Tyler drove us back to his place, he knew I wouldn't want to go home and let me have my space. I was devestated, but I shouldn't be. Tyler, the one guy I have been in love with for years finally confessed his feelings for me. He finally likes me back. But I wasn't so sure anymore at least not right now. Today has been overwhelming.
My mom had called me later that day to tell me not to worry about coming back to the hospital that night. My father didn't have the energy to be up so she thought I should come by in the morning. I didn't like it but I obeyed. I told her that I was staying with Tyler that night. If she had any suspicion about my relationship with Chris she didn't comment on it. Since it was a Friday night, Tyler and I decided to just have a movie night even though I was not up for it I forced myself to be somewhat joyous. I mean come on, my best friend, the father of my child actually has some type of feeling for me. I couldn't help, but feel like he is only feeling that way because of Chris.
Every time Tyler looked at me I forced a smile. I couldn't decipher if he knew it was fake. I hated feeling this way because of Chris. He was nothing. He was not my real boyfriend or the father of my child. Then why was it that I felt like my heart had been ripped from my chest. That it hurt to breathe. We did nothing but bicker and argue with each other.
Although there were times Chris made me laugh. He knew it was hard,not telling Tyler he was the father and for my best friend ditching me for his stupid ex-girlfriend. Even though he was being inapporiate and never listened to me; I knew he did it to make me smile. He never actually meant whatever he said or did.
He told me things he wasn't obliged to say. He let me in and from the first day I met him he did nothing, but try to help me. He was there for every incident that happened with Andrew. It hurts that he was with her after I left. I can't help but feel that green monster. He still wanted her even after everything she did to him.
I can't help but fathom the whole situation. When did I start to lose my feelings for Tyler and develop something deeper for Chris?
"Bobbie, are you sure your alright?" Tyler said gently. I was startled a little. I didn't realize how lost in my thoughts I was.
Not sure if I was able to say something without my voice cracking I played it safe. Nodding with a small grin I grabbed onto his hand and squeezed. He knew I was lying, but thankfully he didn't press the issue further. I wish it was still him I cared so much for. Maybe its just a faze. Maybe I will get over this silly crush I have on Chris and my heart can truly belong to Tyler. Be the way it should be. After the movie ended-I'm not sure what was on- we headed to his room to fall asleep. He let me have the bed, assuming he was just going to sleep on the floor like he usually would when I spent the night, he surprised me. The bed dipped on my right. I guess I was looking at him with wide surprise eyes because he replied. " What? I won't try anything I promise."
I nodded and rolled back over. It was hard trying to fall asleep, Tyler's warmth was like a heater on my back. Some time during the night we must have moved closer to each other because when I woke up his arms were wrapped around my bare shoulders. Trying not to wake him up I scooted away from him. I wanted him but not in that sense anymore. My palms were sweaty, but my heart didn't quicken like usual. I could feel the lust, but not the love like there usually was. I was still utterly confused by all of this. Walking downstairs, I headed to the kitchen. It was ridicuously early.
The water slid down my throat with ease. I set the cup down in the sink, rinsing it off in the process. I didn't have the urge to go back upstairs to sleep next to Tyler. Finally making a decision I sat down on the couch, just contemplating everything.
"Everything is going to be okay," I rubbed my belly, feeling the hardness of it. I needed to be strong for my baby. She or he needed a strong mother. Sighing, I gave up on thinking about Chris. I needed to work on myself. I needed a job so I could provide for my baby. I needed to make things right with my friends and family. I didn't need Chris. Not anymore, Andrew was put away. He couldn't reach us anymore.
I felt something vibrate underneath me. Curious I got up to search for the object. Once I grabbed onto it, I realized it was my phone. My heart leaped, hoping it was Chris finally contacting me. But that was wishful thinking. I saw it was a text from a friend of mine. I hadn't heard or seen Darci since my birthday weekend.
'I know we haven't talked in a while, and I'M SORRY! I know the phone works both ways not just one. I don't even know why we stopped talking, but I need you.'
My heart clenched, I ignored everybody because I was sad about Tyler. I didn't even give them a chance. I was so absorbed in myself and not caring about their feelings. But now I have my chance reconciliation. Instead of texting back, I called her. My anxiety went up with every ring. Desperately hoping she'd answer.
"Bobbie!" she screamed in excitement. I couldn't help but chuckle. "Hi, Darci."I could hear her sighing on the other line. I can feel how anxious she was, thinkining I would reject her.
"I didn't think you would call, especially right away. What are you doing up this early?" I hear her fumble around, possiblely trying to get comfortable on her bed.
"I couldn't sleep, I've been up for almost an hour now. But I could ask you the same thing young lady." I giggled. It felt good to have a girlfriend again. I heard her laugh heartedly. "Yeah, I couldn't sleep at all either. And I know we haven't talked in a few months and I'm sorry-" I interrupted her, not needing an apology. She shouldn't be the one to apologize. "It's okay Darci. I've been a sucky friend. I'm at Tyler's house. Come over I know he won't mind you being over." when I didn't hear her respond I knew she was rushing to put decent clothes on. I could hear her rapid movement. "I'll be right there okay!!" then she hung up. I swear that girl. I giggled thinking of her.
