My Tears
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"Zaili!"
Napahawak ako sa dibdib dahil nakaramdam ako ng bigat. It became heavy and painful.
I swear! I just miss her a little... But why am I crying so hard like I was stab in my chest. Hindi naman ako ganito ka-emotional!
T_T
This is my first time crying in such a broad daylight. Sa harap pa mismo ng madaming tao! Napangitngit ako sa inis at mabilis na pinagsusuntok ang kabilang dibdib.
Fuck sobrang sakit! Sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko! Ang pakiramdam na ito ay parang hindi akin.
"Master! Are you okay?" Draco voiced out with panicked and surprised tone.
"Yes, I...I'm fine." I stuttered staring on the ground.
My tears are still flowing through my cheeks. Parang any time makakapuno ako ng balde dahil sa dami ng luha na lumalabas sa mga mata ko. Ilang beses akong suminghap. Ngunit maslalo lamang sumikip ang aking dibdib ko.
Hindi naman mahigpit ang pagkakasuot ko sa damit ah!? Bakit parang hindi ako makahinga?
I closed my eyes and tried to stop my tears. I exhale and inhaled but I can't returned my normal breathing. Pinagtitinginan na rin ako ng mga tao I could feel their concern and intriguing stares. They even started gossiping.
I quietly leaned to a wall and looked down. Yes, miss ko na si Zaili but I never shed a tears like this!
Heh! Is that fairy worth of my tears?
If Zaili saw me with this condition, she will surely laughed at me.
I groaned not willing to accept that.
No!
Neva!!
Andwae!!
Over my sexy body!
"You're not okay master, you're crying." Draco said, still in panicked.
"Your right! I'm not, why would I cry for her? What's the point? She isn't dead yet!! Bohoo!" I complained.
Padami ng padami ang tumitingin sa gawi ko pero hindi ko sila pinansin. Ako na sobrang gawa sa bato ang puso...umiiyak dahil lang miss ang kaniyang fairy!? Na may pangalan na Zaili!?
"Oh oh! Hindi ito tama..." I mumbled when I realized the main point. I took a step back then faced my other spirit.
"Master?" nagaalala pa rin na sabi ni Draco.
"Hoh! Ha Ha Ha! Putang-ina, sinong may sabi na umiiyak ako!?" I huffed and stand straight. I pinched my cheeks while crying.
"Hey! Hindi ako umiyak okay? W-Wala kang nakita...hindi ako umiyak-k." I said between my sobs.
Mabilis na umiling si Draco at parehong pinag-dikit ang nakayukom na kamay.
"Yes, Master! Wala akong nakita! Why would my master cry. She is strong and powerful, she don't know how to cry. It's not her tears." Draco answered smiling and even shaking his head.
Alam kong gusto niya lang pagaanin ang nararamdaman ko but for me, it was like he's teasing me. Aba! Marunong na rin palang mang-asar itong si Draco.
Hmp!
"Good. No one should know about this especially Zaili." Sabi ko sabay lakad papalayo.
"You don't need to be shy, master. I won't tell." Dagdag pa niya.
I looked at him in awe, but then continued.
At dahil wala akong panyo ang sariling damit na lamang ang ginawa kong pamunas.
Hays...bwesit na kahihiyan 'to!
HINDI KO TANGGAP!!
Hours later, I'm back on being normal.
Yes, I'm back!
I believe it was the side effect of the noodles. Bigla kasi akong naging abnormal. Hindi na ako babalik doon, may sumpa pala dahil kung hindi? Bakit nangyari saakin 'yun?
=_='
Tell me, why would I cry the moment I stepped out the store! They might been using some sort of magic..like trying to change someone's feeling or mood. Tss...
But anyways, after what happened I decided to go home. I used my void to teleport just to be surprised to see Camilla in my room.
What is she doing here?
Nakaupo ito sa sofa habang nagbabasa ng libro. Nakakagulat at hindi magarbo ngayon ang kaniyang damit bagkus isang simpleng bestida na dilaw ang kaniyang suot. Nakatali naman ang kaniyang buhok na dati ay mahaba ngunit ngayon ay hanggang balikat na lang. Kapansin-pansin rin ang kaunting pagbabago sa mukha niya.
Pero kahit ganon ay maganda at sopistikada parin ang babae. Hindi rin siya nagulat nang bigla akong sumulpot sa harap niya.
"Ehem." Pag-ubo ko ng pakunwari.
Sumulyap siya sa gawi ko at tinuro ang upuan sa harapan. I shrugged my shoulder and followed her. Pagkaupo ay tumabi rin saakin ang kababalik lang sa dating anyo na si Draco. Pagkababa niya sa librong binabasa ay nagsimula itong magsalita.
"Umiyak ka ba?" Tanong nito gamit ang malumanay na boses.
Napahawak ako sa pisnge sabay tawa.
"Hindi ah...Napuwing lang." I reasoned but she seems not to believed me.
"I'm not dumb, my niece." She said gracefully.
I didn't respond.
She changed.
The old Camilla is sweet and easy to pleased but the Camilla in front of me was now distant and straightforward. I could see that she's a little bit deppresed and it feels odd but still magnificient as ever.
