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Steph POV
It replays in my head, over and over. It brings tears to my eyes and I slowly begin to read the rest of the journal. I feel so loved reading this and I know I am not in a fake relationship. He loves me. So deeply and passionately and I feel the same. I grab my Starbucks and throw it out and make my way back. I see Hunter's car and he drives me back to Karen's. I go in and talk for a while and tell them I am going out for dinner with Harry. They say goodbye and I walk back to the apartments. I reach Harry's and open the door. Harry is pacing in the living room, puling on his hair. I walk in and he looks at me. He runs to me and engulfs me in the biggest hug.
"I thought you left me," he whispers in my ear. I feel his tears on my shoulder and I bring my hand to his head. My other hand is rubbing his back and I try to calm him down.
"I won't ever leave you Harry."
"Then where were you," he sniffles, pulling back and looking into my eyes.
"I went to the park," I said.
"Oh."
"And I read my birthday present."
I walked over to him placed my hand on his cheek. "After reading that, I am never leaving you. Because I know that you are truly regretful and love me. Faithfully."
He smiled and I kissed him softly. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to him.
"I made you dinner," he whispered on my lips. I closed my eyes and placed my forehead on his.
"Really?"
"Yes, I made you Fettuccini Alfredo."
"Yummy." He laughed and walked me into the kitchen. He pulled my chair out and I sat down. He grabbed the prepared plates off the counter and the steam hit me. It smelled delicious. Harry sat across from me and I looked at him. His face illuminated in the candle light. I loved the way his eyes glowed. The brilliant green made me want to stare at them forever.
"I love you baby girl."
"I love you too."
We ate and made small talk, but most of the night we stared into each other's eyes. His smile made my heart flutter and I never want to look away. I finish my dinner and carry it to the sink. I feel Harry's presence behind me and he wraps one arm around my waist and the other extended, placing his plate in the sink. His hand then travels up my arm he tilts my head to the side. He starts to kiss up my neck and I shiver. I can feel him smile and I place my hand on his. I turn and wrap my arms around his neck.
"What did you do today?" I ask.
"Discussed business with Tom and the rest of the staff at the gym."
"Oh, okay. Is there anything important happening?"
"No."
I laughed as he rolled his eyes. I held onto him tightly and he did the same. He placed his arm under my thighs and picked me up. I placed my hands on his face and brushed his hair back. He closed his eyes and smiled. I kissed around his face and gentle placed my lips on his. He kissed back and then pulled away. He placed me down.
"We are going somewhere."
"Where?" I ask.
"It's a surprise." He smiled and I groaned. He laughed and pulled me to him. He took my hand and dragged me to his car. I sat down and he blindfolded me.
"Is this really necessary?" He laughed. "Yes, very much so."
I giggled and heard him start the car. He started driving and it felt like we were driving for hours. I hate this. I keep asking when we are coming closer and he never gives me an answer.
"Ugh, you are a meany," I groan. He laughs and says he just wants this to be the best birthday ever. I sit in my seat and bounce my legs up and down.
"Steph, will you please stop that."
"No, because I am mad at you. How long have we been driving?"
"Almost 2 hours."
"Are you freaking kidding me?!"
"No."
I cross my arms around my chest and he stops the car. He walks to my door and lifts me bridal-style out of the car. He kicks the door shut and carries me. I whine and he tells me to wait. I hear a waterfall and get anxious. He places me down and he comes behind me and tells me to close my eyes. I groan but agree. He undoes the blindfold and tells me to open my eyes.
It's beautiful.
It's a little cabin and there is a waterfall. The lake next to it is so beautiful. I can't believe he did this. He wraps his arms around me but I am in shock.
"It's beautiful," I gasp.
"Not as beautiful as you," and I laugh at his cheesy comment.
"It's true though," he tells me. I smile and run to the lake. I wave to Harry and he joins me. I ask him to unzip me and he agrees. I strip down to my bra and panties and jump in. He does the same and jumps in after me. He swims over to me and grabs me. I wrap my legs around his waist and he holds me to him.
"Happy Birthday. This is our place for a week." I smile and peck his lips.
"You know, this is very similar to Twilight."
"Oh, yeah," he said smirking.
"Yeah, except they have sex and Bella has a demon child."
He laughs and I smile. He pecks my lips.
