Warnings: Mature Language, Mentions of Abortion, Blackmail, Porn, Hints of Dom/Sub Behaviour, Manipulation, Bullying, Eating Disorders Mentioned.
Hello everyone! It's be a hot minute but I'm back inspired and ready to bring you more Alex and Chuck- I'll have around seven books I'm working on along with school and other stuff so don't expect quick updates!
This isn't proof read!
❝𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐝 𝐛𝐨𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐚𝐝𝐞.❞
"𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐦𝐚𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 over my sexuality Chuck?" I questioned with a scoff as he hummed dragging me behind a corner and placing his hand on the wall so I was trapped. "I thought you'd get off on the blackmail with all the dirty stuff you've done." He sneered at me as my phone beeped- not now Carter. "Chuck I'm in no mood for games right now." I huffed as he smirked.
"Don't play that card with me now kitten, I know you are. What did you say earlier?" He taunted and I didn't answer, I simply frowned. "Come on, you have to tell me or I send the video." Basshole reminded me. "Fuck you." I hissed as he got his phone out of his pocket with a grin, "Fine! I said I have a secret weapon, and I do!" I snapped at him as he smarmily smirked, "Expect a message for your next task, kitten." He grinned walking off as I sighed.
I didn't realise all this now but Chuck was torturing me because he was hurt...
"Why are you hiding around a corner? Now you're being dramatic." B smiled at me. "You could say that..." I faked a smile walking along with her.
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"𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 exit the Earth forever." I complained to Carter resting my head on his lap as he ran a hand through my hair. "You're brave and beautiful, ignore whatever Chuck told you." Carter smiled softly. "Don't you think I deserve it? The treatment, the yogurt, the schemes, the glares and the stares, the abortion?" I questioned sadly as Carter shook his head, "All you deserve is happiness, everyone makes mistakes and you know I'm not gonna tell anyone about Spring Break either." He promised me rubbing my knuckle.
"Thanks Carter, you've been a great friend." I smiled to him as he cracked a small grin. "That's what I'm here for and to destroy Chuck Bass." He smirked. "The time will come my dear, but until then I need to find an excuse to escape Little Jenny Humphrey's evil scheme." I declared getting off of Carter and curling my hair looking into my mirror.
"Ah, is that the little freshman that took over Blair?" He questioned as my phone buzzed.
Afternoon Kitten, ur wanted. Come 2 the palace in twenty. Ur gonna try some cake.-C
I scoffed looking down at the phone before replying.
Not hungry-A
U will be kitty unless ur not eating?-C
No, I am. I'll be there.-A
"I guess I got my escape. Shoo." I smiled to Carter as he scoffed, "You and Bass need your heads sorting, I'll go find Tone."
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𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐓𝐡𝐞 Palace with a sigh lighting up a cigarette, I didn't want to just barge in there, that would be rude to Mr Bass and Lily. I felt rude, sure I didn't care about Chuck or Dan but Serena, Eric and Lily I did care for. "Hey Alex, what are you doing here?" Eric smiled softly at me. "Hey E, I was just admiring the building." I smiled as Eric chuckled clearly seeing through my lie. "Did, uh, Chuck invite you here?" He wondered as I sighed.
"Am I that easy to read Eric?" I sighed softly. "If it helps I only know because you've not been outside The Palace since Spring Break. I gathered it was from Chuck because he's been drinking a lot more." Eric admitted to me as I tried to ignore what Eric was telling me, Chuck didn't deserve my sympathy. "Come on, let's go inside." Eric offered a smile holding his hand out. "Okay, thanks E."
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"𝐎𝐡, 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲, 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐝 up." Chuck commented with a smile, "Oh Alex, hey." Serena smiled with Dan sat next to her. "Hey, I hope I'm not intruding." I spoke to Lily and Bart. "Not at all dear, please, sit." Lily offered. "There's a spot next to me." Chuck smirked as I sighed reluctantly sat next to him, Serena and Dan glanced at one another puzzled.
I felt so out of place, like I had to be there. "What've I missed?" I wondered softly clearly my throat. "I was just saying how I prefer the chestnut Pappardelle, you love that don't you?" Chuck declared as I gritted my teeth, he knew I wasn't eating, I'd not even uttered a word but he knew. "Mmm, I had a big breakfast though." I smiled. "The foie gras was a bit rich." Lily agreed as Chuck tried to make me eat the chestnut pappardelle, "Don't for her Chuck, if you're not hungry it's fine." Bart assured me.
