"Okay, tell me which one feels the most comfortable?"
Alyssa nods and waits as Renjun holds up different glitter fabrics. She brushes her hands along the material and tests how much they bother her arms. While she does that, Renjun thinks of ways to guarantee the girls comfort without changing the dress.
"I think this one is the most comfortable. Like it's not perfect but it's more tolerable."
"Are you gonna wear gloves? Or do you want any?"
"Haechan!"
"Huh?"
"Call Jaemin."
"Why?"
"I need to ask him something!"
"Okay, jeez."
Haechan video calls Jaemin and hands the phone to his sister when his boyfriend answers.
"Hi Alyssa!"
"Hi", the girl blushes, making Haechan roll his eyes. "Renjuns fitting me for my prom dress and I want an actual helpful opinion on whether gloves would look good with this and what length.
"Here, I'll show him." Alyssa hands Renjun the phone and awkwardly smiles while Renjun stands back, showing Jaemin the makeshift dress. "Obviously this is just the start so I can get an idea but what do we think?"
"I think long gloves that match the underside of the dress would be perfectly. You'll look so pretty, Alyssa!"
"Thank you."
"Can I speak to him now?"
Jaemin laughs and grins when his boyfriend appears on the screen. "Hi, Cookie."
"Hi, my love."
"So", Renjun says. "Do you have a date?"
The girl shakes her head and then blushes. "I mean there's someone I want to go with but we both talked about going with our friends and just meeting in front."
"You should ask them."
"I'm just afraid she'll say no. I think she likes me but she's never said anything. She just compliments me and flirts sometimes."
"She also got you a necklace!"
Alyssa rolls her eyes and continues. "But I don't wanna find out I've been reading too much into it."
"I think you should take a chance. Your brother did it and now he's happy. It's easier said than done but try not to think about it going wrong. Think of it as you doing something good for yourself."
"Can I hug you?"
"Haechan, I'm stealing your sister."
"You have to give her back on Monday."
"Why? So I can go to school or because you want me back?"
"Both."
"Good enough. I guess."
"Aw", Haechan coos, bringing his sister into a hug. "You know I love you."
"Mhm. You can let go now."
"No."
"Haechan!"
"Alyssa!"
"Haechan!"
➳
Jaemin takes in the sight of Jeno in a black t-shirt and blank shorts, hair slight messed up. What really captures his attention is his nervous the males seems.
"Everything okay?"
"Yeah."
"Can I come in?" Jeno nods and holds the door open for Jaemin. The male males his way into the living room, casually looking for evidence. "Were you busy?"
"No."
Jaemins eyes trail down Jenos body and he smirks, sending a tingle down Jenos spine, along with more panic. "What some help with that?"
"What?" Jeno looks down.
Shit
➳
"What happened this time?" Haechan asks, taking in his boyfriends.
"I came-", Jaemin chokes on his laughter. "I came at a bad time. Or maybe it was a good time. What do you think, Princess?"
"I don't wanna talk about it", he mumbles, looking at the floor.
Mark and Jaemin laugh. Mark pulls Jeno into a hug. "You're so cute."
Haechan is aware of what's happening, he hugs his boyfriends back, kisses their cheeks, smiles at their compliments, everything but his mind is somewhere else.
He knows it's probably stupid to be jealous of this but he's wondering why Jaemin hasn't done anything with him.
Is he being nice?
If he is, then there's another problem. How does he tell him he wouldn't mind if things went further? He's been wanting that. He thinks about telling me now.
I'm not ready!
"Cookie?"
"Huh?"
"You okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"You sure?"
"Yeah, I was just thinking", Haechan answers, really hoping that mind reading is fake.
He lets out an internal deep breath when they move on.
Cuddled up against his boyfriends, receiving all the affection he wants, it's all Haechan could ask for. But since earlier, he's had other things on mind that make it really hard for him to stay calm when he knows his boyfriends could find out.
"Sweetheart, you sure you're okay?"
Haechan nods. "I'm just my head a lot today."
Jeno nods in understanding and kisses his face. Haechan tries to block out his thoughts and just focus on how loved he feels.
Lele
Haechan
Really quick yes or no question
If the answer's no, move on
Did you ever feel nervous to
have sex?