"I promise you there will be no demon child," he assures me. I laugh and kiss him again. I grab his face and he swipes my bottom lip. I allow his entrance and he goes rough this time. I start to fight my tongue against his and he groans. I wrap my fingers in his hair and he moves his hand to my waist. His thumb rubs circles on the scar and my mouth is taken over by Harry's dominant tongue. I feel him lift me out of the water and lay me on the grass next to the lake. He hovers over me and I feel his prominent bulge on my thigh. I flip us over and begin to dig my crotch to his. He moans into the kiss and I keep rocking into him. I start to move my hips around and at one spot, he gasps. I keep hitting that same spot and he pulls away from the kiss.
"Shit, Steph. Oh my God," he breaths. He is panting and kiss his neck and collarbones. My hands are fiddling with his hair and he is breathless. I feel his shaft soften and I ease up. I kiss his lips again but he is panting and still disoriented. I smile down at him kiss his collarbones. I travel up his neck and to his ear. I kiss his earlobe and take it between my teeth. He moans and I suck on it. I move my mouth up his jaw and look into his eyes. They are closed and I kiss his eyelids.
"I love you Harry," I say. He looks up at me and I smile down at him. He looks back up to me and smiles.
"I seriously can't believe you just relieved me. That was fantastic." I smiled and he grabbed my face. He kissed me and I pulled back. I got up and walked over and got my dress. Harry eventually made his way over and picked up his clothes. He grabbed me by my waist and pulled me into his chest.
"Don't think I will forget that."
I giggled and he places his hand on the small of me back. I smile and we walk inside. It is huge. It has a fireplace and a giant living room. The ceilings are high and is beautiful. Harry kisses the top of my head and I just stand there.
"This is where I was today actually. I was getting this ready for you." I look at him and peck his lips.
"I can't believe you did this all for me."
"I have to treat my love the best."
My heart flutters and I walk in more. I walk into the kitchen and see a small white cake sitting on the counter. Harry follows me in and he hands me his shirt. I put it on and he puts his jeans back on. He grabs a candle and puts it in the cake. He leads me to the counter and sits across for me. He lights the candle and sings to me. I smile and look in his eyes the whole time.
"Happy Birthday baby girl, make a wish." I close my eyes and think.
I wish Harry and I will never be broken apart again.
I blow out my candle and Harry kisses my cheek. I smile and he cuts us each a piece.
"Now, why haven't you gained any weight?" he asked.
"I actually went to the doctor and asked. He said it was because my metabolism has increased majorly and that any movements I make burn calories quickly. Trust me, I don't find being this skinny beautiful."
"Well, no matter what, your perfect to me." I smile and peck his lips. I place my plate in the sink and Harry does the same. I begin to walk and he comes up behind me and carries me bridal-style. I kiss his neck and he walks up the stairs. I smile and kiss his neck. He reaches a room and opens the door. I gasp at how beautiful it is. High ceiling, all white, it's beautiful. I places me on the bed and he walks to the bathroom and starts to run water. I assume he is taking a shower.
He walks out a grabs my hand. "I ran you a bath."
I nodded and he led me in. He placed a towel next to the bathtub for me to use when I finished. He walked over to me, still shirtless and flawless, and walks behind me. He gently pulls my hair back and into a bun. I smile. It was a simple gesture but it made my heart flutter.
"Are you going to come with me?" I ask. I really want this night to be special, but I just don't want to have sex yet.
"Do you want me in there with you?"
I turn and I nod. He looks at me with love and kisses my lips softly. He moves his hands down to the hem of my top. Well, his top. He pulls it over my head and he places it on the counter. He pulls his jeans down, leaving us both in our underwear. He walks to me and wraps both hands around my body.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes."
He moves his hands along my back and gently unclasps my bra. He slides the straps down my arms and pulls it off my body. I become insecure and feel like I need to cover. He grabs my waist and pulls me to him.
"You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Please don't feel insecure. You are beautiful." I smile and kiss his lips. He moves my hands to the waist band of his boxers and I start to shake.
"It's okay, I love you and I want you to be comfortable with all of me." He kisses my forehead and I nod. I slowly pull them down and take him in.
He is huge.
His boxers pool on his ankles and he pulls me into him. "I love you. Please don't be afraid. That's why I want to wait." I nod and grab his hands. He kisses my lips and pulls down my panties. I step out of them and he does the same with his boxers. The only thing on me is the paper plane necklace Harry gave me. He pulls me to him and he kisses me passionately. He pulls back and gets into the tub. I get in and press my back to his chest. He moves his hands up and down my arms.
"Relax, baby girl." I relax into his chest and he wraps his arms around me. He kisses my jaw and neck and shivers are sent through my body.
"I love you so much. You are so beautiful."
"I love you Harry. Know that I trust you with my life."