"I'm glad someone understands me, I suppose, one couldn't hurt." I sighed trying to eat the small canopy. "Uh, you know I'm slanting heavily towards the venison fellow." Dan spoke trying to posh as I snickered with Chuck and Eric at the situation. "Fallow." Serena corrected. "Oh right, uh, fallow." Dan stumbled over his words as I smiled.
"Whose the gift from Serena?" Eric wondered to his sister. "Whose the lucky admirer?" I joked with a grin. "I don't know... but it says open immediately! Do I have to refrigerate it?" S asked Dan. "It's not from me, I wouldn't know." Dan replied and she looked at me before placing the package on the table. "Mm.. I didn't have anything to do with that." I refused finally swallowing the canopy.
"Oh, don't put your dirty package on the table." Lily grimaced. "If I had a dime for every time I've heard that.." Chuck quipped as Eric snickered. "Oh, if I had a dime for every time I heard stop Chuck! I don't want this you perv." I quipped back. "That's enough, Chuck, Alex." Bart warned as Serena opened the gift.
"Porn and handcuffs? Really?" Serena huffed. "Oh, wow.." Lily gasped. "This is low Chuck, even for you!" Serena snapped shooting up off her seat and storming off. "Wait what? I didn't send this." Chuck refused. "Come on this has you written all over it." I commented to Chuck meeting his eyes as they narrowed. "What? It really wasn't me!" He huffed. "I'll um.." Dan trailed off awkwardly.
"Can you?" Lily asked nodding towards the box. "Oh yeah, of course. My pleasure, I mean that's not what I meant. I'll uh throw this in the trash." Dan rambled as I piped up, "Not all of it I hope." I muttered so he heard with a smirk as he looked flustered and walked off.
"Dirty girl." Chuck smirked.
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"𝐆𝐢𝐫𝐥𝐬 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 fun!" I hummed as I looked through my snack drawer, thousands of snacks to choose from, yet I didn't know if I desired any. Chocolates, Macaroons, Chips. My hand wandered towards some pistachio macaroons, I picked one up trying to place it between my lips. I took a nibble of the sugary good, it was really delicious but I wasn't sure if I could stomach it.
I placed it carefully back inside the drawer, before getting up and glancing at a photograph I forgot mom framed in my bedroom. It was Nate, Blair and I in kindergarten, we were happy.
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Flashback
𝐀𝐥𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐫𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 the attention when she was younger, Blair was often in her shadow, even in Kindergarten, which is why she now gives Blair the limelight. When Alex was younger she was finger-painting when she noticed her sister talking to a cute boy, his hair was shaggy and he wore a dinosaur t-shirt and he had a pearly white smile. Alexandra always set her sights on boys ever since kindergarten, she'd have so many fake weddings she'd lost count.
Alexandra felt a bit jealous, so she did what she did best and intruded the conversation. She decided to sway the kid away from her sister, she wanted him to be her best friend, her new husband. And that's what they was even if Blair was filled with sadness and regret...
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The Next Morning
"𝐒𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 you humiliated at Butter?" I scoffed as Blair huffed. "Yes, don't remind me. I'm never listening to S again." She complained as I chuckled sitting in the town car with my sister. "Why do you think I chose Bass over Butter? Well, he's spreadable too but... we'll get revenge dear sister." I hummed lighting up a cigarette and rolling down my window. "You read my mind. Driver, take us to Brooklyn."
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"𝐇𝐞𝐲, 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧'𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 both at school?" Serena asked down the phone as Blair placed her on speaker. "We're officially taking the morning off." Blair declared as I smirked stubbing my cigarette out before we walked inside the Humphrey's flat building. "We're volunteering to help those less fortunate than ourselves." I chimed in. "Wow, you're in good moods. Butter with the girls must've gone well last night B?" Serena chirpily asked. "I didn't go." Blair lied.
"Why not?" She wondered. "Well Blair and I agreed she should work harder for our forgiveness the little bitch." I hissed slightly yet composed myself. "Hey, Dan's not hanging around in Brooklyn this morning is he, he's with you at school right?" Blair kindly asked as I grinned. "No, he's not yet but he will be soon, why?" Serena wondered. "Just, tell him I said hi." Blair spoke hanging up.
"Hi, Jenny's dad?" I called out to Rufus. "We met briefly at Thanksgiving." Blair grinned. "We wanted to discuss something with you, Mr Humphrey." I smirked. "Uh, yeah, hi... And please call me Rufus." He smiled.
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𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐞𝐝 to talk to Rufus as if we were Jenny's best friends, "I'm really glad, because when I spoke to her she mentioned the plans with the girls falling through." Rufus explained with slight worry on his face."Nope." B replied popping the p. "Tell you the truth, I didn't really believe her." Rufus admitted. "Why was that Mr Humphrey?" I wondered batting my eyelashes, gotta lay it on thick.
