Everybody hates me. Veronica and Romona wont talk to me, Sofia is now sad, and less talkative, and Parker.... Parker probably has it more worse than I do..
For the past two days, he would ask me every day "Ryan..? When is Skylar coming home...?" and every time he asks my answer is "I dont know.."
He'd cry for hours in his room, and even though we tell him he will come back soon, he sees through our lies.
Skylar has been gone for more than two days before, but Parker probably heard me telling my mom what happened as Veronica screamed at me.
I was laying on my bed thinking of what happened that night.
Flashback
"G-get off me! I have to go find Skylar." I got up and walk to the door when Steph grabbed my arm.
"Don't you wanna finish where we left off~?" She smirked and pulled me twords her. "It's not like you have a boyfriend to be wary of anymore~"
"Get away from me you little whore, you have no idea how bad I want to kill you right now." I grumbled.
"Y-you don't mean that...~" She sounded uneasy. "I still have that secret of yours. Remember?"
Oh right...
The secret.
The secret that would ruin everything if my family found out.
"I'm not sleeping with you. That's final." I said, glaring at her.
"Then I'll tell everyone~" She sang.
"Go ahead. There's nothing more important to me than Skylar, and I'm not going to lose him because of a fucking secret." I walked back to the door.
"Going all this way just for a little faggot boy.. shame... But, go ahead and try to get him back. I doubt he'll trust you again."
Hearing that I left. I just walked out. The guy at the counter waved me goodbye, and I walked out the hotel.
Only to see my sisters.
"What the hell Ryan!!!?" Veronica yelled at me. I bet Skylar told them.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled.
"Skylar left us! As in, he said he wants nothing to do with our family anymore!! What the hell did you do to him!!?" She yelled. You could see the tears in her eyes.
Skylar was the closest thing to a friend she ever had.. she didn't like many people, and would often brush them away.
"Veronica. Let him speak." Romona said. She looked plain and bland like always.
"Fine." Veronica grumbled and stepped back. "Speak."
I took a deep breath and opened my mouth to talk. "Skylar.. walked in while I was with another woman." I said quietly.
"And what were you and this other woman doing in a hotel room all alone without your ex-boyfriend." Romona said. She made sure to emphasize the "ex".
"We were about to have s-"
Before I could finish, Veronica walked towards me and slapped me with all her force. You could even hear it from a block away.
Soon later is started to rain.
But me, Veronica, and Romona stayed put. I couldn't leave.
"Skylar doesn't know this part of town. Where could he have gone?" Romona asked.
"The gas station it a few blocks from here." Veronica said.
With that we got in the car and drove to the gas station.
That's when I saw Skylar.
Get into another persons car.
And that person,
Was Xavier.
End of flashback
The slap Veronica gave me still hurt and left a mark, but not as back as the pain in my heart, and the marks from it breaking.
I love Skylar..
I always did.
So why did I do it..?
I don't even know myself..
I got ready for hockey. I wasn't playing as good as I was before, and Ms. Stevens noticed it.
But I didn't care.
When I was in the ice I would feel at home. I could forget what I did and forget Skylar.
But that only last a few seconds.
Then I remember everything.
And it slows me down.
I miss everything about Skylar..
I miss his smile, his voice, his hair, his lips, his body.
I would give anything just to touch him, one last time.
I was stupid.. all for a fun secret, that isn't even that big of a deal.
I ruined everything.. I can't even imagine how he must be feeling.
We promised each other.
I promised him.
We would stay together through thick and thin, because that's what love is..
I still remember him telling me that.
I wonder what he's doing now.
Probably went back to his he used to be.
The one small quiet gay kid, everyone forgot about.
But he was the only one I could remember.
Why am I so fucking stupid?!
Thinking, Skylar wouldn't find out.. I shouldn't have left him..
I did something wrong for him to leave me..
I picked up my bag and walked out the room.
Everyone's eyes were on me.
I walked out the house.
I didn't like my family looking at me like that. Looking at me like I was a disgrace to this family.
I walked to practice. But on the way I saw something.
Right in front of me, was Skylar and Xavier. They were talking happily in front of the rinks backdoor. The door I usually go through. I quickly hide behind the wall and listen in on their conversation.
"T-thank you.. again for taking me here.. I'm still a little sore though.." Skylar said.
I loved hearing his voice, but now when he's talking to Xavier, and mentions being 'sore'.
"No problem love. I'm always going to be here to help. Even though Ryan wasn't." Xavier said quite loudly.
"I don't want to talk about it.. he's probably already forgotten about me, and is fucking that whore." Skylar said with a mix of emotions.
What he said broke my heart.
I wanted to tell him that I never slept with her, I wanted to tell him that I never forgot about him, I wanted to hold him in last time. I wanted to kiss him one last time. I wanted to touch him. One last time.
"Yeah, I agree. He probably forgot all about you. But don't worry I'm here." Xavier said.
I heard a quiet thud, and peaked my head over to see that Xavier pined him against a wall and kissed him.
But..
Skylar kiss him back...
"I'm sorry to interrupt, but if you are going to make-out, please do it somewhere else." I said walking towards them.
"Ryan.." Skylar mumbled.
"What are you doing here?" Xavier asked with a time of disgust.
"I'm here for practice." I glared at him. "And Skylar," Skylar flinched when I said his name. "I just wanted you to know, that even if you're mad at me, think about how everyone else feels about this. Parker's been crying for days." I turn to the door.
"Ryan, wait!" Skylar yelled at me.
But I kept going.
I don't know why.. I just did. I heard the door open and footsteps come my way, but then I heard a voice.
"Skylar.. he's not worth it." It was Xavier who said that.
I look back for a second and see Skylar's eyes water..
"I know." He said. "But.. you're not worth anything either. I was in desperate need of help, and you helped me. Thank you. But.. I don't want to be anything more than friends."
I continued walking, and headed to practice.
* * * * * * * * * * * *
I did good today. I thought as I was on my way home.
After practice, Skylar took the ice. He was as good as always. But something seemed off about him.
He was more.. weak.
His jumps weren't as high, and his spins weren't as fast.
But that's none of my concern.
I walked him and open the door, to see a lively family.
That was weird. I was only gone for 4 hours..
"Ryan's home!!" Parker yelled.
"Ryan, we have good, and bad news." Veronica said. "Good news first, Skylar came back, andwereplacedyourbedwithaqueensixedbedforskylar. Bad news, he wants nothing to do with you and you will be sleeping on the couch."
"What was the second good news?" I asked confused.
"Skylar came back?"
"After that."
"He hates you?"
"Before that."
"We replaced your beds with one queen sized bed for you and Skylar to share?"
"You what?!"
"Sorry.. Skylar said that he wanted a new bed a month ago and so we got the queen sized bed. So, you have to sleep on the couch."
"Agh. Fine." I say and go to my room and look at the new bed.
It was a black bed, with a red sheet and a dark red blanket over it.
It looked nice.
I change my clothes, taking a short shower, and laying down on the bed.
"Skylar's back..but not for me.." I mumbled before falling asleep.