Chapter 28
"How could this be a coincidence?" tanong ko sa kaniya but he just gave me a cold looked.
Bumaba ang tingin ko sa dibdib niya. Napalunok ako ng makaramdam ng init. Goodness! Kung gaano kalamig sa labas, gano'n ka init sa loob!
Still I couldn't figure out how he end up in my room right now. Like what the hell? What's going on? What's happening?
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon lalo na't doon ko lang napansin na nasa loob na ng cabinet ang mga gamit niya.
"What are you doing here!?" I asked again while watching how he removed his robe successfully.
Tumalikod siya sakin upang kumuha ng damit sa cabinet. He's wearing his black khaki shorts. I saw how his biceps move. Hindi ko maiwasang mapatitig ro'n. Goddamn.
I could even smell his after shave and it's kind of tempting to run over him and hug his damn sexy back and sniffed him all over.
"I won a trip here in Japan. A valentines trip..." aniya at ng makakuha ng t-shirt na gray ay kaagad niyang sinuot habang humaharap sakin.
He gave me a bored looked, "It's a coincidence we both won it and you're my date here in Japan." aniya at naglakad na palapit sakin.
Napaatras ako. "Date? Anong date? Hindi mo parin sinasagot ang tanong ko. Bakit nasa kwarto kita?" takang tanong ko.
Alam kong tungkol sa valentines ang trip na ito but I didn't know na mayro'n akong ka-date. Wala akong kaalam-alam dito.
"We won a couple ticket to Japan which means were together in this suite. I really thought my date would be someone..." he stopped and looked at me from head to toe.
I looked at myself too. I'm only wearing my sleeveless shirt and a pants with boots.
"Someone that isn't my type." malamig niyang dugtong at pinunasan ang kaniyang buhok.
Napaawang ang labi ko. Somene that isn't his type? Wow! Amazing! Ilang beses ko na bang narinig 'yan mula sa kaniya? I'm not his type but he said he already noticed me noong nasa coffee shop kami. Why lie?
Hindi parin ako makapaniwalang coincidence lang ang lahat ng ito. I mean, how come Castielle joined a raffle draw like Ivan? May naiisip ako pero mukhang imposible. Tsyaka isa pa, base sa tono ng pananalita ni Castielle, iba ang inaasahan niyang makita sa kwartong ito ngayon. Damn him!
"Kung gano'n pala. Umalis kana sa suite na'to at maghanap ka ng type mo. Mag-check in kana rin sa ibang kwarto para makapagsolo kayo." kalmado kong sinabi at umupo sa gilid ng kama malayo sa kaniya dahil nasa kabilang gilid siya.
He smirked. "Why would I check in to another room? I won this trip too. Pwede kong dalhin ang babaeng ma-typan ko mamaya..." aniya at nilihod ang isang tuhod sa kama kaya ramdam ko ang paglubog ng malambot na mattress dahil sa bigat niya.
Napaawang ang labi ko at bahagyang nanlaki ang mata ko. What the hell? Maghahanap talaga siya ano? Ha! Hindi nanaman nakontento si Master Casanova!
"Ha! Bahala ka sa buhay mo! Hindi ako aalis dito!" angil ko.
"Then just enjoy the show tonight." walang kagana-gana niyang sinabi at tumayo at sinuot ang kaniyang makapal na jacket.
Seryoso? Aalis talaga siya? I mean... wala talagang respeto?
"Hindi ka talaga marunong makontento ano? May girlfriend kana nga sa Pilipinas, maghahanap ka pa ng ka-one night stand sa Japan dahil hindi mo ko type. Ang husay!" asik ko.
Humarap siya sakin. He grinned evilly but his eyes looking at me sarcastically.
"Bakit? Marunong karin bang makontento? Women aren't contented, kami pa kaya?" mapait niyang sagot.
Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. He has a point. Hindi ako nakontento kay Staven. But, Staven wasn't to me because I couldn't give him the dream that his father wants him to achieve.
"Di gawin mo!"
"Gagawin ko talaga." aniya na naghahamon at sinamaan ako ng tingin. "I want to show you how you made me look like an idiot while you're with Staven! Are you fucking happy now?" asik niya at mabilis na lumabas ng pinto.
Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Galit siya ng dahil doon? Galit siya dahil ba akala niya kami na ni Staven? How stupid can he be!?
Pabalik-balik ang lakad ko. Hindi ako mapakali. Hindi ko na magawang linisin ang sarili ko o kahit ma-excite sa fact na nasa Japan ako ngayon at hindi ko dapat siya iniisip! Kaya nga ako nandito para mawala na siya sa isip ko pansamantala! Ugh!
Napahilamos ako at nakapagdesisyon na maglinis ng katawan at lumabas ng suite. After I took a quick bath I went off the suite to follow him.
I don't know why I'm doing this. Why am I following him again? Gano'n ako ka-guilty? Eh siya 'tong nagalit at hindi ako kinausap. Eh ang laking gago pala niya!
Even so... pakiramdam ko kasalanan ko. Pakiramdam ko ako 'tong nagkulang dahil galit siya sakin. Ilang beses na ba siyang nagalit sakin? Ilang beses na kaming nag-away? Hindi ko na mabilang.
I have a free dinner sa isang restaurant sa baba ng hotel just for tonight so maybe I would see him there. Pero anong sasabihin ko sa kaniya pagkakita ko sa kaniya?
What would I say? Napapikit ako ng mariin at inalala ang mga text message ko sa kaniya. Hindi ko alam kung panlalambing na ba ang ginawa kong 'yun.
I know I didn't explain well through phone because I want to tell him personally. But he didn't even replied! Kahit isa! And I'm losing my hope because he's with Aebril that supposed to be he'll break up with her.
Kumain akong mag-isa. Tama nga si Castielle at kasama ko nga siya dahil nagtanong pa ang babae kung dalawa daw ba ang order ko eh hindi ko naman kasama si Castielle.
I felt down when I went back to our suite. Nakabalik na kaya siya? Nabuksan niya na ang suite ng wala ako kaya malamang mayro'n din siyang sariling key card.
Napakagat labi ako habang nakahiga sa kama. Hindi ko namalayang humahapdi na ang mata ko. Naghanap ba talaga siya ng babae dahil galit siya sakin? Gagawin niya kaya? Dadalhin niya kaya dito ang babae niya para ipamukha sakin 'yun?
Bumangon ako bandang alas onse ng gabi at lumapit sa glass wall kung saan tanaw ang buong Tokyo. Isinandal ko ang aking noo roon at bumuntong hininga. My breath made the glass moist because of the cold weather.
May naramdaman akong kaluskos sa pintuan. Kaagad akong lumingon ro'n at bumilis ang kabog ng puso ko. Nandito na siya? May kasama siya?
Hindi ko alam kung bakit naglakad ako palapit sa pintuan upang salubungin siya. Makakaya ko bang makita siyang may kasamang babae? Worst is, baka may ginagawa na silang kung ano.
Dahan-dahan akong naglakad palapit ro'n. Narinig ko ang pagsara ng pinto at yakap ng sapatos. Pinakinggan ko ang boses ngunit wala naman akong narinig na babae kaya ng makalapit ako ng tuloyan ay halos lumuwag ang pakiramdam ko ng makitang nag-iisa siya.
Pasuray-suray ang kaniyang lakad kaya sinalubong ko siya. "What the hell, Castielle?" mahina kong asik at ipinaikot ang kaniyang kanang kamay saking leeg upang mas alalayan siya.
He looked at me with his dark brooding eyes that were even illuminated by the light came from the moon. He didn't leave my eyes, nakatitig lamang siya na tila ba gusto niya kong parusahan.
Hindi siya umimik at nag-iwas ng tingin. Inalis niya ang braso niya sa leeg ko at naglakad mag-isa. Para namang kumirot ang puso ko. Galit ba talaga siya? Kailangan ko ba siyang lambingin?
But how? Hindi ko alam. May namumuo paring inis dito sa puso ko. Paano ko siya lalambingin kung gusto ko rin ay lambingin niya rin ako? Ugh. What the hell, Nari.
