I'm totally failing my classes because of this freaking fanfiction. You guys better like my goddamn story because I put in blood, sweat and tears into this.
Ok that was a little exaggerated but I'm still failing my classes. I enjoyed writing this chapter though because it shows how serious their relationship is. So I hope you enjoy reading, thankssssssssss for voting and feedback and the reads, you guys rock, as usual.
Multimedia: Btw I know that isn't Austin or even Bella in that two person picture but it's super cute so I had to make it happen.
Austin’s Pov:
The lights that peaked through the now open curtains blinded my deprived eyes for moments. I cringed at the brightness and automatically brought my hand up to my eyes, shielding the light away. The moment my eyes had gotten used to the exposure of light, I pried them open, only to have the sight of Bella still undressed but wrapped with the bed sheet.
She stood by the balcony door blooming with inner beauty. She shimmered in the light and there seemed an essence of personal glow that emanated from her. The sight of her was definitely God’s personal creation and I just couldn’t resist taking a picture of her. “@austincarlile: My morning is perfect so far. What about yours?”
This week has been heaven for me so far. Not only has Bella surprised the hell out of me and brought me to the place I’ve always wanted to go, but we’ve been so intimate lately, more intimate than we ever have. Being able to do it FIVE times yesterday was shockingly amazing. I didn’t know she had it in her; I didn’t even know I had it in me.
“Good morning.” She turned around and smiled.
“Morning beautiful.” I smiled back.
“You should see outside. There are wild animals casually wandering around literally right outside our balcony. It’s amazing.” She seemed so amazed I couldn’t help but chuckle.
“This is why this is the best place on planet earth, besides the Star Wars theme park in Disney World; nothing can beat that.” She rolled her eyes at me and chuckled. “So, what’s the plan for today?”
Bella had left the balcony window and walked over to our baggage, dropping the bed sheet so she could change into clothes. The amounts of times I’ve seen her naked; I don’t think I could ever get used to it. I’m the luckiest guy in the world.
“Well the Disney tickets aren’t valid till tomorrow so do you just want to chill at the hotel for the day. I mean, yeah that’s pretty odd because who chills at their hotel on their own holiday, right? But we have the whole week so one day shouldn’t hurt.” She turned around with a grin on her face, dressing herself into a t-shirt that reached down to her hip bones.
I couldn’t resist so I leaped out of bed and scooped her into my arms, slowly tracing my fingertips along her skin as my lips trailed kisses down her neck. She leaned her head back so I could have more access to her neck and closed her eyes, enjoying every touch I lay on her skin. “Austin…” She mumbled quietly. “We need to take a rest with this.” She pulled out and faced me. “I mean, we did it FIVE times yesterday.” She was still disbelieved. “How many more times do you want to do it?”
I laughed louder than I had expected. “It was fun, wasn’t it?”
She smirked. “Yes, but…” She struggled with words. “Just let me get dressed. You’re going to become a sex addict.” I laughed again.
“It’ll be your fault.” I smirked and smacked my palms against her behind.
Bella’s Pov:
Austin and I both intertwine our fingers together and walked down to the cafeteria. “Food.” Austin drooled and rushed off closer to the food, dragging me along with him.
There were a variety of foods laid out on multiple tables. It ranged from English breakfasts to Japanese food; so much to pick from with such little plates. “This is crazy!” Austin was overwhelmed with the different types of foods; I on the other hand wasn’t that hungry.
Austin was pulling different foods onto his plate while I wandered around, trying to decide what I feel like. “What are you getting?” Austin asked, his gaze still focused on the food.
I didn’t answer for a while, instead I continued to browse. “I’m not sure. I’m not really hungry.” My words caused Austin to spring his head up.
“No.” He shook his head. “You’re not doing this.” He grabbed my plate. “Go sit down. I’m going to get you breakfast.”
I shook my head. “No Austin, I can do-”
“Now Go.” He cut me off.
“But-”
“Go.” He cut me off again and I was quick to obey. I rolled my eyes like a child and walked away to a two seater table.
Waiting for him was quite time consuming, mainly because he was struggling to hold all those plates. “Are you sure you don’t want any help, babe?” I yelled loud enough for him to hear me.
“Yes,” He struggled. “I’m fine.” He was lying of course, but knowing his stubborn self, he wouldn’t give in.
“See I got it.” He finally came back, but with four plates in his hand.
“If you’re expecting me to eat most of that then you’re dreaming.” He placed the plates onto the table.
“No but you’re going to eat.” He passed me a plate full of eggs, bacon and pieces of toast.
I groaned quietly. “Why are you doing all of this?”
