avery+
"he didn't" i shook my head to sammy's question.
"he already knows, av" jack chuckled at my pathetic lie.
"and why did you just lie to me?" sammy raised his voice, "i thought we were close" he said softly.
"w-we are" i tried to convince him, not knowing how to handle this situation.
"then i'd like to know what the hell is going on" he crossed his arms.
it's weird seeing sammy like this. i know he's himself near the guys but he was always extra sweet near me, or any girl infact.
"fine, you deserve an explanation" i put my hands up in surrender, "would you like to come inside first" i pointed towards the stairs.
once he nodded we went up to my apartment, with jack following behind.
"you sure you should be here, i don't think sammy is happy with you" i whispered to jack.
"avs, i'm part of this to. i'll be here for you, i also need to make things right with sam" he explained, i simply smiled before grabbing out my keys.
"why is he still here?" he looked over at jack.
"sam, we're going to explain what happened. like you wanted" i reminded him.
"no, i asked you for an explanation. not him" he clarified.
"i'm not leaving sam, so just listen to what we have to say" jack finally spoke.
with that, sammy sat down on the chair. me and jack then sat opposite of him on the couch.
"first, i want to know why you kissed her?" he looked at jack.
"i don't know, honestly. we've been arguing so much lately and i couldn't do it anymore. so i had to see what i felt for her" he honestly told him.
i watched him as he spoke, me not knowing any of this information. i don't know why he didn't tell me this before. i thought we were open with eachother.
"and did you feel anything?" sam asked.
"this is not about my feelings, this is about what actually happened" jack corrected him, refusing to answer the question because it was 'irrelevant' to the topic.
"okay avery, did you kiss him back?" sammy turned to me.
"what? no, sam i didn't" i responded at his accusation.
"did you push him away?" he continued his interrogation.
"well yes, once i processed what was happening" i nodded.
"did you feel anything?" he asked bravely.
"sam, like i said before this isn't about feelings. avery doesn't feel anything for me. and i'm gonna be a married man soon. i just kissed her and it happened" jack stood up.
"avery" sammy sat in jack's seat and grabbed my hands, "i need to know, do you still feel anything for jack at all?" he asked softly.
"still? what are you talking about" jack asked, with his voice slightly raised.
"johnson already told you, jack. avery had feelings for you all of high school" sam said annoyed to jack not believing him.
jack looked over to me as i tried to focus on my hands. as if he looked at me for validation.
johnson told him? i'm gonna kill him. i thought he could keep his mouth shut but i guess not.
"is this true?" jack asked me, his tone now normal.
"i don't know, okay?" i raised my voice.
"what about you? do you still?" sammy asked jack.
"sam, you know—" he started.
"wait. you had feelings for me? and didn't tell me?" i asked, starting to get angry and more confused by the second.
"avery, we were kids. i wasn't even sure what my feelings were" he explained.
"so, we both liked eachother and didn't do anything? our whole lives would've been different" i almost whisper to myself.
"yeah it would've. but avery, i care about you—" jack held my shoulders.
"no you don't jack, you don't care about me" i yelled, "you've put me through so much shit the past couple of months. it's like you don't even acknowledge my feelings" i pointed at his chest with force.
"av—" he stepped closer.
"no" i stepped back, water now forming in my eyes, "maybe you were right. maybe they weren't feelings. i'm happy for you jack, you know what you want and your going for it. i guess i wish i was more like you" i said in a soft tone, referring to natalie.
"i didn't mean it like that, i just meant that i was embarrassed back then. to love my bestfriend" he explained.
normally when i would've heard him say he loved me my heart would flutter out of my chest but i know better now. i realize that it's past tense and that he's moved on. i need to do the same. or at least try.
"sammy" i turned to him, choosing by not to continue my previous conversation with jack.
"yes?" he looked at me.
"i'm sorry. i led you on and treated you like shit. i know how that feels and i'm sorrry" i said maturely.
"avery, you don't need to apologize. you don't owe me anything" he smiled.
"i have to go, natalie needs me" jack put his phone back in his pocket.
"i thought you weren't going to leave no matter what" sammy stepped towards him.
"sam" i scolded him.
"no it's okay, av" jack held his hand up towards me.
"i'll always be here for avery, my best friend. but it seems like you two have made up just fine. and in terms of making things clear to for everyone to understand, well that's just not happening" he told him.
which he was right, i guess. we all have to be open about our thoughts and feelings. i thought we all used to all tell eachother everything and well, we obviously never did.
"we cool?" jack asked sammy and held out his hand.
"yeah, i guess" sam nodded, obviously not wanting to be civil.
"goodnight avery" he kissed my cheek and gave me a friendly smile before leaving.
"night" i hollered, not sure if he heard me in time.
i ended up asking sammy to stay for dinner, which he happily agreed to. after getting some takeout chinese we just talked and laughed. it was nice not fighting with someone.
once our movie finished i noticed he was almost asleep on my lap. he can drink liquor better than anyone i know but wine puts him straight to sleep.
"sam" i tried to get his attention as he hummed, "you can stay here if you want" i notified him, while brushing his hair back with my hands.
i wondered, how is his hair so soft? he's bleached and dyed it numerous times, i wanted to know his secret.
"no, that's okay. thanks though, i should be getting home" he stood up and rubbed his eyes like a cute little kid.
"you sure?" i asked in shock.
i never knew sammy to turn down a stay at a women's place.
"yeah i'm sure. baby steps, right?" he asked.
"baby steps" i smiled.
"i'll see you" he said as he finally found his keys.
"call me when you get home" i told him sternly.
"yes mom" he chuckled, "i'll see you avery" he kissed my forehead before leaving me alone in the living room.
i know, i just had feelings for jack and now i'm with sammy. but sammy is a good guy, he's my friend and i care about him. plus, he's not an engaged man.
i tossed my phone in my hands for about fifteen minutes until my phone finally rang. i didn't want to go to sleep until sam called me. i knew he would, unless he fell asleep before he got there.
"hello" i answered, a little too eager.
"i'm home" i heard sammy's tired voice.
"good, now get some sleep" i chuckled.
"goodnight avery" he said as i could feel his smile through the phone.
"goodnight sam" i smiled and hung up the phone.
after receiving the call i was waiting for i brushed my teeth and headed to bed.
was gonna make a dramatic ending but we've had enough drama for this chapter haha.
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