Lele
Of course I did
Not the first time in general but the
first time with Jisung
I felt really about it because I was
scared I'd seem like my
ex-boyfriend who seemed to stop
enjoying my personality
Jisung kept reassuring me and
telling me we could wait but I
didn't want to which actually
made me worry even more
It's a mutual agreement now but
Jisung told me I could top if that
made me feel more comfortable
I used to worry a lot but me and
Jisung discussed ways to deal
with it and it works pretty well
for us
Haechan
I really really hate your ex
Lele
I don't like him either but I did
and he was my lesson so I
could learn what I actually
deserve
That's what sucks sometimes,
wanting a person who's not
good for you
And it can be hard to make that
step to choose yourself
Mark and Jeno told me to break
up with him about five times
before I actually did it
I think I also had hope but I was
so tired of waiting for him to
love me again
But I'm happy I became available
so that when Jisung came along,
I took the opportunity to actually
have a good, healthy relationship
It was scary but it was worth it
I love Jisung so much
Haechan
I love listening to you and Jisung
talk about each other. It's so
sweet and when I was single, I
craved the love you two have
And I'm so glad someone loves
my best friend and I'm really
glad it's you
I love seeing Jisung happy
Lele
Why'd you have to make me
tear up?
Haechan
Sorry
Lele
You're getting the biggest
fucking hug when I see you
again
Haechan
No complaints
Lele
Also I assume there's a reason
you asked me about being
nervous?
Haechan
How did you tell Jisung? Like
bring it up?
I wanna talk to Jaemin, Jeno, and
Mark and I keep planning it out in
my head but I know that even I
can say what I want to talk about,
I won't actually be able to say it
I thought about just writing it but
the thought of waiting for them to
read and respond makes me want
to hit myself
Lele
Correct me if I'm wrong but is
there more than just your
mom convincing you sex is
taboo as to why talking about
it freaks you out?
Haechan
I kinda told Mark this but I'm
afraid of the judgement
I know they're not gonna judge
me but I feel like if I try to be
comfortable and just say things,
at one point, anyone is going to
say something about it and
single me out
I guess I still kinda feel like I'm
not supposed to be okay with it
Lele
I get it
Maybe start small
Like if you already mentioned
something to Mark then
continue telling him stuff
It gets easier when you actually
keep doing it
I was also the more shameless
one but Jeno told me that he
cared less and less when he'd say
something and he wouldn't like
say anything involving you if it
was intimate like that
Even now, when he talks it's him
freaking out because he loves
you so much
Haechan
I love him too
And you
Lele
I love you too
➳
Sungchan groans. "This is stupid."
A door opens and closes. "What is?"
Sungchan jumps. "Shit! You scared me."
"Sorry. What's stupid?"
"How did you know you like guys?"
"I liked one."
"That's it?"
Winwin shrugs. "It was simple for me. It felt the same way as it did when I liked a girl. I knew not everybody would be in support, I had classmates make homophobic jokes but there were other people who were about it, would casually mention their boyfriend or girlfriend and I would see it. I even spoke to someone about it because someone from the LGBTQ club saw me staring at the poster. They were nice and even gave me a sticker. I just kinda went with the fact that I like guys and people."
"I'm glad it went well for you", Sungchan says, leaning his head on Winwins shoulder. Winwin leans his head on Sungchans and grabs his hand to intertwine their fingers and press random spots on his hand with his thumb.
"It could go well for you too. When's the last time you spoke to Jungwoo?"
"We talk everyday. Sometimes he's busy and only says goodnight but it feels so nice."
"Do you want to tell him you wanna try crossing into romance?"
"Kinda", Sungchan mumbles, turning to Winwin and curling into him.
"You could try flirting."
"I think he'll think I'm joking."
"You didn't try it."
"What if he doesn't like me back? I'm going to freak out if I try this and it goes wrong. I won't ever try it again."
"Then don't try it ever again."
"Huh?"
"If you really feel like you don't wanna try it, then wait. People do get trapped by fear but sometimes they're simply not ready. Maybe somethings, you'll never be ready for but it's up to you to try it or not."
"Isn't that making it worse for myself?"
"You could say that but I feel like protecting ourselves and waiting can be more helpful than trying again at an earlier time. What works for you doesn't work for everybody. Some people take chances. Other people wait but you can find happiness either way. I believe that."
