April 10th
Beyoncé
2:45
Both blue and Amariana have been real quiet lately after the movies Shawn been home a lot more often so it feels good to not be on my own to be there for the girl.
I was walking to the art room to speak to Amariana I stop midway by the door slowly lifting my hand to twist the knob I froze my hand and looked through the door she didn't see me. The sun light shining against her Carmel skin forming a darker glow giving her a golden tone with her brown curls turning gold in the light, bringing out her hazel eyes in the light with her long thick curly eye lashes flowing from her eyes lids. She as so focused on her paint she yet still didn't look up.
I opened the door walking in shitting it softly she looked up and smiled
"Hi" i said walking over to the canvas next to her
"Hey" she smiled. I set up my canvas and grabbed a poster placing it on the canva sitting on the other side of her i place some paint on the paint holding and grabbed a few brushed getting ready to paint. But I just didn't know what I peeked form my canvas looking at Amariana wondering what she was painting. I liked my brush and began to paint
"I hope you don't mind me joining" I smiled not looking up from my beginning work I heard her chuckle causing me to glance up at her and back down at me paint as I dipped my brush in the red
"Well you kinda already made yourself comfortable so I guess not" she chuckled. We went back into silents as we both was focused on our work. I gazed my work in satisfaction of how it was coming out. I wonder what she could be painting to be so into that way she is? I peeked over again and she was really into her work.
Her eyebrows drawn together her eye squinted as if she was doing a close touch up her lips slightly pursed and her nostrils flared a bit. Her wrist slowly flicking up and down brushing the paint on the poster as she concentrated on her work. I smiled and leaned back over continuing to paint but this silent was killing me.
"So" I dragged out breaking the silents
"Can you tell me what happened and the movie theater?" I asked looking up at her dipping my brush in the water to clean it
"Nothing happened we just got lost it scared us" i noded my head and let her think her answer was what I needed going back to painting.
"You know I saw how you were looking at that man Amariana" she sighed and shook her head
"Who was that?"
"He-umm used to come around before I got found" she whispered I placed my brush down moving my canva to the side for me to look at her
"Did he do something I mean you looked terrified of him" I said concerned it took her a minute before she answered
"No, well ye-yeah, look can we not talk bout it" she asked in a sadness of frustration
"I will say yes for now but you know I'm gonna want you to talk" she noded
"I know" she sighned i noded my head and went back to painting
"Your not slick you know" i poped my head up and looked at her confused
"Huh?" I tilted my head lifted my left side of my lip
"HUh" she mocked I broke into a smile
"I told you to wait until it was done Mrs.Carter" she smiled raising her left eyebrow
"I know I just wanted to hang with you I kinda felt like our hang out time yesterday got ruined" I shrugged
"Mmh" she twisted her lips up I laughed and shook my head
"I'm serious I respect your wishes and I respect for me not to see it yet and wait" she noded her head going back into her painting
"So how do you want to spend your summer? I think it our first summer together and we should enjoy it and your birthday is part of it" I glanced at her still painting
"I don't really know since my so called birthday was in May we went out of town a few times since it was the beginning of summer" i noded
"Yeah and what did you do?"
"Went to beaches had a few friends over and celebrated nothing big" she shrugged
"Oh so you deserve a big party or something big as well you where getting on me about not celebrating" I smiled
"No I celebrate I heard you were locked away and that not ok" she retorted
"Well we both deserved an amazing birthday" she smiled and noded
"So let think themes what your favorite show or anything in the world?" I said waving my hands in a presenting way moving my head in a half circle
"Well I like the early 90's and early 2000,s" I widen my eyes in excitement that is so easy for me
"Ok,ok,good I can handle that" she noded her head and went back to painting
"You seemed really focused over there"
"Well when I paint I put my all my eyes my fingers my energy the more focused the more satisfaction"
"Well I can relate I'm that way with my music"
"Oh yeah Im and I bet your satisfactory with them all mrs.Queen bey" she laughed
"Well actually no" I laughed along her laughed died down and she looked at me curiously
"Really?" She drew her eyebrows together tilted her head to the side not looking away from her canva i nodded
"Yeah I fell some could be better they had my satisfaction with the meaning and details but in some my voice could of did it's job a bit better but as long as my beyhive is happy than i am too" she chucked and went back to painting
"Hey bey?" I peeked from my canva to see her looking at me
"Yeah?"
"Do you want me to call you mom?" I scrunched my face and sat up in my seat
"Of course I do is that even a question" she didn't reply
"I mean do you not want to call me mom?" I asked nervously waiting for her answer
"No-no I do I just, I want to make sure we're on the same page about it" I smiled widely and sat back
"Well I want you too know that my page is full on approval of that" I smiled grabbing my paint
"Good" she smiled before going back into her daze of work
"Ok so now that that's out the way can I see are you done?" I asked in excitement
"Oh wow what happens to I rEspEct YoUR WiSheS" she mocked I drop my hands in my lap and rolled my eyes letting out a huff
"I do but don't you think it's been long enough?"
