"Stop moving, that tickles."
"But I'm comfortable."
Sam lets out a sigh and continues messing with Jenos hair as the male readjusts his position using her chest as a pillow.
"I should've known you preferred laying down than being the pillow."
"Feels nice", Jeno mumbles. "Makes me feel safe and loved."
"I'm sorry."
Jeno opens eye to look up at his ex-girlfriend. "I already told you it's okay. We were both insecure and sucked at communicating. I prefer this anyways, makes my boyfriends slightly less jealous."
Sam chuckles. "How'd they feel about the flowers?"
"Haechan looked angry and then decided he was going to get me flowers immediately. Jaemin gave me one on our first date so we could do creative journaling."
"That's so cute. I'm glad they take care of you." Jeno nods, accidentally tickling Sam again. "I said stop moving!"
"Stop being comfortable!"
"You know, you're the only guy I've had lay on my boobs and not to try to use me as a milk bottle."
"Sam!" Jeno exclaims, sitting up, half gagging.
"You finally exclaimed Sam and not Samantha!"
"My bad. Samantha!"
The girl rolls her eyes playfully, smiling. Jeno lays back down and tries not to think of what she just said.
"You know, I'm glad we're friends, Jeno."
"Me too. Even if you make me concerned with the things you say."
"You're just as bad as me!"
"What you say is worse."
"No, it is not!"
"Whatever", Jeno says and sighs in contentment. "You're not the one who has a comfy pillow."
"You're really cute, you know that?"
Jeno hums. "You're really pretty, you know that? I really hope you find a guy who's so much better than the guys you've been with. One who likes you, respects you, treats you well and makes you happy. I always wanted that for you."
Sam kisses his forehead and caresses his hair, staring down at Jeno fondly. "I really never deserved you, did I?"
"I think you did. And it doesn't matter if you believe me, you're what I wanted."
"I liked you too", Sam says softy. "For every reason your boyfriends love you. And that's many reasons."
"Thank you", Jeno says.
Sams face twists into confusion. "For what?"
"Caring about me, being my friend. I've always been scared of people leaving me. I thought everything was temporary so I didn't let you in. Even if it took a few years, we're friends again and I actually know how you feel. You're a really great friend, Sam."
"You're absolutely wonderful, you know that? Now sit up."
Jeno pouts. "Why?"
"Just because. Now do it." With an eyeroll, the male gets up and turns to the girl who grabs his face and peppers kisses all around it, making him giggle. When she's done, she pulls Jeno into her arms and hugs him, feeling so appreciative for the guy in her arms. "This friendship makes me really happy."
"Same."
Sam sighs dramatically. "A man of many words, how charming."
"Hey!"
Darci :)
Darci :)
Hey Mark, can we talk?
Mark
Sure
Is everything alright though?
Darci :)
I should be asking you that but
instead you're asking me
Mark
Darci what's going on?
Darci :)
This!
It's exactly this
Mark
I am so confused rn
Mark enters the restaurant and spots Darci right away.
"Yo, dude, wha-" He gets cut off as Darci strangles him in a hug.
"I am so sorry."
"Apologizing again? I told you-"
"No, Mark", Darci pulls back to face him, "it's not okay. It will never be okay that I hurt you and broke your trust and made you think you're unlovable."
Immediate discomfort takes over Mark, his biggest insecurity slapping him in the face. He shakes his head. "We don't have to talk about this."
"Yes we do! I hurt you and you won't even get mad at me for it!"
"It's not your fault! You didn't love me and that's okay."
"You didn't feel okay!" Darci says a little too loudly. He looks around at the people staring and grabs Mark hand to drag him outside.
"I don't get why you're still worried about this."
"'Cause I'm hurting you!"
"Hurt", Mark corrects. "Past tense!"
Darci shakes his head. "I'm sorry. I don't know why you chose to be around me. Even if you're not mad at me, you remember what I did and how I made you feel. How are you fine with this?"
"'Cause I care about you!" Mark shouts. "That's the goddamn reason anything between us ever happened!" Mark takes a breath to calm himself. "I like you as my friend, Darci. I always wanted a friend. We became more and that failed but my other main fear was losing you. You're in my life 'cause I want you here. I thought that was fine for you but if it's not, you need to tell me right now."
