PHIL
if i had sent that message my friendship with dan could've been over.
i have chris and pj but dan is different. dan feels special. like these thirteen years were only there to lead me to him.
i don't know. why did i kiss him? why am i so stupid? saying he isn't straight just to give myself hope.
it's pathetic.
who cares? this is just some stupid hormonal crush that will go away in a few weeks. he's only my friend. my friend.