•Benefits• {cash} {boyxboy}

By wedontbelieveinyou

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I kinda wish I was buried six feet under but oh g o d I wish I was buried in your arms. c.d&n.g Book One... More

Benefits •cash• boyxboy
Chapter 1: This Is How It All Started
Chapter 2: Youtubers and Secrets
Chapter 3: Appointments
Chapter 4: It Meant Nothing
Chapter 5: Comfort
Chapter 6: Just Friends
Chapter 7: #Nia
Chapter 8: Lia
Chapter 9: House Party
Chapter 10: Drunk Matt
Chapter 11: Catthew
Chapter 12: The Agreement
Chapter 13: Matt Needs Help
Chapter 14: I Only Want You
Chapter 15: Scrabble
Chapter 16: Trailer Trash
Author Note *Important*
Chapter 17: A Chat With Matt
Chapter 18 : New York New York (Part One)
Chapter 19: New York New York (Part Two)
Chapter 20: Happiness
Chapter 21: An Awkward Situation
Chapter 22: Matt's Thoughts
Chapter 23: An Unexpected Visit
Chapter 24: All Good Things Come To An End
Chapter 25: Hatred
Chapter 26: Matt Is A Bit Upset
Chapter 27: Silver Linings
Chapter 28: Friendship Is Key
Chapter 29: Misery
Chapter 30: Breakdown
Chapter 31: Ever Heard Of The Term 'Anger Sex'?
Chapter 32:Wonderwall
Chapter 33: Mr Mendes
Chapter 34: Mr Mendes (Part 2)
Chapter 35: Roof Tops
Chapter 36: Oh
Chapter 37: Closure
Chapter 38: Petty
Chapter 39: Hope
Chapter 40: A Big Mistake And Some Heartbreak
A quick note
Chapter 41: Exile
Chapter 42: Sting
Chapter 43: Uncertainty
Chapter 44: Mini Grier
Chapter 45: Misconception
Chapter 46: All Or Nothing
Chapter 47: Cartah Stahp (Part One)
Chapter 48: Cartah Stahp (Part Two)
Chapter 49: Me And You
Chapter 50: Don't Go
Chapter 51: Light My Fire
Chapter 52: I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off Me
Chapter 53: R U Mine?
Chapter 54: Little Things
Chapter 55: Dalliance
Chapter 56: I Want You To Want Me (Part One)
Chapter 57: I Want You To Want Me (Part Two)
Chapter 58: I Want You To Want Me (Part Three)
Chapter 59: I Want You To Want Me (Part Four)
Chapter 60: I Miss You
Chapter 62: Girl Talk
Chapter 63: Something Big
Chapter 64: Coming Of Age (Part One)
Chapter 65:Coming Of Age (Part Two)
Chapter 66: Coming Of Age (Part Three)
Chapter 67: IFHY
Chapter 68: Shutdown
Chapter 69: Not Again
Chapter 70: Back
Chapter 71: Words
Chapter 72: Forget
Chapter 73: Conversations About Nash
Chapter 74: If Only
Chapter 75: Flashbacks
Chapter 76: Plans
Chapter 77: Flights And Goodbyes
Chapter 78: Ponder
Chapter 79: Angry Cameron
Chapter 80: Love Is A Laserquest
Chapter 81: That's Where You're Wrong
Chapter 82: Teddy Picker
Chapter 83: Breaking Point
Chapter 84: Since Forever
Chapter 85: Just For A Day
Chapter 86: I Would Do Anything For You
Chapter 87: Your Love Will Tear Us Apart
Chapter 88: Still Take You Home
Chapter 89: One For The Road
Chapter 90: Pull Yourself Together
One
Chapter 91: Wedding Bells
Chapter 92: Bittersweet
Chapter 93: Late Night Conversations
Chapter 94: What Came First The Chicken Or The Dickhead?
Chapter 95: Under Pressure
Explanation
Chapter 96: And I Swear I Don't Have A Gun
Chapter 97: I Write Sins Not Tragedies
Chapter 98: It's A Bad Religion
Chapter 99: Tick Where It Hurts
Chapter 100: Epilogue
Ending Notes and Alternative Endings
Soundtrack
We Need To Talk
Asking Me Personal stuff

Chapter 61: Just

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Cameron's POV

My heart dropped. No. She cannot be dead. This doesn't feel real. She can't be gone. She can't. I felt my heart racing and my breathing increase. Time seemed to stop.

"Please tell me you're joking Nash." I said with a choke. I felt my voice shake. My body started to shake too.

Nash came over and engulfed me in a hug. I started to feel myself calm down. It felt good to be in his arms. I buried my head against his chest. Sometimes it was nice that he was taller than me. I felt his grip tighten. I felt my body relax.

"It happened a few hours ago." Nash said softly. I felt a tear trickle down my face. Nash brought us over to the couch. He pulled me on his lap. He wiped away the tear. He then wrapped his arms around my waist.

