It's a hard thing to imagine how somebody copes with grief and at the same time has to build a new life. ~ Caitriona Balfe
*after the funeral at Mena's Residence*
Ma Sonia's Pov
Today was a hard for everyone especially Erica. Since the funeral she has been locked in her room no matter who checks on her she run them away including Bey, she wants nobody around her except for king and blue. She doesn't want to eat all she does is cry and sleep and has been doing so for the past 9 hours. i'm starting to worry about my baby girl and bey is too.
Me: How are you holding up mija? *sitting down rubbing her back*
Bey: I have a migraine with a little vicks i'll be fine *faintly smiles*
Me: Never underestimate the power of vicks child but other than that i have you talked to Erica since earlier?
Bey: Ma honestly i haven't *looking down* she's been locked in her room all day and won't let me in its like i don't exist too her i feel like ugh * tears roll from her eyes*
Me: Baby show her that you are there for her no matter. Show her how much you love her
Bey: Ma i'll try for the sake of my sanity
Ma: *kisses her forehead* i think she wants you to rescue her
Bey's Pov
" i think she wants you to rescue her" rang in my ears over and over as i contemplate on how to show my wife i love and care for her .
Then light bulb blow up in my head, "I'll write her a love letter knock and slid it under the door" i said to myself
Ma sonia: Que escribes niña? ( what are you writing baby girl)
Me: I'm writing her a love letter i think will make her see that i love her and she'll come out her room
Ma Sonia: as long as it come from the heart
just as ma sonia said that i got a text from cyn
*Text from Cynnamon*
Cyn: Hey bey bey, How is she doing
Beybear: Cyn in all honesty she is shutting down and shutting everybody out
Cyn: Damn Meet At Chiptole on 37th ave
BeyBear: iight i'll be there in an hour
i decided to go in my all white Giuseppe fit with my Chanel shades and clutch i did in simple up do with little to no make-up one its sexy on me two its hot as hell in Miami. I gave king and blue a kiss on the cheek and told them to behave for gramma and keep an eye mommy for me
Me: if anyone asks for me tell them i went for lunch with Auntie Cyn *kissing both their foreheads*
King&blue: Yes mama be safe
With that I hopped in my all white jeep wrangler Erica got me for our engagement the night she purposed to me
I put 2235 SW 37th Ave, Miami, FL 33145 in the GPS and I shoot Erica a text letting her know i'll be back in and hour but also letting her know i love her
Mrs.Knowles : How do I tell you I love you? Those words are so hollow compared to how I feel about you. I could pour over many languages and not find enough words to convey the appropriate feeling. I surrender to you. I give you my heart; I've allowed you into my soul. I've laid everything I am, and everything I want to be at your feet. I trust you to take care of those things I hold most precious. I trust you because you've earned it. You've earned my faith. I will walk your path with perfect trust that your heart is big enough for both of us.
with that i exited the imessage app clicking apple music and played Spending the night alone
Me: *with these heavenly vocals* Those kisses never seem to fade away I can feel em on my face They still feel perfect That's why I can't go another day Love it when I see you smile Happy just to be there Even when you're down girl I've been needing you around girl yeah yeah But you been missing for too long And I ain't ready to move on I'm calling all your friends to Help me find you baby She got me laying here by the phone I can't keep spending the night alone I've got all I could ever want But it just ain't enough if it ain't you baby Driving past your mama's house Hoping just to catch a Short glimpse of you And I'll be hoping that you don't find out How much it's killing me girl Please girl, my heart can't take another day, no no no no no
The DJ interrupts to shoutout Nicki and Aaliyah with their new song same old love i decided add to my apple music. I arrived at chipotle waiting from cyn. About 20 minutes later Cyn puled up looking sexy as fuck
Nicki let her out the house like this with all that ass jesus! GET IT TOGETHER YONCE!! I see why Erica was drooling over her shit i am too like she's fucking beautiful im really considering doing this three-way with her and Erica cause my my my cyn and Erica together in a bed is like watching Erica fuck herself . My thoughts were interrupted when Cyn walked up and hugged me
Cyn: Hey Bey
Me: hey baby girl *hugging back*
Cyn: i wanted to talk to you about this threesome we suppose to have and last time you and Erica all wet you see when i left your house i fucked the soul out of nicki *squeezing her legs together*
Me: I've been thinking about it lately especially because it might cheer Erica up a bit and i wrote her this letter *handing cyn the letter*
*the Letter reads*
dear the love of my life ,
Erica my love I'm so very worried about you and how you are doing overall. I'm just so very concerned and I can't sleep as I just lay here hoping that you are okay. I know I don't do a great job always of communicating and telling just how much I want to be there for you and listen helping to heal all of your wounds and I am so very sorry for that my sweet dear. I worry because I know you are hurting and I need to know if you are okay over all. I am so very worried because I love you so much and I care for you deeply with all of my soul, my mind, my body, and my heart. You are my Angel and diamond in the rough and I just want to hold you and tell you I am with you always and forever and everything is okay. I love you and can sense so many things you are feeling and I hope you can feel that same connection as clear as I can. I believe that you do and I can feel all of your immense deep love and infinite caring and I'm sending you all of my love and warmth to give your heart peace and deep comfort. Erica please remember I am here for you and I give you all of myself in true love so pure and truly trusting.