"I thought she was just conflicted about choosing friends over family." Mr Humphrey spoke as my hand brushed against his bicep. "Well, you know that's the biggest struggle with a girl of her age... sir." I flirted slightly whilst also showing sympathy. "Ahem, memory doesn't serve." Rufus smiled slightly. "Oh you're funny." I smiled as Blair discreetly rolled her eyes.
"Trying to reconcile with who you're becoming and you used to be. She's been running herself ragged, Mr Humphrey. Straddling two worlds?" Blair explained. "As much as straddling is fun, it's awful like this." I pouted tucking my hair behind my ear. "Well, I know she was running herself ragged trying to get into one of those worlds- picking up dry cleaning for masked balls..." Rufus trailed off glancing at the pair of us.
"It's no easier when you're in that world, Mr Humphrey. She needs some relief... I bet she's not the only one." I commented. "Yeah well, she does need it." He sighed. "Let us know how we can help." Blair grinned. "It'd be our pleasure."
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𝐈 𝐭𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐭𝐨 handle Jenny herself to gain her own victory, instead I travelled towards Anthony's penthouse to try talk some sense into the man. Carter was right; I needed to stand up for myself and try to mend fences at the same time. I attempted to take deep breaths as I waited for the elevator to reach the top of the building. I sighed slightly stepping out of the elevator and I knocked on the door, "Coming!" His British accent called out.
"Do you want something?" Anthony wondered with furrowed brows as I sighed slightly, "Hear me out? Then I'll leave." I offered politely as he scoffed, "Just because you batt your eyelashes doesn't mean I'll hear you out." He snapped at me. "Why are you angry with me? I didn't hurt you! I did nothing to you." I snapped back entering his penthouse without his permission.
"Oh so you're just bloody trespassing now!" Anthony complained as I rolled my eyes. "How can you be angry with me when you was trying to blackmail me for sex! So how am I the one in the wrong?" I snarled at him. "I thought you were trying to reason with me." He quipped going to his bar and pouring himself a scotch. "You and Chuck are just the same, petty little manipulative men who desire what they want and through hissy fits when they don't." I shouted at him.
"And you're just a brat that whines when nothing goes her way, you want to know the truth why I'm so pissed off?" Tony wondered downing his scotch and slamming the glass on the counter. "Yeah, come on then." I egged him on. "Because I think you're underestimating yourself, I think you messing with Nate and Chuck was you finally having everything you wanted. You made sure Blair couldn't get to Nate and had his best friend on the side. You hurt people Alex, and sure I'm a manipulative bastard. But what you did was much worse." Tony snarled at me as I blinked back at him.
"Wow, I'm glad to see what you think of me." I scoffed walking off.
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"𝐖𝐡𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞, kitten?" Chuck questioned nursing a glass of scotch in his hand. "You're right, I am alone." I pointed out, a few tears welling in my eyes. "So the penny final drops." He hummed. "Don't... Be an ass right now." I sighed at him sadly. "Come in." Bass spoke as I did so. "Do you want a drink?" He wondered. "Yes please for fuck sake." I meekly said as he quickly walked back over and sat next to me, placing our scotches on the table.
"Who'd you talk to? Someone made you feel this way." Chuck softly asked. "For once it wasn't you." I quipped wiping my eyes. "You realise that I only blackmailed you because I needed your help right?" He pointed out, I felt his gaze on me, I turned to meet Chuck's. "Your dads being an ass isn't he?" I stated as he took a sip of his scotch.
"He believes I'm going to ruin his wedding." Chuck sighed softly, "Wait, why are you in your old suite? Lily just told me you was here she never said why." I asked him as Chuck looked to the floor. "My father kicked me out, believed I was the one messing around with Serena." He huffed. "I know it wasn't you, you know. I just lied because I was angry at many people, you're not too bad when you open you stop the bad boy facade." I pointed out.
"Is that so kitten, here I thought you hated me." Chuck flirted slightly bringing his face closer to mine, "I do, just like you hate me. You infuriate me but you have this hold over me." I confessed, slightly drunkenly. "What hold? Tell me more." He ordered, his breath close to my face. Were we having a moment? Was we about to kiss?
Suddenly there was a knock on the door, "Chuck! What the hell is wrong with you?" Serena yelled and we both broke away from each other. "You're wanted." I sighed downing my scotch...
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A/N: Sorry I took a long break I really felt unmotivated with Gossip Girl however I'm getting back into it again so enjoy me coming back! I also am debating doing a poly Chair book but who knows with me :)). I hope you're enjoying what I've Brought back so far and I cannot wait to write more. Thanks for reading!