Hi Guys..
I have no idea what to write in this chapter..
But i guess it's a cheesy one X)
So don't hate me LOL
Hope you like it!!
(Kristen P.O.V)
It's almost new year..
I have spent my Christmas with my family and my friends in LA. He didn't called me or text me since that night. I was wondering how's he spent his Christmas, but i was too afraid to called or text him first. He's gone, like he's never been in my life again, and it's make me think randomly about him. I know i shouldn't expect so much, because we both know the situation that we faced. So i always keep in mind that he'll try, so i have to wait and give him a chance.
I was sitting on my bed with bear lying beside me. I look down to my chest and found the necklace he gave me on that night. My fingers playing on the round charm and i smiled but then i was thinking again. Is it really possible for us to get back together? He's engaged could you just accept it Kris? i talked to myself. Accept it that he's now belong to someone else, and even if you're trying hard to get back with him, there must be someone that hurt, and you don't want it right.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as i lay my head on the headboard. Then my mind was flew away. I suddenly remember about Nicholas.. My best friend. Two days ago, he asked me out because he feel bored. Of course he's bored, because he has to spent this Christmas in LA not in London. And he need a friend to hang out with, and i'm the one who can not refuse him for no reason. He's such a close friend to me. Not special but close enough for me to share a story with. He's always good to me and care for me. He knows what i feel and always try to comfort me every time i feel scared. He always check on me, not every day but at least he would called me once week just to make sure that i'm alright. He ever asked me to be his girlfriend, but i said i'm not ready yet, and he understand it. But he said that he'll give me a time to be ready and he will wait for it. I don't want to promise anything for him, because i don't want to hurt him.
I take my mind back again and slowly open my eyes. I took my laptop and turn it on. I don't know what to do but I just started to type Robert name on the google tab out of my sense. A second later my screen was filled in with any information and news about Rob. There's some news about me too, no wonder. Because everything about Rob is must be connected with me in unrealistic way. I scroll down my screen and stop for a news that caught in my eyes.
"Rob and his girlfriend caught hand in hand, spending a lovely Christmas in London."
I know i shouldn't care about it, but i clicked on it and the article is now opened. I read every single word on it and looked and the picture that i believe was captured by paps. My heart beating faster the more i read the article. "The lovebird planning to threw out their wedding next year soon, and they're so excited on it, some close source told us" I could feel that my tears will fall down anytime soon. I know i'm stupid because i believe on some stupid article like that, but suddenly i feel worried.
What should i do then if he chooses his girlfriend at the end. I'll be the one who's hurting so much because I'm hoping too much. I close my laptop and started sobbing. Maybe this is the reason why he's not calling me after all this time. He just realized that there will be no way for us to get back again. But you have to accept any possibilities Kristen, good or bad, you have to be ready with it. I'm trying to convince my self which i know it's not working now. And a second later i guess i cried to my sleep, and hoping that when i woke up he'll be beside me.
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(Robert P.O.V)
This is gonna be the longest holiday that i've ever felt. I always love to be back in London, because i can spent my time with my family. But this Christmas holiday it's a little bit different for me now. I really want to speed this up and fly back to LA where i can find my lover. Spent my time with her, spoil her, make her happy and do whatever she want. But i realize that i need to hold back my self. I didn't called her or text her since that night. And i know, by this time she must worried about me. But i can't do anything, i need to keep this thing. I really miss her so much, and i guess i need some one helps to make sure that she's alright. I grab my phone from my pocket and called Tom's Number.
"Hey man, whats up?" Tom asked me. "Hey, Yeah. I'm sorry for interrupt your holiday time. But, are you still in London now?" I asked him. "No prob. Yeah i still in London. Why Rob?" "Hmm.. do you have a free time this evening?" "I'm not sure dude, but.. wait a second." "Hey babe, do we have a plan this evening? it's seems Rob want to asked me out. ok Babe, thanks." I can hear Tom is speaking to Sienna now before speak to me back "Hey Rob, yeah i guess i can meet you this evening, Sienna doesn't have any plan to do. So yeah. Pick me up okay?" "Thanks man, please give my thanks to sienna. I'll pick up at 7. Bye" "Sure, Bye."
Later at 7 i've already pick up Tom at his house and we're drove away to a our favorite pub in London. We take a seat and order some drinks before finally spoke up. "So whats up Rob?" he asked me first. "Well. Tom. you know i always told you everything about me right?" "yeah.. so?" "Yeah, hm.. this time i need your help" "for what? surprising your girlfriend?" "No.. i need you to called some one for me. can you?" I asked him with hesitation. "Don't tell me it's about Kristen again?" "Unfortunately, yes" i answered shortly. "Oh man!! come on!! i can believe it! it's almost two years by now. and you can't still move on??" I don't say any words and prefer silent instead.