"No", Darci says and hugs him. "It is fine. I care for you so much. I don't wanna be hurting you."
"You're not."
"Would you tell me if I was?"
"Eventually I wouldn't be able to handle it, so yeah."
"I'm sorry for scaring you. I don't mean I don't want to be friends. I really care about you."
"And I appreciate that."
Darci kisses Marks cheeks and pulls away, looking way more timid than Mark has ever seen him."We good?"
Mark nods. "Yes."
"And I can still can kiss your cheek?"
Mark chuckles."Yes."
"Good. Now I'm about to buy you lunch."
"Oh, thank God, we're actually eating."
Darci links arms with Mark. "You didn't think I asked you here just to argue with you, did you?"
"Well no."
"Mark!"
➳
"Someone's knocking!"
"I hear it!" Taeyong yells right before opening the door and freezing at the sight of Haechan.
He smiles nervously. "Hi."
"Yongie, who's at the-", Doyoung stops at the sight of Haechan in the doorway.
"You didn't tell me Haechan was coming."
"It slipped my mind, sorry."
"I can't even sleep anymore", Yuta grumbles, draping myself over Doyoungs shoulder sleepily. "Hi Haechan."
"Hi. Sorry for the disturbance."
"It's fine, I just don't like sleeping without one of them and they both got up."
"We have a guest."
"I see him. Doesn't mean I'm not gonna sit on your lap while staying sleepy", He glances at Haechan, "no offense, Haechan. Now sit down."
Doyoung chuckles and presses a kiss to the side of Yuta's head before guiding him to the couch where the male snuggles up against him, settled on his lap. Taeyong sits right next to Doyoung and pulls Yuta's legs across his lap, leaving anywhere else for Haechan to sit.
"You three are cute."
"Thank you."
"I know!"
Taeyong sighs at Doyoung and awkwardly smiles at Haechan. "How have you been?"
"Pretty good. You?"
"Good."
"This is so awkward."
"Doyo!"
"He's right", Yuta says sleepily. "I'm glad I have my eyes closed."
"Should I come back another time?"
"We're fine. Yuta's like this most of the time. He doesn't actually use energy unless it's Jisung."
"He's my Jisung."
"You mean my Jisung."
"No, I don't."
➳
"I love you", Jisung says softy, smiling up at his boyfriend.
Chenle smiles back. "I love you too."
"Did I ever tell how hot you look with that hair?"
The silver-haired male chuckles. "You did. Do you not remember kissing me after you saw it?"
"I do. I just want to remind you, you look good."
"Thanks, Ji. You always look good. My little hottie."
Jisung rolls his eyes and then pulls Chenles head down for a kiss. After a minute, Chenle pulls away and shifts his position so he can kiss Jisung properly. When the kiss ends, they both smile at each other.
"You're perfect."
Chenle kisses Jisungs nose. "You too. Want to have a date today? I feel like having ice cream?"
Jisungs eyes light up at the mention of one of his favorite things, making Chenle laugh. He kisses him again and then places a kiss on his forehead before letting Jisung get up to get dressed.
Minnie🤍, Ten🖤, Kun💕
Jungwoo
What am I going to do?
Minnie🤍
What's wrong?
Jungwoo
Sungchan wants to hangout
and I just get a really bad
feeling about this
I don't want to ruin his day and
I like hanging out with him but
this isn't going to stay this way
and I'm not looking forward to
it
I don't wanna be the one to bring
it up either, I already feel like an
asshole for not returning his
feelings
And I'm not even sure my
explanation is gonna make sense
Kun💕
Woo, it makes sense
Sungchan seems like an
understanding person and you
can't help your feelings
Stop beating yourself up for
something normal
Sungchan will be okay
He has a support system and if
he needs people, he has them
He. Will. Be. Okay.
There is nothing wrong with you
telling the truth. He may not like
it but he'll appreciate it
Jungwoo
Thank you Kunnie, I feel
calmer now
Kun💕
I'm glad
➳
"I love walking around, holding your hand."
Chenle smiles at Jisung. "Same. I just love having us connected."
"So much that you use my left hand."
"It feels too natural, I forget we're holding hands."
Jisung grins at his boyfriend and kisses him. "You're so cute."
"You're cuter."
"Still not gonna let me win?"
"We've had this argument since we were nineteen, you should know I'm not giving up."
