Summary: Having skipped your period for about 4.5 months straight scares you and your husband to which he drives you to the clinic only to get the news that you are diagnosed with PCOS because of which your chances of conceiving are supposedly gonna be low.
Warning: mild angst/fluff
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SEOKJIN:
The moment you two step out of the clinic, you couldn't help but cry your balls out realizing how you can't even be successful at what your body is naturally designed to give.. A LIFE!
Although no matter whatever tragedy strikes your path, your man surely knows how to handle your emotions well.
Holding your hand and your waist firmly he takes you inside the car, where he lends his shoulder for you to cry on for as long as it takes for you to subside in the pain. As much as he himself would be tormented on the inside by the news, he'd still try to overpower his emotions just for the sake of your happiness.
"It's okay jagi....let it out on me"
NAMJOON:
He him himself would be kinda lost at words as soon as he'd learn about your problem.
For the initial few days after your visit at the clinic, the two of you would be in denial, not exactly knowing what to say or where to start the discussion from.
Without having ample of support from your own partner's side you'd end up locking yourself in the guest's room, skipping meals and work which would cause namjoon to worry about you a lot.
Plopping on the swing in your backyard and thinking why you had to go through such a tragedy, the warmness on top of your shoulders would daunt you.
"Stop thinking about it so much, jagiya.. we can't do much for things that aren't in our control"
His words were enough for you to break yourself down. The tears you had somehow abstained from falling down in front of him now pour down non stop..
"I'm sorry" you whisper through your painful sobs, "I always knew I'm not worth being your wife, joon.. I'm so sorry for being an invalid"
"Shh.." "stop speaking non sense to me alright. I didn't marry you to listen to this! I married you because I wanted a beautiful life partner whom I can trust till my last breath.. you're worth everything to me"
YOONGI:
Yoongi would completely get scared seeing you crying non stop since hour arrival at home back from the hospital.
He hasn't really seen you sobbing so oftenly, he's always known the jolly y/n who instead makes people's day happy no matter how hard life might be for her..
"Y/n.. jagiya" he'd hold you by your shoulders seeing you shivering and trembling due to constant crying, "stop worrying please.. life is all about ups and downs. We've crossed so many barriers together and I'm sure we'll get past through this too"
HOSEOK:
"Sohye gave birth to twins"
That's one statement that you should have claimed with enthusiasm instead of almost letting it pass through your lips in dismay.. SHE'S YOUR SISTER AFTER ALL!
but as they say misery only finds a miserable company..
Yes you were feeling miserable of calling yourself an aunt, a sister, a wife who was being jealous of all those mother's out there who were very well healthy and fit to nurture a life made solely by them!
Your husband almost freezes at your statement since it came out so sad but realizing what you had just said, he smiles blabbering good wishes to her and the babies.
"That's a good thing.. was it a natural birth or-"
"It was natural.. everything went fine. She's fine, the babies are fine, the husband is fine.. everything is fine but my body" you cut him as you randomly blabber out your in grown frustration on him.
Hoseok looks at you confused at first but it doesn't takes him long as to what you were trying to infer..
He sits next to you on bed, sighing at how upset and harsh you've been with yourself lately.
"Jagiya.. stop hurting yourself so much. How will this work if my y/n blocks herself out like this, huh?" Caressing your hands and planting a kiss, he'd continue, "the doctor said it'll be difficult for us but not impossible, right.."
JIMIN:
Like namjoon, even he'd be a lost case, not clearly understanding how to take care of you during such time when you most needed him.
At first he would be happy the time when you had missed your periods since he'd take it in for you being pregnant but the tests showed up negative and time skipped with you still not getting your monthly.. that's when you get the news of you being dysfunctional-- well that's what you called yourself now.
"Y/n-ah.. I was thinking if we should watch that favorite movie of yours?"
He'd try to make up your mood.. Saying he was broken by the news and your condition would be an understatement.. he himself cried in the washroom for you to not notice but being the gentleman he is, he knew that crying and whining wouldn't help heal the wounds and specially not when his precious wife wants him by his side.
Kissing your cheeks and taking you in a warm hug, he'd turn the laptop on, "you know I wanted to watch that movie again since so long!" He'd try distracting you from the internal pain if that's all it takes to cheer you up.
TAEHYUNG:
He'd surely be the one more terrified about the news than you'd be since having kids is one thing he's always dreamt about.
Crying yourself out since the day you visited your doctor and being in denial by not talking to your husband is surely what would shatter tae's heart into pieces more than you having pcos.
Failing to talk it over to you, the boy would enter the room with you sulking by the edge of your bed, sitting on the foot mat with your head buried into your laps.
"Y/n.. quit crying for god's sake!"
Hearing his voice reverberating pricked deep into your soul. You knew how much of a disappointment you must have been to his dreams.
Raising your head and turning it around to meet his face, you bore your eyes into his dark orbs,
"I'm sorry for being a failure, tae.... If only I knew about this earlier I swear I wouldn't have dared ruin any man's life by marrying him!"
Hearing your own words make you break down even more and there goes your terrible cries. Your breath hitches and you start hiccuping in between your sobs as you look at him.
Taehyung curses himself mentally for seeing you in a state like this. He couldn't help but claim himself a loser who can't even support his own wife during her crises.
He'd move to your side and would kneel down to level your frame. He would hug you tightly and that's when you'd bury your face in his chest sobbing your life out.
The warmth of his body was all that you needed at the moment.
"There's no harm in thinking positive, jagi.. I'm sure the pills the doctor suggested would work for us"
JEONGUKK:
You couldn't help but cry your soul out in his chest as he holds your stumbling self firmly to keep you in place..
"I'm just defective.. I am sorry" you'd blabber sobbing, holding the thin fabric of his t-shirt which was already wet because of your constant tears damping through it for about half an hour now..
"What the hell are you talking about?" "The doctor said we can still try. It'll take more time than it should but there are chances for us to conceive, jagi.." he'd proclaim planting a kiss on top of your forehead whilst caressing your back.
"and besides, she did give us that pill saying if you get your period this time, we might as well get lucky"
This boy would surely do whatever is there in his power to cheer your mood up because seeing you all crying and sad like this about something on which you do not even have any control over would def shatter his heart!
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