April 8th
Shawn
9:38
I have been feeling guilty about what happened yesterday and no matter how much I shower I still feel her on me I feel her lips against my neck I feel her soft cheek in my palms from me squeezing it, I feel her soft skin her breast rubbing against me and the strongest of it all her smell. I get flashes of it all us in my office her looking at me eye to eye the way she was her walk her talk her body movements.
Right now I'm in the bathroom brushing my teeth Bey got up a bit earlier to cook breakfast. I heard commotion and yelling form downstairs and the only two voices for that echoed Amariana and Beyoncé. I shook my head still brushing until the door busted open exposing a out of breath blue
"Daddy mommy and sissy are fighting you gotta stop them" I spit out the tooth paste and rinsed my mouth quickly washing my face after I turned off the light running behind blue out the room. We got downstairs and I saw Beyoncé with Amariana in a choke hold with both their backs facing me
"Bey what are you doing let her go" I tugged on her arm she turned around looking at me smiling I backed up feeling a bit scared of her grin she turned Amariana around and I saw a smile on her face.
"Can you let go now I was just kidding Beybey" I smiled at the name knowing they had the talk I looked at Amariana and she winked at me telling me her job was done. I felt little hands tugging my pants I looked down and saw blue
"Daddy stop them their fighting" I chuckled and picked her up
"No princess their not fighting see mommy and sissy are smiling their playing" i said looking at the view of my wife and eldest
"Oh I wanna play" she yelled Beyoncé came to her and began to tickle her while in my arms
"You wanna play huh" bey giggled while ticking her
"Ok,ok" blue yelled beyonce kissed her cheek and kissed me I looked over and saw Amariana not even paying attention
"Come here lefty your a Carter too" she giggled and playfully rolled her eyes walking over to us Beyoncé held her arms out and Amariana had no hesitation to feel free to walked into them she wrapped her arms around beys waist and bey held her head with in hand and rubbing her back with the other I smiled at the view and we were in complete silence until we heard the door open and we popped up looking to see the Knowles woman walking in
"Shut up both of you" Mama Tina said to Kelly and Solange
"She started it" Solange defended crossing her arms
"Now I didn't"
"Yea you did"
"Shut up Solange" Mama Tina shouted solo rolled her eyes and Kelly laughed getting a glare from mama
"Something funny Kelendria" Kelly shook her head and sat down.
"Hi my baby that doesn't stress me out and act like a child" Mama Tina said to bey as she pulled her into a hug bey laughed before speaking
"Hi mama" Beyoncé said. They let go and Mama Tina kissed her head
"How are you?" Bey looked at me and smiled
"I'm good really good" she laughed
"Really no more problems with this one" she noded her head in Amariana direction. Amariana shook her head smiling and walking up to hug bey
"If you must know we had a little heart to heart talk" she laid her head on beys chest Mama Tina smiled and kissed her forhead
"I'm glad"
"I'm soo proud of you" Solange said hugging her from behind rocking her side to side.Amariana nodded with teary eyes looking up at Beyoncé.
"It needed to happen, I think all the anger we had wasn't getting us no where and I knew at some point it was gonna have to end can't spend life mad at the world for something that's not our fault" she chuckled bey bend down and cupped her cheek kissing her other one softly Amariana smiled and they just looked at each other
"Ok so enough of that, bey you cook or are you burning" solo laughed sitting at the island
"If you must know mama sent me her recipe for omelettes and just for downing me don't eat"
"I was kidding" she retorted
"Yeah whatever" bey waved her off
"Mama Beyoncé wont feed me" she yelled to Mama Tina
"Stop yelling"
"But this isn't your house" solo defended crossing her arms
"I don't care who house it is stop yelling child" she huffed and got down
"I'm always getting in trouble" she said walking out
"Probably because you always got something smart to say" Kelly yelled
"Whatever" she yells back
"Solange" Mama Tina shouted in a warning tone. I shook my head and laughed lowly. I looked at bey and a wave of guilt came over me she finally gets to be happy and I do what I did. I walked over to her and hugged her from Behind I kissed her shoulder and she smiled
"You happy" I asked she smiled brightly and turns around and kissed my lips
"I am" I smiled before kissing her cheeks looking back into her eyes
"And who cares about her not calling me mom...yet! I just wanted this. This part to build a relationship and once I get her close enough she won't be going anywhere and that day will come" she looked over cashing me to look and we saw Amariana Blue and Solange laughing and play fighting
"You were right" bey said leaving me confused but I wanted to act like I knew to give a point on whatever I was right about
"I know" I smiled she playfully rolled her eyes and looked at me
"Ok about what?" She laughed
"My baby,she still in there she was all this time" she smiled I kissed her cheek and let her go so she can finish cooking
"Don't burn nothing" i said walking away
"You can be like solange and not eat"
"You sure cuz I need all my strength for some things and food is number one key for that strength" i smirked
"Strength for what?"
