Reva's Pov
It's sunday again today and it's been the whole weak since Ansh talk to me in a teasing way or even call me jaan.He still care for me in the most affectionate way but I want him to be the same as he was. Because in this whole week I realised how much I missed his surprise huges,light kisses and all that teasing which used to be enough to turned me into a blushing mess. Last Sunday when he said he is not going to kiss me, I thought he was joking but now I know he wasn't. He seriously wants me to figure out my feelings and now I am almost getting it but I don't know why I don't want to except those feelings maybe because they feel so unreal to me.
I don't know when I start falling for him. Maybe I get these feelings when I first saw his pictures as my life partner or maybe when I stalk him on internet and read about him or maybe when I saw how caring he is or maybe when he pours his heart in front of me, for me. I don't know the exact movement when all these feelings start forming like a bubble in my heart and start tickling me with millions of emotions. I didn't know why last week I went to Manvi because I was confused or because I didn't wanted to accept it. I really don't know. At the end I just wanted to cry because of all those overwhelmed emotions but now all those faded emotions are pretty clear to me.
It's almost evening and I am feeling frustrated because I am having my periods. In periods I don't face terrible abdominal pain like other girls instead of that I feel little bit pain in my back,extreme cold and terrible mood swings.My feet's soles feel like they freeze out during this time. My mood swings are getting worse since morning because of my husband's gentleman behavior. Ughh... can someone ask him to be like before. (Your husband, your problem, ask him Reva) my sweet inner self suggested.
After sometime I made dinner and obviously I made the food according to my cravings. I knocked on his study door which was already opened.
"Don't knock "
I went inside as I heard the voice of my husband. There he was looking super cute in his studios glasses and don't know after staring at my husband I instantly feel an urge to put my fingers in his ruffled hairs while kissing him hard. Bloody harmones!!!
"Dinner is ready " I said to him and he instantly looked towards me and then towards his watch.
"Sorry,I didn't pay attention to time." He said closing his laptop.
"Why didn't you called for me wife, you had to do everything alone." here he goes again I thought to myself after listening to him. Why he is this caring? In this last week or I say since we shifted here he didn't let me do any chore alone. He helped in everything thing from cooking to cleaning.
"It wasn't that much, come fast"
I said and walked out from his study. He too came after me and sat beside me on dinning table.(I want to be in his lap like before )
I became beetroot red on my own thoughts but I instantly sued away those type of thoughts and tried to focus on my food. Keyword tried because I can't focus at all. My eyes were wondering on my husband's vainy hands and every other body part which was exposed. Don't call me creep I can't help duh!
"Stop playing with your food wife" Ansh said to me and i looked towards him in frustration. Why he is just keep calling me wife. Can't he use endearments like before.
"I'm done, I don't want to eat" I said putting down my spoon. Right now because of my periods I am feeling down and Ansh's formal behavior is making it worse. I feel like crying. Can't he just hold me for once like before.
"Are you alright wife, you eat too little today" he asked in concern which angers me a little.
"Yes I am alright and stop calling me WIFE" I said and instantly ran towards our bedroom.
Seriously fuck periods and mood swings!!!
In next moment i heard Ansh's knocking on the door of our room.
"Reva what's wrong, please open the door, please baby" I heard his panicked voice and realise what I am doing? Shit...he is panicking because of my behavior.
"Reva open the door or I'll break it."
He said again with harsh knocking and I immediately opened the door because I knew about his capabilities.
He pulled me into a tight hug as I opened the door. He hugged me almost for two or three minutes and then pepper light kisses on my whole face mumbling "thank God you are safe"then hugged me again for some minutes to calm down himself making me realised just how much I mean to this man.
"You scarred me " I heard him whispering when he detached himself from me and then suddenly his face's emotions changed into a blank one.
"What the fuck ? What the hell is wrong? How can you lock yourself? Do you even know how afraid I was just now? Answer me "
He shouted in anger but instead of getting afraid I found him hot. I mean seriously till now I just read about how man look hot in anger sometime and used to wonder how could it even possible but now I know actually how hot!! I am sorry to all female leads of my favorite books to call them dumb because of this. They were right because my man is looking smoking hot to me right now even though he is shouting.
"Speak up" he said breaking my gaze from his face and face heat up at his dominating voice.
"I'm Ok and I am sorry"
I said in a crying voice because of my guilt and hugged him but this time he didn't hug me back.
"Are you on your days baby?"
He asked so lovingly patting my head that i melt into his arms and hugged him more tightly in positive response. Finally he got this too.
"I am so sorry, I didn't mean to shout at you. I just got... "
"I know....don't be sorry"
I said putting my hand on his mouth.
"I am just having mood swings" I said embarrassingly.
"Hmm... I understand, because Anvi also behave the same at this time and don't be embarrassed. It's normal and i am ok with it even when it seems abnormal." He said patting my head.
