di na aq jobless ma, may work na ako. first day ko ngayon hehe
anu work mo?
sa marketing
very gud
Napangiti na lang ako dahil sa reply ni Mama. I told her to tell Papa that I got my first job, which is not actually my job since this is already my second job.
Papa called me; he was still asking me to work on his company, but I refused. I told him to give me a year to earn the position that he will give me for standing on my own; in fact, I really have no plans to work on him.
I know that he will give me a high position, but I don't deserve it. And just thinking that it will be a lot of pressure, mas lalong ayoko, I'm too scared to try new things. Mas gusto ko nga na mag crew na lang dahil paulit-ulit lang ang trabaho at napilitan lang ako mag-apply ng trabaho na connected sa field ko para mapatunayan yung lies ko.
At least may isang true na hehe.
I looked at myself in the mirror with the attire that I bought at the mall. It was quite expensive for me because it was 600 pesos for the set; pikit matang binili ko na lang 'yon dahil 300 pesos lang yung nasa Shopee. Iniisip ko na lang na deserve ko'yon.
I looked professional in this outfit and decent.
Pero hagardo na ang lola niyo hindi pa ako nakakarating sa workplace ko dahil sa sobrang init at siksikan si jeep. Bwisit talaga!
I tapped my identification on the entrance door, and it let me in. Agad na pumunta ako sa restroom para mag-retouch at nagpunas ng pawis. I looked at the mirror, smiled a little bit, and went out.
Pumunta ako sa floor kung saan ako magtatrabaho at pumunta sa cubicle ko. I greeted the other employees, and some greeted me back.
Umupo na ako sa swivel chair ko at huminga ng malalim.
I hope everything will be fine with me.
My first day at work, I was assigned a research project. Hindi pa man nakakahalati ang ang trabaho ko, pero ang sakit na ng utak ko.
My professor was right. Marketing is the hardest field in the company and very stressful. But nevertheless, I'm really happy that I got hired, but not in the workloads.
Chariz.
A break time came, and I was able to complete the task that was assigned to me. I gave it to my senior marketing manager, and she was very happy with the report that I gave her, so she decided to give me another one.
Madam, hinay lang. Parang di ka naman nag grade 7, ang sakit na nga ng utak ko.
Kumain muna ako sa pantry at may libreng pagkain doon. Gumawa lang ako ng sandwich para malamanan ang tiyan ko, at nabusog naman ako kahit papaano.
Bumalik ako sa cubicle ko para gawin ulit yung another report at natapos ko'yon before my end of shift.
"Ma'am, ang sakit sa utak." pabirong sabi ko sa kanya at natawa lang siya.
"My head hurts too; don't worry." "And thanks for your accurate research; it helped me," sabi niya sa akin.
Lahat ng pagod ko ay nawala at mas nagkaroon ako ng motivation na gawin ang trabaho ko. I feel appreciated. It's been so long since I felt that.
"Salamat po ma'am," sinserong sabi ko sa kanya.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako naiiyak, pero masayang masaya ako sa feedback na'yon.
"You can go home now and have a rest." "Thank you, Liah."
Ngumiti ako sa kanya at nag-bow. Bumalik ako sa cubicle ko ay inayos ang gamit ko. Pinatay ko ang PC ko at umalis na rin sa building.
Na-realize ko na hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong company ko pero puro tungkol sa mga kotse ang reports ko, wala rin akong nakitang logo ng company. Itatanong ko na lang bukas.
Dumaan ako ulit sa convenience store para doon kumain. Ang sakit na ng paa ko dahil ang haba ng nilakad ko dahil malayo sa sakayan yung building ng company ko, ang haba pa ng pila dahil rush hour.
Monday is really something else.
After I ate, I went home and rest. Nagtext si Mama at nagtanong sa work ko at sabi ko sa kanya na napuri agad ako, at proud siya sa akin. Papa also asked about me and I told him the same thing.
They were proud of me, and it was enough for me to feel motivated. They have been so supportive of me ever since. I feel lucky to have them; kahit sandamakmak na ang lies na sinabi ko sa kanila, sinusuportahan pa rin nila ako.