"I know baby girl, and I promise that with me, you are safe."
I trust him so much. This is my most intimate moment in my whole life and I hope I am with Harry forever. I hope he stays with me and never leaves me again. This is everything to me to be with him. He saved me so many time.
I stay in his arms for a while and we get out eventually. He gets out first and wraps a towel around his waist. I stand up and he wraps a towel around my body. He pulls me to him and looks into my eyes.
"I love you baby girl. You are mine and I promise I will never let anything hurt you ever again."
"I love you so much Haz. Thank you."
He places his hands on my cheeks and wipes a few tears away. "Why are you crying?"
"I love you and I believe you so much. Please don't leave me anymore."
"I won't, I promise." He hugs me closer and I breathe him in. He smells amazing and I love him so much. He pulls back and picks me up bridal-style. He carries me to the closet and grabs me a pair of panties and I slip them on, keeping the towel on. Harry doesn't pay any attention to me while he looks for something. I take his shirt and place it over my head, not bothering to put on a bra. Harry found his boxers and dropped his towel. I turn away and he laughs.
"I don't mind, Steph."
"I know, I just feel you need a sense of modesty still."
He laughs and grabs a pair of joggers too. He puts them on and runs and picks me up. I let out a squeal and he carries me over to the bed. He places me down, keeping his arms under my back.
Harry POV
I start to kiss her face and hold her close to me. She giggles and I laugh. I love her so much. I am so in love with her right now. She let me have all of her. I am beyond amazed at her. She holds so much beauty and she is all mine.
"You know, I love you right," I say.
"Yes, I know. And I love you."
"Good because you are mine forever."
She smiled at me and grabbed my face in her hands. She pressed a kiss to my lips and I smiled. She really was the only one who has ever made me feel this way. She makes me feel so much emotion that I would usually just numb away with alcohol. She brings out the best in me.
She moves her hands to my shoulders and flips us over. I usually allow her to flip us because she doesn't really do much. All she does is kiss me and rock me. God, her hips are magical. She looks me in the eyes as she lifts her face up. She starts to run a finger on my eyebrow and I stare at her.
She loves tracing my face. I find it relaxing but I don't know why she does it. She gently moves her hand down my nose and traces the curve of it. She then moves her pointer finger along my upper lip. I close my eyes, feeling her soft touch against my skin. She moves her thumb against my bottom lip and sends shivers down my spine. She moves her hand and caresses my cheek. Her hands fit perfectly against my cheek and her other hand pushes my hair back. She spins a curl in her finger, considering my hair is now its usual curly mess. She brings her her hands to my chest and traces my tattoos. I am covered in them, but her favorites are my swallows. She traces all the way down my torso, ending at my waistline. She kisses my waistline and I moan. Her soft lips make me go weak. She starts to kiss up my ab-line and starts to kiss my nipple. She starts to suck on it and I moan. Her tongue grazes over it and I bit my bottom lip.
This is the second time tonight that she is pleasing me. And it's her birthday. I think she just likes what she is accomplishing. Making me go weak. I open my eyes and see her gently kissing a bruise still left from the fight that happen only a few days ago. Her eyes flutter open and she looks up at me. She smiles and continues to kiss my chest. She kisses my collarbones and I begin to grow impatient. I need her kiss now.
I grab her face and pull it up to mine. She giggles and I smash my lips on hers. She reacts and kisses me back. I swipe her bottom lip and start to gently massage her tongue with mine. I flip us back over and place my hands behind her back. I move my hands up to cup the back of her head and she hums into the kiss. I find this position to be the most comforting and I love our bodies molding together. Her being the light and me being the darkness.
I pull away from her and lay next to her. She keeps her eyes closed and breathes. I watch her chest move up and down, her breathing in and out. Her eyes are closed and her lips are pink form our kissing. Her lips curve into a smile and I smile too.
"Liking what you see Styles?" She said opening her eyes and looking at me.
"Very much."
She laughs and moves closer to me. I pull back the covers and we get in. I pul her close to me and hold her in my arms.
"I love you, I hope your birthday was excellent."
"I love you too, and it was amazing. Thank you so much."
"It was my pleasure. Goodnight my love."
"Goodnight Haz."
She moved up to my chest and snuggled into it. I smiled and wrapped my arms around her. I fell asleep with her in my arms, and hoping I will forever.