"Now tell me are you having any pain?" He asked and I smiled at him.
"No actually I don't have that symptom but you tell me, why do you have period's painkillers in your first aid"
I asked because yesterday when I start bleeding I look for some medicine but I was surprised seeing painkillers their.
"I put it before thinking you may need them" he said with red ears. Why this man blush with ears?
"You're cute "
I said and he make a face that says a big noo to my statement.
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Later he forced me to have dinner by lecturing how bad food skipping habits are and then he tug me to the bed for rest. He came back after doing dishes and i instantly hug him without hesitation because first I was feeling cold and second in these last days he tried his best not to cuddle with me, so I don't face much problem in sorting out my feelings which was useless because I already knew about my feelings I wasn't just accepting them. But now I do and yes I decided to tell him.... don't know when???
"What symptoms do you have "
Ansh asked caressing my head as my head was on his chest.
"I feel cold, my feet's sole's become numb and a little back pain" I said and he stopped caressing my head making me look at him.
"Let me rub your feet's soles and back " he said and tried to get up but i hugged him tightly or i say I almost lay on him and cling to him like a koala.
"I'm alright,you just stay like this"
I said snuggling into his neck because he feels so warm.
"As you say " He said chuckling.
"Husband" I called for him after some minutes.
"Yes wife" he reply
"Call me jaan"
I demand blushing but I don't care because I wanted to heard it badly. It's been days and I am done with clearing out my feelings. I want my husband back.
"But you need to... "
"I know I need to figure out my feelings but what about yours. You already have feelings for me then how can you stop calling me like that. I know you just want to help me but do you have any idea how much i like it when you call me like that."
I said in one go and bite my tongue. You Guys should congrats me for embarrassing myself again and again. I put my hand on my mouth after realising what I just said. Stupid stupid mouth... Ughh....Now how I am going to face him. I looked towards his face from one eye and yes like always he was looking at me.
"You are not stupid jaana"
he said and hold my left hand which was on my mouth. Shit! Did I said that aloud.
"You are mine....my jaan"
He said again kissing my crown and I abruptly looked at him fluttering my eyelashes with surprise. I gave him questioned look because I didn't knew that he too have possessive one type version.He always behave so sweetly that I didn't even thought about it. So i decided to find out, let's start Reva!!!
" can I ask some questions?" I asked and he replied saying 'sure'.
"What are your red flags? "
I asked to know something that is questionable about him. I mean i am not complaining but didn't you guys think he is too good.
"My red flags!" he repeat my words.
"Yes and don't you dare to say 'it depends' " I said to him with a frown to which he chuckle while nodding.
"I am a possessive man, I don't like to share what's mine" he said and tight his grip around my waist.
"You know you are sounding like those jealous male leads which...
"You read in those books" he said and i giggle while nodding.
"In real it's different and you know what's worst about me? " he said making me raised my eyebrows.
"I have anger issues and in that anger I didn't even listen to anyone which cause problems. I know it's wrong but I can't help it" he said caressing my head.
"But don't worry, I am working on it so you don't have to be afraid. I swear I am trying my best"
he said giving me a full smile and I just nod. Anger issues hn!!! Well I think I can deal with them dear husband.
"But I have a request " he said.
"Yes" I replied.
"we are in a relation in which we may have fights and arguments right" he said and I nod. "So I just want you to do two things wife" he said in a calm voice. "First you'll never include any third person in our matter because I want us to sort out our problems on our own and second those fights and argument should just remain fights and argument never turned them into differences wife" He explained and yes I was totally ok with both terms. I know in every relationship we face some sour moments but as my husband asked we should never turned them into differences.
"I agree actually I think the same and I am also going to try my best to not have any fight with you" I said making him smile lightly while mumbling "mee too wife".
"Ok next question " I said he looked at me.
"Who was your first kiss? " I asked drawing patterns on his chest with my fingers. Even though my heart sank on this thought but still I asked because I just wanted to know did he ever liked someone else too.
"You are my first kiss " He replied with a chuckle. Really!!!but how can he be so good at kissing if I was his first kiss. I thought to myself but whatever I am happy that I was his first kiss like he was mine.
"It didn't seem like that" I said and he instantly hold my hand which was moving on his chest.
"Why so" he asked intertwining his fingers with mine. "I asked something wife? " He whispers in my ear making a shiver ran down my whole body.
"Because.... you..you seems experienced " I answered with blushing cheeks.
"It's not me,it's you" he said laughing faintly. To which I react with "huh???? "
"You are so irresistible " he said again making me blush more. Why do I even start anything with him because whenever I tried to mess up with him, I end up looking like a tomato.
"Something else ... "
"No I am sleepy" I said to which he chuckle.
I didn't exactly remember when I fell asleep but yes I definitely remember his gaze and continuous patting on my head.