Every time we saw each other, I felt that I can rest as long as I’m with her. I hope she feel the same. But it doesn’t matter. As long as we’re okay now.
Lagi siyang pumupunta rito para ideliver ang pagkain sa’kin mula sa trabaho niya. Yes, I know it’s unhealthy but I want to see her. She also agree on that. Minsan sinasamahan niya ng gulay or may sabaw na siya ang nag luto.
Nahihiya na rin ako kaya gusto ko sana siyang patigilin. Ang kaso tuwing na stuck ako rito sa trabaho nag dadala siya. Ayaw papigil.
She already saw Fina on my company and she don’t mind. While that freaking girl kept on bugging me for weeks.
“Stan—”
“Get out.” I said in a cold tone.
“C’mon! Just agree on me! Para marami ka na ring matapos.” Pag mamaktol niya.
Tiningnan ko siya ng pagod na expression, “fine, just for today. Hand me file from Juls then after photo copy this.” I hand her the folder.
Lumawak ang ngiti niya. Kinuha niya ang binigay ko at agad na umalis. I’m so frustrated while scratching my head. Hindi ko na kaya, naiirita nako sa pangungulit niya. Buti sana kung kasing cute siya ni Shane tang’na.
My phone vibrate.
“Hello?” tanong niya sa kabilang linya.
“Great, tatawag palang sana ako.” Natatawang sagot ko.
“Ay, kamusta? Kumain ka na?” she sound worried.
“Nope, but I will, in just a minute.” I can’t help but to smile.
“Huwag kang mag papalipas. Dadalhan sana kita ng pagkain kaso marami kaming customer.”
“It’s fine! Besides, ayoko ikaw nag dadala. Gusto ko, ako pupunta sayo. Baka kung mapano ka pa sa daan.” Sabi ko.
“Kaya ko naman. Pero itatry ko pa rin.” Paalala niya.
“Ang kulit.” She laughed at me.
“Sige babye na. Ano…babye hehe.”
Umarko ang kilay ko. I can freaking imagine her face right now. I want to get off to work.
“Bye…” I love you. But I can’t say it!
What the hell is wrong with me? I want to say it but…why am I nervous? She love me too!
Right? She love me back?
Pinatay niya na ang tawag.
While busy with my laptop I got a text from oldie. He said that the board members will arrive at 4 pm. We need this meeting. I was really surprise when oldie said that he would attend it. I mean, he doesn’t like meetings but now he’s goanna come. I wonder if something is up.
Biglang bumukas ang pinto. It was Fina and she’s holding a tray with food. Nilapag niya ‘yon sa harap ko.
“Are you done?” I asked.
“Almost. Eat, the board members will be here in an hour. What’s with the meeting anyway?” she asked.
“None of your business.” I ignore her frown.
“What are you doing?” tanong ko nang makitang umupo siya sa sofa.
“What? C’mon, let me rest even just a minute. Just eat your food.” She rolled her eyes at me.
I eat peacefully on my seat. It really tastes different if the food was not cook by Shane, and the hell I don’t know why. I drink my juice and decided to get ready for the meeting. Sandaling lumabas si Fina para ibalik ang tray sa labas. Pag balik niya wala na ang coat niya. Can’t sue her though it’s hot even there’s an air-conditioned.
I was about to stand when my vision became blurry. Na pa upo ulit ako. What the hell is happening? Hinilot ko ang sentido ko.
“Fina, can you get me some water?” I ask her.
“Nah, don’t want to.” Pag sagot niya habang halata mong walang pakielam.
“Ano ba?! I said get me some—” hindi ko natuloy nang tumindi at kumirot na ang ulo ko.
With a blur vision I can see her walking towards me. Dumaan siya sa gilid ko tsaka umupo sa table. Nasa mismong tapat ko siya.
“What the hell is wrong with you?!” I still manage to shout at her.
“Hmmm?” malambing ang tono niya. Yumuko siya at inilapit ang mukha sa’kin.
I suddenly felt weak.
She touches my shoulders…I can feel her breath on my neck. I tried to open my eyes though and I manage to. I push her but it’s not enough.
I heard her chuckle, “c’mon just for once, just for today be mine.” She whispers in a seductive tone.
Fuck,I can feel my body temperature increasing because of my anger.
“What did you do fucker?!” galit na galit na tanong ko.
“Nothing…honey. Shane is not here hmm?” she pulled my nape and kiss me. She was doing it deeply not letting go of my neck. My hand didn’t reach her.
“I did everything for this position. I won’t let it go, not this time.” She kissed me again fuck.
Nandidilim na ang paningin ko kaya hindi ko maiwasang mapa pikit.
Oh, God, please get this shit out of me I promise I’ll take a good care of my love ones.
I heard something fell. Fina stop so I found a time to breath. Kumikirot ang ulo ko pero sinusubukan ko talagang dumilat. Kahit malabo ang paningin ay halos buhusan ako ng malamig na tubig dahil alam kong si Shane ang nasa pinto.
Tila lalo ako nahirapang huminga. Mabilis akong sumubok tumayo inalalayan ko ang sarili ko at bahagyang tinilak ang babaeng nasa harap ko. Humakbang ako palapit sa kaniya.
“S-shane…it’s not like tha—” I failed to continue because my head ache so hard.
I was about to hold her hand but she step backward.
“I-I know you’re mad…please she—” I exhale violently.
“Nah, we do that every time. Because you’re too plain, you can’t even satisfy his needs.” Fina spoke.
I will kill you bitch just fucking wait.
I tried to hold her hand but she ran away from me. And it breaks me because I can her sobs.
“Let’s continue?”
“Fuck you—”
“Later…” she wants to hold me again but I manage to step back out of my office.
Bumagsak ako sa lapag. Medyo kinakapos na rin ako ng hininga. Tangina nasan ‘yong phone ko? Gago wala bang tao dumadaan?! Fuck its lunch break.
She walks towards me but suddenly she stopped. She’s looking at my back.
“What the fuck are you doing to my son?!” it’s my mother’s voice.
I felt someone on my side. It’s oldie, he helps me to stand.
“Ayos ka lang?” tanong niya. Agad akong umiling.
I want to say something. I want to tell him that Shane misunderstood the situation but my throat is dry. What the hell did she put on the food? Is it a drug? Para na’kong malalagutan ng hininga.
I didn’t know what happened next. I just found myself on my office, lying on my sofa. Bigla akong na pa bangon dahilan para kumirot ang ulo ko. Ang tanga talaga.
I saw mom on my office chair and Mr. Tori beside me. I glance at the glass window. Hapon na.
“Where’s Shane?” I asked.
“Huh? Bakit nandito ba siya?” naguguluhang tanong ni oldie.
“Yeah, she—fuck!” tumayo agad ako at dumiretso sa table kinuha ko ang susi ng sasakyan.
“Where the hell are you going?!” galit na tanong ni Mommy.
“I’m going to her. I need to. Oh, by the way welcome back.” Mabilis kong sabi habang umaatras papuntang pinto.
“You haven’t drink any meds aside from water.” Oldie stated.
“How about the meeting?” she asked worriedly.
“I don’t care!” madaling madali ako patungong kotse at hindi alintana ang kumikirot kong ulo.
She’s hurt and it’s because of me again. I won’t let this day past without us talking. She knew that I love her…I hope so.
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