Shawn
I lazily walk into my last period of the day and knew that this was gonna be another class that I nap in today. I yawned as I sat in my seat and tried my best to pay attention to the teacher, but my eyes slowly began to close until I couldn't hold back any longer and I put my head down, slowly falling into a deep sleep...
"Don't do it! Please don't! I'm sorry, ok?!!" I exclaim at the tops of my lungs, but she didn't hesitate to climb over the railing.
"You tortured me every day! Give me one good reason why I shouldn't just jump and end it?!!" She exclaims with tears streaming down her red cheeks from the cold.
"I bothered you every day because I didn't want to admit to myself that I was falling for you..." I trailed off.
"W-what?..." she croaked in disbelief.
"I was so hurt from the past and when I began to develop the same feelings for a different person, I couldn't admit it to myself because I didn't want to get hurt again..." my voice cracks as I look up to her face of total surprise.
"Y-You're lying! Stop lying to me, Shawn! I've had enough!" She yells and furiously wipes her face, but she loses her balance.
"Y/n, watch out!! No!" I scream at the top of my lungs and dart to her before she could fall.
"Shawn! Don't l-let me go! Please help me!" She pleads desperately as my both hands grip onto her arm.
"I won't let go! But you have to climb up!" I say as I pull her, but her sleeve rips and a blood curdling scream is heard as I don't feel her warmth in my hands any longer.
"Nooo!! Y/n!!"
I jolt awake with my body shaking in fear and the students stare me down as if I were some mental patient. My breathing was going crazy and my heart beat was going at an inhumane rate. The teacher scolded me with her eyes and when I heard the bell ring, I bolted out of class. My mind was set on one person and I knew her schedule like the back of my hand.
I headed for the familiar hallway and people looked back, but went back to what they were doing because they didn't want to get into any trouble. This is why I fell for her... because she never hesitated to talk back or to defend what's hers. Everyone else here feared even the thought of me, but she didn't hesitate to tell me to fuck off.
"Where are you, y/n?" I asked myself and I suddenly remembered that it was the last period, so she was heading home.
Flashback...
"You tortured me every day! Give me one good reason why I shouldn't just jump and end it?!!" She exclaims with tears streaming down her red cheeks from the cold.
"I bothered you every day because I didn't want to admit to myself that I was falling for you..." I trailed off.
End of flashback...
"I'm so sorry, y/n..." I whisper to myself as I run on the sidewalk to her house.
I run and in a split second it felt as if everything stopped when I saw her walking. Everything came back to me and I ran to her and wrapped my arms around her as if it was the last time I could do such a thing. She gasped and her earphone fell out of her ear as my arms tugged at the cord.
"Don't move y/n...please," I whispered and when she heard my voice, I heard her gulp.
"S-Shawn?..." she said barely above a whisper and I furrowed my eyebrows as I felt my nose burn from me wanting to cry.
She followed my order in fear and she stayed still while I stayed in the same position with my arms tightly wrapped around her. When I thought enough was enough, I pulled away while turning her around to face me.
"Y/n..." I reached for her again and she shut her eyes.
"I-I'm not gonna hurt you," I croak, but she doesn't bring herself to look up at me.
I slowly and gently put my fingers under her chin, tilting her head so she could look at me. When her eyes met mine, I couldn't help but smile. She furrowed her eyebrows in confusion and my hand moved to the back of her neck. My fingers softly massaged the back of her neck and she sighed, making her gasp and pull away.
"What do you want, Shawn?" She asks and I look down as my hand comes to my side again.
"If you're here to tell me how bad my outfit looks today or how stupid I am, then j-just save it, ok?!" She reacts and I cross my arms on my chest.
"If any insulting remark comes out of your mouth, god so help me I will..." she trails off, but hesitates as I come closer to her.
"You'll what?..." I whisper and I tell myself to back off a bit, but I just want to see her reaction.
"I-I'll... I'll... ugh..." she groans and my hand moves to her cheek.
"Y/n... I'm gonna make a promise to you right now and I don't care what your reaction is going to be because either way, you'll have the same outcome," I begin and she just studies my face as my hand stays in it's spot.
"I promise to you that I will never ever treat you like that again... the only reason why I was treating you that way was because..." I hesitate and take myself back to my past, but when her hand wraps around my wrist, I come back to reality.
"I-I'm sorry, I didn't m-mean..." she apologizes while removing her hand.
"The one who is supposed to be saying sorry right now isn't you, y/n, it's me..." I look down and my arm drops to my side again.
I then feel my eyes sting with tears and I don't even try to hold them back anymore. My tears flow freely as I drop to my knees in utter regret. My arms wrap around her as my cheek pressed up against her stomach and I sobbed for forgivness.
"I-I'm so sorry, y/n... I never meant to hurt you so b-bad! I thought that if I put in my head that it was possible to hate you, the more I fell for you. Every time I told myself that I hated you, I actually loved you even more... I need you, y/n... my life is incomplete without you," I confess and I open my eyes when I feel her hand rest upon my head.
"I'm so sorry, y/n... I know that you probably won't forgive me right now, but I'll wait for you... no matter how long it takes, I'll be waiting," I croak and close my eyes in serenity as I feel her fingers move through my hair.
My eyebrows furrow as I feel a drop of water hit my forehead when I look up. My stomach turns as I see her crying, but I become confused as she smiles. I stand up on my two feet again and tilt her head to face me, but before I could say anything, her arms wrapped around me in a tight embrace.
"You idiot! I hate you!" She yelled and I hugged her back with the same passion.
"I love you too, y/n..." I whispered and we stood there until she pulled away by pushing me and gripping my shirt again pulling me in, but this time our faces came so close.
"You're such an idiot..." she whispers before our lips crashed together in a passionate kiss.
It took me a second to process what was happening before my lips molded with hers and my hands gripped her hips. Her hands moved from the fist of my shirt to my neck making the kiss deepen. Our lips moved perfectly against each other and our bodies fit together like a puzzle piece.
We eventually pull away and she puts her forehead on my chest while I listen to her heavy breathing. My cheek rests upon her head as she puts her cheek against my chest. We stood in each other's arms for what felt like hours before pulling away.
"I love you so much, y/n..." I whisper as I look into her eyes and I smile when she smiles.
"Yeah? Well, I hate you, so hah," she grins and I chuckle.
"I hate you more," I reply and she giggles while biting her lip.
"I love you most," she whispers and gives me a peck on my cheek making her tippy toe.
That afternoon I walked her home and we went through a lot since that day and I hope that in the future we can still hate each other the same way we did this day.
Looks like you're an idiot too, y/n...
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What... the... actual... fuck...
I'M NOT CRYING... YOU ARE!!😭
-leslie