The Heartthrob That Can't Walk

Chapter 41

It’s hard to move on from what happened, including our past. Lalo na para kay Shane. She undergo therapy for her trauma. It’s not that easy for all of us. Lalo na sa’kin na kailangan pag sabayin ang trabaho at pag aalaga sa kaniya. But the strange thing is when I saw her my tiredness vanished. I really enjoy taking care of her.

My mother and oldie are also helping me. Sa gamot at pagkain sila naka toka ngayon. Mayaman kami pero nawawalan din ako ng pera. Ngayon pa na bumabawi palang ulit ang kumpanya sa mga nawalang sales. Besides, gusto ko ako ang gagastos para sa kaniya.

And about that fucking Fina. She’s in jail, my mom take care of everything. It’s just sad that she have to take my money to buy what she wants. Her parents broke up and after, her mother died. She’s not contented on her father’s money because it can’t cover her spoil brat side.

While I’m just here…trying to digest everything. Slowly I’m accepting what just happened. I need to move on with my life. I need to fix myself to take care of her. Or else I’ll end up hurting her again.

“Did you eat already?” I asked her, late na kasi akong naka uwi dahil may dinner meeting na naganap.

“Tapos na, kailangan ko kasing inumin yung gamot ko hindi na kita na hintay. Ayos ka lang? Pagod ka na masyado?” nag aalalang tanong niya nang sinalubong ako.

She hugged me and I did too. “Pawisan pa’ko.” Puna ko.

“Ano naman? Sanaol mabango pawis.” She tease.

Pumasok kami sa loob ng unit. Dito nalang kami tutal mas malapit ‘to sa school niya. Yes, she’s studying. I’m providing her needs. I want her to achieve what she really wants.

“How’s your session?” tanong ko habang nag tatanggal ng sapatos.

Agad siyang ngumiti, “sabi ni Dr. Lana ayos na raw ako. Kahit nga hindi na ako umattend kasi na tapos ko na rin naman, mapilit lang ako. Balak ko rin naman huminto kasi malapit na test namin, plus may groupings at project pa.” she explain.

“That’s good. Just tell me if you need anything.” She nodded.

Dumiretso kami sa kwarto, naligo agad ako. Unlike before hirap na hirap ako maligo sa kundisyon ko ngayon ay hindi na. I was glad that the therapy works. Akala ko hindi, kailangan ko muna kasing unahin ang operasyon ko sa ulo.

When Brian’s friend start to torture me. There’s time that he punch me so hard that my head bounce on the cement. May namuong dugo sa ulo ko. Nalaman ko lang ‘yon nang makaalis na kami sa pinas.

Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa sinasabi sa kaniya dahil alam kong maguguilty siya kahit hindi naman niya kasalanan. Ang akala ko wala na akong pagasa na makalakad. But God is full of plans. Siguro hindi man ako makalakad alam ko ngayon na may plano pa rin siya sa’kin.

My faith in him was not strong as Shane’s but she…made me believe that everything happens for a reason. My door is not locked anymore. I can’t say that I’m fully matured because everybody has a immature side.

Lumabas agad ako pag tapos mag bihis. Nadatnan ko siya sa kama habang nasa hita ang laptop. With her radiation glasses she look cute and hot at the same time. C’mon man calm your ass.

Tinabihan ko siya. “What are you doing? Gabi na.”

“May tinatapos lang. Mabilis lang ‘toh. Tulog ka na, malamang na pagod ka.”  She pat my head before going back to her laptop.

I can’t help but to purse my lips. She’s so busy, sometimes mas busy pa siya sa’kin. Given ‘yung session niya but I think she’s pushing herself too much.