He scooped up a mouthful of food and shoved it into his mouth. “Because you’re not eating properly lately and it’s starting to worry me.”
I slightly sigh. “Yeah, yeah, I know. I don’t know what’s been happening lately. I just haven’t been hungry.” I told him the absolute truth.
“Well, we’re going to have to fix that.” He stared at me in all seriousness. “Because this could lead to a serious problem, you know that, right?”
I nodded. “Yeah, I know. We’ll do something about it, don’t worry.” I smiled and placed my hand over his, grazing my thumb along his skin.
We spent at least an hour of our time finishing off our food. Austin practically licked his plate clean but I still had half my food left. I honestly tried but I couldn’t seem to fit anymore in my stomach. “It’s okay, you tried. Baby step, right?” Austin flashed a sympathetic smile and I smiled back.
“Of course.”
We both stood up in unison. “So, what now?” Austin asked as he intertwined his fingers with mine.
“Pool! I want to go swimming. Do you know how awesome those pools look?” I told him excitedly and Austin laughed.
“Pool it is.” We walked back to our room in a breeze; our room being so close most definitely had an advantage towards the food.
I scavenged through my bags and dressed myself into my black bikini. On the other hand Austin dressed himself within seconds. He was already wearing his board shorts so all he had to do was strip off his shirt and throw a towel over his shoulders.
I’ll admit I liked what I was wearing and it most definitely boosted my self-esteem so I did what any other girl would do; take a picture of themselves. I took quite a few, more than I had intended but none of them had pleased me. “You sure like your selfies.” Austin laughed and stood up from the bed, sliding his phone in the back of his pocket as he made his way closer to me.
“I don’t like any of these pictures.” I frowned in frustration, but was soon met with Austin’s arms that snaked around me waist.
“Try now.” He muzzled his face into the crack of my neck and immediately I had already liked the idea.
After the shutter went off I took a glimpse of the picture. “Aren’t we just pretty.” I announced in a goofy voice.
“All you, baby, all you.” He smirked and walked to the door, holding it open and waiting patiently for me to leave. “@belladevelle_: I think it’s time to go for a swim @austincarlile.”
It was a quick walk outside and already the sun was beaming. “It’s such a hot day today.” Austin stretched and made the light glisten over his body, defining his sturdy muscles.
“You know what that means, right?” I grinned widely at him. He raised an eyebrow at me, confused to what I’m trying to say. “Tan time for Bella.” I brought my thumbs up and directed them at me.
He laughed at my random action. “You’re such a dork sometimes.”
“Pfft,” I brushed him off and walked to two available outdoor lounges and laid my body down, Austin laying down right beside me.
I closed my eyes and allowed myself to sink into the heat. “You know, I was thinking we should get a dog.”
“Hmmm,” Austin apathetically agreed.
“Or maybe a cat.”
“Hmmm,” He repeated himself.
“Or both.” I shrugged my shoulders at my idea, throwing the thought around in my head.
“Hmmm, yeah sounds good, baby.” He would always say that when he was occupied by something else.
I pried one eye open, only to see Austin distracted by whatever was on his phone. “You’re so anti-social.” I chuckled to myself and took a picture of him. “@belladevelle_: So I bring him on a holiday and he’s glued to his phone…” I re-closed my eyes and laid back down.
I heard him sigh then stand up. “Come lie near the pool. I want to go swimming.” Austin dragged me up.
“Because you need my supervision when going swimming.” I said sarcastically, earning an eye roll from Austin.
“No, I want company.” He laid my towel besides the pool and pointed to the ground. “You lie there.” Then he pointed to the pool. “I swim there. Understando?” He backfired with sarcasm and this time it was my turn to roll my eyes, but I did what he said and laid onto my towel.
Austin’s dive caused a fair bit of water to splash onto my body. “Did you deliberately bring me here so you could annoy me?”
He swam back to the pavement and leaned his arms on the side as his chin rested on top. “I wanted you here. Do I have to have a reason?” He began to sound slightly annoyed.
I held my hands up in defence. “No not at all Mr angry pants.” I chuckled and rested my chin on my arms as well, my eyes levelled with Austin’s.
“You know, you get a better tan when you’re in the pool.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Oh really?” I wasn’t convinced.
“No I’m serious. The sun reflects from the water and onto your skin.” He began to trailer off and I got a glimpse idea on what he was trying to do. “So that’s why…” He began to slowly lift his hands up.
“Austin, no.” I said in all seriousness.
“You should come in.” And just like that he dragged my body into the water.
The sudden change of temperature caused me to squeal. “Holy crap that’s cold.” I held my arms together in a brief attempt to try and keep myself warm.