"I thought you're totally over with her. I mean, look at your girlfriend now. She's perfect Rob, and she even does a same accent with you. Isn't it enough? and look, i hate to said this for you but, remember man, you're on planning to get married with her. So don't messed up this time Rob" "Tom.. look. don't make me feel bad. I need you here because i know at least you'll understand me. I can't over with her. I've tried for this past two years. But i can't. I know i sounds like a jerks by now. But.. please don't judge me" i said and sipped my beer a little. "I'm not trying to judge you dude. I'm saying this for your goodness. I don't want you to ruin everything. And i believe Kristen is now happy with Nic, so just let her be Rob" Tom said as he pat on my shoulder. "No.. she don't" I said and shook my head surely. "Why you're so sure. I saw her photos with him yesterday in LA. Do i need to show you so you could believe me?" I froze for what he's saying. What?? she's hanging around with that man again? After what happened between us. Is she really with Nicholas now? I'm questioning my self.
I took a moment to think everything about her. I come back to my sense when Tom is shook my body and calling my name. "Are you alright man? you aren't got a heart attack dont you?" tom said to me jokingly. "Shut up. I'm serious now. I dont care whatever you said. So are you gonna help me or not?" i said. "Arghh.. this man is going crazy. Fine, I'll call her, but after this i dont wanna hear you whimpering about her again, at least not in front of me" Tom said surely. "I can't you promise you, but i'll try. Thanks man!" "Never mind. What do you want me to say to her?" "Just please make sure that she's in a good condition now. and tell her to keep healthy" "good, and thanks to make me look like a man who have a crush on her" he said as he trying to teased me. I couldn't help but chuckled to him. "I'm sorry, i dont mean to. But, are you really fancy her?" "What??! Oh god! do you want me to help you or not?" he said angrily. "Of course, i'm just kidding. Sorry" and we burst out laughing.
I wait a moment while Tom tried to reach her on the phone. It's 8.30 p.m in London and it's around 12 p.m in LA and i'm sure she's must haven't awake from her sleep. "She's not picking up Rob. Maybe she's busy" "Please try again" tom sighed as he dial Kristen number again. I'm waiting in nervousness. "Oh.. hi Kris! How are you? Merry Christmas anyway" Tom suddenly spoke to her and i'm almost jump out from where i've sit. I think my face is full of curiousness by now. I really want to grab Tom's phone by now and talk to her by my self. But i can't i have to hold my self.
"Yeah.. i'm good too, Sienna and Marlowe are fine too" He waited a second before answer anymore questions from Kris. "No..no.. nothing happen, but it's just a while since i called you, and it's Christmas anyway. Sorry for disturbing you" I could see Tom is trying to fake a laugh and he's put on a hate face on me. This must be awkward for him to called Kristen without a reason. "Have a nice holiday ahead Kris, and send my greetings for your family and Nic" As tom said that name, i suddenly feel a jealous on her. What the hell is she doing with that man. "Okay Kris.. Thanks. Bye" Tom shut his phone off before look straight on me.
"Happy now?" he asked me. "So... she's alright then?" "I could say so. She's on her way to a lunch date i guess" "Only two of them?" I asked tom. "Maybe, i don't know. she's only mentioning his name" I took a deep breath. "Thanks man" i said to Tom, and he's only nodded at me while sipping his beer. After Tom called her, i don't feel better at all. Knowing that she's spending her time with Nic, is just make more worried about her. I spent that night with Tom and mostly silent because i can't make up my mind. What should i do? Do i need to called her by my self? Or i should pretend like i don't care about her anymore. God! this girl makes me crazy.
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(Kristen P.O.V)
I'm really surprised for Tom's call. I mean, is there any possibilities that Rob is the one who force him to called me? i'm asking to my self. Tom and I still be a good friends after all, even i'm not together with Rob anymore, but we still doing good. Maybe he just want to be polite for me and send a Christmas greetings. Yup.. Maybe that's the reason why and not Rob. I seriously think to my self when i can feel someone arm lay on my shoulder. "Are you alright?" a very soft voice take me back to reality. "Yeah.. i'm fine" I smiled to him and sighed. "Who's that?" Nic asked me. "It's Tom, he send a greetings for you too" i smiled while running my hand trough my hair for comforting my self.
"Sturridge?" he asked again. "yeah.. you both know each other right?" "right. anything happened?" "No.. he just send a Christmas wishes" i answered as he nodded at me. "Hey.. Kris, i wonder if you.." I raised my eyebrows at Nic while filled in my mouth with one piece of sushi. "i'm what?" i said unclear. "if you're... nothing. Just forget it" "Arrghh.. come on man. don't make me curious. just tell me" "No.. i think i should keep it for a while" he smirked at me. "Arghh i hate waiting. You're such.. argh forget it" i took another sushi and filled in to my mouth. "don't hate me. I'll tell you anytime soon. I promise" he said while squeezing my left hand.
I smiled to him. we're continuing that lunch with a chit chat and share about our up coming projects for this year. Being together with him at this time made me can forget about the problem that i'm facing right now. Everything is fine until i heard that my phone is vibrating again. But it's a short one. "wait a min" i said to him. I took my phone and unlock the screen. I click the message button and suddenly my fingers are shaking when i read the message.
"I thought you're promise me to wait. If you're give up on me now, i could understand why."
There's no need for me to think who's the sender of that message. I knew it. He must be the one who asked Tom to called me and then Tom told him that i'm with Nic right now. Exactly. God I hate him for being such a jerk like that. How could he think about me that way? Fine, if this what he want. I quickly tap on the reply button and texted him.
"say whatever you want." I send the message to Rob without even thinking about the problem that would come after this. I hate him.