"Akala ko ba magdadala ka ng babae? Wag mong sabihing wala kang makitang type mo." paangil kong sinabi nang sundan ko siya.
Gusto kong batukan ang sarili ko. What now, Nari? Lambingin nga hindi awayin! Ugh! Paano ba? Noon naman ay hindi naman ako gano'n ka sweet kay Staven and he always do that lambing part between us! How will I do this?
Hindi siya sumagot. Sa halip ay hinubad niya ang kaniyang jacket. Napansin kong pulang-pula ang kaniyang mukha. He is drunk.
Umupo siya sa kama namin. Damn! Wag mong sabihing magtatabi kaming dalawa? Mabilis akong kumilos at lumapit sa kaniya.
"Hindi tayo magtatabi!" asik ko at hinila siya patayo but instead he pulled me with force kaya nasubsob ako sa gilid ng kama. Hindi gano'n ka lakas pero nasubsob parin ako.
Inis akong bumangon sa pagkakasubsob at umupo sa gilid ng kama at sinamaan siya ng tingin. "What the hell is happening to you?"
"Don't talk to me." malamig niyang sinabi at humiga na sa kama kaya nasa paanan niya nako.
Napapikit ako ng mariin. "Are you mad because I was with Staven? Have you tried asking me if I'm really with him, huh? You idiotic stupid guy!" pikon na pikon kong sinabi.
Hindi niya parin ako sinagot. Nakapikit lang siya at parang pagod na pagod. Napanguso ako at humalukipkip.
"I've tried texting you! Call you just to explain but what did I get? Wala. Then you're with Aebril! Tapos na sila ni Staven tapos kayo parin? Gustong-gusto mo naman siguro kasi nabibigay niya ang mga kailangan mo ano?" galit na galit kong sinabi habang nakatitig sa kaniyang walang pakialam.
Napakagat labi ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sinasabi ko to sa kaniya ngayon. Siguro ay pikon na pikon nako. Siguro ay punong-puno na talaga ako at gusto ko ng ilabas lahat.
Parang kinukurot ang puso ko. I twisted my body para tumalikod sa kaniya. Naramdaman ko ang paghapdi ng mata ko. Suminghot ako ngunit kaagad kong nagtakip dahil baka marinig niya pa.
"I stop texting and calling you because I've lost hope and I'm afraid I'm only pushing myself without any reason why and also maybe... you're already tired of me and our deal stopped so we should break our communication." ani ko at napakagat labi.
Bumuntong hininga ako at napasinghot muli. "I don't know why were here in Japan together in a trip. So if you don't want to talk to me sana bukas pwede na..." sabi ko at akmang tatayo na ng bigla niya kong hinila paharap.
Nakaupo na siya ngayon. Seryoso ang kaniyang mukha habang hinihila ako palapit sa kaniya.
"Why are you crying?" he asked as he wiped off my incoming tears in my eyes. Napapikit ako at tumungo. Takot na baka makita niyang nasasaktan ako.
Umiling ako. "Hindi ako umiiyak..." tanggi ko.
Padabog niyang binaba ang kaniyang kamay saking binti kaya inangat ko ang aking mukha upang makita ang madilim niyang mga mata. Kumabog ng malakas ang puso ko.
"Why do you kept on denying it? Why can't you just be honest with me, ha?" inis niyang sinabi kaya napakagat labi ako. Wala akong maisagot.
"And why did you fucking lose hope? Up until now, you're still doubting my feelings for you? I fucking like you and I want you so bad and do you think I was glad when that fucking dipshit just hold you and kiss you like that in front of me? Calls you baby like he fucking owns you! Tangina, gusto kitang agawin pero sino ba naman ako?" he burst out angry and so mad.
Pulang-pula siya. I know his drunk and maybe that's the reason why he became so honest. Will I believe him because it feels fucking true?
Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Gusto kong maiyak ng hindi ko malaman. Sari-saring emosyon ang nararamdaman ko. Totoo bang gusto niya talaga ako? Pero bakit ako?
Castielle held my hand and he intertwined it. Doon lamang siya nakatitig.