Steph POV
I woke up to the sun's rays in my eyes and I try to move. I can't. I open my eyes and see a mop of brown hair on my chest. I realize that I am completely trapped under Harry. Harry is lying with his left leg drapped over mine, left arm hooked on my waist, and his head using my chest as a pillow. I just can't believe I didn't feel this last night. I attempt to move but Harry's got me on a death lock. I decide to make the best of this moment and play with his hair. I twirl his curls in my fingers, defining each one. He starts moving his hand along the bed and I then realize he is looking for mine.
I reach and grab for his hand and he entwines our fingers. He takes a deep breath and resumes his sleeping. I start to rub circles on the back of his hand and he undoes our fingers wraps his arms around my back, lying ontop of me now.
"Harry," I groan and attempt to push him off. He barely budges but I know he's awake. I try to wiggle my arm out and I finally do it. I bring my hand to my mouth and lick my pointer finger. I stick it in his ear and he moves off of me immediately.
"Ugh, I thought I got rid of that a while ago. My sister did that to me all the time."
"Well, don't lay on top of me."
"I wanted to hold you."
"Well you didn't have to lay yourself on me. I am shrimpy," I state and he laughs. He pulls me to him and hugs me. He pulls me ontop of him and wraps his arms around my back.
"You mean you wanted me to do this," he asks, smirking.
"Yes, because you are macho man and I am the shrimp on a stick." He laughs and I bat his arm.
"You are no shrimp on a stick. You are tall and beautiful. Like a tree."
I glare at him and he laughs. I try to move off him.
"But, I must say that you are beautiful and nowhere near compared to a tree. You are the most beautiful living thing on this planet."
My heart flutters and I move off him. He follows me as I make my way downstairs. I grab a banana and he joins me. I eat and he watches me. I can feel his eyes burning into my skin, like the time I ate dinner ate his house for the first time. I smile at the memory.
"Why did you just smile?" he asks.
"The way you were staring at me made me think of the time you stared at me when I came to your house for dinner when you first moved." I looked at him and he smiled.
"I thought you were the most beautiful girl in the world and I couldn't even form words to say to you. I apologize if I acted like a jerk."
"No, our fine. It just brought a happy memory back." He smiled and pecked my lips. I finished my banana and we walked back upstairs to get changed. I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and Harry came out in his jeans and a half buttoned shirt. He looked sexy. I walked into the closet and pulled out a light blue dress and slipped it on along with a bra and panties. I walked out and Harry looked up at me.
"You look beautiful," he said, smiling.
"Thank you."
H wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me into a gentle kiss. He pulled back and lifted me bridal-style. He walked all the way tp the car and placed me down. I got in and Harry drove somewhere. I had no idea where we were going. He pulled into a park and I noticed how beautiful the trees looked. I didn't realize Harry was already at my door and opened it until he offered his hand. I took it and we walked to a tree. We sat and Harry pulled something out from behind his back. I looked and noticed it was my journal. My journal from Italy. It looked old now and I smile. He has read this so much. I look up at him.
"How many times have you read this?"
"Almost everyday, twice."
I smile and he hands me it. "And today I want you to read it to me."
I look at him and I nod. I lean my back against the tree and he lays his head in my lap. I begin reading it and I can remember all the thoughts flowing through my mind as I wrote this. Sadness, loneliness, scared, and love. I read it to him and just think about all of the memories that are flowing out of my mouth.
To my love who I miss. The one who I need to know that I love him. I have never loved another as much as I love you.
I smile at the stupid memories. My horse kicking Mario's horse and Mario falling into the mud. I don't think I have laughed so much in my life. Then the time when Karen got so drunk that she thought she was cheating on wine when she drank water.
I write to you now in my most desperate time of need. I lay awake, hoping that they will go away. You are my savior that makes them leave. Your arms wrapped around me is when I feel at home. You make my day brighter just by your smile. I feel as though you regret the things you have done, but they only make you shine brighter. I love all your perfect imperfections. They make you who you are and I am proud to be called yours.
I set the book down and look down at Harry, who is intently staring up at me.
"Thank you, I have always wanted you to read it to me. When I read it, I wish I could hear you actually read it. When you read it, all of your words that you have written, speak to me on a whole new level."
I nod and understand where he is coming from. He sits up and pulls me onto his lap. I place my head in the crook of his neck. I feel him rub my back and I just sit here, happy and content, that Harry is by my side forever.
(Alright, that chapter made me want to fall in love. But my main question is if you have you birthday on October 17, the same as Steph? I think that would be so cool and if you do, please tell me and I might include you in the next chapter. I really would like to get 300 votes by tomorrow and 8.5k reads. I would like to see this book get on the charts and hit 10k reads by the end of the week. Please help me, it would mean a lot!!)