Austin laughed and brought his hands underneath my thighs and lifted me up where I could sit on his waist. “I’ll keep you warm.” He smirked and snaked his arms around my waist, and I leaned down to kiss him softly onto his lips.
Austin’s Pov:
I had rested my head against Bella’s chest while her arms wrapped around my head, her fingers fiddling through my soaked up hair. My sight couldn’t drift away from the children in the distance. They were playing in the children’s pool and the sight of them made me smile. They all seemed so fascinated by the most uninteresting objects it had always made me laugh.
But I guess that’s me. I’ve always admired children. They’re all so filled with joy and hope. “So…” I began. “I was thinking about our future.” I looked up as Bella looked down.
“Hmmm, what about it?”
I re-directed my gaze back at the children. “What do you think of the idea of having children?” I looked back up at Bella to see a smiling face.
“I would love to have children.” I smiled at her answer. “When the time is right of course.”
I nodded in complete agreement. “Definitely. It was just a thought. I mean, you know how much I love children.” I grinned at her, my tongue slightly sticking out.
“You talk about them every time you see one.” She laughed.
“Children rock!” I exclaimed slightly defensively. “I wish I was a child again. Man, those were the days.” I leaned my head back down onto her chest. “I would come home from school, dump my bags onto the floor and run straight into the kitchen. My mum would always be there making her famous peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. It tastes different from most others, but a good type of different.” I smiled at the memory and felt Bella stroke my hair soothingly.
I paused for a moment and continued on. “Sugar.” I simply stated. “Sugar was what made the sandwich taste different. She would smear peanut butter on, sprinkle sugar and spread jam onto the other piece of bread. It was one of a kind.”
“Well, you’re going to have to make me one of Pam’s ‘one of a kind’ sandwiches, hey.” I looked up to see Bella smiling. “And you can continue to make it for our future children.” She giggled and I couldn’t help but smile.
I pushed away the wet strands of hair out of her face. “Of course.” I slowly traced my fingers along her arm. “We’ll have three children; two boys and one girl. The girl being the youngest so she has two big brothers to protect her.” Bella smiled uncontrollably and grabbed my face with her face, and landed her lips onto mine, deepening our kiss by the second.
I needed more of her, to be in charge, so I dropped her, making her stand up on her own and grabbed her face with both my hands and kissed her like it was our last time together. “Hey mister!” I heard a child-like voice scream out to which sounds like to me. Turning around I was met with a small, plump boy. I raised an eyebrow and pointed my finger at me, questioning if he was talking to me.
“Yeah you!” He said horridly. “You stop smooching on that lady and you leave her alone!” His New Jersey accent echoed through the area.
Bella began to laugh but quickly covered her mouth with her hands. “It’s okay, I’m good with kids.” I muttered quietly to Bella and walked a little closer to the boy who I towered over. “Hey little fella, why are you getting so angry? We’re dating, so it’s okay.” I tried to say it in the simplest form.
“I’m not ‘little’, you’re just tall! Leave that lady alone!” He spat out angrily again and kicked me in the shin. It didn’t hurt, exactly, mainly because his legs were under water and it restrained him from kicking hard but I was taken aback by his actions.
“You little sh-” I was going to chase after him but I was halted by Bella’s grab.
“Austin, no!” Bella laughed and the kid got away, leaving me here completely shocked by the scene.
I turned around to see Bella laughing with all her might; she laughed so hard that her stomach began to hurt. “I can’t believe that just happened.” She continued to laugh harder.
“I- I…what the hell was that?!” I let out a loud laugh, still disbelieved at the scene.
“I thought you were ‘good’ with kids.” Bella’s laugh had begun to lower down.
“That’s no child.” I scoffed. “He’s like some actor from a freaking Adam Sandler movie who thinks he’s still in Hollywood.” Both Bella and I continued to laugh harder.
Bella’s Pov:
We stayed in the pool for quite some time, till the point where we began to feel slightly cold. Now we’re here lying on the outdoor lounges and allowing the sun to burn up our skin cells. “Hey, I’m reading one of those hotel pamphlets and apparently they have a mini DVD shop downstairs.”
I pried my eye open to see Austin lying on his stomach while reading the hotel pamphlet. “Oooo,” I was interested. “We should stop by on the way back to the room.”
Austin nodded in agreement and stood up. “Can we leave now? It’s getting too hot.” He leaned his hand down as a gesture for me to hold so he could lift me up.
“Yeah, sure.” And so I grabbed it and he helped me stand up.
