*sorry for this misspelling ima have to prod read all of these later.
April 7th
Beyoncé
2:45
"Mommy I'm hungry" blue said looking up at me from her iPad. We were just at home chilling with everyone home. Amariana hasn't spoken to me or given me the chance to even speak to her and I have to say I'm not ok,the way I was talking to her makes me feel like a horrible mother it's not her fault she can't help it.
"Ok baby I'll make lunch can you go see if your sisters is hungry" she noded her head getting up from the couch running off as I stood up myself going into the kitchen. I pulled out some chicken nuggets and a pan. I felt arms around my waist and a head on my shoulder with lips against my neck
"Hi baby" Shawn whispered to me still holding me
"Hi"i said above a whisper
"Cooking?"
"Yeah blue got hungry I told her to see if Amariana was as well" I said putting the nuggets on the pan after turning on the oven
"Baby I know what your thinking" he said turning me around I shook my head and looked down
"I just wanna make things right"
"And you will you both will you don't know what's coming to you bey" he smiled I scrunched my face lost
"What do you mean?"
"You'll see just wait it out bey she loves you she'll come around" I scoffed and riled my eyes Turing back around
"Easy for you to say"
"What are you talking about?" He moved back from me some
"I heard her say I love you too daddy Shawn don't act dumb with me right now" I said on the verge of tears still putting the food on the pan he grabbed my hand stoping me and I closed my eyes before turning to face him
"Listen bey I'm sorry you had to hear it that way but I don't wanna say I didn't want it to happen because I know I did but that doesn't mean your less of her mother just because she doesn't call you it doesn't mean anything but I'm serious bey just wait it out" he smiled kissing my head. I wanna know why is he smiling about this?
"So how does it feel?" I asked whiping my eyes
"How does what feel?" He was rubbing arms
"How does of feel to have her calling you dad" I smiled weakly tryna to be positive
"Honestly, I couldn't ask for it to come faster im happy but it feels normal it's the way it supposed to be" i noded my head and chuckled
"I finally got her up she was sleeping like a baby vampire in the dark" blue said in the kitchen dragging sleepy Amariana.
"If you must know the bathroom light was on" Amariana said sitting at the island
"Yeah and It was half way close some light" I chuckled and shook my head I looked at Amariana who was putting her hair up I wanted tot all to her but I didn't know what to say. She looked at me and I had to think of a reason on why I was looking at her
"Umm... I making chicken nuggets if your hungry" I said nervously she noded her head and I signed turning around I knew she was still upset about what happened
"Thank you i-ima go shower until it's done" my eyes went wide and I slowly turned around she had a small smile on her face and i formed a big one. Did she just talk to me without insulting me and it wasn't sarcasm because you can hear the soft relaxing sound of her voice.
"Ok-ok" she noded her head and got down I watched her walk away until she wasn't in my view anymore I looked at Shawn and he smiled shrugging his shoulders putting his hands up in surrender. I smiled to myself and began to continuing what I was doing.
Amariana
3:00
I was hoping Beyoncé got the sign of me being nicer to her I'm still not happy with myself about what I did too her but I can assure you that I won't be doing that anymore. I just got out the shower now I'm putting my wet hair into a bun to let it dry i left out the bedroom going back downstairs seeing beyonce making the plates
"Hey just in time there hot" she said smiling I think she got the memo but I still want to be mature and apologize the right way. She pulled out sauces and handed me and blue out plates
"Thank you mommy" blue said biting into her nugget already
"Your welcome baby" she looked at me as I was chewing I stopped and side eyes her and laughed a bit
"Thank you Beyoncé" I chuckled
"Your welcome as well"
"Hey bey I have a meeting with my agent and assistants I'll be back around 5:00"daddy said coming in the kitchen fully dressed
"Ok I'll see you when you get home" he kissed her lips making me and blue gagged and they laughed
"Bye lefty bye princess" he said to us taking a nugget form bit our plates cashing us to groan and whine
"Bye daddy" we said in a union I looked at Beyoncé and her smile became weak she looked down and noded her head before looking back up I have to say it kinda broke my heart. She looked up and noticed I was looking her smile grew wide but I knew she forced it.
"I'm-im gonna go take a hot bath when your don't just put you dish in the dish washer" she said noded if we had understanding
"Ok mommy" she walked away going upstairs.
"Sissy?"