"How else did we end up with two daughters" she blushed and looked down and I held my smirk
"Shut up and go away" I laughed and left out the kitchen soon as I turned around a head bump into my leg I looked down seeing Amariana getting up rubbing her head
"Damn girl that heavy ass rock knocking you all over the place" I laughed but she frown pouting
"I'm telling Beybey" she said walking away
"I'm tElLinG BEyBeY" I mocked chuckling after now that we got her back I know having three females in the house is gone be the death of me.
Amariana
9:55
"Bey daddy said I had a rock as a head" I walked into the kitchen she bust out laughing as I stood there looking at her she glanced at me in the middle of laughing and quickly stopped but held a smile
"Awww baby I'm sure he was kidding" I sat at the islander and she handed me a plate
"Thank you" I smiled
"Your welcome" she smiled back
"Come eat you hungry gremlins" she yelled I laughed at the name and she looked at me and winked I shook my head and finished eating.
"Giselle i know you not calling people names" grandma said yes grandma I haven't said it to her yet but it's only right.
"I think she did grandma" I smiled I heard them all gasp and grandma had her hand over her heart with teary eyes the formed shaped O in her mouth turned into a smile she came over to me and hugged me tightly.
"Does she deserve a whooping" she whispers in my ear I laughed and pulled back looking at Beyoncé smiling. She so innocent how could I.
"No I think she deserves a second chance" she nodded her head and looked at Beyoncé
"Be glad your child saved you" Beyoncé noded and looked at me and mouth a "thank you" i noded and ate my food
"Hey I'm gonna go get dressed maybe we could go somewhere if no one has plans" bey suggested
"I'm down besides mama house is getting boring I think I'm around old people all day" solo said earning a pop on the arm from grandma
"Watch yourself"
"I'm free tim is taking titan to see the new spider man with his little 1st grade friends anyway" Kelly said
"Sounds good let me go get ready" she walked out and I still ate
"You know yo ma- I'm mean Beyoncé is about to take forever right" Kelly said
"My mama you were right the first time and I hope not". I laughed she smiled and hugged me
"I'm so glad to see the same little girl coming back out I'm proud of you"
"Yeah well she didn't deserve how I was acting it wasn't right" I said shaking my head
"No she didn't the way she cried day and night and prayed and cried on Halloween heart breaking" she sighed
"solo said she didn't celebrate her birthday" she shook her head
She didn't if she celebrates this year this would be her first time celebrating in 11 years. I noded my head feeling ashamed looking down. Until a idea came upon me i shot my head up and looked at Kelly
"When is her birthday?"
"September 4th" she replied in a unsure tone looking at me with her brow raised
"Perfect her birthday is in the summer time and even perfect because mine is a month before hers august 9th" I smiled
"What are you up to" she looked at me with squinting eyes
"Nothing just know she will be celebrating" i cheesed
"So your not gonna tell me"
"As of now no I will eventually because I'm gonna need you solo and grandmas help" i said getting down from the island putting my dish away and walking about
"Well I can't help you if you don't tell me" she yelled I chuckled walking away
"We still have a whole 5 months just wait you'll see" i yelled back I turned around coming in contact with grandma she had her hand on her hip looking me in my eyes. I forgot about the yelling I smiled innocently and hugged her and chuckled and hug me back
"Stop yelling baby" she kissed me head patting my back
"Sorry" she noded and went into the kitchen
"You stop yelling to kelendria" I heard her say
"Maaaa you didn't yell at her"
"Shut up" I laughed and went upstairs to the room to get changed. I decided to wear black bagy jeans with and over six d boy n the hood t shirt I tied it in the back and my black white and red Jordan 1's I put my hair in half up half down with me baby hair swooping. I cleaned up my mess and walked out my room coming in contact with Beyoncé she had what I had on just her shirt had Tupac on it. We looked at each other outfits and I crossed my arms wonder why she tryna match me she did the same I rolled my eyes she rolled her neck. We looked longer until we both bust out laughing.