We walked past a lot of activities on our way to the DVD shop. “My god, is this place even a hotel?” We walked past gyms, play areas, a computer room, a bar with karaoke and even a mini shopping mall.
“Hotels are for sleep and food, not to brainwash your customers to stay here for their duration of their holidays.”
“It’s like they’re bribing their customers to stay here, not allowing them to explore the rest of Florida.” I laughed.
“Ain’t that right, sister.” Austin sassed up and walked ahead of me.
“You’re such a freak!” I yelled out to him, laughing as I picked up my pace.
The mini DVD shop was adorable. Although they didn’t have many DVD’s, there was a wide range of various choices. “This is so cute.” I stopped in my tracks and gazed at the whole place.
“Common,” Austin chuckled and linked arms with mine, dragging me towards the shelves of DVD’s. “What movie do you feel like watching?” Austin browsed but I was too distracted by my thoughts.
“I can’t believe we came out all this way, I believe it was a five hour plane ride, to watch movies.” I chuckled.
“We have the whole week, don’t we?” Austin smirked and I nodded.
“I guess. It just feels odd.”
“Hmm, yeah I feel ya.” He continued to browse the shelves and coincidentally we were walking through my favourite section; horror movies. “What about the Orphan?” Austin asked.
“Seen it.” I continued to walk by his side.
“Err, the Ring?”
“Seen it.”
Austin sighed and began to look harder. “Jennifer’s-” He didn’t even have to finish because instantly I knew what he was going to say.
“Seen it.”
Austin looked at me as if I was lying. “Oh, bullshit. You have not-”
I cut him off and pointed at my shin. “Babe, I have her face tattooed on my goddamn shin. Try telling me I haven’t seen it.” Austin narrowed his eyes at me. “Go on.” He turned his back towards me and walked further down the aisle. “Yeah, that’s right.” I laughed.
“The Omen.” He held up the DVD case up to my face and I nodded my head, hearing Austin sigh deeply. “I give up.” He placed the DVD back onto the shelf.
“I don’t know. I’m kind of in an ‘anything other than horror’ mood.” I walked up to the Notebook. “What about this? I haven’t seen it in ages.” Austin rolled his eyes at me.
“You girls and your corny Nicholas Sparks movies.” I placed it back on the shelf.
“What about this?” I held up the Fight Club and immediately Austin nodded his head.
“Now we’re talking.” Austin left and picked a movie from a different shelf. “And this.” He held up the Black Swan. As soon as I saw it, I rolled my eyes.
“You only want to watch that because Natalie Portman stars in it.” Austin scoffed and held his hands against his chest.
“No,” He made it obvious that he was lying. “I’m a big fan of Ballet.”
“Oh, I’m sure.” I laughed and held his hand, walking down the aisle as I continued to browse.
“Hey, you only want Fight Club because of Brad Pitt.” I began to grin but attempted to hide it away. “Yeah, see, I’m not that only one.”
“Well, that’s because-” I was cut off by the sudden voice of interruption.
“Austin?” I heard a female voice. I looked up to see a thin figure with quite an exposing chest. Austin’s head shot up and he quickly released my hand from his like it was on fire. In that moment I saw a small smile appear on his lips.
“Oh my god, Stephanie!” He responded cheerfully and opened his arms out for the girl, both of them hugging each other tightly. I stood there awkwardly and fidgeted with my hands, wondering who in the world this beautiful woman was. “Wow, it’s been a long time! What the hell are you doing here?!” She pulled away from the hug, but I couldn’t help but notice his hand linger on her arm from a while before he let it drop.
“Girls weekend!” She told him excitedly. “Just here with a bunch of girlfriends. We’re planning to go to Disney World sometime in the next few days. Such a coincidence, hey. How have you been though? Have you been touring lately?” She asked. The two had pretty much forgotten that I was even here so the moment was beginning to feel very awkward; the girl, Stephanie apparently, hadn’t even acknowledged my existence, and as far as Austin was concerned I wasn’t there either.
“Well, not really. I finished Warped Tour a few weeks ago actually, but we’re starting our Australian tour in a few weeks, so stoked about it!” His response made my breath catch in my throat. I turned my head to face him, shocked by his words, but he was too distracted to even notice.
“That sounds great! I’ll have to make it to a show some day! I miss the guys. I’d love to see them again.” She was a little too excited for my liking and I was getting more uncomfortable by the minute; I didn’t know whether to speak up or just walk away.
“They’d love that. We were actually talking about you the other day. We took a trip down memory lane and talked about last year’s Warped when you came on tour with us.” Austin chuckled and I felt my heart ache at the realization that this was one of Austin’s ex-girlfriends, an ex-girlfriend whom all of the guys loved.