"Mmmh no" she quickly replied
"Pleaseeee I been dying to see your work the way you focus on them makes it even harder" I pleaded
"Fine if your gonna beg about it" she rolled her eyes I sat up and smiled she turned her canva around and my eyes met with amazement it was a painting of a sunset with black shadow palm trees with beach water flowing at the bottom shower the sunset shadow in the clear blue water the sun set was a dark peach and pink color flowing from the clouds up in the right hand corner was her signature in cursive
"Amariana this-this is beautiful" i said with my hand covering over my heart she smiled widely and looked back at her work
"Your an amazing artist is this what you like to do paint?" She shrugged
"I guess this is one of my giving talents"
"Well this is amazing" i eyes the art
"I'm glad you like it I hope you feel the same way about the real one" she chuckled I snapped my head back at her and she looked me dropping her smile
"What?" She asked
"What do you mean real one?" I squinted my eyes
"Oh you thought this was the real one" she pointed at me than the painting before laughing
"I knew you were up to something before you came in here Gisele" she put her hand on her hip raising her brow. I huffed and rolled my eyes
"Well when can I see it?" I groaned throwing a many tantrum like a kid
"I don't know I might push the days back since you wanna be sneaking" she squinted her eyes on me
"Fine mom" i huffed rolling my eyes
"Go to your room" she pointed to the door we laughed and I pulled her into my side kissing her head
"Hey you wanna go decorate your room?"
I Rubbed her shoulder looking down at her
"Oh yeah i forgot about that" she smiled
"Well we got distracted from you trying to be a runaway child" I chuckled
"Yeah I know I'm sorry" she sighed
"It's ok do it again and I'll pin you to my bedroom walls so you can't move at all"
"I'll keep your word on that" she held her hands up in surrender we laughed and walked out the art room with me hitting the light shutting the door.
Shawn
3:00
I had a chat with Becky telling her what happened was a mistake and we're nothing more than co workers. I can lose my family and Amariana seems to be on me with Becky scent and her lip mark on my neck. I Hope Becky can under what happened is not happening again and never will and we will be nothing more than co workers.
I'm sitting in me and beys room on Mac going over a few lyrics and checking some emails. I received and email notification from Becky I closed my eyes and huffed she just can't take a no. I licked my lips and clicked on her email and my eyes went wide at what was gazing from my screen. She was in a 2 piece bra and pantie set with her cleavage hanging from the bra her body was oily she had on red lipstick forming a kiss with her lips and her hair was nicely curled and out. I zoned out looking at her whole body.
Her thick thighs glowing in the light her curves hangin out form her panties her toned belly exposing and her breast inching out her bra i Locke day lips tasting her on my lips for some reason
"Hey babe" I jumped and looked at the door and saw bey I quickly shut my computer
"Hey" I chuckled nervously she uncrossed her arms and and walked to the bathroom
"You alright you seem jumpy" she asked changing her pants
"No you just scared me I don't know why and that oldest child of ours have a habit of doing that" I laughed
"Don't do us stop being so scary" she laughed I shrugged
"What you been doing?" She asked putting her hair a bun in the mirror turning to look at me
"Nothing I was going over some emails and lyrics" i sighed out because it was the truth she noded and walked out the bathroom turning the light off
"Well I'm taking the girls with me to at home to finish shopping for Amariana room she's ready to decorate it" she replied putting her shoes on I noded
"Let's hope you keep her in reach this time" i chucked shaking my head still can't believe she tried to runaway
"Oh she knows better now I been getting my respect in" she chuckled standing
"Well I'm glad" she noded and came and wrapped her arms around my neck and met hands quickly went to her waist she kissed me and I felt guilty about everything but I kissed back. She pulled away looking into my eyes
"I love you" my heat slowed its beat as if I was gonna drop dead hearing her say that
"I love you too" i replied with sadness in my tone a bit
"You ok baby?"
"Yeah just tired man" I signed
"Maybe I can help with that when I get back" she smirked I slid my hand to her Ass and gripped both cheeks causing her to squeal and laugh
"You ain't gotta tell me twice" I grinned and kissed her once more time
"BEY HURRY UP" we heard Amariana yell Beyoncé smiled against my lips and pulled away slight
"I better get going for I get cursed out" she mumbled against my lips
"She not gone curse you out" I chuckled and she pulled back with her eyebrows raised
"Oh really like she hasn't done it before when she first got here"
"Bey she was going through it at the time besides you said she has your respect" she smiled and laid her head on my chest
"I guess she does I mean she hasn't insulted me since she actually really sweet" I smiled in her hair and kissed her head
"GISELLE" Amariana yelled
"Opp you better go" I chuckled she sat up and pecked my lips
"I'll see you later we'll be back"
"Ok"
BEYON-
"IM COMING GIRL STOP YELLING IN MY HOUSE" I chucked and shook my head watching bey leave with a smile until she wasn't in sight anymore, when she wasn't my smile fell and I rubbed my face letting out a breath I looked at my phone and I knew this was my chance.
