I don't know what to say
I just know I can't sleep
I thought I could trust you
So I gave you the key
I'm feeling every emotion
Yet nothing at the same time
As if the sun set
And I'm lost in the night
I didn't think we would be here
I never thought you would cheat
You heard me talk about my ex
Then did the same thing
What hurts me is not only you
Not just losing what we had
But also my fear of the future
Where I will have to trust again
I feel like a genuine person
Like I've done a lot of growth
So why is it that when I open up
I'm forced to close
I have so many amazing friends
A family that supports me no matter what
Though I value those connections
They aren't the ones I truly want
I want to share my soul with someone
Emotionally and physically
I want to be the unfiltered version of myself
Without it ending in misery
I can't help but reflect on who I am
Why the person who knows me best
Keeps begging for my heart
Then ripping it from my chest