Cameron's POV
I've been staring at the phone for the past 20 minutes. I was supposed to call my mother and tell her about the BMA modeling thing.
I don't think I have the courage to to tell her that I'm leaving. I don't want to but I know that it's best. I feel that maybe she might not be that angry at me because she moved to Chicago.
And I was okay with her moving to Chicago even though it hurt and I wanted to be close because family means a lot to me.
I slowly dialed her number. As I pressed each number, I started to get more and more nervous.
I was worried about her reaction. I was worried about what she may think. I was worried that she would not want me to be on my own in a foreign country.
"Cameron!" the voice said on the other line.
"Hi mom." I greeted.
"How are you Cameron?"
I hesitated.
"I need to talk to you about something very important that came up." I said.
"Sure what is it honey?" She asked.
"You know when I applied for BMA modeling a few years ago? I asked.
I had applied when I was sixteen. I got rejected though. I was beaten up about it for months.
"Yeah I remember." she said.
"You didn't get in." she continued.
"They just recently offered me a position."
My mom gasped.
"Congratulations!" she exclaimed.
"I am so proud of you!" she said.
"Thank you mom." I said with a smile on my face.
"Only thing is, it's based in London." I said. My mom didn't say anything for a few seconds. "Does that mean you have to move out there?" she asked. I couldn't really tell what the tone of her voice was. She didn't sound angry and she didn't sound sad either.
"Yes it would mean I would have to move out to London, as much as I don't want to leave you all here. I know that this is a very good opportunity for me and I should take it while I still have the chance." I said.
My mom sighed. "I knew this would happen. My little boy is growing up and as much as it pains me to hear that you're leaving, I know that you have to and that it will do very well for you and your career. I am very proud of you. Incredibly proud! I am so so proud of you, have no idea!"
I smiled to myself. "Thank you mom. I appreciate it, I really do."
"So when will you be leaving?" My mom asked. I could hear the sadness in her voice that was now only making itself apparent.
"Two weeks." I said.
I had recently just gotten back from emailing back-and-forth with BMA. They wanted me as soon as possible. I knew that it would take a while for me to gather my things and ship them to London. Plus I still needed to tell all the guys that I was leaving.
Luckily for me BMA has arranged accommodation for me. So I don't have to worry about that.
That still doesn't really make anything that much better right now. Telling my mother that I was leaving made me realize the harsh reality, that I'm actually leaving. Everything feels so real.
"I'm going to miss you." she said.
"I will make sure to fly to LA so I can see you off at the airport." She continued.
"I'd really appreciate that." I said with a smile.
"Have you told anybody else like Nash?" she asked.
I sighed. Why does everybody have such a big issue as to whether or not I told Nash that I'm leaving. Does everyone expect him to be distraught and upset. He chose this. This was his decision. Even though many people don't know that I'm pretty sure it doesn't come off as otherwise.
"I'm planning on telling everybody on Saturday at Hayes' 15th birthday party." I said. My mom sighed.
"You know birthday parties are a celebration. And it wouldn't be very nice of you to ruin everything if you drop the news that you're leaving." she said.
"I know it's not the way I want to do it. But I have to, that's the only time that all the guys will be together.
Everybody from the Magcon family is going to be there. I cannot miss this opportunity to tell everybody that I'm leaving and how much I'll miss them all." I said.
My mom sighed. "Do what you have to do Cameron. Just remember your friends care about you and they will be upset that you're leaving and I happen to think that Nash will just be a little bit more upset than everybody else."
"I know that but I'm doing this for me. This is the one time I'm going to be selfish and take an opportunity like this." I said truthfully.
"I understand. Honey, I must go I will talk to you later. I have to head to work. I cannot be late again. I love you." She said.
"I love you too." I replied.
"I will call you tonight" she said.
"Alright mom bye!" I said while hanging up the phone.
I sighed.
I decided to check Twitter. I had not been on Twitter for quite a while. I know that tweets had been building up and I should let the fans know that I'm not dead.
I open the twitter app and started scrolling through my time line.
I happen to come across a tweet that
Nash had sent out a few hours ago. I know that I should not be prying but I didn't care.
I clicked on his profile and started reading through his tweets. One tweet however caught my eye.
Nash Grier: "It was only ever you."
Another.
Nash Grier: "I miss you more than words can say, unfortunately I'm allowed to say those words"
And another.
Nash Grier: "I'm in love with you and that terrifies me"
And another
Nash Grier: "I cared so much about what everyone else thought that I didn't realize that I lost you."
And then the last one.
Nash Grier: "I only want you"
I quickly closed the app. All my feelings for Nash resurfaced.
I started to dial Nash's number. I don't know why I was doing what I was doing. I don't know what was going through my head but I know that I just needed to hear his voice again.
It rang for quite a while until he answered the phone. My heart was beating really fast.
"Cameron?" He asked. I could hear he was clearly confused.
"I miss you." I blurted out.
The other line was silent.
"I miss you too." he said simplistically.
"Do you want to come over?" I asked. Subconsciously I knew what I was doing. This is the lost time I would probably ever be able to be with Nash the way that I wanted to be. And strangely enough, I was okay with that.
"Sure." He said and then he hung up.
I stared at the phone for a long time wondering why just did what I did. Wondering if it was a good idea. I didn't know. But what I did know that the prospect of just being with Nash, even for a short period of time, made me incredibly happy.
//
There was a light knock at my door. I took a deep breath and walked towards it. I grabbed the keys that were hanging on the wall. I slowly and steadily opened and unlocked the front door.
I swiftly open the door to reveal Nash.
I didn't know what to say. We just stood there for a few seconds.
Nash sighed. "Cameron?" He asked.
I was snapped out of my gaze.
I lunged forward and attached my lips to his. Our lips moved in sync. I pulled him in my apartment. He kicked the door shut.
He pulled away. "Cam. Just stop for a second." He said. I looked up at him. His face was tear stained.
"Is something wrong?" I asked.
He gulped. "I can't do this right now." he said while shaking his head.
"Why?" I asked.
He let out a shaky sigh.
"Lia is dead."
//
QOTD: How do you feel about the fact that Lia kisses Cam in the movie?
-Idk why people are freaking out. They're acting.