Abby's pov:
"Baby?"
Quiet.
"Baby where are you?"
No answer.
Going down the stairs and looking for my future girlfriend I wore a grin on my face; remembering last night's events.
Yesterday Sofie fell asleep at my place.
It was so fun!
we watched funny movies, made pizza, sang Karaoke, danced. It was a lot of fun.
Stuff been better for the past few weeks. Sofie's relationship with her mother started to improve -Sofie says it's because of what I said to her, but you know... Whatever.- She thinks I made her realize something, we just don't know what that something is.
I met her father a few more times too, (he's very nice), I tried calling him Mr. Cabello in all of them but he just laughed and asked me to call him Ale. He says Mr. Cabello makes him sound older then he is. And then of course Sofie had to be Sofie and say: "but you are old dad".
So,
as you can tell...
things are pretty well!
I haven't met Camila yet, which is good. I think.
Sofie said I acted wired these past two days, I told her it was nothing, which she didn't believe at all but let go.
*sigh*
I couldn't tell her.
Could I?
No.
No of course not.
Not yet.
I can't tell her yet.
"Babe?!" I yelled, already reaching to the last stair, looking around a bit, trying hard to listen to the voices and hear where they're coming from.
"No way! she did that?!" I can hear my baby laugh.
The living room.
Of course. How didn't I think of that first?!
I opened the door slowly, looking from the crevice of the (discreetly) opened door. They were all sitting together. Mom was there too (cause it's a Saturday, I mean, why the hell not, right?). Sofie was sitting on the end of the couch, a small giggling Lia was sitting in her lap. Ilay and Maya were playing on the carpet with Ilay's train, (which I bought him for Christmas last year by the way), Amanda was sitting next to them, a cup of -maybe coffee- in her hands as she's talking, telling some kind of story. Cuddled up to her, we have the beautiful blonde-brownish Emalia. She has a cup of her own and she's sipping out of it like it's the love of her life. And if I know my sister well, -which I know very, very well...- it must be hot chocolate, (especially since she's always cold). On the armchair my mom is sitting comfortably, her legs are crossed together as she sips out of her cup of coffee -which I have absolutely no doubt that it's coffee- (my mom loves coffee), laughing along to whatever wired story Amanda tells. I make an effort to eavesdrop better so i can hear the story myself. Something about a girl who didn't want to go on the carousel cause she was scared of heights, but went on it anyway with a cute boy she liked and then puked her guts all over the boy after agreeing to ride with him on it...? Lame little girl.
It sounds like a familiar story though...
Wait a freaking minute-
"Amanda!! You promised you'll never tell that story ever again!" I yelled, practically whining, not caring any longer that I blew my cover. They all turned around to look at me as Amanda giggled.
"Come on! It's the best embarrassing story I have on you!" Amanda groaned, making her cuddle buddy and Sofie's cuddle buddy to laugh along with mom.
"Hey baby, you're awake." Sofie smiled at me.
Oh my god! her smile.
Holy-
"Well obviously." I rolled my eyes.
Oh right...
I'm supposed to be mad. Amanda just told an embarrassing story about me.
For a minute I forgot.
I swear it's her smile. It just- ugh! Drives me crazy.
"Aww, baby! Don't be like that." Sofie pouted at me.
There goes my heart.
Oh my god.
If she won't stop pouting in about;
Three...
Two...
On-
"Here, I made you hot chocolate." She smiled at me, her: gorgeous-amazing-room lighter-smile.
Okay, that I can't handle.
I cracked a smile, which only got bigger and bigger.
"Thanks Sofe." I tilted my head to the ground to hide my blush.
She smiled even bigger at me. I could see my mom smirking from the other side of the room.
I took the cup she was offering me with her unoccupied hand as I sat beside her and Lia.
Ilay and Maya ran to my arms as soon as they acknowledged me, saying a quick 'good morning' before going back to their game. "I wanna join!" Lia whined and ran off of Sofie's arms to the ground, playing and laughing with her siblings as they play with the train. Amanda and mom picked a new conversation about some high school bullshit.
Sofie and I just stared at each other for a while until I felt her hand squeezing my hip. I understood immediately. Also, I desperately wanted to do that since I entered the living room, so obviously, I understood what she wanted. Slowly, I helped Sofie pull myself into her lap. She immediately wrapped her arms around me protectively.
I feel like this Is an amazing time to stop everything, just to tell you all how much I love my life:
*cough cough*
*trying to look official in my imagination*
I love my life!!!
But then, I remembered one important thing.
That thing that was distracting me all week. That thing that had Sofie wondering why i was acting strange the past few days.
Every single time I remember what day it is in three days, I freeze for a few seconds.
I feel so guilty for being happy.
How can I freaking be happy?!
I am such a horrible person.
"You okay Abzi?" Sofie whispered in my ear, which my body reacted to without my permission and send shivers down my spine.
"Yeah baby. Yeah I'm okay." I said and gave her a peck on the lips. Getting back to zoning off straight after. The room went quiet. What's wrong?
And then it hit me.
Oh my god.
I just kissed Sofie!
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OMG
OM-
"Abby?" She whispers.
You could hear a pin drop in this room. Everyone was watching us. Shocked.
Fuck.
I didn't came out to my family!
Should I even come out?
I mean, I'm not gay!
I'm not.
Right?