Chapter 49 - Decisions, deicisons...
"Rachel! I'm sorry alright!? I wasn’t even flirting with her; I was just talking to her! There’s a difference.” Harry ran up behind me complaining.
I was quite annoyed. Harry hadn’t irritated me this much in a while. Starting the morning off with a long argument with Zayn, and now I had caught him flirting off with some girl.
"Rachel! Listen to me!" Harry grabbed my arm spinning turning me around.
"What?! I don't want to listen to you Harry. I’m sick of your behaviour recently. Why the hell are you always pointing fingers at me and Zayn thinking we’re together al the time, and then you go off flirting with the girls?”
Harry looked shocked. His face tensed up, and his beautiful dimples were nowhere to be shown. He grabbed onto my shoulders tightly. "Babe, I swear to you I had no idea you felt this way. I would never in a million years look at another girl in a different way when I already have you in my life. You know that I’m like this, I talk to girls and I have a lot of friends that are girls. That’s never bothered you before. You accepted me this way before, by trusting me. I admit, I should trust you a little more with Zayn and all, but to be honest...the guy just gets on my nerves sometimes. Most of the time, it's not even me being jealous. It’s not even you I’m worried about. It’s him Rachel. I can’t trust him around you. He’s into you, we all see it. I can’t handle someone trying to love you more than I do. It’s hard not to think that when he’s with you, he’s thinking of all the ways he could take you away from you. But, I’m working on getting over that. If we can't trust each other, then how are we supposed to get along? I trust you enough, why can't you trust me?" Harry stared down into my eyes as if he could see right through me.
I thought back to past memories and went through a few flashbacks. To the time where he cheated on me with Kate. He made out with her. Even though we had cleared things up, I still had gut wrenching feeling inside me that not all of Harry's feelings were gone for Kate just yet. But thank god, he didn't remember most of it. Did I really trust Harry as much as he trusted me? Or at least as much as he said he did? If he did trust me though, why was he always accusing me of things, even back before he lost his memory?
Sometimes, I really didn't know what to do about this relationship with Harry. Harry slowly brushed his hand up and down my cheek, patiently waiting for an answer. He always knew how to win me back though, without any hesitation. He managed to draw me in, with what he wanted every time. He had a tempting charm that could win over any girl, within seconds.
"I know, I know you don’t mean to hurt me like that, you never do. I got a little over dramatic, and honestly I really wouldn’t care that you were talking to that girl if you didn’t make me lash out on you from all the accusations you’ve been putting on me recently. I kind of wanted to give you a taste of your own medicine; this is what you always do to me. You have to know Harry, it’s you I love. It’s you I’m with and it’s you I want to be with. Not him. You don’t need to worry because I know my limits. If he gets too close, I know when to remind him to stop. I will always be faithful to you Harry, you just have to do the same for me. Let's just enjoy what is left of this trip, without any more drama, okay?"
"That’s just the perfect idea." Harry smiled his crooked smile, and pulled me into a hug. I pulled back smiling. He really was a charmer.
"Okay you flirt, let’s go back to the beach now. Everyone's probably wondering where we are" I turned back around heading to the direction of the beach.
Harry grabbed my hand, pulling my back. "Hey...what's the rush, I think we need a little more Rachel and Harry time..." Harry lowered his hand down to my waist, leaning in for another kiss.
I couldn't help but laugh and pull back. “I'm sorry, but it is so obvious how desperate you are sometimes. You’re drooling for sex….” I winked at him.
Harry scoffed loudly. “Excuse me?”
I rolled my eyes reminding him once again. “But no really, we should go. It's going to be fun, c'mon!" l pouted a puppy dog face pulling Harry near me.
"Fine. The things I do for you." Harry frowned shaking his hair out of his face.
"And I love you for that." I pecked him on the lips lightly, and ran away laughing.
"Hey you get back here!" I heard him shout and he ran after me, and we took off to towards the rest of the gang together.
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"Man Rachel! You really suck! Why did I have to be nice and pick you to be on my team." Louis complained, after losing terribly to the opposite team.
"Yeah thanks man, thanks for holding anything back.” I glared at him. Louis placed his hand on my shoulder comfortingly. “I am your friend. That’s why I’m telling you…you suck.”