“Yeah, well we made it worth our time, didn't we?” She smirked, raising her eyebrow at him and I suddenly felt like I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t handle this anymore. I cleared my throat a little before I spoke.
“Um, I’m, uh going to go check these out.” I mumbled quickly, grabbing the movies from Austin’s hand and walking away towards the front desk.
I was quick to leave the pair of them, expecting Austin to yell out for me but I was left with nothing. I quickly swiped the room card which had put the DVD’s on our bill, and stormed out to the elevator. I wanted to walk away and disappear, but I’m in freaking Florida; I’m on a holiday with Austin, this couldn’t be happening now. I continuously poked at the elevator button in a vain attempt to make it come down faster.
How could I compare to her? I mean look at her: she had long, brown hair, a beautiful face, and a body that made me question myself about my appearance. And who was I? I was nothing compared to that. The elevator doors decided to finally open and I immediately walked in and pushed the button to my level.
I watched the door slowly closed, not until a hand pushed itself between it, causing it to re-open. I sighed deeply. This wasn’t happening. “So, what DVD’s did we get?” He asked, completely oblivious to what had just happened in there and how awful that was for me. The elevator ride to our floor was extremely quick and I was relieved that I didn’t have to stay another minute in that enclose area with Austin and the thick awkwardness. I stormed out as soon as the door opens; stomping at each step I take. “Hey, slow down.” He pulled on my arm and I glared at him. “What’s happening?” He slightly chuckled.
I looked at him in disbelief. “Seriously?” I asked, the tone in my voice angry and annoyed. He got the hint and glared.
As soon as we reached our room, I swiped our card and opened the door, storming towards the bathroom. “Bella! Goddamit, wait a minute!” He yelled behind me. I could hear his footsteps pounding against the floor as he got closer. He grabbed my shoulder and turned me around. “What's wrong? Is this because of Stephanie?” He question and I just glared at him. “It's been forever since I've last saw her and I guess I just got a little distracted. I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable." I scoffed at his words.
“Uncomfortable? Please, I mean she had your complete and total attention!” I yelled. “It was like I wasn’t even there! How do you think I felt watching you two hugging all over each other and reminiscing about the good old days?” Tears were at bay and I didn’t know whether I was strong enough to hold them back for any longer.
“Bella,” He whispered as he reached up to wipe away the single droplet that slid down my cheek.
I looked him in the eyes, slight blurry vision from my tears. “How can I compare to that? I mean look at her, she’s everything any guy could want. And look at me…I’m just…me. I can’t compete with that.” I shrugged my shoulders and allowed a few more tears to fall. He grabbed my face in his hands and forced me to look at him.
“Hey, look at me. Don't you ever compare yourself to anyone. You are your own person and there is no reason for you to compare yourself to others. Do you have any idea how much you mean to me? Yeah sure she’s a pretty girl and we dated for a while last year, but I never loved her; I thought I did, but now I know I didn’t, not even close.” He paused. “Bella, you have no idea how much I am in love with you. I have never felt this way about anyone in my entire life. You are the most amazing person I have ever met; you’re beautiful, loving, strong, and you have such a unique, kind-hearted soul…it hurts me that you can’t see that.”
“Austin…” I mumbled.
“I don’t want her. I want you…nobody but you, you hear me? Nothing or no one will ever change the way I feel about you. I love you so much it actually scares me on how much I love you.” I chuckled at his words and sniffled back my tears.
“Why didn’t you tell me about the tour?” I asked quietly.
“It slipped out. I wasn't supposed to say anything.” He sighed deeply. “I was going to tell you on my birthday but you surprised me and brought me out here. I was just having a hard time finding the courage to tell you because I didn’t want to leave you. We’re on a holiday; I didn’t want to ruin it for you, for us. That wasn’t the way I wanted you to find out. I’m so sorry.” He muttered.
A part of me wanted to still be mad, still be sad and hurt, but I was tired of feeling like that. There had been too much of that and too little happiness in me in these past few months and it was just getting really old. I loved Austin with all my heart, but the fight’s just not worth it.
“We'll figure something out when we get back home.” He seemed taken aback by my answer. “I love you too, by the way. I smirked a little and grabbed his hand. “Now let’s go watch your dumb ballet movie.” He smiled at me and pulled my face to his, kissing me long and hard.
Btw this is EXTREMELEY long omg, so I don't know if that's a good thing or bad? But I'm sorry anyways.
UPDATE: I just realized Bella and Austin aren't even married, yet they're talking about future kids. Idk it seems a little odd but as I usually say, just roll with it :P