I knew with Darci I can tell her everything. Even the truth about the father. Everything and I was planning to. Ten minutes later, I heard Darci dash through the door. We all had keys to each others place. Being that we have known each other for so long our families were very close. And before I knew it I was being tackled down on the couch.
Laughing I grabbed her and hugged her tightly. "I'm sorry we are both idiots." I laughed with sorrow. Tears covered my vison and the longer we hugged, tears began to pool over and spill down my flushed cheeks. She let me go first and wiped the tears off my cheeks. Squeezing my no chubby cheeks, she sighed.
"I'm sorry we are idiots too. haha" We comfortably sat on the couch talking about everything and nothing at the same time.
"Tyler told me about the pregnancy," I sighed, I was suprised the topic didn't come up sooner. Before I could comment on the subject she continues,"I have something to tell you. And you're the first to know." She gulped and looked at me with watery eyes. "I'm pregnant too." With wide eyes, I looked at her. Darci, the good girl. Who rarely did anything bad or wrong is pregnant. Granted she is older than me by two years. But she knew being pregnant at a young age is still scary. I was touched that she came to me first. I pulled her into my arms and she cried on my shoulder.
I let her cry it all out. Once I heard her sniffles get smaller and smaller I decided to talk. "How long have you known?" wiping her eyes and nose she pulled away to look at me again. "I just found out. I made an appointment...can you come with me?" nodding my head I asked, "When is it?" she told me in a few days. We both sighed, life sucked sometimes.
"I'm sorry about what happened to your dad. I should have been there from the beginning." I grabbed her hand and squeezed mentally telling her it was fine. Understanding she squeezed back.
"I have a question though if you don't mind me asking." I urged her to go on, "How did you met Chris. I mean it is possible since we stopped talking around your birthday weekend, but it's just weird you know." My heart pounded, I could do it now. She deserved the truth. "Chris isn't the father Darci."
"WHAT!" she said confused. I nodded and continued, "Tyler is..." Her jaw immediately dropped. She looked like a fish out of water trying to find something to say.
"HOW! WHEN! WHY!! OH MY!" I giggled at her. Shaking my head sadly I continued to explain. "Chris took the fall for me when Andrew was being weird and creepy. I didn't want to tell Tyler because he doesn't remember sleeping with me that night when we were all at the cabin. I lied to him. And being caught up in the lie I was too scared to tell him the truth. I still am. He still doesn't know."
"How could you lie about that." my heart jumped, standing not to far away was Tyler. He looked disgruntled and angry. My plams started to sweat and my pulse skyrocketed. Not being able speak Tyler continued, "You continued to lie to me about that night and you got that prick to go along with it. How could you lie about my baby! I would have been there more for you." He looked at me hurt. I saw the disappointment in his eyes. "You made me look like an idiot Bobbie. And the things I said to you. If I would have known the baby was mine I would have never suggest you to get an abortion."
I could tell he wanted to say more and I didn't have the heart to explain myself. It was selfish of me. I was a scared little girl. I'm not fit to be a mother.
"Hey! She has her reasons. It was wrong, yes. But still, would've you believed her?" Tyler finally noticed Darci. He clenched his teeth. He knew she was right. Not commenting any further he walked away. I could hear from a distance his keys rattling against each other. The door slamming followed suit. I knew where he was going.
"Darci lets go!" We rushed to her car, I didn't care I wasn't wearing shoes and still in my pj's. I gave Darci directions to Chris' and once we parked and hurried to the front of the apartment building. I heard them before I saw them. Tyler was yelling at Chris. My heart clenched when I saw Darla holding onto Chris. she was disheveled.
"That's really low of you to go along with the lie. Then play with her feelings. You should have stayed out of it!" Tyler's anger was about to burst. I could see his hands balled up in fists. He was going to throw the first punch. Chris glanced my way. He face was passive.
"I never did anything to Bobbie. She knew I had no feelings for her. I just helped a little girl who was too sacred to face reality. What kind of guy would I be if I didn't help a little bit." my heart shattered in pieces. Darla scrutinized me. "Chris would never fall for someone so pathetic." she added.
"He fell for you, did he not. All I see when I look at you is scum." Her faced puffed up and turned apple red. I saw her take a step towards me. She was standing behind Chris, but when she moved away I saw the bump. Her swollen stomach looked back at me mockingly. She wasn't huge but she wasn't small either.
"Darla stop it. Calm down for the baby." He looked at her a little frustrated. He looked at me in the eyes. As if he was saying goodbye. It was like a punch in the gut.
I heard a crack, registering that Tyler indeed threw the first punch.
"That's for being a douche. Bobbie is amazing, she's not some little girl. She's most likely better than this girl will ever be." Chris didn't comment nor punch back. He was done with it all. Darla looked at Tyler then back at Chris waiting for Chris to defend her. Seeing the disappointment in her face before Chris hauled her back inside. I knew it was all over. My feelings for him were one sided and I hate that I let him slowly creep into my heart.
Tyler stormed to us and pulled me into a hug. "Lets go." Darci and I followed him back to his house. I wanted nothing more than to crymy heart out, but no tears were shed. I let myheart stay there with him. I needed to move on.