I slapped his arm pushing him away.
"Maybe it's not her Lou! Maybe it's just your poor volleying skills next to our team! We are unbeatable!" Nat shouted back high fiving her team.
"Oh shut up! It’s beginners luck!" Louis argued back.
"It's alright, Lou I'll switch and come on your team. We'll beat them for sure then!" Harry ran over towards Louis and patted his back lightly.
"Alright! Thanks man!"
I rolled my eyes. Guys were so annoying when they were competitive. "Alright, well you guys play. I'm just going to go look at the waves over there."
"Do you want me to come with you babe?" Harry asked just before I took off.
"No, it's alright. I just want to go by myself for a little bit. It's fine." I assured him. He was clearly having fun, I wanted him to stay. I also just really did want to be alone for a while. The only time I had to myself was during the night. It was nice to just have some peace and quiet to yourself sometimes.
Harry nodded, and served the ball with all his force in those muscular arms of his. I couldn't help but stare at him, when he rolled those sleeves up. Damn…
As I walked away I watched everyone having their own fun together. On one side, there was Danielle and Liam cuddling with each other. I really did admire them. Even through their ups and downs, they always managed to get together again, they were truly in love with each other, and everyone knew it.
Emma and Niall were another example of that. They were simply adorable. Then, there was miserable Kate. Of course, she was pressured with guilt after she had pushed me into the water. Not because she felt bad, but because half of the class hadn’t let her get away with it since it happened. She would be suspended for a month once we returned back home, and then numerous taunts from people I’m was killing her. The attention whore wasn't getting as much attention as she was used to receiving ever since they had arrived in LA. It was killing her and I loved seeing her like this. Kate was relaxing on the long beach chairs taking a quick tan. I passed by her and groaned loudly. She was even wearing the sluttiest bikini. She may as well have worn nothing at all, her bottoms were basically a thong and her breasts were bulging out of her bikini top. Then I stopped. I had a devious idea. It was evil...but on Kate? Any kind of evil was okay. I grinned and ran back quietly towards Kate. I slowly leaned in and peeked over making sure she wasn't awake. Thankfully, behind those dark glasses, she was asleep. I picked up the timer that was sitting on the table beside her, and switched the alarm, extending the time. The gorgeous tan that Kate would be expecting…was not going to be so gorgeous at all. I placed it down gently, and ran off as fast as I could before Kate awoke.
I looked back once more making sure Kate hadn't awoken, and sighed relieved. Doing something evil was not too easy; I didn't know how Kate always managed to always do it...
"Hey Rach! Why aren't you playing volleyball man!?" Niall ran up to holding Emma's hand and dragging her along behind him.
"Yeah! We're losing badly out there anyways! It doesn't matter if you're not that good! Come and play!" Emma requested sweetly.
"Na, thanks guys, but I'd rather not. I was just on my way to go sit by the rocks and look at the water."
"Oh okay, By the way. I've got some good news. Yano yer boyfriend Harry?" Niall added in with his sharp Irish accent. I was ready to hear what he was about to say. How horrible Harry was, and that I should look for someone else, the usual comments that came from my friends.
"Uhh yeah, what happened? Look Niall I know you don't like him too much but..."
"No that’s what I meant to tell you! We're actually getting along! Ever since we've come to LA, we've kind of even become friends! He makes the best BBQ in the world let me tell you that. And all you need to do to get on Niall's good side is to be able to make good food…and this guy does. So, just thought I'd let you know. Good work this time, I like the guy. See ya later Rach. Enjoy the umm…waves?" Niall waved slightly and tugged on Emma's arm making her run back with him again.
Well then, that was quite a turn of events. Finally, at least someone was getting along with Harry, other than Louis of course. The thing was though, every time I paid attention to all these couples on the beach, having fun together, being all romantic, it just sort of came to me that Harry and I weren't that sort of couple anymore. Of course, it sounded absolutely insane to be complaining about Harry not being romantic after the crazy night we had last night. I still felt like something was missing. I felt that sometimes the biggest part between us that should be in a relationship was missing; Trust. Not only that, but I always felt that Harry and I were much closer and different before the accident had happened. It might just be my paranoia but I always felt like Harry had forced himself into this relationship too early and too fast.