What happened to her on those 5 years?
Magtatanong na sana ako nang mauna itong magsalita.
"Your father and I talked." Pagsisimula niya.
"I heard from him that you chose to study again." She flashed a sarcastic laugh.
Napakagat ako ng labi. Is that the reason why she's here? I was about to answer when she continued to speak.
"Your father is such a jerk. I can't believe all those years he haven't changed a tiny bit. A inch of change! That guy!! He was still a scumbag brother to me." My diin na pagkakasabi nito.
Is she here to complaint?
"Look at you. Pinag-aral ka parin niya kahit tinuruan na kita. Hindi pa ba ako sapat? Why do you need to socialize with those lowly nobles on that academy."
My face became sour. Lowly nobles? Hah. I never think of them like that. Camilla is such a judegemental.
"Auntie, may problema ka ba sa mga kaibigan ko?" Seryoso kong tanong. Napansin niya ang pag-asim ng mukha ko kaya mabilis itong umiling.
"I don't. In fact, masaya ako sa mga kaibigan na pinili mo. Ang ibig ko lang sabihin ay bakit doon pa mismo sa Elk Mahika. Hindi naman mas hamak na MAS magaling akong magturo kesa sa mga guro nila doon." She said with full of hatred.
Ah! Kala ko naman...
"I'm sure kung ano man ang mga tinuturo ko sa'yo ay iyon din ang tinuro nila. So what's the difference, hindi ba wala? So, why did you agree?" her face was like ready to punched someone and kill them.
Hinila ko ang katawan ni Draco at mabilis na hinaplos ang makapal nitong balat. Need ko pa bang ipaliwanag sakaniya ang side ko?
In the first place, it was my plan. But people who doesn't know about it will think it was my father's decision. Well, I want her to think that my father forced me to study. Ayoko naman talagang mag-aral ulit eh. I just think it's worth studying with Zaili and Moris. I want to explore more and also gain knowledge. In addition, I could use the school as an excuse to avoid suspicioun. They might ask me kung saan ko natutunan ang ibang bagay na out of place dito sa mundo. Using the school as an excuse will get me out of that matter.
And when she said, she was way greater that those teachers in Elk Mahika, was right. I could agree hundred percent! Kung hindi niya lang ako pamangkin I would think Camilla is my nemesis. Because Camilla can treat disobedient children like me. She don't tolerate bad habits and totally know how to control me.
I could say her tricks are quite high. Camilla is the best mentor and the same time nuisance.
"Ikaw ang pinaka the best teacher, auntie." I said nodding my head for her satisfaction.
Praises is my way of dealing with her. If I don't gave her any flattery words before the end of our conversation, she would totally lose out. Baka hindi lang pagbili ng mga kung ano-ano sa bayan ang i-utos niya.
"You got it right! Diba, its me. Hah! Those lowly teachers are just out of my league." She said arrogantly.
I nodded persistently. Oo nalang tayo, guys.
"Auntie, iyon lang ba ang pinag-usapan niyo ni dad?" I change the topic drastically.
Dahil hindi naman ito pupunta saakin nang iyon lang ang dahilan. Tumingin siya at unti-unting bumalik ang pagiging seryoso ng kaniyang mukha.
"Do you know what your mother's name is?" walang pag-aalinlangan nitong sabi.
So, straightforward.
My mother? What about her? Isn't she dead now?
"Of course, I know." I answered confidently but Camilla smirked.
"Oh~ what is it then?" Napatahimik ako.
I would gladly want to answer but how could I, if I only know her first name.
Soleenia,,isn't it?
"But my father forbid me not to speak it out loud." I replied and tucked some strands on my ear.
Thank god, I remember that rule. Camilla sighed and rolled her eyes in annoyance.
"Naniniwala pa rin ba siya na totoo ang sinasabi ng matandang mangkukulam. Tsk, she won't harm us." Madiin na sabi nito.
"Won't harm us? Auntie, are you perhaps reffering to my mother?"
Then she must have known what kind of person she is. Camilla nods.
"Who would it be. You we're born in misfortune. Did it ever crossed your mind why is your father willing to do anything just for you." She said.
It didn't crossed my mind but I know my father is sincere to me. He was caring, loving but sometimes cold, he was also very predictable and observant. Kaya ba niya ako pinagbibigyan sa lahat dahil may dahilan?
"My niece, you inhereted her genes. And Coleous was anxious because of that. He was afraid you would become like her. And the two guys, Harold and Caryon...they are different. They have our genes, only you..are different."
"What do you want to say?"
"I want you to know about your existence."
"My existence?"
"Yes."
"But why are you telling me this, instead of my father?" I asked a bit perplexed.
What about my existence? Am I some sort of adopted child?
The thought of being adopted make me want to cry again.
"I'm telling you this because I want you to be more aware in your sorrounding. It was true that the castle is more scary than anything else in this world because it has a lot of secrets. And those secrets is something to do with your mother." Mahabang paliwanag niya.
"Auntie, do you mean.. I'm not the queen's daughter!?"
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A/N: Oh oh! Sabi sa inyo eh, baka si Hayesha talaga 'yong tunay na anak. ^_^ See you on the next chapter!
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Author A