Di pala nila alam na nagsisinunaling ako.
I chatted with Waldo and sent him a picture of my first day at work, and he immediately called me.
"How was it?" he asked.
Napangiti ako nang marinig ang boses niya. Miss na miss ko na siya.
"Okay naman, believe sa akin yung senior manager ko, ang galing ko raw at ang ganda ko." sagot ko sa kanya at narinig ko ang pagtawa niya.
"I guess it was a really good first day for you. That's good to hear."
"Yes, po, Father Waldo. Miss na miss na kita, kailan ka magbakasyon dito?" tanong ko.
"Next month, I'll have a one-week break."
"Really? Buti naman!"
We talked about a lot of things, and I asked him if he already had a girlfriend, and he just said 'secret,' which means there is. Wala naman siyang sinabi sa akin kung sino, kaya hindi ko na rin pinilit.
We ended the call after half an hour, and I decided to rest early since I was already sleepy.
Kinabukasan ay pangalawang araw ko sa trabaho. Dealing with the rush hour is more tiring than the job that I have. Hulas na hulas na ako agad pagdating ko sa building.
Muli akong nagre-touch sa restroom bago pumunta sa cubicle ko, pero pumunta muna ako sa pantry para gumawa ng sandwhich dahil gutom na gutom na ako at hindi ako nakapag-almusal dahil wala naman akong kakainin.
Lifesaver ang pantry ng company dahil maraming free foods.
Gumawa ako ng tatlong sandwich at yung dalawa ay binaon ko. Bumalik ako sa cubicle at wala pang trabaho ang ina-assign sa amin, kaya nanood muna ako sa PC ko ng Youtube.
I'm watching Mr. Bean because YouTube suggested me to watch it, and I'm enjoying it.
I literally watched it for two hours because I have no work to do and Miss Via didn't come to me. Naghihintay din ako na may iutos sa akin yung iba, but wala hanggang dumating ang break time ko.
Kinuha ko lang yung sandwich ns ginawa ko sa pantry kanina at yun ang kinain ko sa break time ko. May mga prutas pa dito, kaya kumuha na rin ako.
I went back to my cubicle and chose a movie to watch. I just watched on a not-so-legal site and enjoyed the movie.
I was already in the second half of the movie when Miss Via called me, so I immediately exited the site. Lumapit ako kay Miss Via at wala siyang sinabi at sumunod na lang ako sa kanya.
We went to a room where there were quite a lot of people, and I knew some of them already because they came from the marketing department. I realized that I got called here since I am from the marketing department. Kaya rin walang tao kanina sa department namin.
Para akong sasabak na agad sa giyera dahil sa pagiging seryoso ng mga tao dito.
Miss Via was reporting on the marketing plan of the company, and I seemed to understand it because I'm seeing a logo that is quite familiar to me.
It's Limor cars.
Am in a Limor company? How does that happen? That's impossible.
I sent a lot of applications to different companies, but I don't remember sending one to Limor Cars. I just waited for a call at one of the companies that I applied to, pero wala akong maalala na may sinabing company ang HR na tumawag sa akin, or hindi ko lang talaga napansin.
I was so happy by the fact that I got interviewed and hired. I didn't check anymore what company I got hired because it doesn't matter to me. All I want to do is work for a corporation.
This is really impossible. And there is no way that I will get hired at this big company. Hindi naman ako nag-apply dito, o hindi ko lang napansin? Pero bakit ako maga-apply dito? Walang dahilan.
"Miss Liah Morin, can you explain this to us since you made the report?"
Miss Via called me, and I immediately got nervous. Pangalawang araw ko pa lang, bakit ganto na?
Father Waldo, pray for me.
Since I knew everything in the report, I was able to explain everything. Some of them are asking me, but I was able to answer them. I failed to answer some of the questions because there was missing information, but Miss Via backed me up and immediately came up with a solution.
She made me sit back in my chair, and she's the one to give input for the report.
Yung iba ay nagbibigay na rin ng input pero para silang may hinahabol at hindi ko alam kung ano 'yon.I'm still a rookie, and I don't know how this company works, but I did a lot of research on it, so I know quite a bit about Limor.