I sat down on the big rock in front of the water, and crossed my legs. The waves were really beautiful, and this view was perfect to just sit and think about things. Harry and I had so many ups and downs in the past, involving Kate, and always accusations against one another. We were always accusing, or arguing about something. No matter how many times Harry said he wasn't jealous of someone hanging out with me a little too much, I found it a little hard to believe. He always ended up questioning me. But could I blame him?
After going through the whole accident, trying his best to recover his memory, then being accused himself and framed of cheating on me with Kate...Harry wasn't too much to blame with this. Obviously, he had a reason to be worried about Zayn too. Our little friendship had been ruined by the little kiss he decided to plant on me at the masquerade. But it wasn’t entirely his fault, I found myself falling for him at one point too. But it was okay to crush on someone, that’s just what it was. When I’ve told Harry so many times that he has nothing to worry about he shouldn’t. Were all relationships so complicated? Sometimes I thought that not hanging out with Zayn might make things better between Harry and I. But no, I could never do that. It was wrong to push a friend out of my life just for a boyfriend, and I couldn’t imagine life without Zayn. Ever since he moved here he changed my life. So much has changed between us today. Zayn always knew when and how to cheer me up. I don’t know if it was always just a coincidence or that he was always there at the right time, but he always knew how to put a smile on my face when I was down. He was always there for me after all the fights with Harry, and the devastation after the 'apparent' loss of Maria. He was always there for me. Without being asked, and whenever I needed him.
Yet, I always ended up leaving him by getting back with Harry. Zayn helped me out with so many of my problems, yet when he ran into his own I was hardly ever there for him. I didn’t even realize it until just now. I’m such an ass. After Stephanie left, I didn’t even bother to talk to him about it. I don’t even know what I was doing anymore. I was unsure about my relationship, unsure about certain friends, and unsure about some enemies. I went back into a flashback just before I almost had her car accident, before I fell off that cliff, when Harry had saved me.
"I love you Harry... and Zayn." Those were the last words I had said before the car flipped over. I included Zayn.
I don’t know what my feelings were for Zayn, but whatever it was I had to make sure he was nothing more than a friend to me. I was truly, deeply and unconditionally in love with Harry. And no matter how hard I would try, I could never change that. Harry was the boy I was in love with since the beginning, and it felt that we were destined to just be together. But...was Harry the really guy for me? There were so many questions, such few answers...
"Hey dork, watcha doing here?" A voice called behind me.
I jumped being startled, and turned around quickly. I smiled brightly. Just the person that was on my mind...Zayn.
"Oh nothing, just thinking about stuff."
Zayn walked over and made room for himself to sit down beside me on the same rock. "Oh? What kind of 'stuff?'"
I shrugged looking out at the water. "I don't know. I've just been thinking a bit...about me and Harry. I love how we're back together. I mean, I missed him and all, but sometimes, I just don't feel like we're the right couple. Like we're not meant to be or something. Maybe after that accident and he didn’t remember me anymore; it was just supposed to end there. Maybe I screwed with destiny and we were never supposed to be together again? I was the one that forced him to remember things and practically dragged him into this relationship and now we’re having problems.” I looked over at him since he was just sitting in silence. He was listening, but he was just staring at me.
“You really believe in the destiny stuff don’t you?” He finally spoke.
Well, I loved how he completely ignored everything else I just said. “Yeah, I guess. I always have.”
He chucked a stone into the water. “Well a little words of advice,” He leaned over to whisper in my ear and put his hand over his mouth. “Stop believing it.”
I chuckled at him.
“No really, I’m serious. You’re actually looking way too much into this. Don’t forget that you were not the one who dragged him into this relationship like you just said. You were the one who stepped out, and he wa the one who showed up at your doorstep asking to take you back.”
That was true…
“I don’t even know what you’re so worried about. You spent the night with him doing god knows what just the other night…”
“Zayn get your mind out of the god damn gutter...”
He snickered and looked at me seriously. “But I’m serious. Every relationship has little problems, you just have to lean to deal with each other and move past them. I know you did before; you’re just so paranoid that after the accident he’s not the same person anymore and he’s different now because of your destiny crap. Let me just warn you, that if you keep believing that, you’re going to be the one that changes him.”