"I've waited for you to talk to me personally but you never came..." napapaos niyang sinabi. "And damn, kayo na pala ni Staven. But, I never lose hope with you."
Napalunok ako at hinigpitan ang hawak sa kamay niya. "I went to your condo. I tried to come to you, but you're too busy with Aebril. Lagi kayong magkasama diba? Sa ospital, sa school..." mapait kong sinabi.
"Your fault. You made me fucking jealous. So tell me, did you get jealous baby? Tell me so that I'll know it was worth it to be with Aebril..." aniya at pinaglaruan ang kamay ko.
Napakagat labi ako bago sinalubong ang mata niyang mapupungay. Tumango ako, "Sobra..." napapaos kong sagot.
His dark eyes became bright. Napangiti siya at napatungo. I saw how he bit his lips as he looked at me again. He gave me a playful looked as he scoops me and places me in between his thigh.
Napangiti ako habang niyayakap niya ko patalikod. Naramdaman ko ang pagdampi niya ng halik saking leeg. He sniffed my hair before he kissed my sensitive earlobe.
"I like you so damn much, baby. Don't ever doubt that, please? I know I'm a fucking casanova but damn you're an exception." aniya at mas lalo akong kinulong sa kaniyang bisig.
Isinandal ko ang likod sa kaniyang dibdib at dinama ang kaniyang yakap. "I like you too..." sagot ko at saka ko siya tiningala.
Napakurap siya habang nakatingin sakin. His hand move in my thigh caressing it halos mapasinghap ako at nilukuban naman ang isip ko ng makamundong pag-iisip.
"Uh...huh. How much do you like me?" he seductively asked as he make another stroke in my thigh up to my arm.
Umawang ang labi ko. "A lot..." pabulong kong sinabi at napakagat labi dahil sinabayan niya ito ng halik saking balikat.
"Really? How 'bout how you like Staven?" tanong niya at pinasok ang kaniyang kamay saking pang-itaas at hinaplos ang aking tiyan.
I gasped from what he did. But, I couldn't even stop him 'cause I've been missing his touches so bad.
Now that he asked for it. I have never thought Staven would touch me how he touches me. I have never missed him this much. I have never felt so hurt at the same time happy when he's with me.
"I like you more than I like him..." sagot ko at napakagat labi at nang tignan ko siya'y pinanliitan niya ako ng mata tila hindi naniniwala.
"What? Hindi ka naniniwala? Ako nga 'tong dapat di maniwala dahil ikaw 'ton—" I stopped nagging when he squeezed my boobs. Oh fuck.
I softly moan when he molded my boob. My hands are free but it didn't even move to get his hand off. Nakaramdam ako ng kung anong kilabot ng sabayan niya ito ng mapang-akit na halik saking leeg.
"I said stop doubting me baby or else I'll punish you so bad..." marahang sinabi niya as he stopped and got his hand off my top.
"Which remind me, my baby needs to pay because of what she did." bulong niya at sinakop ang aking buhok sa kaliwang bahagi at nilagay sa kanan. He then placed a feathery kiss on my shoulder blade.
Sa kabila ng kuryenteng nararamdaman na lumukob sa buong katawan ko'y kumunot ang noo ko at sinilip siya.
"How can I pay you?" napapaos kon tanong.
He smirked sexily. "I want a lap dance. Are you ready for it?" aniya at sinubsob ang ulo sa'king leeg.
My brow arched. Lapdance? Alam ko to. I have read it from books. I've already searched for this when he asked for it weeks ago. And it's very intimate... dirty... passionate...
Napakagat labi ako. "I don't know how..." I lied and pout a bit for him to believe that I don't.
"Hmm. Is that so? Then, let me teach you." aniya. "Stand up and come here..." utos niya at sumandal sa headboard.
"Hindi ko ba kailangan ng kanta? I need music to dance, right?" I asked like I was an innocent girl.
Natigilan naman siya at mukhang napagtantong tama ako. Hinagilap niya ang kaniyang phone but I already got mine and immediately played the song.
Napatingin siya sakin at umawang ang labi niya. I played Tony Sway's 2 U song. I throw my phone on his side at saka ako gumapang palapit sa kaniya not leaving his gaze.