I dialed Becky number and picked up on the 3rd ring
"I see you got my suprise" she said her voice broke me the soft smooth vibration from her throat flowing through the speaking of the phone. I whipped my face remembering my reality
"Listens becky I have a wife and kids I can't do this to them especially with getting my daughter back and finally having the happiness we deserve I'm not gonna fuck it up"
"Mmmh funny the same tongue that just said the is the same tongue that was on my pussy" she chuckled I sighed and shook my head
"Listen Becky your a nice girl and Al but i can't be doing this I'm married I already feel guilty about what happened and lying to her but what we did was a mistake and whatever you think we got going on is over"
Bab- I hung up and tossed my phone on the end before sitting on it myself
"What am I gonna do?" I asked my self sighing
Amariana
3:13
"So when do I get to meet your friends seriously" bey glancing at me before looking back at the road
"Why are you so desperate to meet my friends?" I laughed
"I just wanna make sure your with the right crew I can tell if something is off" she shrugged
"Well we've known each other for years I'm sure if something was off it wouldn't Been exposed by now"
"Well I know Chris seems funny and cool but what about what's her name Mya"
"Mirah" I corrected
"And to be honest mirah is like the mother of the group she the peace maker you'll like her"
"I just don't know how you'll meet them" i sighed Jackson is like a 2 hour drive from here so it not like we can always just visit whenever we please and I hate snot being able to see my friends
"How about they come for the summer and stay" I quickly looked at her like she lost her damn mind. She glanced at me and back at the road
"What?"
"You mean for the whole summer?" I raised my brows with a shocked look
"Yeah, why not is something wrong?"
"No,no-I just I don't m ow that wouldn't be a lot to handle"
"No, I mean they seem like your best friends and I want to welcome them to no me now and not that bitc-I mean woman" she said looking through the review mirror at blue who was on her iPad
"Well I'll ask them I'm sure they love it" she noded
"Good we just gotta plan and buy the needed things I know how you teenagers are always wanting something" she chuckled
"No they aren't money spender they are just like me I should make you turn around and just go back home seriously bet you've done enough when I first got here" she shook her head
"No, I want you to be comfortable and expressing yourself and being you is part of it so you can do whatever to your room besides I've notice you Calling it the room so you decorating it how you're ant will help you get to the my room" i ndded my head and looked out the window I heard a beat on the radio and I knew exactly what it was
"Hold on" I yelled turning the radio up i snapped my fingers along the beat waiting for the first verse to come out and soons it did I sang along
"I'm sorry if I seem uninterested
Or I'm not listenin' or I'm indifferent
Truly, I ain't got no business here
But since my friends are here, I just came to kick it
But really I would rather be at home all by myself not in this room
With people who don't even care about my well being
I don't dance, don't ask, I don't need a boyfriend
So you can go back, please enjoy your party
I'll be here
Somewhere in the corner under clouds of marijuana
With this boy who's hollering, I can hardly hear
Over this music I don't listen to and I don't wanna get with you
So tell my friends that I'll be over here" I sang my heart out causing blue and bey to laugh
"This your song baby" she yelled over the music i noded my head still singing
"Oh-oh-oh here, oh-oh-oh here
Oh, I ask myself what am I doing here?
Oh-oh-oh here, oh-oh-oh here
And I can't wait 'til we can break up out of here" i heard a echo from the back, i looked back seeing blue singing along and dancing I laughed and sung so more until Beyoncé voice broke through.
"Excuse me if I seem a little unimpressed with this
An anti-social pessimist, but usually I don't mess with this
And I know you mean only the best
And your intentions aren't to bother me
But honestly I'd rather be
Somewhere with my people we can kick it and just listen
To some music with the message (like we usually do)
And we'll discuss our big dreams
How we plan to take over the planet
So pardon my manners, I hope you'll understand
That I'll be here
Not there in the kitchen with the girl
Who's always gossiping about her friends
So tell them I'll be here
Right next to the boy who's throwing up
'Cause he can't take what's in his cup no more
Oh God, why am I here?"
She sing the whole verse hitting every note. Show off me and blue sing the cores as she after she finished the verse.
"Oh-oh-oh here, oh-oh-oh here
Oh, I ask myself what am I doing here?
