Chloe's Pov:
I awoke with a gasp, my mind reeling. The dream felt so real. It had been so vivid. I actually felt like I had been sucked into another world and spat back out again.
The comment that had been made raced through my mind. Sweat literally poured down my forehead, my hand's were clammy. My pulse racing by the minute. Two comments still stayed put in my mind.
'Your mum left because she didn't love you'
'Your mum wanted to get an abortion but she was too far in to do so'
I knew what they had said was true. I was the one that wasn't supposed to be born. Zayn had always been the favourite, the one that everyone cared about. The one that everyone loved. I on the other hand was just the... outcast.
If it wasn't for me my parents would both still be alive. But there not they're gone, I'm never going to see them again.
Ever.
BEEEP BEEP BEEEEP.....
I looked to the side of my bed and saw my alarm clock flashing like mad. My finger pressed down on the reset button on the side of the alarm clock. The time read 8:00am. My legs stretched as I stood up and walked away from my warm, cosy bed and into the bathroom connected to my room.
My warm feet hit the cold tile floor covering the bathroom floor. I filled the sink with cold water filling it up to the top. I turned the tap off once it was full enough watching the tap drip with little droplets of water.
My hands dipped into the water as I splashed my face with the cold water. After doing what I had to do, I emptied the sink and dried off my face. I sighed as I looked into the mirror above the sink. My reflection stared back at me, I wasn't the same.
My eyes were dull with no light in them. My once sparkling eyes were now a dull colour. I had bags under my brown eyes making me look like I'm dead.
My skin was pale with no colour in it at all. My lips were dry with no moisture and my eyes were red from crying time to time about...mum.
I applied concealer under my eyes to cover up the black bags. I looked a little bit better but not completely. I plated my hair in a fish braid over my left shoulder which ended at my hips. I put very little lip gloss before walking out the bathroom.
I changed clothes and put on a pair of grey jogging bottoms and a crop top on.
{P I C T U R E O N T H E S I D E O F T H E C R O P T O P}
Chucking a Jack Will's jacket so Zayn wouldn't kill me...hopefully. "COME ON CHLOE, WE GOT TO GO NOW!" Zayn shouted from downstairs. I grabbed my phone and walked out of my bedroom. I met Zayn downstairs with the rest of the boys as they were putting on their shoes ready to go.
~~~~~SKIPPING CAR RIDE AND BREAKFAST CAUSE IM WAY TOO LAZY TO WRITE~~~~~~
We pulled up to the local medical centre. I pushed myself further into my seat, hoping that thee seat would just suck me in and never spit me out again. Louis parked the car and turned off the engine, all you could hear were the sound of car doors opening and closing as the boys got out one by one. Louis opened the my door which I was sat next to wanting me to get out. I shaked my head side to side saying no over and over again.
Louis eventually reached over my body and un did the seat beat strapping me to the seat and picked me up bridal style and placed me down outside the car. Closing and locking the door so I couldn't sit back down again. The boys had already started walking towards the medical centre, as I just stood there looking around for an escape. Little did I know, Zayn was standing behind me. His hand intertwined with mine as we walked together into the medical centre.
Seriously every time I came to the medical centre I felt sick to my stomach. Dad, always used to say if you weren't sick when you came in you defiantly would be when you came out. And that was true. It happened every time I came in here. I held my breath as soon as I walked through the medical centre doors. Zayn walked up to the front desk and checked me in. I wanted to make a run for it right there, but I know I had to do this still.
I sat down in one of the many chairs in the waiting room with the boys. Louis gave me a side hug and a kiss on the forehead. Soon my name appeared on the over above screen screwed into the wall in the waiting room.
The boys gave me reassuring smiles as I stood up. I walked down the corridor doors lining every inch of the walls either side of me leading to different departments. I saw an open door with very little light coming out of it. I knew that, that room was the one I was going to have to come to for six hours over a six course week period.
I walked into the room and was met by a girl no older than the age of 18 with blonde long straight hair ending at the small of her back. She had black high waisted skinny jeans on with a white lace crop top. Cowboy boots covered her feet with a white Gucci belt looped through the loops on her jeans. Overall she was stunning In my opinion.
I took a seat down in one of the bean bag chairs which was bright pink. Posters covered the walls looking more like a teenage girl bedroom which was owned by an obsessed fan belonging to every fan base ever made. {like me, haha}
"Hello sweetheart, I'm Kelly, what's your name?" she asked with a warm smile.
"Um...hi, I'm Chloe" I muttered loud enough for her to hear. She nodded her head in return and took her seat in the red bean bag opposite me.
"So, what we are going to do today is, um...well get to know each other better, really. Um, favourite girl band?"
"Little Mix, and before you ask because of Jade and Perrie also known as Jerrie" I said which brought a small smile to my lips. Kelly smiled at me, not a fake smile a genuine smile.
"Well my favourite girl band is Fifth Harmony and my favourite boy band is One Direction" My smile literally fell of my face. Kelly noticed that and she immediately knew what was wrong.
"Um...well anyway I know your here because of err, well how to put this, family issues and self harm" Kelly said unsure of my reaction.
I nodded my head and sank lower into my seat. "First off what's your story behind cutting, dear?" I mentally slapped myself and her around the face. My throat just went dry as fuck.
So I sat there for the next two hours explaining my story to her {{WHICH WILL BE IN NEXT CHAPTER (SPOILER OMG)}}
She looked like she was writing a fucking harry potter sequel and the whole series over again. She flipped the page every three seconds, I don't know why it is always three seconds neither one or two it is always three seconds. Like, why? WTF!!!
See three explanation marks like what! Once I soon finished my two hour story telling. My ass was numb, Kelly looked like she had a cramp in her hand and it looked like her fingers were about to fucking fall off. A few tears had descended down my face but not a lot. I kind of got used to the pain after all these years.
"Well Chloe we have defiantly run over our time limit for today. I will see you next week. But one thing before you go back home, promise me you won't cut for at least one week?" She asked hopefully; that little hint of hope in the corner of her eyes. I nodded m head reluctantly and said a quick shy goodbye and walked out the room. The boys were still sitting their which scared me a little bit. I would of at least thought they would have gone to the super market next to the medical centre at least, with Niall's hunger problems.
They shot up out of their seats once they saw me walk into the waiting room for the second time today. "How did it go, you were in their for quite a long time?" asked Liam as he pulled me into a hug.
"It went... alright I guess. Oh, and by the way, Kelly is a big fan of you guys." I said before walking out the medical centre with my head held high.
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THIS WAS SO FUCKING SHIT IM SO SO SORRY!!!!!!!!
First off PERRIE AND ZAYN ARE ENGAGED!! YAY! IN A COUPLE FO YEARS LITTLE ZERRIE BABIES WILL BE ATTENDING RED CARPET EVENTS OMFG IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM!!!! YAY!!!
As I said before this was shit as fuck! I'm writing this at 10pm at night and I am shattered as hell. My summer is nearly over I go back to school on September the 5th since I live in the UK! I know America schools have gone back already, and I have a question for, what grade (year) are you in over there and how is your school year going already?
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