"Yes blue" i looked at her rubbing hands together to get the crumbs off
"How come you don't like mommy, you hurt you feelings" now I wanted to cry I dwell bad eneough about it but blue doesn't know
"Well blue things for me hasn't really been great and I let my anger take over me" I said sighning
"Oh, how come you said your mom said those things about mommy" she folded her head
"Well umm- you see before I got here a woman had me without beyonce permission"
"That's stealing" she gasped loudly with wide eyes
"Yeah" I chuckled before continuing
"And umm she raised me as her own but the whole time I had a mom"
"So which mom is which" she bit into her nugget giving me all her attention finding the conversation interesting
"Well Beyoncé gave birth to me which means she is my mother and has all rights to raise me the other mother is my guardian for now and she raised me without permission"
"Oh! So your not my sister" she said sadly looking down
"Oh no, you are my sister blue"
"But you have a different mom" I shook my head quickly it's really dammit Candace.
"Blue not by purpose I'm sure that if things didn't happens this way I would be raised by Beyoncé and daddy in the best way possible I would be a happy little girl who is love with her parents like they did with you it's just they had to fight to get to the point of them being able to raise me him."
"Will it ever be like that" I smiled softly knowing that it would
"Yes it will because I'm gonna try to get to know my real family the way I should" she smiled brightly and reached over and hugged me she pulled away and her smile died down causing mien to do the same
"Mommy used to cry"
"Really?"
"Un huh" she said nodding now I'm interested
"She said because somebody she needed to come back to her so she can hold them and love on them like me was that somebody you?" Now that I think about it I'm deeply wrong I didn't even let her hug me when I got back and if my child went missing for 11 years I would Feen for a hug.
"I-I think so yeah"
"But your back now and she still cries" I chuckled with my mouth closed looking down biting the inside corner on my lip
"Maybe tears of joy" I said hoping she didn't have more questions to throw my way .yes I know the real reason but I don't wanna talk about this anymore.
"Ok" she shrugged i noded and we continued to eat
Shawn
3:44
"So she was kidnapped?" Becky asked me shockingly i noded my head drinking a glass of Hennessy we finished working a couple's minutes ago so now we were just chilling in my office in the company
"I'm so sorry that must've been hard" she shook her head
"Yeah well things have been tense before but she lighten up, she calls me dad" I smiled widely
"Awww that's great" I laughed and noded
"And beyonce mom yes no" my smile dropped a bit only because of the fact of not calling her mom but I know she wants that talk
"Not yet she really couldn't except beyonce things where hard my wife and daughter fighting all the time man" I shook my head
"But she opens her eyes she realizing"
"Well I'm happy for you both" she smiled
"Thanks" we got silent as she grabbed her cup and drink you Hennessy a gaze of hunger came over me. Her lips on the glass her head slightly tilted back as she slowly let the drink hit her mouth i looked down her slim neck causing a neck bone to pop down further to her unbutton shirt showing her again her cleavage. I looked down at her lap where her thighs were exposing through her skirt i looked at her crossed legs biting my lip alll the way down to the red bottom. I heard her clear her throat and I popped my head back up licking my lips
"Mmhh hungry boy I see" she said sitting her glass down
"Yeah for my wife" I chuckled trying to make it seem like I fell into a day dream of Beyoncé
"While looking at me like that?" She laughed waving me off
"Wifey must not be showing hubby the right affection" she was shaking her leg side to side while they were crossed giving me a seductive look I cleared my throat and looked away
"Oh nah nah we just I'm been busy I'll be sure to handle that" I smirked at the thought
"With who?" She got up and slowly walked over to me i eyes her every inch as she got closer closer from inch to feet
"With Beyoncé?" she bent down and her breast were right in my face.
"Or Me?" she came closer and whispered in my ear and her breast rubbed against my chest and man they were soft as hell.
"I-um i" shorty got me stuttering like like this I looked over her shoulder and damn perfect ass coming form her perfect thighs she began to kiss my neck and I bit my lip. She grabbed my hand and placed it on her ass my eyes grew wide at the feeling of the soft plump of it.I was rubbing up and down her ass and thighs feeling her soft moisturizing skin against my palm. She moved from my ear and her chest was in my face again and she smelled sexy.
"It's..ok.... No one..... has to know... no one..." she said between kisses on my neck she came back face to face and leaned in slowly as well as I did I looked at her lips facing the plump glossiness from her lips her lips came in contact with mine and we slowly moved in sync. She inched her hand down my chest slowly down to my stomach she got further and my phone began to ring causing us to pull away.