Cyn: damn bey this will seriously make her love you more
Me: its not finish yet and why we at chipotle you know Nicki will skin your ass *laughing a bit*
Cyn: She ain't gon do shit once it ain't a burrito *smirking*
Me: Cyn isn't that nicki now
Cyn: *jumped and go scared*
Nicki: Hey Baby what you doing here *raising an eyebrow*
Cyn: Nothing real hanging with bey and talking about Erica on how we can cheer her up
Nicki : That's nice do that threesome thing you were talking about i gave you permission already so do that but baby i'm in a rush to get to this power 105 interview with liyah so i'll see whn i get home *kissing cyn passionately*
Cyn: kay babe *moaning into the kiss* Love you too
Nicki: *hugging me* Bye Bestie *going the hand shake*
We all left chipotle and i headed home to finish my letter to Erica. I pulled into the driveway and when straight inside and to work. When i finished the letter i knocked erica's room door and slid the letter under her door and walked away.
Erica's Pov
i decided to take a shower and put my pj's on as i got comfy in bed and started crying again I heard someone knocked on my door as I was about to say go away for the hundredth time i saw something slip under my door frame, i decided to see what what it was, i wiped my tears getting out of bed seeing that it was letter but from who? That's when i decided to open it
*Opens letter and it reads*
Dear Jassy,
The first time I met you your nervous laugh made me nervous. You made me feel as though there was nothing I could say that could articulate the waves in my stomach. I was taken back by your smile & the words you spoke. You're beautiful & it radiates from inside you.The first time I met you my stomach was lifted into my throat by one million butterflies & I nearly lost my shit. You caught me joking about what I would do to you if I got you alone & you laughed. I caught you watching me & laughed as well. I want to get under your skin. I want to listen & absorb your idea's/ideals. I want to study the geography of your body. I want to start a revolution with you. I want to write secret notes on your back as you sleep next to me. The sparkle in your eyes was equivalent to a million stars, I can't stand to see you hurting or feeling so low and down. You are a beautiful Queen who means everything to me. Erica my love I'm so very worried about you and how you are doing overall. I'm just so very concerned and I can't sleep as I just lay here hoping that you are okay. I know I don't do a great job always of communicating and telling just how much I want to be there for you and listen helping to heal all of your wounds and I am so very sorry for that my sweet dear. I worry because I know you are hurting and I need to know if you are okay over all. I am so very worried because I love you so much and I care for you deeply with all of my soul, my mind, my body, and my heart. You are my Angel and diamond in the rough and I just want to hold you and tell you I am with you always and forever and everything is okay. I love you and can sense so many things you are feeling and I hope you can feel that same connection as clear as I can. I believe that you do and I can feel all of your immense deep love and infinite caring and I'm sending you all of my love and warmth to give your heart peace and deep comfort. Erica please remember I am here for you and I give you all of myself in true love so pure and truly trusting.I love you and I'm worried about you. Please let me know how you're doing while I take your hand and hold you close to me stroking your hair and saying it's okay because I'm with you I love you with all my heart and I'm going out of my mind in concern for you. I want to be right there to protect my one, fight and defend my precious one. I need to know you're okay I want to be the one you turn to forever no matter what. I want to be your hero through thick and thin. I love you Erica Jasmine Mena-Knowles and I'm so worried it's true. I'd give my whole life just for you I'm worried and it's killing me because my heart needs to know you're well or if there's something I can help you with. My sweet precious jassy I am always here for you, just trust me because my heart and life are yours. I love you and need you in my arms. I worry because I care about you in the greatest way there can ever be. You are my Angel and only love. You're my everything and I can't take not knowing what's up with you or being here not seeing and holding you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
YOUR LOVING AND WORRIED WIFE,
Bey
After reading the letter i opened the door and went straight to her room and knocked on the door and waited for her to open it as i was about to walk away and isolate myself again she opened the door and hugged me like she hasn't seen me in forever and i just melted in her arms.
Me: i miss you so much *holding on for dear life*
Bey: I missed you so much princess *kinda crying* i missed you beautiful face and smile so much I didn't know how I would handle this frustrating separation.
Me: *curling up under bey falling asleep*
Bey: *kissing her cheeks and playing in hair and humming until they are fully asleep*
To Be Continued
(i know its was a long wait but here it is what y'all think vote and leave a comment)