings until this unfortunate event so even if its heart breaking for us to sacrifice our love, we decided to grant her parents wish. At the end of the day all I want is Jennie's happiness as well over mine, specially now. But sometimes there are times like this, times that I just want to give up because of the love I have for Niki but I needed to be strong, for Jennie.
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Three Months Of Pretending
Jennie's POV
"Lili?" I called my girlfriend as I see her sleeping beside my bed, she's currently holding my hand. I had an attack last night so my parents rushed me to the nearest hospital. I'm just glad they revived me. I'm not yet ready to die.
She stir from her sleep and slowly opened her eyes.
"Baby? You okay? You want something?" She immediately stand up when she recovered from sleeping. It made me chuckled. She's really a worrier.
"Hey! Hey! I'm good." I assured her.
She sighed.
She sat down on my bed and lift her hand to caress my cheek.
"You made me worried Jen, don't do that again." She almost whispered. I saw the tear escaped her eye. It pained me seeing her like this specially because I'm the reason.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled. I removed my eyes from her and look down to my hands, playing with my fingers.
I was startled when she pull me for a hug, a tight one, I hugged back.
"Shhh, don't say sorry. It's not your fault baby." She console me, until now her use of endearments never failed to affect me. It made my heart beats mad. It should be bad but this kind of emotion strengthens me. She pull away and cupped my face. She kissed my forehead, I let my eyes closed so I can clearly feel everything she does. She kissed my nose. She kissed both of my cheeks. And lastly I felt her soft lips on my lips. It's just a millisecond but it somewhat give life and energy to me. "I want you to fight love, I don't fvcking care about what doctors said. They're not God. Okay? Promise me you'll fight." She said determined and it made me cry.
I eagerly nodded.
"I'll fight." I said.
"That's my baby girl, and when you're fully recovered we'll get married. You'll marry me right?" She asks hopeful that froze me to my position.
Why are you saying this Lisa? Why would you say such things? Are you saying this just to give me inspiration to live? Well I'm not that oblivious. I know that Lisa and Niki love each other, more than friends or best friends. But I'm selfish. When Lisa came to my house and asked if she can court me I agreed immediately despite the fact that I know she just doing it because I'm dying. At first I'm hesitant, do I really need to stoop down to that level? But I don't care anymore. I love Lisa so much and even if I know that she's just pretending I can settle to that. I can settle on anythings she can give me. I'll die after all then they can move on and continue life. I know I'm being selfish but I hope God will understand me and my reasons.
I was interrupted with my thoughts when I felt her teeth nibbling my lower lip. It made me moaned.
"Baby?" I complained as I pull away.
"What? You're too cute being lost with your own thoughts and I can't help but to taste you." She seductively said. Is it still part of pretending Lisa? Why it seemed real and natural? Did you fall for me already? I hope not. I just hope not. "Besides you didn't even answer my question." She added pouting.
"Question?" I asks confused.
"If you'll marry me?" She answered.
I blushed.
"I ah, of course Lisa I'll marry you." I answered sincerely but I avoid eye contact. I don't want to see insincerity on her eyes but the urge to look at her defeated me so afterwards I look up to meet her eyes just to see a crying Lisa.
"Yaah! Why are you crying?" I inquired as I wipe her tears away. "You're such a baby." I teased.
"It's, it's your fault." She said between her sobs.
"What did I do?" I asked confused. My hands still cupping her face.
"Nothing, you just made me the happiest person in the entire universe when you agreed to marry me Love. I love you so much Jennie Kim. You'll fvcking live and we'll have lots of baby." She demand and it made me laugh.
"What?" She asks confused maybe because I'm laughing. When my laugh subsided I just shook my head.
"Nothing. It's just that at first you're just asking only marriage and not a minute after a baby? And lots of it? Really Lisa?" I teased.
"What's wrong with that? I love to see little Jennie and Lisa running inside our house. I want to see our children inherit your fluffy cheeks and gummy smile." She said as she give little kisses on my cheeks that makes me giggle. I want them to inherit everything from you cause you're the best baby. I'm so lucky to be loved by you." She sincerely confessed.
Again? Are you pretending Lisa? If yes you're really good at it.
"Don't make me cry Manoban." I warned.
"What about cry because of pleasure?" She seductively said as she wiggles her brows suggestively.
I smacked her shoulder but chuckled.
"Pervert." I said.
"Me? You know I'm not baby, and beside what's wrong with that? You know we can now start doing babies." She continued and I know I'm blushing mess.
"Silly we're in the hospital." I blurted out, not thinking twice, she might assumed that I'm willing to do it which yes she really assumed because the moment I said that she grinned.
"Ohhh soooo..." I didn't let her.
"Shut up Lisa." I coldly said hoping she'll stop but no, she's about to lean in to capture my lips but before she successfully do that, my room's door open revealing my parents with the doctor. We pull away.
"Sweetheart? The doctor needs to say something." My dad said as he walked towards my side. Lisa gave them space but she walks to the other side of my bed. She reached for my hand and intertwined it to hers. I look at her and gave her a small smile and return my attention back to my parents and the doctor.
I nodded.
"Ms. Kim." He sighed. "This is the second time you had an attack this month, I'm afraid that if this happen again you'll not able to ma..." the doctor was interrupted by Lisa's voice.
"Shvt up! Don't fvcking dare to continue what you're about to say! Who are you to tell that to someone? Giving them due dates? As if it's just nothing?! Fvck off! We don't want to hear that!" Lisa said angrily. Her grip to my hand tightened. This is the first time I saw her like that, the happy go lucky Lisa being like this? I thought she's just angry, what shocked me is the tears keep pouring from her eyes.
She cupped my face and made her look at me.
"Don't listen to her baby, okay? He's not God or any da*n person. You'll make it okay? You promised. We'll get married right?" She look to my parents side. "Mr. and Mrs. Kim I know it's not really a good timing and of course we're still young but, but after we graduate? I'll marry your daughter." My parents also crying, they just not to Lisa, giving their approval. She returned her gaze to me. "See? I already have your parents approval, just focus now in recovering okay? You'll give me a little Jennie and Lisa." We're interrupted because my mother choked. Maybe she's shocked that we even talked about having a children. Lisa chuckled. "I'm sorry Mrs. Kim, of course it will not happen that early, we'll wait until my Jennie here fully recovered. You'll make ayt? You'll live?" She confirmed.
And even if deep inside I know that I can no longer make it, I nod. I agreed, I can't let Lisa down, if she's willing to fight. I'll fight.
My parents apologizes to the doctor and asked him to leave.
Lisa now feeding me fruits when my father walked towards us.
"Lisa sweetheart?" He called Lisa.
"Yes, Sir?" Lisa answered politely that made my father laugh.
"You kid, you basically claimed my daughter as your future wife a while ago and now you're calling me sir? Call me Dad, Lisa." My father sincerely said that warms my heart. I was startled when Lisa hugged my father.
"Thank you Dad! Thank you for trusting Jennie to me." My father also got shocked by the sudden action from Lisa but hugged her back.
"Just call me Mom as well, honey." My Mom joined them to their hug. It made me cry, my parents and the love of my life getting a long with each other.
"Yah! Include me." I jokingly complained and all three pf them laugh but walked towards my direction to include me.
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A/N:
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