"You love looking like me huh?" I said walking to her she threw her arm over my shoulder and we walked downstairs
"For your information you look like me I had you" I chuckled and shook my head
"Your crazy" I laughed
"Hush, I will say you got some fashion girl" she said looked down at me
"Yeah well she did keep me dressed I will say" she bode her head and we walked into the kitchen
"Aww look at y'all" daddy cooed squeezing my cheek
"Was this planned?" Kelly asked
"No we came out our rooms and boom I felt I was looking in the mirror" bey said
"Mmhh well y'all decided where to go" grandma asked
"How about we go to that one arcade I wanna try it fresh this time with you" I said looking at bey remembering the first time and commotion went down
"Ok" she kissed me head
"We can ride the goat carts this time since they were off we went anyway"
"No y'all know how Beyoncé gets on them things" grandma said shaking her head
"Why not mama?"Bey whined
"Beyoncé you know you get competitive about everything you'll be done run one off is off the track" Kelly said
"Their right bet them you bump into use making us wreck and hit our heads" solo joined
"It's called go karts come on"
"Yeah go karts not bumper cars" grandma replied
"Ok well since my baby is joining I'll go easy" she liked at me
"Oh you don't have to go easy on me since I been riding with daddy I'm been doing a few tricks myself" i assured.
"Oh really" she put her hand on her hip and i noded
"Ok let's make a bet if I win you have to do whatever I say like whatever" I noded
"Ok, and if I win you have to me my personal assistant" I held my hand out and she looked at it with a smirk before connecting her hand
"Bet" we said and shook
"Oh lord" grandma said shaking her head
"Well rush funflex it is" daddy said we all noded and headed out the door.
The car ride was filled with..... comforting the first time we went it was awkward and the tension was thick. But now it's filled with talking and laughing.
"So Amariana you think you really have the chance to beat your mama on these go karts" kelly asked
"Oh I don't think I know" I smirked causing them to ooo while Beyoncé chuckled and shook her head
"Watch it baby girl" Bey said playfully
"No you Watch me beat you in this bet"
"Ok don't jinks it too much lefty" daddy laughed i noded my head in response knowing I don't need to prove my point with words we continued to talk and laugh before making it to the arcade. We finally did and we all got out Beyoncé stopped for me with her hand out smiling I shook my head and smiled at her clingy self walking up to grab her hand we walked into the arcade and paid and getting seated.
"So what's first eat?" Grandma asked
"Actually since we just ate before leaving we could play for a bit" bey said we noded and got up going to some games I followed auntie solo and Kelly to the games until I got pulled back
"Uhn uhn miss thang go karts are this way" bey said
"Oh I wanna see this" solo followed we got to the go karts and was in line
"So since you can't really beat each other in this we'll make up our own so who ever goes around three times ahead of the other wins so if I go around three times I win if you do you win got it?" I smirked at the easiness daddy taught me how to cross up in the go kart and she thinks this is something
"Got it" I nodded we were finally up next in line and I got on the go kart and bey got on the one next to me. We buckled up and the workers made sure we were succored and buckle up the robot began to give instructions about riding
"Make sure your buckled up, no bumping the edges and stay on go kart grounds. and most importantly Have dangerous fun"
"You ready baby girl no turning back now" she smirked i noded my head and grabbed the wheel tightly pressing the gas they opens the gate getting ready to let us loose
"Ready,set, GO" we sped off and I was already ahead for a good minute until I get hit from the side causing me to fly and spin I looked and saw bey pass me laughing holding up the peace sign. I sped back up hitting a sharp turn at the corner catching up to her I hit her from the back of the kart cashing her to speed up into the wall i past her and stuck my tongue out.
"YOU CHEATEDDDD!!!" She yelled I laughed and went around again I was speeding until another go kart was coming my way from the front before I knew it I got hit making me jerk forward and hit my head. I know what's she going she thinks she gonna push me back and hit a u-turn we'll see. I quickly went left and she mirrored my move until I crossed her to the left and sped off laughing
"HEY!!" I went around two more times before we our time was up. We parked the go karts and unbuckles our self I looked and Beyoncé and she had a pout walking right passed me. I caught up to her looking at her as we walked
"Are you really mad?" I asked she ignored me though
"It's just a game Beybey" I said in a really tone. She can't be mad about this she the one who's anted to bet on it
"Heyyyyyy......what's wrong with you" kelly asked bey she rolled her eyes and walked off
"Ima take a guess and say you won" I smiled and nodded they all cheered and daddy picked me up spinning me
"I taught you right" I kissed my cheek before putting me down i high fives grandma, kelly and solange.