"I am so so so sorry." I said softly. "Are you okay though?" I asked. Nash didn't look okay. I mean she was his fiancée, fake or not. She was still a person. She was till our friend.

Nash sighed. "I don't know how to feel. I don't know what to feel. I just don't know." He said while shrugging. He rubbed his forehead.

"I think what got to me most was the way her mom and JC reacted. That was heartbreaking. I just couldn't stand to be there. They genuinely cared for her. Now I'm not saying that I don't, I do. Just not in the way they think I do." He said softly.

I let out a sniffle. "Is she who your tweets were about?" I asked. I know this was not the right question or the right time, but the words just came out of my mouth before I could register them.

"What?" Nash asked. He raised an eyebrow.

"All your tweets. I was just wondering if they were about Lia." I asked softly.

It made sense. All his tweets could be about his feelings towards losing her.

Nash sighed.

"Cameron. You know who those tweets were about." He said as if I had just asked the stupidest question in the world.

I shrugged. "I just never know with you." I said while getting off his lap.

Nash stood up. "Why did you want me to come over Cameron? Why?" he asked. I rolled my eyes.

"I don't know Nash. " I said truthfully.

He scoffed. He looked around. "Why are things in boxes?" he asked. Shit. I needed to come up with a good excuse. Now was not the time to tell him.

"I am getting new furniture. Most of this is my mom's so I'm sending it back to her." I lied. I hoped it sounded convincing enough. I really didn't want to lie to Nash but now was not the time for me to tell him. And this is probably going to make things a million times worst when he actually finds out on Saturday.

Nash raised an eyebrow. "Oh." He said softly. He sounded almost relieved.

Suddenly there was a loud knock on my door. I quickly turned around. I paused. The knocking started again. I ran over to the front door. I quickly unlocked it. My eyes widened in surprise.

"Sierra!" I shouted. Much to my surprise, there was my beautiful sister standing in front of me. I pulled her into a gigantic bear hug. "Cameron! I missed you so much!" she exclaimed.

"What are you doing here? Why didn't you tell me that you were coming? I could've picked you up from the airport!" I said. Sierra is just like my mom, always showing up randomly. Not that it bothered me. I loved my sister to death.

"I wanted to surprise you Cammy!" she said while walking in. She lugged around her small suitcase. I quickly took it from her. "Let me get that for you." I said. "Such a gentleman!" she exclaimed. I quickly shut the door behind me.

"Hi Nash." Sierra said. She pulled him in for a quick hug. "It's nice to see you again." He said politely.

Sierra smirked. "You too Nash. Hey Cameron. Was this a bad time for me to come? It looks like you two were in the middle of something." She said with a devilish grin.

Nash raised an eyebrow and then shook his head. "Uh- um no. I was leaving now anyway." He said quickly.

"You were?" I asked. I made sure that he could hear the hurt in my voice.

"Uh um. Yeah. I'll see you at Hayes's right?" he asked. "Yeah." I said simply.

I was still pretty shaken up about Lia's death and now Nash was being all weird.

Nash walked over to the door. "It was nice seeing you again Sierra." He said while giving her a smile.

"Oh you too! Come on. A goodbye hug is in order! You always gave the best hugs." She said. She was right. Nash did always give the best hugs.

Nash smiled and went over to Sierra. He pulled her in a large hug. He smiled as he pulled away.

He then looked over to me. His eyes glanced back and forth between me and Sierra.

He then came over to me and pulled me in for a long hug. I relished in every moment I spent in his arms. I knew that this would probably be the last time I get to hug him like this.

He then pulled away. He looked like he was going to walk away when he suddenly pecked my lips. My eyes widened in shock. My sister was standing right next to me. This wasn't like Nash at all.

"Bye Cam." He said softly. I looked over to Sierra whose eyes were wide open. She had a smirk on her face though.

"Uh. I'll let you out." I said quickly. Nash nodded absently.

I walked in front of him and unlocked the door. He smiled at me as he walked out. I gave him a smile back.

He then pulled me towards him by my waist. I gasped at the sudden contact. He slowly leaned in and placed a soft kiss on my lips. "We'll continue this later Cam." He said while letting go of my waist. He then shot me one last smile before walking away.

It felt like my breath had been taken away from me. I never expected Nash to do something like that, especially not in front of my sister.

I quickly shut the door and turned around to face Sierra.

"What was that about?" she asked with both her eyebrows raised.

I sighed. "Long story." I said.

Sierra raised an eyebrow at me. "Well little brother, you will definitely tell me later. But first, I have some really big news!" she said with a squeal.

"What?" I asked. I wondered what this could be about.

Sierra had a really really big smile on her face.

"I'm pregnant!"

//

QOTD: Who'd your fav from Magcon (Idk what to call this fandom)

-Shawn

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