"Are you happy?"
"With you", Winwin kisses Sungchans head, "and Renjun and our friends, I'm very happy. Even this big group of people we ended up in doesn't seem that bad."
"Oh, yeah, your support group."
Winwin chuckles. "Yeah, them."
"I wish I could've done it but I'm glad they comforted you when you needed people."
"I could've let you but I didn't wanna talk about it. I never wanted to talk about my feelings and just let it be an open thing so I kept it to myself."
Sungchan leans up to pecks Winwins cheek. "That's perfectly okay. Just know that you can tell us. We're a loud, crazy mess but we know how to focus on the people we love."
"You're so cute."
Sungchan blushes. "Winwin!"
"What?"
➳
Tennn<3, Wooooo<3, Kun
Wooooo<3
I just thought to do this so Kun
is here
Now all of you, HELP
Kun
He's freaking out about
Sungchan again
Tennn<3
Wait wait wait
Kunnie how long have you
known about Woo's conflict
regarding Sungchan?
Kun
He told me like two weeks ago
Like I knew they were friends
and they talk cause he told me
after that New Years party
Jaemin
God New Years sucked
I mean the end of the day was
good but I hated New Years as
much as I thought I would
Oh Kun since you don't know,
I saw my grandparents and my
grandma is...some words
Wooooo<3
He means an awful
manipulative bitch
Jaemin
And my grandpa just kinda lets
it happen and it was this whole
thing and also if I seem less
panicky than before, it's
because I'm trying to manage
my people-pleasing trauma :)
Kun
I am so sorry you had to deal
with them
Tennn<3
Oh Yangyang's mom is a
therapist
You could also tell well anyone
but I was thinking of Haechan
and Jisung
Jaemin
Oh okay
Back to Woo, are you okay?
Wooooo<3
I don't know
I feel like this is gonna go so
wrong and I'm gonna cry
Sungchan is so sweet and
actually so precious and I
don't want anyone to break
his heart but I especially
don't wanna be the asshole
to do it
I feel like the more I know him
the more I love him but it's the
way I love you guys
I try to ignore it when I catch
him staring at me and blush but
I just wanna apologize or warn
him to stop before it's too late
Jaemin
Woo :(
Where are you, let's cuddle
Kun and Ten, if you don't join,
I will get someone to hurt you
Tennn<3
I'm not scared of you
Kun
That's definitely gonna be the
reason why you die
Woo, are you home?
Wooooo<3
Yes
Kun
Put on your favorite thriller
Wooooo<3
Okay
Jaemin
On my way to give you lots of
kisses
Wooooo<3
Oh and please BRING FOOD
Tennn<3
I vote Kun cooks
Kun
NO
If Woo wants me too though,
I will
Tennn<3
Favoritism🙄
Okay so I have an idea for the next chapter and then a scene for the one after that. That event-well two but in the same chapter *remembers something* ohh, the little things I wanted to add. Fuck, if I remembered, I could've done something now. It's fine. So then we have those and then...okay it's probably too early to mention this but I need to get some sort of plan from here. There is a two to three part epilogue and somewhere between the-you know what, I think I got it
That's gonna be my vague chaotic outline for you and if I remember, I will make a detailed one for me
Okay, I just remembered ChenJi(I am so sorry Lele and Jisung) and there is another I could do involving a scene with the big group chat but is there any side ship you wanna see more of? The more specific the better but if you literally just say two characters, I can work with that (this works for platonic and romantic ships, I just remembered a Renjun with MarkNoMinHyuck scene I want to add somewhere...Could've done that here too, dammit)
I feel like I have more to discuss with you...Is this what it's like when there's no drama? Just peacefulness that feels kinda empty? It's okay, fluff will make you for it but seriously I feel like something's missing
I'm not gonna tell you why but I feel like I'll probably scream out the next chapter. You can guess why but I'm not saying you're right. Or wrong but I'm not saying you will be right
Oh my God, I just remembered something else. Okay so definitely three part minimum epilogue. That shit's gonna take forever but I think you will like
Okay now maybe that's all
Oh! (I swear I'm almost done) I recently published a new story called I Love You As Well. It's Chenle x Dream. There's three chapters out. It's not much but I'm hoping it will get better as time goes on
Now I think that's all
I love you
Not proofread❤️