"Great job baby" grandma said we heard someone clear their throat and we looked to see bey with blue
"Did you win sissy?" Blue asked i noded smiling slightly
"Yayyyy" she ran to hug me
"Really blue your supposed to be on my side" bey pouted
"Oh yeah sorry" she ran back over to Beyoncé I rolled my eyes at her dramatic mess.
"Well let's eat I'm hungry" solo said walking to the food court. We followed behind and began to look for some orders
"Ok so I'll pay for the girls" grandma said but I quickly stop her
"Oh no grandma you don't have to my assistant will be doing that" I smiled at bey she rolled her eyes and huffed
"Seriously" i noded
"A bet is a bet Giselle" grandma laughed
"Fine your my child anyway" she rolled her eyes we ordered our food and paid now we're sitting at the booth everyone was taking and laughing but bey she held that same pout.
"Awww is Beybey mad" I poked her cheek and she smacked my hand away. Getting a smack from grandma.
"Ow,Mama" she hissed
"Keep your hands to yourself" she warned
"But she my child"
"And your mine" bey rolled her eyes and sat back awww I feel bad but why so competitive about it I laid my head on her shoulder she tried to move me off but I wants having it i felt her kiss my head and I smiled she knows she loves when I'm clingy and baby her.
"So summer plans anyone?" kelly asked
"Well Michelle will be here so we gotta think of something" grandma said taking a bit of her burrito
"so I won't get to meet her anytime soon?"
"Well she'll be here in three weeks so you can meet her then" i nodded my head and continued to eat
"Oh great she gonna be on my ass I haven't told her about Amariana being back" all the fit faces fell even blue
"Now you know her holy Ass is holy but if it's something she don't like she the devil why did you take that risk" solo said
"Things was busy before were just now settling in I honestly forgot"
"Let's hope she sees it your way" kelly shook her head and chuckled
"Mmh., what about birthdays babe you and Amariana are month and month in the summer time?" daddy asked bey just shook her head
"I don't know if I'm gonna celebrate" my head hot up of her shoulder
"What?,why?" I asked
"I mean I kinda got used to not celebrating" she shurruged
"Ok and I know why but those days are over you should celebrate every year thanking god your still breathing and that you made it to find me" she didn't respond
"Your celebrating" I said in a final end of discussion tone and she didn't reply. I mean it's wrong I feel bad enough I'm the reason but damn im back now and I'm willing to bring things back to how they were for them.
"She right Beyoncé we're not making a 12 year record this year 11 year is enough your celebrating" grandma said hey huffed and sat back. What is wrong with her not celebrating.
"Ok enough of that, Amariana how you doing in school?" kelly asked talking a fry in her mouth
"Great actually all A's and b's I jus miss my favorite teacher" I sighed playing with my food
"What's her name?"
"Ms.Maraj" Beyoncé shot up and looked at me
"Onika Maraj?"
"Y-yeah" she laughed before speaking
"Me and the girl were the best of friends" she replied
"Really?"
"Oh maybe I can get mirah and Chris to let you talk to her one day" she noded
"I still wanna meet them" she said looking at me biting her burger
"That's too bad" I replied smiling she glared at me and put me in a head lock i clawed her arm tugging away
"Ok,ok I'm kidding" I laughed before she let me go we continued to talk and eat and we played a few more games. We all left and went back home and I was tired as hell we got up early as well. We go home and I was in the room changing into something comfortable to lay down the door open exposing Beyoncé.
"Hey" she said sitting in the bed
"Hi cry baby" I chuckled sitting next to her
"Sorry about that I guess I can get a little competitive" I gave her a really look and she huffed
"Ok fine a lot competitive" I laughed and she did as well and we went silent
"Oh do you think we can decorate the room now?" I asked looking up at her
"Yes we can decorate YOUR room this weekend" i noded my head laying back on her shoulder
"Thank you" she whispered i scrunched my face and looked at her
"For what?" She smiled and let out a see p breath
"For doing things the right way and giving me my chances" I smiled and shook my head waving her off
"Don't thank me for something that should've happened a long time ago" she noded and pulled me into her side holding me tightly
"I love you" she said into my head before kissing it .I don't want to say because she said it in all honesty I don't know if I love her I just know I like her and I'm getting there inch by inch.
"I know"
Awwwwww🥹
Thoughts?
Amariana getting comfortable with the family?
Amariana love for Beyoncé?
Beyonce knowing ms. Maraj?
Amariana making Beyoncé celebrate