I smirked, impressed. I would imagine Zayn giving me all the wrong advice and talking shit about Harry since he found this is as the best chance to since I was already doing that. But he didn’t, he actually gave me advice that I really needed. "Wow. Thank you Zayn. I never thought I'd hear that from you though, after all the rivalry you and Harry have been through." I smiled at him, admiring his gorgeous brown eyes.
"Why? Just because I don't get along with that jerk, doesn't mean I'm going to try and tear your relationship apart. I'm not the jerk you know..."
"I know you're not. And thank you for that. But hey, remember. You've got to stop calling him a 'jerk.' He's my jerk." I winked at him teasingly.
"Eww, you’re so gross don’t about him like that with me.” Zayn pretended he was gagging and looked away.
"Ouuu, Harry’s sooo dreamy….”
Stop it!" Zayn nudged me and I couldn’t stop laughing. I shoved him over, a little too hard. Zayn quickly caught himself from falling down. "Oh my gosh! Rachel If I fell into that water I would kill you!"
"Oh crap, sorry I keep forgetting you don't know how to swim. Have you ever really been into a pool? Have you ever tried swimming?”
Zayn smirked gazing at the water. "Yeah, once. Just once. I went pretty deep too."
"Really? How?"
"Well...it was to save someone. Uh, one of my friends fell in and he was drowning. I've always said that if I see someone I care about, near the drowning point in water, I'd dive in within seconds to save them." Zayn stared into my eyes. They were trying to tell me something. Staring deep inside me as if they were looking for some hope for me to know what he trying to tell me.
But I didn’t know and it was killing me. I was so clueless…
"Well that’s the sweetest thing I've ever heard someone do. You really are a great guy Zayn, I think you need to hear it a lot more." I smiled, and rested my head on his shoulder, watching the sunset go down.
I pulled back after a bit, noticing the smirk on Zayn's face, as he began to blush. “C'mon now, people are going to start wondering where we are. Let's go back to the rest of the gang." I reminded him.
Zayn, who was still blushing, looked up at me and nodded. "Umm...alrightey. Let's go."
We chatted and walked back towards the beach. I was leaving this area much happier than I was when I walked here. Zayn was right in what he advised me. I was worrying too much about Harry and I together. He was doing great, and we were happy. We just needed to work on trusting each other more and it would just be perfect. He was good to me and that’s all I really needed. I’m glad I had Zayn for friend.
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"Rachel can I borrow this top? It’s really cute.” Danielle pulled out a purple top from my closet.
"Yeah sure thing!"
The rest of the gang were all hanging out in my room with the rest of the members. Everyone was just having fun, partying and eating up. This was the life.
No drama, no games. Just getting along with one another. That was it. Then I saw her walk through their door. It was Lauren. For some reason, I didn't get a good feeling about her...but this girl came to me as a more of a...positive feel then what I had for Kate when the first time I had met her. The girl looked so innocent, so sweet. It didn't look like she meant any harm. I had spoken to her that day, and if her main motive was to bring that girl she had told her about, Eleanor, and Louis together, that was all that mattered. Yet even so…I wasn’t too fond of Lauren.
I guess Lauren realized that I was staring at her, and smiled, walking in my direction. "Hey, Rachel is it?" She confirmed sweetly.
I smiled. There was no harm and having a short conversation. "Hey, and yeah! You're Lauren right?"
"Yep, It's nice to see you again. We didn't have a very long conversation the last time we met." Lauren replied, smacking her lips together after applying a dark red lip gloss.
She was gorgeous. There was no denying it. Her sleek long blonde hair trailed down to her waist, and was curled into perfect locks. She was wearing a short summer dress, and ballet flats.
"Yeah I know!" I replied biting her my lip. I really didn't know what to talk about with Lauren. I was starting to get into my uncomfortable and awkward phase again.
"Oh, and I'm extremely sorry about that day. I know you saw me and Harry together in the water. I really hope it didn’t look like something else. I was just explaining to him about Louis, he was just a curious as you were. He saw me talking to Lou and I guess he wanted to know who I was. "
Lou, so she even called him that too. I was relieved though, at least she was not another Kate or anything. There was no reason for me to get so worked up about this situation. I should respect that fact that Harry was allowed to see and talk to other girls.
