( FAYE )
i can't bear to leave my bed. this room, once filled with the warmth of a homely feeling, is just tainted now.
my throat aches from holding back tears, my anger simmered beneath the surface. there's no way i can face the world outside.
i've been locked in my room since last night, the muffled sounds of everyone leaving burnt into the back of my mind.
i ruined christmas. i ruined finns party.
hunger gnaws at my stomach, but i have no appetite. even the thought of food feels foreign.
the world feels like a grayscale painting, and i just want to drown myself in its muted colors, away from reality.
finn tried to talk to me, his voice a distant murmur from behind my bedroom door.
i regret avoiding him, but it's the only thing i could do.
i need space to process, to reconcile everything i'm experiencing. the anger weighs me down, and yet i can't confront either of them.
my phone sits beside me, unattended, blinking with missed messages and calls from the two people that deserve none of my attention.
i long for an escape, a way to release this heavy feeling, to leave behind these tainted walls. yet, the thought of leaving this house brings along more fear than freedom.
the walls of my room offer a cocoon of protection, a space where i can pretend the outside world doesn't exist.
i just feel like the world is against me.
but honestly, can i blame it?
i'm mad at myself. i have a major fault in this for trying to build something with the girl who my ex girlfriend was seeing behind my back.
it's insane, i'm insane and i deserve this.
— ★ —
i finally leave my room, the anger guiding my legs as i storm into the kitchen with frustration bubbling beneath my skin.
my eyes immediately land on finn, finding him with an anxious expression on the couch.
"faye" he stands up, walking towards me. "are you okay? whats-"
"okay? am i okay? how can i be okay, finn?"
my voice cracks with anger. "all of this, it's too much. i can't stay here, it's bad luck. i need to get away"
"get away?" his voice is laced with concern. "what do you mean?"
"i just need to go, move away, someplace else with a new job and new people and a new life" my breaths become quicker.
"faye" finn exhales. "i understand you're mad, but-"
"mad? finn, this goes beyond mad" i spit out the words, my voice quivering.
"faye, i know this hurts, i really do"
he reaches out to comfort me, his hand gently squeezing my shoulder. "but you can't just run away from everything. you can't leave because of what they did"
"you don't understand! i need to leave because staying here feels like a never ending nightmare" my voice rises.
finn sighs, running a hand through his hair.
"look, i won't pretend to understand what you're going through, but running away won't solve anything. you need time to heal, not escape"
i feel my chest constricting. "how can i heal when everything around me is a constant reminder?"
tears begin to fill up my eyes before finn pulls me into a tight hug.
"i'm so sorry faye, i'll try to help you through this, but please, don't make a bad decision" his voice is barely above a whisper.
"take some time, think things through. we can figure this out together, okay?"
i sob into his shoulder, letting all my emotions pour out. "i don't know what to do"
"i mean" i pull away, sniffling. "i expected something like this from sades- sadie, but... marcus?"
he sighs, running his fingers through my hair. "maybe you should just stop trusting people"
i force a chuckle, wiping away my tears. "starting with you"
"except me" he points out with a soft laugh.
— ★ —
2 days pass by, still no sign of a confrontation.
i make an effort to steer clear of my phone, relying on finns one for anything necessary, as well as spending all my time with him.
this allows us to tick off all those movies we've been planning to watch for years, and do the things from our long forgotten bucket list.
it works as an amazing distraction, putting my mind away from the fact that i'm never finding love that's real, platonic or not.
"hey, finn?" i shift towards him on the couch, leading him to pause the screen.
he turns towards me. "yeah?"
i smack my lips with a sigh. "you think i should talk to marcus?"
"what about the other one?" he raises a brow.
"oh, she can rot in hell"
he lets out an amused chuckle, shaking his head. "keep that energy up"
"seriously, though" i shrug. "should i?"
"what would you say to him?"
"that he's a miserable little bitch that can't be trusted and he ruined my life even more than it already was, along with the other miserable little bitch who just can't keep it in her pants and has to fuck everyone i know" i deadpan.
finn nods, stifling a laugh. "very mature. but, how about this, you just cut them off like a normal person?"
"hmm, i could try that" i nod.
will byers supremacy
finn ❤️🔥
guys
guys
tea & biscuits 🇬🇧
HII
long time no speak !!
finn ❤️🔥 removed sadie from the groupchat
finn ❤️🔥
oops
finger slipped
awkward!
mclaughing
huh
what's going on
norhing
everythings ok
tea & biscuits 🇬🇧
doesn't seem like it
it does seem like it
you don't know what
seems like what shutup
tea & biscuits 🇬🇧
oh wow
okay 😕
i'm sorry bae
finn ❤️🔥
some really bad shit
is going on right now
gay-ten
worse than when rory
cheated on faye with sadie?
wtf
finn ❤️🔥
woah.
mclaughing
uncalled for
gay-ten
i'm so sorry faye
idk why i brought that up
there was absolutely
no need for that
it's okay
finn ❤️🔥
honestly
idk if it's worse
it's not worse
it's kinda the same thing
lmao
mclaughing
wair what
turns out someone who's
unloyal stays that way forever
sadie cheated on me with my friend
tea & biscuits 🇬🇧
oh my god
mclaughing
oh.
gay-ten
that's
oh.
i'm sorry
tea & biscuits 🇬🇧
idk what to say
i'm so sorry faye
do you need to talk?
anything?
we're always here for u
mclaughing
yeah
we're here 🫂
no it's fine
i'm dealing
mclaughing
are you?
no
but i will
i'll deal 👍
★ authors note ,,
filler
i love faye