Pero ang hindi ko alam kung bakit sila nagagahol kung kami-kami lang naman dito.
"No, no, he will not like this." "I need another input."
Miss Via looks so stressed right now.
"Liah, do you have anything?" Miss Via asked.
I honestly shook my head. "Nag-iisip po ako, ma'am, pero hindi ko po maisip." sagot ko.
She laughed for a bit, even though she was stressed. We're all in the same boat, we already have nothing to contribute because we already gave it all, and I feel like we're in a pressure cooker.
I told Miss Via to give me at least two hours and let me make another report for the needed answer for the whole report of the marketing department, and she let me.
I went back to my cubicle and did more research, gathering all the information I had. Tinawagan ko na si Brielle para matulungan ako at nakapagbigay din naman siya kaya sinama ko na.
It was nerve-wracking for me because I only had two hours, and I don't even know if what I did will help the plan.
I showed it to Miss Via, and she seemed to like it. Other employees in the marketing department were also tasked with making reports, and we all compiled them.
We have another meeting, and everyone of us tells what we have researched and made, and Miss Via came up with the solution because of the inputs that we made.
Pero halos lahat ng informations ay kinuha niya sa report ko.
"In 30 minutes, he will arrive. "Be ready," she said.
Kumunot ang noo ko at hindi ko alam ang tinutukoy niya pero baka taga-Marketing department lang din na mas mataas ang posisyon sa kanya.
Lumabas muna ako ng conference room at pumunta sa pantry dahil nagugutom na naman ako.
Gumawa ulit ako ng sandwhich at nilantakan 'yon. Nag-kape pa ako pero hindi ko na sana ginawa at biglang nag-alburoto ang tiyan ko kaya wala akong nagawa kung hindi napatakbo sa CR.
Sa pinakahuling cubicle ako pumunta at nilabas ang sama ng loob ko. Para akong lalamunin ng lupa sa hiya at kada naglalabas ako ay finaflash ko rin agad para mawala yung amoy.
I never heard anyone entering the rest room, so it made me feel at ease, but I spent 20 minutes in the pantry, and I've already been in this cubicle for 20 minutes!
Ma, ang sakit ng tiyan ko, huhuhu
I still waited for 10 minutes to make sure that I released everything.
Father Waldo, thank you for the bidet.
Pagtapos 'kong maglabas ng sama ng loob ay lumabas na ako. Naghugas ako ng kamay at sandaling napatingin ako sa salamin.
I smiled at the success that I had recently achieved.
I went back to the conference room, and everyone was quiet. I just went back to my place, and our report is already on the screen. There's this man sitting in the swivel chair in front, facing the screen, so I can't see his face.
Yan na ata ang pinaka-head ng Marketing Department.
Miss Via was looking at me, and she looked like she was nervous-not for her, but for me.
Hah?
"Who was that late comer?"
I heard a baritone voice and a familiar voice. It's the voice that I was hoping to hear again, but not in this place or in this situation.
"She's already here, sir." Miss Via said
Miss Via looked at me again, and she made me stand. She just gave me an apologetic smile.
The man who was sitting in that swivel chair turned around and faced everyone, including me. He looked at me with the coldest stare he could muster, having no expression on his face.
"Why are you late?" he coldly asked to me while looking straight into my eyes.
Natikom ang bibig ko, at hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. I felt so embarrassed that I'm getting questioned by him right now in front of everyone.
"Do I need to repeat myself, Miss?" he asked.
Tumikhim ako at huminga ng malalim. "Nag-CR lang po," sagot ko sa kanya.
"Going to the restroom will take you just a few minutes, not 10 minutes."
Is he scolding me right now? For being late? Anong magagawa ko kung taeng tae na ako?
"Naglabas po ako ng sama ng loob, sir." I answered honestly and politely.
He didn't have a rebuttal to it and just asked me about the report.
I have never felt like I was put into a pressure cooker while I was being questioned. Not even when we had a thesis defense, hindi ganito ka-pressure.
