"Come to daddy!" I say sweetly patting my legs
Lola just leans against the sofa gazing at me through her green glittering eyes
I'm sitting cross legged on the floor trying to coax to her walk
The girls in the swimming group say I shouldn't pick her up too much
She becomes too dependent and won't learn to walk
Lola starts towards me and I gasp but I coax her to remove her hands from the sofa
"Look what I've got," I say pulling out a single chocolate digestive from behind my back
Lola squeals and bounces up and down and stretches her hand for it
I place it on the palm of my hand and shrug my shoulders
Lola becomes distressed when I don't give it to her and soon she begins crying
The guilt eats me up and I pick her up and smother her in my arms and slather her with kisses
In the evening while I'm making dinner
Lola stumbles towards me on her feet holding an opened packet of digestives
"I'll only give you one cause it's nearly dinner time," I say absent minded
Lola toddles away on her feet happily sucking on the biscuit
Fuck, me
"Lola!" I breathe her name exasperated with joy as I whip out my phone to capture the moment
18:53
Lola's first walk