I looked over at the phone and it was Beyoncé I pushed Becky off my and got up to grab it and answer
"Hey baby" is said nervously rubbing my head
"Hey what took you so long to answer I was getting worried"
"I uhh was in the studio working on something's with the headphones on I didn't hear it until I saw it" I chuckled
"Oh ok well me and the girls are gonna be out when you get home so I thought I'll just let you know"
"Ight where y'all going?" I looked back at Becky and she smile sitting sexy with her legs crossed I bit my lip and turned back around
"I decided to take them out for ice cream so this younger one will leave me alone" she laughed as I tried to match my laughter
"Ok that's coo I'll be there soon"
"Ok I love you" those words hit me and a gaze of realization came over me and my heart was beating as is told in disbelief
"Baby?" I shook my head and began to speak
"Sorry I love you too" I hung up and rubbed my face I felt hands on my shoulders making my body go weak
"Let me take care of you. You seem upset" her soothing smooth voice echoed in my ear but I know another smooth voice and I can't live without hearing it is hook my head and moved her off me and stormed to get my keys and phone.
"Baby what-" she began I shut her off shaking my head
"I have a wife and two daughters and I'll be damn if I lose them and I just got one back" I stormed out leaving her standing there if it to my car and got in sitting for a while.
"Fuck" I sighed
Beyoncé
4:00
Me and the girls are on the way to hanks ice cream shop so blue can leave me alone. The ride was pretty silent other than the music and blue talking one think me and Amariana have in common is we get annoyed pretty fast. I look through the review mirror and saw blue was distracted on her iPad I figured this would be the time to apologize about what happened.
"Hey" I said glancing at her she looked at me with a worried look
"Listen I'm sorry about what happened I didn't mean to yell or use that language with you it's just when I saw you was still in contact with her I felt betrayal and they way you were sticking up for her i just lost it" I was taking glances at her and I saw her eyes getting glossy.
"It's not all your fault I said some things as well I just- " she shook her head crying
"What tell me"
"I just need to talk to you later I can do this right now" i noded my head as a mother I always whiled my baby tears away like my mother did to me when I was child she always said "your too pretty to cry but if you can't hold it in it's ok to let it out". We made it to the ice cream shop and got out the car and blue ran to the door opening it for us to walk in
"Mommy I want chocolate" blue said excitedly I noded my head and walked up to the desk
"Hi. How May I help you" the worker asked
"Hi can I have chocolate for the small one and Amariana baby which flavor do you want?" I asked turning to her
"Umm vanilla is fine" i noded my head turning back around
"Vanilla and strawberry" he noded his head writing
"Come or cup?"
"Come or cup girls"
"Cups" they yelled in unison I smiled and look back at the worker
"3 cups"
"Ok will be right up ma'am" i noded my head and went and sat at the booth with the girls Amariana just looked like she wanted to cry for some reason
"Are you ok?" She lifted her head and pushed her head back while resting her hand on her looking at me while crying silently I wanted to hold her but I didn't want to take a chance of an insult right now.
"Yeah I'm fine" I knew she wasn't but I left her alone
"Mommy look princess Tiana" I looked up at the tv where blue was pointing and smiled
"I see baby" we went silent and I began to laugh a little
"What?" Amariana asked I shook my head
"Nothing it's just princess and the frog was you favorite movie" she smiled and chuckled
"It's still is"
We laughed and our ice cream was up we ate our ice cream and talked and laughed at blue at a few things it feels good to have a nice day with them but I'm a little concerned about this talk.
Amariana
8:29
After spending the day with Beyoncé and blue I honestly had a great time in a sun the room changing into my pajamas getting ready to go to her room to talk to her. I knocked on the door and got a deep come in from daddy I walked in and saw them on the floor with a bunch of pictures and toys and things everywhere
"Hey what's this?" I asked sitting down next to them
"Oh some memory's before you know" Beyoncé said i noded my head and look a daddy
"Yeah about that can I talk to her alone please" he smiled knowing what was up and noded he kissed my head and left the room I turned back to Beyoncé and she had a pillow in here hand smiling
"What's that?