His eyes became amused and surprise. I arched my back and emphasize my butt even though I'm only wearing a pajama. Damn, I'm not in an appropriate attire for a lap dance.
His lips were parted while I crawl forward to him. I looked at him seductively while biting my lips. Nang tuloyan nakong makalapit sa kaniya ay tulala parin siya.
I part his legs upang makapwesto ako sa gitna niya. He was sitting while I was kneeling in between his thigh. He was about to touch me when I put his hands above his head on the headboard.
Tiningala niya ko habang nakaawang ang labi. The music was too intimate and every beat of the music I move following the rhythm. Intentionally making my body close to his face.
"Baby, w-what are you doing?" napapaos na tanong ni Castielle habang nakaawang parin ang kaniyang mapupulang labi.
I bit my lips and looked at him. "I'm dancing..." sagot ko at ngumisi. "So don't touch me, Castiello or I'll stop." banta ko.
Kinagat niya ang labi niya at nanahimik. Hmmm. Master Casanova is obedient now, huh? Good. I like it. He's submissive.
Binitiwan ko ang kaniyang mga kamay. Kumunot ang kaniyang noo tila nabitin ng lumayo ako sa kaniya ng konte. I smirked and bit my lips. Mas lalo akong naeenganyo dahil sa kaniyang ekspresyon.
I put my hands on the side of my boobs and slowly stroking it down on my waist like I was putting a lotion on that part. My eyes are fixated on his amazed eyes but also his flushed face.
Castiello you're fucking handsome do you know that? Seeing you like that make me want to tease you even more.
I trailed my hand down to the valley of my breast slowly with rhythm. Swaying my hips slowly side by side moving it in figure eight.
Pinasadahan ko ang aking buhok gamit ang kanang kamay habang ang isa naman ay nakahawak sa laylayan ng aking damit at tinaas ng konte.
Castielle's eyes drop on it. I saw how he was intently watching my moves. I saw how his eyes sparkled when I crawl towards him again slowly.
Here comes the main step, baby. Ready to burst it out? I want to laugh at myself. I never really imagined myself doing this. Cosmopolitan is my only source!
I sat on his lap making him gulped twice. I grind slowly while staring on his eyes. I was more turned on when he cursed sexily.
"Fuck, baby. One grind and I'm hard. What a record breaker..."
I grind again giving his hard erection a stroke from mine. I only looked at him while opening my mouth a little. He cursed a lot when I move passionately while caressing his body.
I crouched to level our face still grinding with rhythm. I came close to his lips and breathe on it making him feel my breath on his parted lips teasing his lips sensually. He thought I was about to kiss him, huh?
He groaned playfully as his hands roamed around my butt pushing it to him to deepen my grind. I could feel his hard erection getting bigger. Fuck, he's too big. Hindi nako magtataka kung siya nga si Master Casanova! Maligayang maligaya ang mga kababaehan sa kaniya.
Ang pula niyang mukha kanina ay sobrang pula na ngayon. His lips were also red as apple. His ears are also red. Lahat ata ay sobrang pula na sa kaniya at mas lalo akong nahuhumaling sa kaniya kaya mas lalo rin akong naeenganyo.
I captured his hands to lock it on his back. "No touching, Castiello." paalala ko.
He groaned frustratedly at that. I grind in a circular motion slowly while biting my lips. Napamura nanaman siya. He tried capturing my lips but I move my face back so he couldn't kiss me. I pushed myself on him that he could feel my breast on his chest.
Pulang-pula siya. He groaned again while biting his red lips.
"Fuck it, baby. This is supposed to be your punishment, not mine." napapaos niyang sinabi tila hirap na hirap.
"That's for neglecting me for a month!" asik ko.
True. He neglects me. I want to punish him. I want him to pay for making me miss him so much.
"So it's your way of punishing me, huh?" he asked.
Hindi paman ako nakasagot ng sakupin niya ang katawan ko pahiga sa kama. He was now above me feeling all his weight but damn it's so hot.
"Now let me show you my way of punishing you."