"Stop doing that!" I shouted at Brenda who was tickling me with her little fingers. She giggles uncontrollably at my attempt at making her stop, which was me shouting at her while laughing so hard I almost couldn't breath.
I finally pulled my body forward and grabbed her by her waist and lifted her little body in to the air. I swung her around in a circle and she laughed and giggled as I did this. I eventually fell back on the grass with her and we both just laughed.
"Again!" She shouted and smiled at me.
"I'm tired Brenda. Maybe later." I pulled her in to a hug and she ran back in to the house as I just smiled at her from behind. I loved that little girl.
"Hey." I heard a familiar voice from behind me. I turned to see Jake standing there. He had the most awkward expression on his face along with a smile. I could tell he felt weird about coming here and seeing me. I kind of felt weird to.
"Oh hi. What's up?" I asked as I walked up to him. I had my hands in my back pockets so I wouldn't be tempted to play with my hair like I did when ever I was nervous.
"Well today is my day off of work and I wanted to know if you wanted to hang out or something?" He's eyes were staring at the ground and he was swaying his body back and fourth. It was too funny. He was nervous!
"Sure. I just have to go tell my parents. Be right back." I ran to the house and saw my parents were sitting on the couch doing nothing. I went to open my mouth but realized what I would be saying. They can't know about Jake and me trying to become friends again. I spent months of depression over him and my parents had to suffer all the late nights of my drama. They wouldn't be okay with this even if Jake had thrown a parade in honor of him being sorry.
"Ummmm I was going to go in to town and check up on so old friends, is that okay?" I had just lied to my parents. I felt like shit but what could I do?
"Sure honey. You don't have to ask us if you can go do things. You don't live here anymore technically. Plus we made you wait around all day yesterday and it's only fair we are okay with you going out." She smiled at me which made my heart brake even more. I had to lied to her and she was being nice as possible to me. Ugh. Sometimes people are just to dang nice.
I walked out of the house and smiled at the face who was still swaying his nervous body back and fourth. It was truly funny.
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"No, you can't just hate them!" I shouted at Jake, the guy who just denied that my favorite band, Black Veil Brides, was good.
"Why can't I?" He was smirking at my anger towards his horrible and cruel response.
"Cause there amazing!?" I was still shouting at him but in more of a playful tone now.
"I don't really care for the whole dress up in black and make up shit." He sat back on to the park bench acting like what he said did not offend me. By the look on my face, I was offended.
"You're a horrible person." I sat back just as he did and acted like that didn't offend him.
"You can't just hate someone because they don't like your favorite band!" He was shouting back now. I had finally got this game going.
"Yes I can and I just did." I laughed in his face and got up. "We should do something beside sit here and be mean to each other."
"I would agree but there isn't much to do around here if you haven't noticed." He laughed and got up with me.
"Well what if we find something new to do?" I questioned in a curious tone. I had spent pretty much all day with Jake and we had mostly talked. Time to see if hes still the same about taking fun risks.
"What did you have in mind?" He was smiling at me and it was good to see him smile. I have spent all day with him and he hasn't really been the happy type until I started getting in to one of my random moods.
I looked around the area to see what we could possibly do. My eyes caught a some hills that were far away but reachable. If we hurried up the hill, we could make it in time for the sun set.
"I know what we can do." I said and grabbed his wrist and started pulling him towards the mountains.
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We fast walked about 4 blocks and ran threw a field till we reached the hill. The sun hadn't faded away yet but we only had a good half hour left till the sun would set, leaving us in complete darkness.
"Where are we even going?" Jake kept asking me.
"Somewhere beautiful." I answered quickly.
We kept walking up the enormous hill and I was finally getting tired but giving up now would be pointless. We were almost there.
"This hill is really big." He laughed.
"I know but it will be worth it!" I continued to climb up the hill with Jake following along.
We fianlly reached the top and all I could say was this was one of the best things I've seen in a long time. It was so beautiful and just felt amazing as the wind blew right through me.
"This is amazing." Jake said in a low calm tone. He just stared out in to the open with a smile plastered on his face. I knew this was a good idea.
"I know right." I stepped forward till I was on the side of Jake.
I looked up at him and he looked at me to. I smiled and he returned the favor. It was such a pretty moment. A moment which some people never get but I had it.
I sat down on the grassy hill and watched the sun as it was now part way hiding behind a faraway hill. Jake took a seat next to me and we sat there together. The breeze got a little colder but felt good in a way.
"I never stopped." Jake said quietly as we were sitting there.
"Didn't stop what?" I asked him.
"I know it's late but I feel like if I don't say something now, I won't ever get to say it in the future." He inhaled. "I never mean't to break up with you. I only did it because I felt like you had betrayed me. I didn't apologize because I felt like it would show I'm weak. I would hold myself back every time I saw you. No matter how much I felt like I should say sorry, I just didn't. Then after graduation I heard about your deal with the record producer. I must of heard too late because when I went to your house, you weren't there. It was too late. Even after four years, I never stopped loving you."
I just stared at Jake. I could feel tears forming in my eyes.
"Every girl I tried to get close to, I would end up comparing her to you. I eventually had to stop dating. It was pointless trying to get over you after so many years of trying." He stopped talking and looked at my face. I was crying. I missed him to but I wasn't sure if it was love I felt.
"Why did you have to tell me now. I have a boyfriend and a new life. Why couldn't we just be friends?" I got up and started to walk away.
"I'm sorry Stage. Don't hate me." He pleaded as he was following behind me.
I turned around to face him. "I don't hate you but how am I suppose to respond to you telling me all of this?" I stopped crying. I was more mad than I was sad. Why can't Jake understand that we could only be friends. He just had to tell me all this now after four freaking years.
"I just thought... well I didn't know you had a boyfr-" I cut him off because I knew where this was going.
"You thought we would get back together? After four years? Are you stupid?!" I shouted at him and didn't realize I was. I then also realized what I had just said to him. He looked angry.
"Well I'm sorry for thinking you could ever love me back! I'm sorry I hoped all these years that I could tell you this and you would actually give a shit how I felt, rather than you call me stupid to my face!" He yelled at the top of his lungs at me and the words felt like daggers. I didn't mean to call him stupid.
"Jake!" I yelled after him and ran but when he noticed I was running after him, he ran. Sadly, he was faster and he eventually ran in to the distance and in to the dark. I kept running after but it was no use. I couldn't see him no matter how hard I tried.
"I'm sorry..." I whispered in the darkness.
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Note: I finally got it up! Yay! :D Okay so let me know what you think? Comment, vote, or fan! :D <3 Oh and the song is Save You by Kelly Clarkson!