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It had been a week Jaehyun stayed with me. And, for the long week, I had learned a lot about him. He really loved cooking, so, it will be literally him who cook for breakfast, lunch and dinner whilst in the other hands, it will be me who would constantly go out for the grocery since I can't cook. He kept on saying to me that I should use him while I can, just like what the note said before. He said I should use him as a toy. But I couldn't bring myself to do that to him.
So, I'll just use him as my personal chef and not in a bad way as what he had told me before. Been a slave and torturing his physical. No, I just...couldn't.
"Let's find you a suit."
I said as I walked into the B&W's garment boutique with Jaehyun, who seem lost like a child.
The staffs greet us and one of them actually leaded us the way to the measuring room after I had explained him what I want.
Since I'm unconsciously childish, I still want Baekhyun to receive my revenge on his wedding day. And if you think that I'm going to make Jaehyun as my hitman on Baekhyun's wedding, you're wrong. I was actually going to steal the bride and the bridegroom's light only. I meant, we, Jaehyun and me.
That's why, I'm going to buy a very stunning suit for Jaehyun since he's going to be my suppose to be boyfriend that Baekhyun had always wanted to meet. Well, you got your wish come true then, bro-ther.
"Byul, what are they-"
These past week, Jaehyun didn't stutter whenever he communicated with me and surprisingly, he can called me by my name casually. And we both actually kind of relax with each other. Like we knew each other for a long time. I even freely laughed when I'm around him whenever he flustered and some times spaced out a lot everytime he learned a new thing with me every single day.
"Relax. They just want to measure you before you can try a suit."
It took exactly, five minutes for the staff to measure him. I was busy playing with my phone and didn't notice the measuring session was done already. I heard a sigh and it abruptly made me turned to look at my side, which I had to look up a little bit since Jaehyun is way taller than me. I laughed lightly when I found him pouting and that totally made him turned to look at me.
"Byul, how could you?"
I stop myself from laughing too much.
"S-sorry, Jae. Urm...was it uncomfortable for you to have the staff touching you?"
Almost immediately, he nodded. And what he said next made me blushed madly, urm, but maybe not since it was what the staff said since I didn't have a mirror with me all the times to check my face.
"I feel comfortable when only you, who touch me."
Haha, sense the sarcasm please. I knew he know not much after been a toy and hearing him said that with that innocent look...I can't help but mentally slapped myself. He didn't realise about saying like that in public can make people think the weird thing. And it did.
The staffs were trying so hard to compose their professional image, which it did come as a failure cause I'm a psychitrist. I can read people like I can read books.
I closed my eyes in full of embarrassment. I knew they were thinking about dirty things when the real thing was, I only hugged Jaehyun whenever he had a nightmare. Which it happened, every night. And... I'm used to it already.
To tell you the truth, it made my insomnia gone at the same time.
I tapped my feet on the floor, suddenly felt hot just by standing there with Jaehyun looking at me.
"Aren't you suppose to find the right suit for my boyfriend here???" after they heard my tone, like a mouse run for their dear life from the cat, they ran away to do their suppose job.
I never been so embarrassed like just now and it made me let out a big sigh as I took a seat at the mini sofa they had provided just now. I can't even bring myself to look at Jaehyun at that moment. Oh gosh, seriously?
Jaehyun took the armchair as his seat and from my peripheral view, I can see that he was sort of like...thinking? He totally caught me on guard when his face suddenly up infront of mine. You don't know how that little move always made me surprise and my heart will beat too fast for my own liking. It was beating in unusually pace to say.
When was the last time I ever felt this way...?
Well, the answer to it were...whenever my parents and Baekhyun threw a birthday surprise for me. Actually, getting myself into the memory lane wasn't a good thing especially when I was in the middle of something. Where was I?
"Byul, are you still there? Byun Byul???"
I just looked at him, staring at his beautiful eyes that drowned me into the abyss I never felt. That abyss of teenage girls always feel whenever they fell for the boy that captured their hearts. That first love symptom.
"I-"
"Sir, we got you a very good suit- Oh! Did I interuppt something?"
Just like that, I turned my head to my side and as for Jaehyun, he abruptly stand up, acting like there was nothing happen just now.
Jaehyun followed the tailor afterwards, leaving me alone at the waiting room, which I was quite thankful. For a moment, I need a few minutes of alone time to compose myself. Yes, I put my hand on my chest, where the heart is, and slowly, I exhaled and inhaled as I internally wishing that my heart will beat in normal pace again. But, it was really difficult...
Am I really having the first love symptom...?
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Getting a fine and suitable suit for Jaehyun wasn't hard like I thought it will be. It was actually easier because of one specific reason. His too attractive face. Almost wasn't the right word but, every is the one. Every suit looked good on him, as if every suit were made for him. Like a prince.
We were walking side by side in a mere silent. Neither of us talk. We were just walked and naturally embraced the silent with comfort. Maybe, both of us needeed it after the awkward moment happened in the boutique a couple of hours ago.
A few minutes later, Jaehyun bravely broke the thin ice between us.
"Are you nervous?"
That literally made me stopped. How did he know that-
"N-nervous? Nervous of what?" I avoided to have any eye contact with him and forced my eyes to focus on the flower bushes beside me instead.
"You know..."
Since Jaehyun had a big black shopping bag with a B&W across the bag in his right hand, he inserted the other unoccupied hand into his black pant's pocket.
I had made a mistake when I took a glance at Jaehyun. He looked exactly like the guy that every girl would fall for over the heels. I blinked away the thought and tried to focus on the road as the heart beat too fast for my liking, again. I thought, maybe it because I'm just nervous?
He suddenly stopped and faced his body to my side and he did it again, looking into my eyes deeply and I can't believe that I'm actually holding my breath. When was the last time I hold my breath because of...a guy?
I was hoping that my cheeks weren't shaded in red colour. Or it did already?
"Your cheeks...they're red."
Okay, my cheeks just betrayed me. What else could happen next? A ki-
He enclosed the gap between us, making my heart pounding against my ribcage in abnormal pace as if I just finished ten laps of running. But I didn't.
Jaehyun, he caused everything happen to me. Everything I never...experience nor feel.
It was impossible because I just knew him for a week. But...people tend to talk about it. That symptom. That symptom...
I looked into his eyes back and it made me confuse.
"Jae," was it really...
"Yes, Byul?"
......love?
His nose barely touched mine when suddenly, I felt something warm encircled my neck.
A scarf. A white wooly scarf.
"Why..."
I was baffled by it and he just took my breath when he flashed me his famous smile along his deep dimple. That dimple...
"This scarf will keep you warm."
He tugged the scarf around me, making sure the scarf was warm enough for me because of the tinted red cheeks I got. What he didn't know was, my cheeks were in red because of him. Not because of the cold weather.
So, that was why people tend to sayㅡ female is sharp while male is blunt.
Or was it the other one?
From every words and facts I had heard, I just realised something by myself.
Even it was kind of impossible and crazy, I think I already found it.
Firstly, the reason why am I hurting alone was...
...I had found myself falling for him which it shouldn't be like that.
Secondly, the reason why he can't know was...
...falling for him will hurt me in the end. And if he did feel the same as me, that feeling of mine will hurt both of us.
Cause I knew it already, once we break the curse, we won't seeing each other again. Like every story I had read and watched. What if it was all true?
my heart ache while writing this, gosh why