Later on, that night....
Aliyah's House
1:00 AM
My heart is heavy and I really do not know what to think. How to feel? I love Chris with all my heart. I trusted him and once again the universe is trying to tell me something. I am lost. All I can do is hope, pray for the best, and try to move on with my life. My career is everything I've worked so very hard for. Got my first Grammy we should be celebrating this should be the best moment of my life but that is so far from my true reality. Here I am alone once again on my bathroom floor at my lowest. My phone is blowing up with calls from my family, Chris. I am ashamed to show my face to my family after they were all right, they knew he would hurt me in the end.
I need to get this hold Chris has on my heart before it is broken beyond repair. This is the very thing that I told myself I wanted to avoid I have to be strong and put my big girl panties on I will never allow myself to ever let a man hurt me this badly ever again...