"Oh umm this was the pillow on your bed when you were 2" I noded my head and looked down at the pictures of baby me I came across one of me in a Minnie Mouse costume
"I was Minnie mouse for Halloween" I smiled looking at her but her smile faded and her eyes began to water I looked at the picture realizing the day I looked back up and she whipped her fallen tears
"Um yeah" she tried to laugh it off
"Well I was cute" she laughed and sniffed
"Yes you were"
"I can't believe you kept all of this" I shuffled through the box looking at toys and more
"Of course I kept all this you are my baby why wouldn't I" is shook my head in disbelief
"I just thought I don't know 11 years I thought you would finally give up I see I was replaced with blue and I don't know"
"I would never give up on you and we did not replace you with blue"
"No it ok really I mean I guess it's fair I replaced with with a mom except I didn't really"
"Well I'm not replacing you with anything" I smiled and she smiled as well I looked at more pictures until I heard two voices come from the sound of some type of speak
"I love my mommy,I love my baby" I heard I turned over and saw Beyoncé holding a pink bear crying
"What's that?" She smiled and wiped her nose before speaking
"I took you to build a bear and we built this bear together you got nervous to speak in the mic so I suggested we do it together and we said we loved each other" she said never looking from the bear I kinda started to remember the bear I knew I couldn't sleep without it at night
"Which is why I got distracted at the mall starting off at the build a bear store" she chuckled I felt kinda bad about that knowing I ran away from her I looked at the bear and she slowly handed it to me I looked at every detail remembering it just as it was. I closed my eyes and two twins tears flooded down my cheeks I shook my head fighting back the sons that were trying to take over me.
"Amariana?" I heard her soft voice say i opens my eyes looking at the bear
"I umm I remember her" i sniffled I squeeze the bear feeling anger and hurt take over me my grinned tighten and I clenched my jaw I felt a soft gentle touch against my hand causing me to relax I've never felt her touch me in a gentle way she came closer putter her forhead against my temple I closed my eyes and let my tears roll down my warm cheeks
"It's ok baby let go" she whispered i loosens my grin and she took the bear and I began to sob
"I'm so sorry I just don't know or get it. more people come and I get confused and confused my day and don't remember any one or anything" i cried
"Shhh shhh it's ok breath baby" her soft voice echoed
"Why? Why would she lie to me and why do I still love her I'm so stupid to love her she hurt people what's wrong with me" I was truly confused with my self and my feeling I didn't know if I wanted to hate her for taking me away or love her because she played my mother role
"Hey there's nothing wrong and your not stupid ok, yes she hurt people but you love her because she raised you she loved you she cared for you baby and just because I don't have good intentions on her doesn't mean you have to" listening to her words made be loosen up my tensed body I felt calm listening to her voice.
"I just can't believe it I never thought she would do this and they way she was with me I would have never known or thought of it" I shook my head sobbing still but not as bad she grabbed my hand in my lap and squeezed it
"She played her role so well it all hit you at one time when the news let loose on you and it's not your fault nun if this is" i noded my head wiping my eyes she looked like she wanted to hug me like her body was saying yes but her mind was saying no she was inching in but then quickly jumped back
"You can hug me it's ok I need one myself" she smiled widely and I sat up and hugged her as she hugged me back tightly sat like that for a few minutes until we pulled away
"You have no idea how much I missed you Amariana Marie" I looked down feeling ashamed
"I'm sorry" I began to cry she pulled me to her
"Hey don't be you we're only 3 you couldn't help it" i shook my head and looked at her
"No not that, for how I was treating you"
"Yeah if you don't mind me asking why did you hate me or do you still" I shook my head and began talking
"I don't hate you I never did. It's just I thought that if you saw I didn't like you, you would just give up and take me home but I guess your love was there all along. Then I stated to get closer with Shawn and I knew I e
you were hurting the only reason I got close to him so east is because well I never had a dad it was just me and see her so it was easier to accept him I couldn't accept you well because I had her and I thought I'll be relaxing her with a at the time stranger. I signed and looked at her she had small smile whipping her tears
"Well you can't get away from me that fast nobody what you say to me or how you feel about me your my child and your not leaving me again" maybe this is how it's really supposed to be am I used to it no but I guess this is what it is.
"I'm so sorry Beyoncé I really am I don't want you to think I'm just this evil person full with hate. It's just that I don't know you the way I should" I shook my head looking down
"Well I'm willing to let you if you let me" she said grabbing my hand I looked into her eyes and saw that she was sincere about it I whipped my tears and noded causing her to smile.
"Hi I'm Beyoncé Giselle Knowles-Carter and I'm your mother" she held her hand out eating for me to shake I looked at her hand for a minute then broke into a mile
"Hi I'm Amariana Marie Carter and I'm your daughter"
Ooooo weee
Thoughts?
Amariana and Beyoncé starting to build a relationship?
Shawn and Becky?