"I think hyung should be the one who will tell to you" He said.
"But, I really want to know" I whined.
"I don't have a right. Jiminie-hyung will be mad at me"
"Okay"
"Just forget about that, just enjoy the night. Can we have a toast?" He asked me, but I don't drink. How would I say yes nor no to him? "I think you don't drink" he continued.
"Ani, I'll try tonight. You know, I want an experience" I said.
"So, cheers?" He lift up his glass of wine.
"Cheers!" I said and we both toast. I tried to drink. It's not bad, it tasted like a juice. I drink slowly. Jungkook looked at me with a smile on his face.
"Is it good?"
"Kinda" He stood up looking again at me then he offered his hand on me.
"Can we dance?" He's really formal, a sweet friend.
"Eh? O-okay" I stood up too holding his hand.
"There's a pianist playing the piano. He really prepared for this.
[Now playing: Spring Day Piano Version by DooPiano]
I just enjoyed the music. Jungkook placed my hands on his shoulder, while him; he placed his hands on my waist. Gosh, the feeling is so different. I've never been danced by a man.
"First time?" He asked me. He's looking in my eyes, I'm not comfortable when I have an eye contact with someone.
"Uh... yeah" I said.
"You know, you're still beautiful. I really waited for this time" he said.
"Huh?"
"It's been years Haesoo, I missed you. I still remember the day when you rejected me" He said while laughing.
Yes, Jeon Jungkook. The son of a rich bussinessman in Seoul, Korea was my suitor back when I am in Junior High. The most handsome and gentleman in our school. The boy that every girls in the campus loves. All girls are inloved with him, excluding me. I rejected him, he was deeply inloved with me back then. I rejected him 'cause I still don't know what relationship and love is. I'm so young, I'm not ready.
"I'm sorry for that" I apologized.
"Don't be sorry. I know you're not ready" He said.
"Sorry 'cause I didn't gave back the love you have given me"
"It's okay" He smiled at me. "Can I ask you something?"
"Anything"
"Do I still have a chance?" He looked at my eyes again, this time I did an eye contact with him. I saw those eyes, he's very serious.
"I don't know" after I said that, he hugged me. My face is resting on his chest now.
"I'll wait" Please, don't wait. I might hurt you again.
We stayed like this, no one spoke. He finally let go of me.
"We should go home now" He said.
"Yeah, we have classes tomorrow"
He sent me home, I thanked him for what he did.
"Is your date fun?" Jimin appeared just like a mushroom in the rain.
"Yeah" I said.
"I see, you're smiling while I watch you walking lately" he said, his tone is different. The tone is completely different, no emotions.
"Annyeong, Haesoo!" Jungkook came and sat beside me. "How's your day?"
"Uh, kinda good" I replied.
"Oh! Hi hyung!" He greeted Jimin.
"I said don't call me hyung" Then Jimin left.
"What's his problem?" I asked.
"I don't know" He shrugged.
It's been a month, Jungkook and me are always together. He always hangs out with me. We are always together. I guess I already know him. I'm getting to know him little by little as we're always together; everyday.
I just noticed that Jimin was not talking to me these weeks, he just ignores me when I call him.
Today, I'm walking through the streets of Seoul. We don't have classes so I insist my Eomma to let me be the one who will shop to the grocery since we don't have foods in our fridge.
Smelling the scent of Seoul, it really feels good. As I enjoyed the scent, I called Jimin so that we can shop together.
I find for my phone and touched the '0' number. I called for Jimin the he picked it up after a minute of me waiting for him.
"Yah! What took you so long?" I shouted through the line.
"Wae?" He asked. His voice again, no emotion.
"Can you shop with me today?" I please hoping him to join me.
"Sorry but I'm busy"
"What?"
"I'm sorry. I'm busy, we can shop next time"
"Why not now?"
"I said I'm busy right?"
"Yah? What's your problem?"
"Nothing, Bye" he ended the call so fast. What's his problem?
I just shrugged what just happened. I entered the grocery store. I put all the things we need to the cart in front of me. I am now at the middle of the store when I saw a chocolate and sweets in front of me.
"Eomma, sorry but I'll buy these" I mumbled to myself as I picking up some sweets. I paid the things I bought then went out.
"Gosh, so heavy" I whined. "But it's okay. It's my choice"
I decided to walk. I just feel to walk right now.
While walking, I saw a familiar guy. He's with a girl.
I gasped when I saw that the guy is..... Jimin.
They are both walking, Jimin's hands on her waist. The girl is so close to his face. The girl keep on kissing his jawline. Why do they flirt in public?
I tried to call Jimin.
"Hello?" I said to the line. I saw Jimin signing her a 'shh' then the girl nodded.
"Yes?" As always, his voice is so different. No tone.
"Where are you?"
"In my house, trying to sleep"
"Okay"
"Do you want me to go there?"
"No need"
"Okay" I immediately ended the call. Why do I feel this? A little bit mad.
I hid as I watch them flirting. The girl is so sexy, a beautiful one. They both entering a building. A building with a '모텔 (Motel)' sign. As they entered, Jimin kissed her.
Oh, why do I feel this?
I immediately found a cab, I said the address of my home.
I placed the bags on the table ignoring mom. I ran as fast as I could and entered my room.
I let my body lay on my bed. I want to cry, I really want to cry. But I can't. My room is not soundproof, Eomma will just hear me crying. I don't want her to hear me.
So, I really don't understand myself now. Why do I feel this? I keep on saying those words to my mind, I want to find an answer.
I locked the door, I hid behind the blanket and rest my face on the pillow. I cried as much as I can.
Is it Jealousy? No, he's just my bestfriend. I can't take it anymore, he's been ignoring me. It's been three weeks. So, this is the reason? She already got a girl?
My phone ringed. I didn't picked it up, I'm not in my mood. But after 5 rings, I decides to pick it up.
I saw Jungkook's face on the screen. I cleared my throat, I wipe away my tears, I tried not to sniff.
"Yeobeoseyo?" (Yeobeoseyo is way of saying hello when you're talking in the phone)
"Yeobeoseyo" I said.
"How are you Haesoo?"
"Uh.... I-I'm o-okay" I said between hiccups.
"Are you really okay?" His voice sounds worried.
I can't take it, I cried through the line.