"Well neither am I."
The ice cream shop comes in view, making Chenle laugh at Jisungs reaction. When they enter, the silvery-haired male tightens his grip on Jisungs hands to keep himself from running up to the display cases and knocking into the people who are already in line.
Jisung glances at his boyfriend, knowing what he's doing. Chenle waits until the two people in front of them move down and then he finally approaches the case, Jisung immediately scouring for a flavor or two. Chenle watches him for a few seconds and then begins looking for a flavor himself.
"Are you ready?" Chenle asks, a minute later, having already decided.
"Not yet."
Chenle sighs and waits for Jisung to decide between five flavors. He almost audibly groans when Jisung glances up at the menu, meaning he might take even longer to choose. About two minutes later, he settles on two flavors and adds toppings. Chenle orders his right after and pays. Jisung kisses his cheek, causing him to playfully roll his eyes.
The two grab their ice cream and take a seat at open table by a window.
"Yours looks good."
"Want some?" Chenle nods so the two switch ice creams to try each others, then switch back. "Thank you by the way."
"I don't mind."
"Thank you anyways."
"I love you", Chenle says softly.
"I love you too."
"We almost forgot to take a picture."
"I need to shove this in Yuta's face."
"I'd try doing that to Kun but if he's with Xiaojun, he'll probably just get ice cream."
"True."
➳
"What's wrong?" Sungchan asks once he sees Jungwoos expression.
"Maybe nothing, I'm not sure."
Sungchan nods and slides into the seat across from him. "Do you wanna talk about it?"
"Not right now. How are you?"
"I'm alright, you?"
"Pretty good, kinda nervous", Sungchan says with a chuckle. "So um..." Jungwoo resists the urge to shut his eyes and restrains himself from reacting, absolutely terrified of whatever the male has to say. "I want to tell you something."
Jungwoo internally sighs. "Hey, um, not to cut you off but can we go somewhere more private? I just feel like it's better for this conversation."
Sungchan chuckles nervously, smile looking so adorable that Jungwoo hates himself even more. "Sure but you don't know what I'm going to say."
"Just in case."
Sungchan nods and gets up, along with Jungwoo.
"My house?" Sungchan suggests.
Jungwoo nods and gets into his car. The whole drive there, both males, unbeknownst to each other, are filled with anxiety. Jungwoo takes deep breaths and tries to remember what Kun said but the closer he gets to Sungchans apartment, the worse he feels. And then he remembers that Winwin also lives in this building, sparking an irrational fear of getting beat up and a more rational fear of Winwin telling him how horrible he is.
In Sungchans apartment, the male offers water which Jungwoo eagerly accepts, itching for an excuse not to speak. They seat themselves on the couch, Jungwoo refusing to relax in case he gets kicked out after this.
"Nice plant", Jungwoo says, pointing to the plant on the shelf, immediately wanting to smack himself after.
"Thanks. Um, anyways." Shit, shit, shit! "I wanna tell you something?"
Jungwoo can't believe that for a brief moment he considers acting rude so Sungchan won't wanna say what he's going to say. "Oh?"
"I, um", Sungchan goes red, smiling shyly, his expression like a reminder of how horrible he is for being about to take it away. "I think...no, I know, um...I like you."
And there he said it.
"Sungchan, I-"
"You don't like me back, do you? It's okay! I just..."
Jungwoo shakes his head. "This is not as simple as I wish it was. I really, really wanna make sure you understand me and I don't wanna hurt your feelings when I explain this." Sungchan nods. "You're right, I don't like you back but not for anything about. You are amazing and", Jungwoo pauses as to not say the wrong thing, "you're just a really great person who I really like knowing and being friends with but I haven't felt, like, a centimeter of romance since I met Kun and that was the most fleeting crush ever. Ignoring that, it's been years and even then, I got over it. I don't really feel anything for people, it's always platonic. I don't want to sound like a jerk who's just trying to make excuses but I mean it when I say I wish I could feel the same way, but I don't. I just love you platonically and I'm really, really sorry you had to like me instead of someone else who could return your feelings. It's okay if you're upset and need space. I'm really sorry."
Well Sungchan is hurt, of course he is. But he can't say he's surprised at being rejected, he knew that was too good to be true. But hearing Jungwoo explaining and seeing how sorry the male is hurts his heart even more.