"Oh no no, it's alright! I completely understand, I didn’t even think of it like that don’t worry." I winked at her including a little white lie.
Lauren's worried face went back to a cheerful smile. "Okay good! I was so scared you would think of me as some loser stealing your boyfriend!"
"No, don't worry."
We both continued chatting up...when someone barged through the door screaming and yelling.
"WHO THE HELL DID THIS TO ME!? CONFESS RIGHT NOW! I AM GOING TO MURDER THEM AND RUIN THEIR LIVES ONCE I FIND OUT! CONFESS. NOW!" Kate shouted at the top of her lungs.
The music in the room stopped and every one’s heads turned around staring at Kate. All hear was the sound of gasps. Kate's tan...was sure enough, bright orange. After I increased the time on her timer, Kate’s tan had gone completely wrong. I began bursting into laughter, clearing the silence and soon the entire room was laughing.
"This isn’t fucking funny! I will find whoever did this and you will pay, you little bitches.”
“Oh give it a rest you life-sized carrot!” Louis shouted back, and his friends laughed hysterically. Kate was fuming, she groaned loudly and left slamming the door shut behind her.
"Oh my god that was the best thing ever! Whoever did that, was a genius!" Lauren exclaimed giggling.
"You wanna know something?" I smirked asking her.
"No way. IT WAS YOU!" Lauren exclaimed pointing at me surprised.
I nodded winking.
"Well, I must say, this is the start of a very interesting friendship.” She extended her hand to shake mine. I laughed and shook her hand in agreement.
We both soon walked over to join the boys in their conversation. It was a good party, everyone was chatting away with each other and the music was blaring, of course Louis was here after all. "What the hell is this." We all heard Louis shout. The music turned down and everyone looked over to see what he was looking at. The cup in my hands fell to the floor and I almost choked.
Maria had walked into the party.
"M-m-Maria? What- what are you doing here? You're...alive?!" Louis was shaking. I could see his hands trembling in shock.
I turned around to find Zayn. We both looked at each other in shock. This wasn’t supposed to happen. Maria was supposed to stay away. Maria had finally found Louis...and she was about to fool him once again into falling in love with her. I looked over at Liam, who was equally, just as shocked.
"Yes, Yes Louis I am. I am so sorry. I've got a lot of explaining to do, but trust me you will forgive me once you hear me out. I've come back for you and you only."
Lies. I wanted to shout and pull her from her hair to the ground and beat the hell out of her. But I couldn't. I could only stand here and watch all the wrong happen in front of my eyes because I had to stay out of it. I had gotten myself involved in too many things between them that I never should have. At least for now, in front of all these people I wasn’t going to do anything.
"Oh, and Zayn. I've got another surprise for you." Maria said, in a sweet tone of voice.
Zayn had walked over to stand beside me and his expression changed from being absolutely disgusted by hr presence, to shocked. "Me?" He mouthed.
Everyone gasped at the sight of the person Maria had brought in with her. She slowly walked in, facing the floor and slowly lifted her gaze to meet Zayn’s. Zayn's face was pale in shock. The girl that Maria had introduced them to once again...
...was Stephanie.
Stephanie's eyes were watering up, as she made eye contact with Zayn. She walked up to him, slowly clicking her heels.
"Hey, Zayn. Long-time no see?" Her voice cracked and a tear slipped down her cheek.
"Steph? Stephanie? You're here? Oh my god." He grabbed Stephanie and pulled her into a tight hug, squeezing her in his strong arms.
I slowly turned away and walked over to Harry, squeezed his arm, as he let me and pulled me close to him. I don’t know what was going on and why every one was here, but this had to be part of Maria’s next scheme. I stood on my tippy toes to find Maria again, and I saw her already staring at me. Her arms were wrapped around Louis’, obviously he was too shocked and too happy to see her alive than to ask her anything for now. Maria sneered at me and winked. God I hated her.
"Umm hello? Does anyone know a Louis Tomlinson around here?" A voice called behind us.
Now who the fuck was this? Maria, and now Stephanie. Way to crash a party. Our head turned around again in the same direction...looking at a petite girl, with long brown hair, and striking brown eyes.
If she was asking for who Louis Tomlinson was and since she was carrying in a load of bags and luggage...
...this must be Eleanor.
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END OF CHAPTER 49
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