Ako lang ba ang employee niya sa marketing department? Bakit ako lang ang tinatanong niya? I'm a rookie! I can't know everything for just two days of my working here; parang kasalanan ko pa na hindi ko alam kung ano yung sinasabi niya.
I sat on the chair after Miss Via backed me up since I already had nothing to say. Nasagot ko ang lahat ng tanong niya mula sa history ng Limor cars hanggang sa success nito, pero yung mga specific answers na kailangan ng numbers ay hindi ko na nasagot. Ano naman ang alam ko doon?
"Make another report. All of this is rejected. Present it to me tomorrow morning at 9 a.m.," he said, and he left the conference room.
Everyone of us let out a deep sigh because all of our reports and efforts were useless.
We exited the conference room, and Miss Via went to me.
"Are you okay?" she asked.
Ngumiti ako at tumango. "Okay lang po," sagot ko sa kanya.
Viktor went hard on me and kept asking me questions that were beyond my knowledge, and he didn't accept any answers. There should always be an answer to his question, and whenever I answer it wrong, he will give me another question connected to the answer that I gave him.
Para niya akong ginisa kahit walang mantika.
Yung iba ay layo pa ng sagot ko sa tanong niya kaya gusto ko na kang maiyak kanina dahil para akong napahiya. Buti na lang ay sinalo ako ni Miss Via.
"Don't get him wrong. He's always like that with his employees. Ikaw lang ang napag-initan diyan dahil late ka for the meeting." Sabi ni Miss Via
Tumango na lang ako, kahit alam ko naman na pag-iinitan niya talaga ako, kahit hindi naman ako late.
Bumalik ako sa cubicle ko at imbis na umuwi na ako ay gumawa ako ng panibagong report. Asa naman na gagawin ko 'yon sa bahay, masasayang pa ang data ko at dito na lang.
I worked over time for three hours and saved my file. Ako na lang ang nandito sa floor namin, at medyo madilim na. Inayos ko na yung gamit ko at tinahak na ang papunta sa elevator.
I waited for the elevator to open, and maybe I was born to be unlucky.
I entered the elevator quietly. Pumwesto ako sa bandang harap dahil nasa likod siya. Pinindot ko ang ground floor at nagdasal na makalabas ako ng mabilis sa elevator na 'to.
Nang bumukas na ang elevator dahil nasa ground floor na ako at lumabas agad ako at mabilis na naglakad.
Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko at huminga ng malalim dahil sa kaba. Para akong bibitayin kanina dahil sa presensya niya.
His presence is too strong for me to handle. Hindi naman ganito noon, pero siguro dahil malaki na siyang tao at mahirap na siyang abutin kaya ganito ang nararamdaman ko.
We didn't see each other for two and a half years, and I only saw him on television or online.
At siguro kaya ganito rin ang nararamdaman ko dahil may nagawa akong kasalanan sa kanya. Hindi ko pa rin napapatawad ang sarili ko kaya mabigat pa rin 'yon sa akin.
Hay, ewan ko ba. I should move on now. Pero paano kung siya naman ang laging nasa isip ko, pati nga panaginip ko ay siya rin.
Bahala na nga.
Tinahak ko ang kahabaan ng daan papunta sa sakayan at wala na rin namang masyadong pila dahil late na rin.
Bumaba na ako ng jeep at muli namang naglakad hanggang sa kalapit na convenience store sa bahay. Bumili na ako ng pagkain at kumain na rin dito.
Pagod na pagod na ako at antok na antok. Mas nakakapagod pa ang trabahong 'to kaysa sa pagiging fast food crew. Pagod na utak ko, pagod pa katawan ko.
After I ate, I just stayed here for a while and rested my head on the table. I closed my eyes, and my plan was to just rest, but I took a nap for almost half an hour, and the staff of the convenience store woke me up.
Bigla na lamang akong nahiya at humingi ng pasensya at okay lang naman sila dahil konti lang din naman ang mga customer.
Lumabas na ako at umuwi ng bahay. Hindi na ako nagbihis at deretso na akong natulog.
A hell day indeed, and it will be hellier for the next few days.