"Did you just apologize to me for your feelings?"
"Uh, yes."
"That's a stupid thing to apologize for, don't you think?"
Jungwoo hates the way Sungchan is acting, like nothing is wrong. Like it's normal. "Sungchan, I can leave-"
"You don't have to. It's never a nice feeling being rejected but this isn't the end of the world and I'm proud of myself for sucking it up and telling you. And without freaking out."
"Oh, yeah. Are you okay about all these?"
"This kind of went how I expected, just not for the reason I expected. It's fine. I'm not upset with you and I don't want you to blame yourself for something you cannot help." Jungwoos eyes soften, not helping Sungchan pretend at all. "Can you do me a favor and pretend this didn't happen?"
Jungwoo nods. "Of course. Is there anything I can do?"
Sungchan takes a moment, trying to figure out what he wants right now. Part of him doesn't want to say it but the other part does. The other part needs it.
"Can you just hold me?"
"Yeah, I can do that."
➳
Jisung sits across Jiho, glaring at his brother.
"Can we talk in private?"
"No."
"C'mon, Chenle can at least move to a different table."
"You really think I'd leave you alone with Jisung?" The silver-haired asks. "Even if Jisung didn't ask me to be here, I wouldn't leave you two alone. You've done enough damage."
Jiho sighs. "Fine." He focuses on Jisung. "I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry for everything I did and it really, really wanna try to be a better brother to you. I know you probably won't ever forgive me and I acknowledge that I deserve it. I just want to try with you. You deserve a brother who you know loves you and shows that and makes sure you're okay and says sorry."
"Why didn't you do that before?"
"I...I don't know."
Jisungs glare hardens as he feels his emotions take over him. All he's wanted since he was younger was for Jiho to treat him the way he's offering right now. He hates that he still wants it, wants to say yes. He hates that he wants to ignore everything and move on.
Sensing his mood, Chenle gently rubs Jisungs thigh under the table for a few seconds and then intertwines their fingers. The contact relaxes Jisung the slightest bit.
"I'm going to say something and I want you to listen to me very carefully." Jiho nods. "I'm going to let you try because everything you should've fucking done is what I deserve and I learned that I should only accept what I deserve. Make any wrong move again and I will let you go. It's gonna hurt me but I'd rather find peace without you than continue to hurt because of you. I don't want to feel the way you, Mom, and Dad made me feel. Especially that day. I don't wanna feel that miserable again. Maybe you realized this, maybe you didn't, but we're both lucky I'm sitting in front of you right now."
Jihos eyes widen."Ji-"
"You don't have to worry about it. I promised I'd stay. Notice how none of those promises are with you." Jiho looks down shamefully. "Anything you wanna say?"
"I'm starting therapy."
Jisung doesn't react and just says, "Good for you."
Jiho sighs, knowing this is all he's gonna get from the male. He stands up, ready to leave but stops. "I love you."
Jisung lets out a bitter chuckle. "Is that what you think love is?"
"I know I didn't treat you like someone I love but I do love you."
"I want to ignore this but I've always been the one to show my love and as much as I don't think you deserve it, I hate what not hearing this phrase can do to people. I love you too and you better remember that when you reflect on how shitty you treated me."
Jiho nods. "I will. Bye. Bye, Chenle."
The couple stays quiet as they watch the older male walk away. As soon as he's gone, Jisung leans into Chenle, finally releasing his tears.
"I love you", Chenle says and kisses his face. "I love you, I love you. I'm very in love with you."
Jisung nods against him, not ready to speak but wanting Chenle to know he hears him.
"I wanna go home", Jisung murmurs.
Chenle kisses his forehead. "Okay. You want me to call Haechan and Jaemin?"
"Yes, please."
"Okay, baby. You're absolutely perfect, you know that?"
"You too."
I thought I had more for this chapter but I just blanked so hopefully it's eventful next chapter.
Just to get you interested (as if you reading up to this point means you're not), I have something I really want to do soon. It involves some characters and I'm actually really excited about it and I just know for a fact that you'll like it too. Ugh, I just want it to be that time already!! But we must wait my Squishies. Our time will come one day
I feel like I had a handful of plans and now I'm forgetting all of them and I don't know what to do so hopefully I sort something out
I love you
Not proofread❤️