Oh-oh-oh here, oh-oh-oh here
And I can't wait 'til we can break up out of here" we all sing laughing the song began to come to an end and hey turned the music down
"Ok I didn't know you can sing" bey said smily looking at me i noded shyly
"Another given talent" i chuckled nervously
"Well you have a amazing voice"
"Thanks" we pulled into the mall and got out the car heading in straight to at home
"So now that we're doing this the right way" bey dragged out nudging my shoulder playfully
"What do you really wanna get we got the lights already you don't wanna get different comforter or pillows chair" i sighed
"Bey I'm not a money spender I don't just wanna use your Mon-" she out her hand up cutting me off
"You my child Amariana not a stranger and I'm not about to treat you like one okay?" She reassured me I huffed and noded
"Okay"
"Ok,good because I'm really looking forward to decorating with you" she smiled widely I chuckled and shook my head
"Your a mess bey you really are" i shook my head smiling
"Hush you love me"
"Mmmh" we walked into the bedroom set aisle looking at the different ideas
"I want something mmmm modern but chill so the light whelp with chill but I'm ant modern and comfy" I added
"I can handle that" she smiled
"Ok great" i noded
Shawn
3:21
"I can't believe you didn't tell me man" Benny said shaking his head I met up with Benny at the studio since he got back late last night and i decided to just tell him about Becky
"How was it?" He smirked
"Man I'm not honking about that right now" i said shaking my head scrunching my face. He shrugged
"I mean she clearly got it good if she got to yo ass like that" he chuckled
"And I also have a wife who got to me like that" I reassured
"Damn I knew I should've went with Samantha to hired instead" he shook his head
"Who is Samantha?"
"Oh she was on the list to get hire while me being gone but she looked like a crack head so I passed up her then Becky appeared" i noded
"I just don't know what to tell bey" i sighned
"Why tell her if she doesn't know?" I asked sipping from his cup
"Because I want it to be told to her easy but with Amariana being up my ass it might a fold out"
"Wait Amariana knows?" He gasped
"Not necessarily but she knows something up I mean Becky scent was on me and her damn lips on my neck form her lipstick"
"Oooooo yeah lil mama might be on to something" he chucked
"I know ion know what to do man this shit crazy"
"Look just stick to your stories and play along and Amariana might ride with you and chill and if she does don't tell me anything and it'll all fold like nothing happened" i noded my head interested in his words
"Hope this works bey won't stop till she gets what she wants out of somebody" I shook my head
"I'm praying for you man"
"Yeah" I chucked. I sat back in my seat and drunk my water crossing my legs my phone beep from a notification I pulled it out and looked to see a notification from instagrams I clicked the notification and it loaded until a picture popped up my eyes popped out my head and is at up quickly putting my water down on the table
"What?" Benny asked I shook my head not moving or looking away from the phone
"Man let me see" he snatched the phone. He put his fist up to his mouth
"Ooooo" he dragged out
"FUCK" I yelled. How did TMZ and the shade-room get a picture of me and Becky leaving that night after what we did
"Damn Shawn maybe it'll die down soon" he shrugged slightly
"Die down so you know who I am do you know who Beyoncé is this is not dying down no time soon this can take days weeks hell months if bey see this I'm done I'm losing my wife and kids"
"Calm down man she probably it so busy being happy with the girls right now to notice"
"But what if she does" he went silent and I shook my head
Fuck
Amariana
4:00
"Hey bey can I see your phone?"
"Yeah sure what for" she said chewing her food
After shopping nonstop we got hungry and came to jack in the box first time for me and it's really good actually
"Well since you took mine I was gonna call Chris and mirah"
"Oh,ok" she handed me her phone and I swiped up getting in
"Do I look like you that much it's just unlocked" I chuckled showing her the I clicked Home Screen
"Well you do look like me but I don't have a password that's why" she lowly laughed
"Oh,I guess" I shrugged i went to her call and dialed numbers she got a notification from instagram but I ignored it well I tried I accidentally hit it
"Oops did not mea-" i lowly gasped at what I was seeing. My heart pumped faster and my palms became sweaty in hold of the phone. Excuse my language I fucking knew it daddy and another woman leaving out of a building.
"Everything ok" in shot my head up to bey had a worried look I turned the phone off sitting it down
"Yeah I'm fine" i reload forcing a smile. Whole time I'm mad and angry how could he do this to her I mean I know I'm not one to talk but this is horrible she gone be heartbroken about this.
"I thought you wanted to call?"
"Oh,n-no it's ok Chris had basketball anyway so it's fine" she noded her head and continued to eat I lost my damn appetite
What the fuck did I just see?
Wooo shit
Thoughts
Amariana getting comfortable for real?
Shane and Becky being caught on camera?
Amariana seeing it?
Still don't know who the man was at the movies?
Sorry y'all I had and writers block